Not Your Average Jane

So a weird dream I had last night…
Natalie was having some sort of birthday/reception thing in a reception hall type place but the floor looked like a basketball court’s… Then at the end of the hall there were sets of stairs (about 3 or 4 stairs) to one level where there was all kinds of media equipment and then another set of stairs (again 3 or 4 stairs) that led to a level that was a hallway filled with tables that had all kinds of snacks/appetizers behind the media area. Then there were another set of stairs that led up to a hallway that went across the back of all that and led down to 2 or 3 sets of stairs back down to the reception area.
So in this dream, the party was kind of formal because the guys were wearing ties and the girls were in dresses… Though I don’t remember what I was wearing… But I remember I was looking for Natalie all over… And I just kept missing her… I’d stop for appetizers and make another loop of the room and then go through the media area, where apparently Evan was working (kind of odd but he was a media/communications major so maybe its not). I stopped and chatted with him. Then I’d make another loop… Always just missing Natalie…
Then across the room I see John… And everything stops for a second… Then I wave and wave but he doesn’t see me. So then I start trying to get to him… And much like with Natalie I end up pretty much chasing him around the room, always JUST missing him…
And then my phone rang and woke me up and that’s all there was to that one…

posted by Ali @ 11:33 AM 0 Comments

I'm ruined....

Thats it simply freaking ruined.

Dammit man.

I'm at a bar with a bunch of good looking dudes and I dont even want to flirt with them....

Sure I did flirt but that's only an automatic reaction....

I even turned a couple of guys down....

Its shocking I tell ya....

That NEVER happens.

EVER!

In other news my room's a freaking mess and I may have cleaned out my closet in world record time... The 2nd being the cause of the first......... All the stuff from my closet is spread on and around my bed.... So I slept on the couch last night...

Why did my closet have to be cleaned out and make my room look like it threw up on itself?

Apparently there's a problem with the plumbing in the bathroom below mine and the leak is coming from my bathroom somehow... And since the panel to the bathroom is in the back of the closet (the wall of the bathroom is the back wall of the closet) I had to clear out the closet so the repair dudes could look at it.... And I can't put it all back til they finish with it this afternoon....

And after that I can't take a shower in my own shower for 3 days.

Lucky me.

That means I'll be bathing at Mom's again. Whoo hoo.

Actually it is a bit whoo hoo... She's got amazing water pressure.... :0)

Anywho Regis and Kelly is on and I need to go get some other stuff done.

Laters.

posted by Ali @ 8:52 AM 0 Comments

So I'm tired of being a blond... Or at least having it so light yellow-ey blond... So I picked up some strawberry blond dye at Walgreens, hopefully it'll darken it a bit more and make it a shade redder.... Just in time for VD...

Er Valentine's Day that is....

And just think I only went into Walgreens for some canned pineapple and a birthday card for a friend... The things I do spontaneously sometimes....

So now all I have to do by Friday night is make brownies and put the whole birthday present together... Its awesome... Since he's sort of a Valentine's baby, I have a red gift bag, tissue paper that looks like flames and a bday card that plays "Ring Of Fire".... Plus I'm going to sprinkle some red glitter on the brownies I'm making him as a gift....

He's gonna go ape shit.

And then want to hump my leg.

Well maybe not that....

Too bad they didn't have any of that new Dr Pepper though... I really want to try that....

Ah well....

Life goes on and all that....

In other news, I had a hottie try to talk me into jumping out of a perfectly decent airplane... I told him I was adventurous but not THAT much... I don't have a death wish thank you very much.... I'll try anything else once... But if it can kill me, I'm alot less likely to wanna do it.

Which includes (but is not limited to) skydiving, bungee jumping, big wave surfing, bull riding, ropes courses, and anythinig else that may seem death defying.... You can't always defy death.

Have a seance and invite the ghosts of Lane Frost, Mark Foo, Todd Chesser, or Donnie Solomon.

Sure most extreme sports are any more dangerous than any other sport played and death isn't always gonna happen... But it does happen...

I remember right after Mark Foo died the boys were in shock, they didn't know him personally but he died at a spot they'd been to and I think they had one of those "Crap that could have been me" moments... And when Todd Chesser died... Man, even I cried... A guy they'd surfed with, and told me was one helluva dude, it just kinda of made us all realize how short life could really be.... Especially after Sean forwarded me this article from the Honolulu Star Bulletin... http://starbulletin.com/97/03/04/features/story3.html

Anyway how did I get from something happy like birthdays and presents to death?

No idea.

But this Friday I'm going out for crawfish again.... 3rd time this season.... And the season's only like 2 weeks old... Craziness.... This time at Big Woodrow's.... And its a bit of a birthday party too... Hence the reason my present has to be done by then....

Anyway I'm off to do my hair and start dinner.... Maybe I'll even get a wild hair and make those brownies tonight too...

Laters.

posted by Ali @ 4:49 PM 0 Comments

I’ve been damn near dancing on the ceiling giddy all weekend… That’s been a rarity in the last few months… Mostly in part because it seems as though my love life’s looking up… Maybe because I’m really hopefully about the job situation is also looking up. But also because I found out something really interesting Thursday night… Among other awesome stuff that happened Thursday that made me wanna giggle like a school girl…

So what did I find out? And why did it make me feel like pointing and laughing? Or just in general totally vindicated? Check this out…

So I was hanging out with a guy who works at the place I used to work on Thursday night and he told me that the department I used to work in has pretty much gone to the dogs… They’re still horribly understaffed, and falling way behind on their projects. So much so they aren’t getting a lot of stuff done…

At least when I was there, they were. It may not have been perfect but it was done at least.

Hence my feeling of vindication and wanting to point, laugh and say I told you so…

The lesson learned here?

Karma’s a bitch… :0)

posted by Ali @ 4:08 PM 0 Comments

I knew yesterday was gonna be a good day....

And I was right. :0)

I love when I'm right. :0)

Too bad it was soo good I was almost out of commision today....

I did eventually work myself up to going to the grocery store (apparently I was out of pretty much EVERY THING) and over to mom's for a bit though...

So why was yesterday so good? Let's see....

It was like 72 degrees most of the day....
I went on a picnic lunch with a friend and our dogs....
I had chocolate...
Flirted with a hottie...
Hung out with friends....
Laughed my ass off...

The only way it could have gotten any better would be if there has been a baseball game going on somewhere... Preferably an Astros game....

Then I didn't get home til almost 2 this morning.... Then I got a text and a phone call at like 6. Luckily I managed to go back to bed.... On the couch....

Speaking of which.... I think I'm headed that way again....

Laters.

posted by Ali @ 11:57 PM 0 Comments

Too Lazy To Date

A new phenomena is sweeping the nation. People that are too lazy to date. After a discussion with a friend last night I started to think about this... According to him he's too lazy to date... He has a job, place to live, and is a fun guy. And he's one heck of a good listener... Hell he's my own personal Dear Abby.... His advice is good and most of the time right on the mark. Except for the agreeing with my Saran Wrap idea, THAT was not one of his greater bits of advice.

But back to the laziness....

So this friend has a great (most of the time) night job, and most of the time he's off work he's either asleep or doing something equally non social. Usually sitting on the couch, drinking beer.
Sounds like someone else I know... But that one's got a day job that requires him being there at like 6 in the morning... And he's also been getting out more... (I'm so proud I could cry...) Though since he gets off work at like 3, I think he has enough time to take a nap and then go out but thats just me....

So why this laziness?

It is just an apathy to dating or is it an loathing for social situations after having to deal with idiots all the time?

I don't know.

Personally my problem with dating is that I hate it. I like to call it I hate datingitis.... :0)
The whole does he like me do I like him song and dance.... And its the whole weird akwardness of the first date... The nerves... The uncertainty... I can't stand it. Makes me wanna join a convent or something....

Though at the rate I date, I don't think I have to... I'm the next best thing to a nun.... I can't remember the last time I had a date... Or kissed someone..... Or... Yeah.... That...

Though some may say I just don't want to make time or put forth the effort to date, I think I devote a lot of time into it, though I don't actually date.... That seems to be a contradiction in terms almost... but I do spend a good deal of time thinking about it, and flirting... Its just for some reason when it comes to that next bit after flirting and hanging out and the trading of phone numbers I suck. And not in a good way...

Anyway I'm still trying to wrap my mind around the whole too lazy to date thing... Is it that they're too lazy to date... Or that they don't want to and are just looking for an excuse?

I'm not sure...

posted by Ali @ 12:19 PM 0 Comments

Goodness... I haven't had as much fun in a while as I had tonight. Everyone went home about an hour ago and I'm about to hit the hay... But me, being me I wanted to blog about it all first. Which is gonna be interesting since I'm a bit tipsy at the moment... (though everyone knows I shouldn't be allowed any sort of technology when I've been drinking... Cell phone I text or drunk dial, computer, I blog or email stupidly... Yeah its not pretty...) I was fine after the wine, the one beer, and the crown and coke... It was the jello shots that put me over the top.... I dont know who got the bright idea to make em but I don't like them whoever they are.... At least I probably will hate them once I wake up.... Ah well it was worth it....

So B and Sean came over about 6.... Of course we totally missed kick off which was around 5 but ah well we weren't really planning to watch the game anyway.... We ordered pizza and drank til it got here.... It STILL wasn't half time yet... Finally Tom Petty came on.... That was a big let down... He did 3 or 4 songs... NONE of them my favorites... They were all very feel goody, supposed to be patriotic-ey.... Ah well... I also just found out he's gonna be in Houston at the end of August....

So after the half time thing we flipped on the PS2 that Sean brought over and played Tony Hawk and one of those shoot up kind of games... Then we really started drinking... A couple of bottles of wine, a six pack half a bottle of crown, 2 liters of coke, and who knows how many Jello shots later we switched from video games to guitars... Actually just guitar... B didn't have his... But for some reason he did have bongos and a harmonica... We had a lovely little jam session on the living room floor.... And then we had pie from House of Pies... Apple.... YUM.... I still have about half of that left... I don't know how....

Then around midnight B and Sean went back to B's, since they both have to work in the morning and B's giving Sean a ride to work and back over here for his car after work... Sean was a smidgen intoxicated... I'm actually shocked he didn't crash on my couch the way he usually does when he's over and drinking....

Ok I have to go to bde... crap... Cinmaon...

Yeah its time to go.... esp since i can feel myself gearing up for one of those stupid its gonna get me in trouble later when I'm sober emails....

Laters.

posted by Ali @ 12:56 AM 0 Comments

I think I finally figured out what the draw of musicians is for women. Actually it could be said for most artsy/creative types in general really....

Women are creatures of emotion for the most part. (I do know a few exceptions to this rule.) Women tend to go with their intuition/emotions, whether its logical or not. Usually its totally illogical reaction. At least if you ask a man it is. To a woman all her own reactions and feelings are totally sensible and understandable. To a man its completely insane and incomprehensive.

But to a woman finding a man whose not afraid to share his emotions, is the pinnacle of perfection. Most men aren't willing to delve into their emotions too deeply, either because of societal views on a man's role or because they were brought up thinking that they aren't supposed reveal their emotions because its not macho or cool. So women feel like they're banging their heads on a brick wall when trying to figure out how a man is feeling.

But a guy whose a musician or any type of artsy or creative type is in touch with his emotions and has no qualms sharing them with anyone willing to listen. And women will listen in rapt attention to whatever they want to reveal. So women are naturally more attracted to the artsy types for this reason.

Also the bad boy quality musicians exude doesn't hurt either. And what woman doesn't melt at the thought of being serenaded with a song written for her, a poem in her honor, or a painting she inspired...

Just my dos centavos.

posted by Ali @ 12:54 PM 0 Comments

I hate when I think my friends are right.

I reallllllly hate it.

I've heard the same thing from 3 different people, in different areas of my life and they're all guys, so I tend to find that guys are pretty good at dissecting what other guys are doing and why.... And able to detect things that I just don't want to see...

I'm stubborn and spoiled. I know those things about myself and I deal with it. Probably not well since I'm still single and still into guys i shouldn't be into and can be a brat on occasion about stuff. Even if what they say is the truth, I'm just having a bit of trouble accepting it. I don't know if it even is true... But if it is, it may be something I have to wait and see for myself. Maybe then I'll accept it.

I don't know... Damn my stupid, stubborn heart...

So after my last blog and talking to a few friends about the stuff concerning me about the guy I dig, the concensus seems to be "If he were into you, don't you think he'd have asked you out by now?". I can see how people NOT in my shoes can think that... But then again, what if they're right????????? But on the other hand, what if I'm right?

ARGH!!!!!

DAMN BOYS.

In other news, so far the general plan for Super Bowl Sunday seems to be hanging out with my boys, drinking, playing video games, playing drinking games when Tom Petty comes on, and having our first official meeting of the Tom Petty Fan Club - The Ali's Apartment Division.... The boys are bringing food, alcohol, games and guitars... I'm providing the biggest TV amongst us, non alcoholic drinks (and wine), brownies and an annoying puppy that everyone loves.... :0) I'm not sure if we're even going to watch the game, but we are DEFINITELY watching half time... Its the whole reason the Fan Club is meeting.... :0) The boys are coming over sometime in the afternoon and we're going to set up and get ready... Maybe order a pizza or something, and maybe Sean and I will work on that song we started the other night some more... We'll see...

thats it for the moment... unless i complain about how tired i am... lol...

laters.

posted by Ali @ 9:22 PM 0 Comments

I thought I was sure… Then I talked to a good friend and suddenly I’m wavering in the steadiness of my surety. But it is possible this friend is wrong and I’m right and I live happily ever after? But then again what if he’s right and I’m wrong and I’m wasting my time and energy on someone whose not worth it.

Gad, I hate being confused about men… It’s a toss up which I hate worse. Being into guys that are unavailable or being confused about guys in general. Both suck like a Hoover…

For months now I’ve been into one guy… I’m not even gonna give him a fake name like I do for most guys in my blogs… But he was one of the ones I wrote an open letter to… Anyway so this one guy… We’ve talked enough that I know we have a lot of stuff in common… He’s one of the few guys I know that can match me story for story and doesn’t seem shocked by anything I do or say. BUT he also doesn’t go out much, then again I’ve cut down a lot too so we almost have that in common… And as much as we talk, we’ve never hung out outside of work, mainly because I’ve never gotten up the nerve to ask, since I’m just a big chicken and afraid of rejection to boot. On occasion I even feel bad about giving him such a hard time but those twinges of conscious go away pretty quickly… There are times I feel like one of those girls in elementary school who pokes and prods and annoys the boy she likes til he finally notices her. I’m perfectly nice, sweet maybe a bit sassy with everyone else I know but with him it’s a constant need to needle him to get some sort of reaction. Usually I can get one too… Its usually a very sarcastic one but its one nonetheless. But no matter how much I poke him he never pokes back… At least not often. Which is kind of odd since just about everyone (including myself) does.

Before tonight I had never really considered that he may just not be into me. Which is why I’m vacillating in my certainty about him and the whole situation… Before tonight I was sure we’re at least friends, maybe on the verge of something else, especially since football season’s almost over, which will free up his time more. But what if that’s not the case and he’s just not that into me? I was at least somewhat confident in where I stood before tonight… Now I’m wondering, if he’s not into me and I’m just wasting my time and energy with a crush that will never be anything else BUT a crush. And its been awhile since I had such a huge crush on anyone… Maybe since the ex even… (now pick your jaws up off the floor….)

ARGH!!!!! I don’t know what to do… And I hate not knowing what to do… Uncertainty in any form drives me insane… More so than usual…

I don’t know what to do. And it sucks. I don’t know what to do and I’m not sure I should do anything at all…. Which sucks too… I’m not good at being stagnant or maintaining the status quo… I want to shake things up… Grab the bull by the horns… Show up wearing nothing but Saran Wrap. SOMETHING… ANYTHING… Just to shake things up a bit… Though I did that a little earlier… Not showing up in Saran Wrap but in a shirt that was a bit revealing at least… But I can’t remember if he looked at all… I was too busy drinking him in… That’s insanely old fashioned sounding but its true… THAT’S how bad I have it.

And so I guess the saga continues… Dammit man.

posted by Ali @ 11:34 PM 0 Comments