Ok, so I almost got myself in so much crap yesterday...
I finally made it to the new Cactus Records.... After like 5 minutes of trying to find it... The parking there sucks... And then I proceeded to spend almost an hour looking around... Which is saying quite a bit since they weren't even fully stocked.... I somehow managed to contain myself and only got one used CD... Amos Lee's first one... I've been wanting it for a while... And no my hottie wasn't there... Darnit. Anyway they have a pretty decent set up now... Though all the music is mixed up, though alphabetical.... They used to have a rock, country, folk, soundtrack, etc sections... Now its like all the CDs are together and theres a section for World Music... Whats so special about that that they deserve their own section, meanwhile everyone else is all mixed up....
But yeah I had trouble getting the smile off my face the whole time I was there....
So anyway... Somehow we've decided to move Tavern Tuesdays to Pub Fiction.... Thank God. I've always hated the karaoke at the Tavern.... The bar's not that bad, though its been really dead there lately.... If it wasn't for HC I probably would not go there of my own volition.... So yeah now 7 pm next Tuesday thats where I'll be... I don't know if it'll be a regular thing or not but its nice to have a change...
And plans for my pizza/movie party are moving right along... So far there's about 8 people coming. And its gonna be an 80s movie marathon and we'll have board games too.... So it should be a good time.... Anybody whose going to miss it just sucks.... Though if it goes well I may have another in a few weeks.... We'll see....
So I had my first friend ask me today what we're doing for my bday.... Its not for 3 weeks and I have NOTHING planned... Dec. 6th this year is on a Wednesday... What can you really do on a Wednesday? So far the only thing I know going on is the usual open mic thing at Blanco's.... I haven't been there in freaking monthes... So we'll see....
Thursday plans.... Work out n the morning... Harrass a hottie (if that was an Olypmic sport I'd sooo win a gold).... Lunch and an interview at 130... Then Crouton's playing at the Firehouse tomorrow night so I'll probably go to that....
Thats all I got for now...
Laters.
Not Your Average Jane
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
I shouldnt be doing this now... I should be in bed asleep...
But I promised a friend I'd be up til at least 130 if she needed me (I left the bar at 1230 - told her I'd be up another hour if she needed to crash on my couch)... So I have to stay awake that long at least....
I'm waaaaaay tooo nice I know...
And I've got alcohol in my system and me and technology and drinking don't mix well... Usually something stupid happens.... At least I've already checked my email and closed it down for the night.... So I can't do anything that stupid there.... Thank God.
So I was gonna work out in the morning... But I don't think thats gonna happen.
Aside from the fact its past one in the morning and I'm a weeeeee bit tipsy, my knee's been acting up all week.... and now for some reason my ankles hurt...
So I got to the tavern about 630 (waaaay early for me) and I didnt leave til 1230.... 6 hours straight of bar stuff.... Drinking, talking, screamyoke (and I even got dragged up on stage for one and a mic stuck in my face for another) and of course whats a Tavern Tuesday without drama?
Darn vexacious.
I'd take a hiatus but I have to be there next week... i may not go the week after that... but that first week of december is my bday week so I'll probably have to go.... Maybe after that I'll take a hiatus.... We'll see....
so anyway theres an idea i've been marinating in for the last day or so and i went ahead with it after a lot of positive feedback.... I miss the pizza/movie nights we used to have in college.... Big co ed sleepovers in the lounge... Good times... So I thought I'd give it a shot at my place... Pizza/junk food/ pizza and byob.... So far theres about people 5 coming including me... My goal is 10. I'm halfway there.... :0) And I have a couple of maybe so we'll see... Its a week and a half away.... So we'll see...
aight... i think its close enough to 130 i can safely go to bed... and even if she does call i can get it half asleep....
laters.
But I promised a friend I'd be up til at least 130 if she needed me (I left the bar at 1230 - told her I'd be up another hour if she needed to crash on my couch)... So I have to stay awake that long at least....
I'm waaaaaay tooo nice I know...
And I've got alcohol in my system and me and technology and drinking don't mix well... Usually something stupid happens.... At least I've already checked my email and closed it down for the night.... So I can't do anything that stupid there.... Thank God.
So I was gonna work out in the morning... But I don't think thats gonna happen.
Aside from the fact its past one in the morning and I'm a weeeeee bit tipsy, my knee's been acting up all week.... and now for some reason my ankles hurt...
So I got to the tavern about 630 (waaaay early for me) and I didnt leave til 1230.... 6 hours straight of bar stuff.... Drinking, talking, screamyoke (and I even got dragged up on stage for one and a mic stuck in my face for another) and of course whats a Tavern Tuesday without drama?
Darn vexacious.
I'd take a hiatus but I have to be there next week... i may not go the week after that... but that first week of december is my bday week so I'll probably have to go.... Maybe after that I'll take a hiatus.... We'll see....
so anyway theres an idea i've been marinating in for the last day or so and i went ahead with it after a lot of positive feedback.... I miss the pizza/movie nights we used to have in college.... Big co ed sleepovers in the lounge... Good times... So I thought I'd give it a shot at my place... Pizza/junk food/ pizza and byob.... So far theres about people 5 coming including me... My goal is 10. I'm halfway there.... :0) And I have a couple of maybe so we'll see... Its a week and a half away.... So we'll see...
aight... i think its close enough to 130 i can safely go to bed... and even if she does call i can get it half asleep....
laters.
Monday, November 12, 2007
I just realized something today.
Most of the guys I've been into in the last few monthes have been unavailable in some form or fashion. Usually emotionally, once or twice physically....
In the last month or so its been emotionally unvailable guys... Or guys that were unavailable because they were single and not looking... Which is the same thing as emotional unavailable to me...
The only guy I've been into in the last 6 monthes was emotionally and physically unavailable for over a month and then I managed to screw that up.
But now I'm into a couple of guys that don't want to get involved with anyone. This year (totally unlike last year) I am having the worst luck in the love department.
I enjoyed the year of the firemen so much more than this.... I have never had so much fun as a single girl than I did then.
Am I just doomed to singlehood and digging guys I can't have?
Most of the guys I've been into in the last few monthes have been unavailable in some form or fashion. Usually emotionally, once or twice physically....
In the last month or so its been emotionally unvailable guys... Or guys that were unavailable because they were single and not looking... Which is the same thing as emotional unavailable to me...
The only guy I've been into in the last 6 monthes was emotionally and physically unavailable for over a month and then I managed to screw that up.
But now I'm into a couple of guys that don't want to get involved with anyone. This year (totally unlike last year) I am having the worst luck in the love department.
I enjoyed the year of the firemen so much more than this.... I have never had so much fun as a single girl than I did then.
Am I just doomed to singlehood and digging guys I can't have?
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Best Damn News EVER
This news tidbit is better than anything I could ever post in a million years. In fact its the best bit of news I've heard all month... Hell probably even all year....
Unless Orlando Bloom or Paul Walker declare their undying love for me that is.
What is this amazing news that has me so excited I'm almost like a kid at Christmas?!?!?!?
Simple.
My most favorite store in the entire universe is reopening after being closed for over a year.
You'll never guess what store that is, unless you know me pretty well... So here it be...
Cactus Records is reopening!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Under different management, a few blocks down from the original location but its opened again as of yesterday! How I didn't know til today is beyond me...
Now its owned by 4 people, one of which is the old manager, and they have most of the old staff back (I wonder if my hottie from Corpus came back?), and its located at Shepherd and Portsmouth.
For those that don't know, Cactus was one of the last independant record stores left in the city of Houston til the owners retired and closed up shop last year. Apparently the old manager bought the naming rights and made it a bit funkier at the new location.
And they're still going to stock all the same Texas music and have concerts in store and everything... I think I'm in heaven....
So I'm sooooo going there tomorrow... And once I get a new job I'll probably just have them deposit my paycheck directly into the Cactus coffers.... I probably won't but I should.... It'd make life easier....
But yeah now I'm uber jazzed....
This just made a kinda blah weekend look a million times better.
That and I'm watching a Ben Harper thingy on TV... Gawd I love that man.
I got what is most likely the most wondermous compliment today from a friend of mine...
It wasn't based on looks, how much fun I am, what a good sense of humor I have, how great my back rubs are, or what a good listener I am... (the usual compliments I tend to get)
He told me I was strong and that he was in awe of that.... And my insight was phenomenal. (we had been discussing how men and women are different when it comes to being bitter)
I had an aww moment there....
ok its time for dinner...
later.
This news tidbit is better than anything I could ever post in a million years. In fact its the best bit of news I've heard all month... Hell probably even all year....
Unless Orlando Bloom or Paul Walker declare their undying love for me that is.
What is this amazing news that has me so excited I'm almost like a kid at Christmas?!?!?!?
Simple.
My most favorite store in the entire universe is reopening after being closed for over a year.
You'll never guess what store that is, unless you know me pretty well... So here it be...
Cactus Records is reopening!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Under different management, a few blocks down from the original location but its opened again as of yesterday! How I didn't know til today is beyond me...
Now its owned by 4 people, one of which is the old manager, and they have most of the old staff back (I wonder if my hottie from Corpus came back?), and its located at Shepherd and Portsmouth.
For those that don't know, Cactus was one of the last independant record stores left in the city of Houston til the owners retired and closed up shop last year. Apparently the old manager bought the naming rights and made it a bit funkier at the new location.
And they're still going to stock all the same Texas music and have concerts in store and everything... I think I'm in heaven....
So I'm sooooo going there tomorrow... And once I get a new job I'll probably just have them deposit my paycheck directly into the Cactus coffers.... I probably won't but I should.... It'd make life easier....
But yeah now I'm uber jazzed....
This just made a kinda blah weekend look a million times better.
That and I'm watching a Ben Harper thingy on TV... Gawd I love that man.
I got what is most likely the most wondermous compliment today from a friend of mine...
It wasn't based on looks, how much fun I am, what a good sense of humor I have, how great my back rubs are, or what a good listener I am... (the usual compliments I tend to get)
He told me I was strong and that he was in awe of that.... And my insight was phenomenal. (we had been discussing how men and women are different when it comes to being bitter)
I had an aww moment there....
ok its time for dinner...
later.
My dating life dissected.
Based on a conversation I had Saturday night.
Evidently, if you’re a musician of any kind, a fireman (or EMT), military or ex military, from Dallas or California, went to Tech or A and M, your name is John, Matt or Paul, are a smart ass, and/or drive a truck (not of the 18 wheeler variety) I’ll date/dig you.
But God forbid you: disrespect me, are rude in any form or fashion, lie, mistreat animals, hate kids, are a racist, sexist, a chauvinist, hater, player or are short tempered. Then we probably won’t get along at all.
Sean and I were talking (since his girl left Saturday morning he was bored) and trying to figure out why I’m single… And we discussed the blog about my pickiness, etc. He also thinks that I don’t open up enough… He’s the 2nd person to think that of me in the last couple of days. He asked me when the last time I was truly intimate with someone. (Not sex but intimate) I reminded him I blog just about everything in my life… He said it was all well and good to write stuff on a semi anonymous basis but when was the last time I truly opened myself up to someone up close and personal?
Which got me to thinking…
Am I closed off? And unwilling to open up? Has my past made me an emotional cripple?
I don’t think so… I think its just made me a lot more cautious when it comes to the big L (love) and relationships. Perhaps a bit OVERLY cautious… But maybe I’ve taken better safe than sorry to a whole new level…
Before my ex I would go balls to the wall. I had no fear of rejection or getting hurt. Now I analyze and review things til I overthink them so much I’ve missed my chance…
Example of this… The guy I’ve been into and flirting with for over a month now my horoscopes (at least since the beginning of October) been saying I should ask him out… But I’ve always hmmed and hawed over it. It wasn’t til I got let go that I was able to really make any semblance of a move… But even that was only half ass. And overly thought out. I asked like 4 people their opinions before I finally just buckled down and did it… But I was so nonchalant and offhand about it that I wanted to kick my own ass. And then I hinted at it some more but never out right asked him… Now he’s giving off those ‘he’s just not into me’ vibes… And its damn vexing. Especially since I’m still into him. UGH!!!!!
Why am I so damn scared to just do it already? The worst thing that happens is he says no. Actually the worst thing that could happen is that he laughs and then says hell no… Gawd I hate this…
If I was more religious I would seriously consider a nunnery and if I didn’t love men so much I’d consider lesbianism… No joke. I’m just frustrated beyond belief right now….
But its been so long since I’ve opened up to someone other than my closest friends I don’t know if I know how to anymore… Same thing goes for how to move a friend to a relationship level… Its been so long since I’ve done either of those… Do I even remember how to?
I’ve been told dating is many things… Fun… Exciting… A pain in the ass… Nerve racking…
But its been so damn long since I’ve even been on one I don’t think I remember how it feels to doll up for a dude, be all nervous, and to get to know someone on a deeper level… Its far too easy to simply make out with a dude or even (though this is more what I hear than what I do) have sex casually than actually getting to know someone. Am I the only one who wants to get to know someone before sleeping with them? Am I the only one who needs to build a certain level of trust in order to ‘do the deed’?
And why is this mostly questions without answers?
Perhaps one of these days I’ll figure out some of the answers…
Lates.
Based on a conversation I had Saturday night.
Evidently, if you’re a musician of any kind, a fireman (or EMT), military or ex military, from Dallas or California, went to Tech or A and M, your name is John, Matt or Paul, are a smart ass, and/or drive a truck (not of the 18 wheeler variety) I’ll date/dig you.
But God forbid you: disrespect me, are rude in any form or fashion, lie, mistreat animals, hate kids, are a racist, sexist, a chauvinist, hater, player or are short tempered. Then we probably won’t get along at all.
Sean and I were talking (since his girl left Saturday morning he was bored) and trying to figure out why I’m single… And we discussed the blog about my pickiness, etc. He also thinks that I don’t open up enough… He’s the 2nd person to think that of me in the last couple of days. He asked me when the last time I was truly intimate with someone. (Not sex but intimate) I reminded him I blog just about everything in my life… He said it was all well and good to write stuff on a semi anonymous basis but when was the last time I truly opened myself up to someone up close and personal?
Which got me to thinking…
Am I closed off? And unwilling to open up? Has my past made me an emotional cripple?
I don’t think so… I think its just made me a lot more cautious when it comes to the big L (love) and relationships. Perhaps a bit OVERLY cautious… But maybe I’ve taken better safe than sorry to a whole new level…
Before my ex I would go balls to the wall. I had no fear of rejection or getting hurt. Now I analyze and review things til I overthink them so much I’ve missed my chance…
Example of this… The guy I’ve been into and flirting with for over a month now my horoscopes (at least since the beginning of October) been saying I should ask him out… But I’ve always hmmed and hawed over it. It wasn’t til I got let go that I was able to really make any semblance of a move… But even that was only half ass. And overly thought out. I asked like 4 people their opinions before I finally just buckled down and did it… But I was so nonchalant and offhand about it that I wanted to kick my own ass. And then I hinted at it some more but never out right asked him… Now he’s giving off those ‘he’s just not into me’ vibes… And its damn vexing. Especially since I’m still into him. UGH!!!!!
Why am I so damn scared to just do it already? The worst thing that happens is he says no. Actually the worst thing that could happen is that he laughs and then says hell no… Gawd I hate this…
If I was more religious I would seriously consider a nunnery and if I didn’t love men so much I’d consider lesbianism… No joke. I’m just frustrated beyond belief right now….
But its been so long since I’ve opened up to someone other than my closest friends I don’t know if I know how to anymore… Same thing goes for how to move a friend to a relationship level… Its been so long since I’ve done either of those… Do I even remember how to?
I’ve been told dating is many things… Fun… Exciting… A pain in the ass… Nerve racking…
But its been so damn long since I’ve even been on one I don’t think I remember how it feels to doll up for a dude, be all nervous, and to get to know someone on a deeper level… Its far too easy to simply make out with a dude or even (though this is more what I hear than what I do) have sex casually than actually getting to know someone. Am I the only one who wants to get to know someone before sleeping with them? Am I the only one who needs to build a certain level of trust in order to ‘do the deed’?
And why is this mostly questions without answers?
Perhaps one of these days I’ll figure out some of the answers…
Lates.
Saturday, November 10, 2007
I was probably too hard on men in my last post.... I meant to say most people in general suck.
And are illmannered asses.
I'm a step away from being a hermit.
I go out of my way to be nice... and all I'm met with is rudeness.
That ain't right.
I love men but they're frustrating me right now..... Enough that I have friends trying to talk me out of my latest and greatest crush..... But thats a whole nother story for another day....
So I plan a dinner party type thing last night... I invite pretty much everyone I know in the city of Houston. The firemen were all on duty, the musicians all had gigs, a couple of people had other plans and I understand that, and only one person was able to make it besides me....
EVERYONE ELSE I INVITED NEVER EVEN BOTHERED TO ANSWER ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No phone calls, no emails, no messages (text or myspace), or even freaking smoke signals to let me know either way.
Thats just unclassy. And uncool.
Those people need to go out and get some manners.
Is it really that hard to say no I can't make it? Hell I don't even need an excuse, just an answer.
I can take no for an answer.... I may not like it but I can deal with it.
The only good thing about last night was the sangria I've has soaking for like the last week... It was so damn good. It ALMOST made up for everyone's rudeness.
I had to work out twice yesterday because I was so pissed off.
Better its better to be pissed off than pissed on like the song says....
That and I've spent a lot of time with both my sisters (since La's in town for the weekend) in the last 24 hours... Heck we even had our big family Thanksgiving today.... Somehow I ended up making almost everything but the turkey and cranberries... I didn't mind but it was a bit a strange....
I'm only home now because i had to walk the dog and take her to the park.... As soon as the girls get back from running errands we're going to watch movies... We're so exciting.... :0)
I think I may have my rock star title taken from me soon.... For being a non rock star.... Or something like that....
Oddly enough though I had a dream about a dude I haven't talked to since we hooked up in July.... I think cuz I was talking to his ex roomie yesterday.... I don't remember the dream I just remember he was in it.....
thats it for the moment.
laters.
And are illmannered asses.
I'm a step away from being a hermit.
I go out of my way to be nice... and all I'm met with is rudeness.
That ain't right.
I love men but they're frustrating me right now..... Enough that I have friends trying to talk me out of my latest and greatest crush..... But thats a whole nother story for another day....
So I plan a dinner party type thing last night... I invite pretty much everyone I know in the city of Houston. The firemen were all on duty, the musicians all had gigs, a couple of people had other plans and I understand that, and only one person was able to make it besides me....
EVERYONE ELSE I INVITED NEVER EVEN BOTHERED TO ANSWER ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No phone calls, no emails, no messages (text or myspace), or even freaking smoke signals to let me know either way.
Thats just unclassy. And uncool.
Those people need to go out and get some manners.
Is it really that hard to say no I can't make it? Hell I don't even need an excuse, just an answer.
I can take no for an answer.... I may not like it but I can deal with it.
The only good thing about last night was the sangria I've has soaking for like the last week... It was so damn good. It ALMOST made up for everyone's rudeness.
I had to work out twice yesterday because I was so pissed off.
Better its better to be pissed off than pissed on like the song says....
That and I've spent a lot of time with both my sisters (since La's in town for the weekend) in the last 24 hours... Heck we even had our big family Thanksgiving today.... Somehow I ended up making almost everything but the turkey and cranberries... I didn't mind but it was a bit a strange....
I'm only home now because i had to walk the dog and take her to the park.... As soon as the girls get back from running errands we're going to watch movies... We're so exciting.... :0)
I think I may have my rock star title taken from me soon.... For being a non rock star.... Or something like that....
Oddly enough though I had a dream about a dude I haven't talked to since we hooked up in July.... I think cuz I was talking to his ex roomie yesterday.... I don't remember the dream I just remember he was in it.....
thats it for the moment.
laters.
I've had it with people in general.
Men in particular....
I'm about 2 steps away from looking getting into a nunnery.
Why am I so fed up?
Easy.
They're a bunch of ungrateful, unappreciative, asses....
Men in particular....
I'm about 2 steps away from looking getting into a nunnery.
Why am I so fed up?
Easy.
They're a bunch of ungrateful, unappreciative, asses....
Thursday, November 08, 2007
Irony?
So I'm having a bit of a dinner party that at the moment only has 2 people coming for sure. I invited like 12 people but most are already busy, or haven't given me a solid yes or no. Including the person who suggested a dinner party in the first place. The asshat.
I'm about two seconds away from posting a bulletin on Myspace just to see if anyone else wants in that I haven't thought to invite...
But yeah if it comes down to it, its just me and one of my girlfriends....
Not horrible but not exactly the best way to eat a lot of food... I need guys with big appetites but all of my usual suspects have dates (whats a date? Its been so long since Ive had one I'm not sure what they are anymore....). Darn them. Actually Nate doesn't have a date so much as he's going out of town to get some.... He's so gonna kick my ass now... Ah well.
Would it be odd to issue an open invite to anyone I know in the city to dinner at my place?
Probably but I really don't want a lot of leftovers like I usually have after chicken and dumplings...
I could always just leave a bowl or two out and the dog will demolish them.... I found that out the hard way.... :0)
That reminds me... I need to debone the chicken tonight too.... I already did a lot of the prep work (chopping veggies, etc.) so pretty much all I have to do is make the dumplings and toss in the chicken....
So yeah if you want to eat dinner at my place... Its on at 630 ish.... And we may watch a movie after... Or we may go to the Pub Crawl at the Red Lion.... We'll see.....
Laters.
So I'm having a bit of a dinner party that at the moment only has 2 people coming for sure. I invited like 12 people but most are already busy, or haven't given me a solid yes or no. Including the person who suggested a dinner party in the first place. The asshat.
I'm about two seconds away from posting a bulletin on Myspace just to see if anyone else wants in that I haven't thought to invite...
But yeah if it comes down to it, its just me and one of my girlfriends....
Not horrible but not exactly the best way to eat a lot of food... I need guys with big appetites but all of my usual suspects have dates (whats a date? Its been so long since Ive had one I'm not sure what they are anymore....). Darn them. Actually Nate doesn't have a date so much as he's going out of town to get some.... He's so gonna kick my ass now... Ah well.
Would it be odd to issue an open invite to anyone I know in the city to dinner at my place?
Probably but I really don't want a lot of leftovers like I usually have after chicken and dumplings...
I could always just leave a bowl or two out and the dog will demolish them.... I found that out the hard way.... :0)
That reminds me... I need to debone the chicken tonight too.... I already did a lot of the prep work (chopping veggies, etc.) so pretty much all I have to do is make the dumplings and toss in the chicken....
So yeah if you want to eat dinner at my place... Its on at 630 ish.... And we may watch a movie after... Or we may go to the Pub Crawl at the Red Lion.... We'll see.....
Laters.
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
I am a spoiled, bossy, knowit all, control freak, bratty chicadee.
So sayth Sean-ey - one of my mantionaries... (Mantionary = guy friends that tell you how guys think or why they act they way they do....)
I'm a spoiled brat because I expect things to turn out my way and on my time. A bit unrealistic to do but true of me. When I want something or some guy I want it on my time card no one elses... Which is why I have a problem with people say all in good time... Anything good is worth waiting for.... Pretty much if if I can't control a situation or predict how it might turn out I don't like it. Especially when it comes to my love life.
Speaking of which I'm sick and tired of chasing guys. Especially guys that I'm not even sure if they're even digging me to begin with. I want to be chased for once.... Screw modern metrosexuality male... I want a guy that'll take the lead (at least as much as I'll let him - theres that bossy/controlling thing again), one who'll make the first move and not hmm and haw over it. Someone who can take a decent lead when we dance and not tiptoe around me... Someone who gives me shit as much as I tend to give everyone... And for God sakes, can we can the term hanging out when in reference to dates? Just call em what they are.... Don't puss out and take the easy road. Where's the challenge in it if its easy?
I'm just frustrated with men in general right now is all. I don't want to have to make the first move yet again.... While in most respects I'm an independant modern woman of the 21st century, in a lot of others I dig the old school attitude... The guy makes the first move, opens doors, brings flowers... The whole nine...
I guess I'm screwed at the moment because I don't see any guys like that on my horizon.
Which sucks big brown greasy monkey balls since I'm tired of being single.
Laters.
So sayth Sean-ey - one of my mantionaries... (Mantionary = guy friends that tell you how guys think or why they act they way they do....)
I'm a spoiled brat because I expect things to turn out my way and on my time. A bit unrealistic to do but true of me. When I want something or some guy I want it on my time card no one elses... Which is why I have a problem with people say all in good time... Anything good is worth waiting for.... Pretty much if if I can't control a situation or predict how it might turn out I don't like it. Especially when it comes to my love life.
Speaking of which I'm sick and tired of chasing guys. Especially guys that I'm not even sure if they're even digging me to begin with. I want to be chased for once.... Screw modern metrosexuality male... I want a guy that'll take the lead (at least as much as I'll let him - theres that bossy/controlling thing again), one who'll make the first move and not hmm and haw over it. Someone who can take a decent lead when we dance and not tiptoe around me... Someone who gives me shit as much as I tend to give everyone... And for God sakes, can we can the term hanging out when in reference to dates? Just call em what they are.... Don't puss out and take the easy road. Where's the challenge in it if its easy?
I'm just frustrated with men in general right now is all. I don't want to have to make the first move yet again.... While in most respects I'm an independant modern woman of the 21st century, in a lot of others I dig the old school attitude... The guy makes the first move, opens doors, brings flowers... The whole nine...
I guess I'm screwed at the moment because I don't see any guys like that on my horizon.
Which sucks big brown greasy monkey balls since I'm tired of being single.
Laters.
Pain, suffering, agony....
There's a few good reasons I don't drink vodka....
Even the smell can make me queasy...
But hand me 3 Jello shots with vodka in em... Yeah theres a good reason I feel like ass warmed over this morning.... I don't get hungover EVER. Unless I have vodka. Sometimes tequila. But at the moment I'm running 4 Advil and half a gallon of water and yet to get out of my PJs... Though some sadistic ass told me I should work out and sweat it all out of my system... I may actually try that if I can't kick this soon... I woke up craving the worlds greasiest breakfast tacos and I have a feeling if I'd eaten before I went to bed I wouldn't be feeling anything....
Let me start at the beginning.
7 pm last night me at the Tavern. Just J and I for a while talking about some stuff... He's now one of the lucky few that knows the whole story of the ex... Which brings the grand total to like 6 now I think.... Anyway so we're talking about his ex and my current.... interest. Since I don't know what else to call him... We haven't hooked up, though not for my lack of trying so he's either a love interest or a crush and love interest just sounds better...
Anyway so other folks start showing up slowly and by 9 most everyone's there... Including a dude that looks a lot like Jesus Christ... Though as I was telling another chick there that he looked like him but I have a friend we call Jesus because he's a deadringer for the late great J.C. No lie... He's got the long hair, the beard and he's tall and skinny... And sandals are his footwear of choice regardless of the weather....
Back to the Tavern....
So at one point we made an Aggie do math.... He had to use his fingers and almost had to take off his boots to solve a problem.... It was quite humorous... We all kept talking about how f'ed up the whole time change was since at like 9 pm it felt like it should be like 11... There was mention of the vaginafish (long story there - involving a fish at the aquarium at the zoo) and how we hadn't seen it around lately... And there was a random dude having his pic taken with as many random girls as possible so I let him molest me... Cause whats a Tavern Tuesday without someone molesting me?
Let's see what else.... Oh yes... The jello shots... One dude I know bought the entire tray from the Jello shot girl and passed em out to people he knew... I had a funky blue one... Numero uno mistake.... I did it before I realized what kind of alcohol was in it... Then people start splitting off into their lil cliques and I head out with the smokers (cuz even though I don't smoke anymore I was getting a lil claustraphobic). So we're visiting and a few more people find out about my firing last week and current love interest... (I was given a hug and 'welcomed to the brotherhood'.... Okaaaaay....) And of course there are more Jello shots.... This time berry/grape ones that were even worse than the blue ones... I barely had time to enjoy the slight buzz I had before it hit the fan and me being me... Sobered up pretty quick when a drunk friend fell apart... Thats what happens when a girl starts crying and all the guys look at you because you're the only other chick in the vicinity. And yes I'm bossy and good in a crisis so she got calmed down but since she was gone her sister and another friend took over....
Somehow even though I went wanting to get backrubs last night... I ended up giving them out. Whats up with that? I know I'm good at it and all but come on yall I needed one a lot worse....
So I eventually get home sometime after 1 and walk the dog and pass out.... Now here I am almost lunch time trying to get motivated to do something... Anything...
We'll see how that works out...
Laters.
There's a few good reasons I don't drink vodka....
Even the smell can make me queasy...
But hand me 3 Jello shots with vodka in em... Yeah theres a good reason I feel like ass warmed over this morning.... I don't get hungover EVER. Unless I have vodka. Sometimes tequila. But at the moment I'm running 4 Advil and half a gallon of water and yet to get out of my PJs... Though some sadistic ass told me I should work out and sweat it all out of my system... I may actually try that if I can't kick this soon... I woke up craving the worlds greasiest breakfast tacos and I have a feeling if I'd eaten before I went to bed I wouldn't be feeling anything....
Let me start at the beginning.
7 pm last night me at the Tavern. Just J and I for a while talking about some stuff... He's now one of the lucky few that knows the whole story of the ex... Which brings the grand total to like 6 now I think.... Anyway so we're talking about his ex and my current.... interest. Since I don't know what else to call him... We haven't hooked up, though not for my lack of trying so he's either a love interest or a crush and love interest just sounds better...
Anyway so other folks start showing up slowly and by 9 most everyone's there... Including a dude that looks a lot like Jesus Christ... Though as I was telling another chick there that he looked like him but I have a friend we call Jesus because he's a deadringer for the late great J.C. No lie... He's got the long hair, the beard and he's tall and skinny... And sandals are his footwear of choice regardless of the weather....
Back to the Tavern....
So at one point we made an Aggie do math.... He had to use his fingers and almost had to take off his boots to solve a problem.... It was quite humorous... We all kept talking about how f'ed up the whole time change was since at like 9 pm it felt like it should be like 11... There was mention of the vaginafish (long story there - involving a fish at the aquarium at the zoo) and how we hadn't seen it around lately... And there was a random dude having his pic taken with as many random girls as possible so I let him molest me... Cause whats a Tavern Tuesday without someone molesting me?
Let's see what else.... Oh yes... The jello shots... One dude I know bought the entire tray from the Jello shot girl and passed em out to people he knew... I had a funky blue one... Numero uno mistake.... I did it before I realized what kind of alcohol was in it... Then people start splitting off into their lil cliques and I head out with the smokers (cuz even though I don't smoke anymore I was getting a lil claustraphobic). So we're visiting and a few more people find out about my firing last week and current love interest... (I was given a hug and 'welcomed to the brotherhood'.... Okaaaaay....) And of course there are more Jello shots.... This time berry/grape ones that were even worse than the blue ones... I barely had time to enjoy the slight buzz I had before it hit the fan and me being me... Sobered up pretty quick when a drunk friend fell apart... Thats what happens when a girl starts crying and all the guys look at you because you're the only other chick in the vicinity. And yes I'm bossy and good in a crisis so she got calmed down but since she was gone her sister and another friend took over....
Somehow even though I went wanting to get backrubs last night... I ended up giving them out. Whats up with that? I know I'm good at it and all but come on yall I needed one a lot worse....
So I eventually get home sometime after 1 and walk the dog and pass out.... Now here I am almost lunch time trying to get motivated to do something... Anything...
We'll see how that works out...
Laters.
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
So after a bit of miscommunication this morning… (after which I’m more than a bit annoyed and tense) I’m home and back in my PJ’s for the forseeable future… And wondering what the heck is for lunch… Right now its looking like grilled cheese or something…
And I don’t feel like finishing up housecleaning… And jobhunting is frustrating me even more…. And almost none of my ways to chill out are available… Ali’s an idiot and forgot to stretch yesterday before she worked out and is now sore as heck and can’t work out today to chill… I also can’t get a massage, at least not til tonight…. And sex… Yeah I’m not even going there… I could go shopping but I really don’t need to be spending money if I can help it.
I’ve been thinking about something a friend of mine said last night… And I realize to a point he’s right. On one hand this whole deal requires a bit more thought as far as the long term… But to quit overanalyzing for the short term. Just let things work themselves out… Patience isn’t one of my strong suits, unless I’m dealing with kiddos… But I’ve waited over a month now and NOTHING. So I don’t know if I should just declare the whole thing a loss and move on or keep plugging away with the same M.O.
Random factoid – there is NOTHING on TV in the middle of the day… Its all news, crappy re runs, bad movies and infomercials. Its like 4 a.m. but daylight.
Ah well at least there’s the Tavern tonight… And maybe Chachos later… I’m starting to crave a breakfast taco… :0)
That’s about it for the moment…
Laters.
And I don’t feel like finishing up housecleaning… And jobhunting is frustrating me even more…. And almost none of my ways to chill out are available… Ali’s an idiot and forgot to stretch yesterday before she worked out and is now sore as heck and can’t work out today to chill… I also can’t get a massage, at least not til tonight…. And sex… Yeah I’m not even going there… I could go shopping but I really don’t need to be spending money if I can help it.
I’ve been thinking about something a friend of mine said last night… And I realize to a point he’s right. On one hand this whole deal requires a bit more thought as far as the long term… But to quit overanalyzing for the short term. Just let things work themselves out… Patience isn’t one of my strong suits, unless I’m dealing with kiddos… But I’ve waited over a month now and NOTHING. So I don’t know if I should just declare the whole thing a loss and move on or keep plugging away with the same M.O.
Random factoid – there is NOTHING on TV in the middle of the day… Its all news, crappy re runs, bad movies and infomercials. Its like 4 a.m. but daylight.
Ah well at least there’s the Tavern tonight… And maybe Chachos later… I’m starting to crave a breakfast taco… :0)
That’s about it for the moment…
Laters.
Monday, November 05, 2007
Because I missed them last time they were in town..... And
Because its almost time for another Tavern Tuesday.... And I miss my Allie...
Because I heart them....
Something funny....
Just because she's so damn cute.....
And people say we look and act alike... I think I'm on the verge of becoming one of those people... You know the ones that look like their animals? I think one of us needs a makeover... Or something.... At least she's ubercute. :0)
Speaking of Maggie.... We did a 3 mile walk today and then went to the dog park... (and my bad knee's letting me know its not happy now) Where she barely played at all... When we got home all she did was pass out by the front door... And the only thing she's gotten up for thusfar is dinner. Which was the whole point of such a long walk. Especially since I feel bad about working late all week, and not being able to walk her as much as I usually do or take her to the park... Since by the time I get home every day this week it'll already be dark.... Poor thing....
The reason I'm not going to be able to take her to the park or our long walks for the week? I've got a temp job. A file clerk type thing in the Galleria.... And the money from this will pay my rent for next month almost... So yeah its a very good thing... So between the cushion of my last paycheck, the bits of stuff I'm doing for dough, and this I should be set til my birthday. (December 6th for those that don't know and/or want to get me presents... ;0) )
But more than one person has said I really should take time off, even a couple of days to just chill out and do my own thing. So far I've had a total of one day I haven't worked since i was 'released' Friday... I don't really mind working, its better than not working and not having money. But I'm bound and determined to take a couple of days off, maybe next week and do stuff I've wanted to do a while... Like go to the museums, the zoo, Galveston even... I haven't been to any of those in a very long time... I think the last time I was at the zoo was a blind date Nate set up for me about a year and half ago... Yeah its been a while... And the museums... I went to the Fine Arts one a few weeks ago but that was just for this one exhibit that was there... I really want to go to the Natural Science/history museum... Which I may be doing in a week or 2 with a friend since she has tickets... And I honestly don't recall the last time I was in Galveston... Linz was there a few weeks ago and brought me back some gummy coke bottles from La Kings.... Shes such a good baby sister... She was working in Galveston for a week and at the end she brought home all this candy... Most of it not very good since it was sugar free...
If Laurie's not in town next week Sean'll probably play hooky with me one day and go... He only lives like 20 minutes from the exit to the Strand (Broadway?)... Lord knows I need some directions on how to get in and out of town... Once I'm there I'm good... The streets are set up in a grid system... One way is letters and the other way is numbers... If I remember correctly my awesomely great seafood joint is on either 8th and O or P.... Its behind the Galvez... And walking down the Seawall and then going to dinner at Guido's is just plain awesome....
So today... What did I do today?
For once everything on my checklist for the day.
I dropped off my netflix movies, deposited my check, got the stuff I wanted at Best Buy, ate at Chik-Fil-A, and spent a couple of hours at church... Talking to a cute old dog... :0) (I still say thats a compliment... I would call him a silly old wasp or something if I didn't like him... Dogs are cute, sweet, funny, and loyal... All good things to me... But what do I know I'm only a blond...)
Anywho if you need me for the rest of the week... Try my cell... If you don't have the number... Wow. Thats a small miracle... I was convinced everyone did... Especially since its on that bathroom wall of that truck stop outside Santa Cruz.... According to Sean it is anyway.... :0)
So yeah its time for dinner...
Laters.
I feel like I'm playing hooky.... But I know I'm not... I've already spent an hour jobhunting... So I'm not totally feeling like a slacker... And I'm going to do a couple more hours of it today... I'm also going to do some other stuff.... I have to go to Target and get a new charger for my Ipod and some headphones.... Evidently I've misplaced both those.... And at least its only like 10 bucks... And I'm catsitting out in Spring Branch.... At some point I also need to get my antenna on the 4Runner fixed and deposit my last check... Plus finish the cleaning I didn't finish yesterday.... And at some point I want to work out.... I'll probably end up at Memorial Park later today... Hopefully...
But late last night I was asked whats up with my music stuff... Like who the heck were these guys I talk about so much...
I couldn't really think of a decent response... I could explain why I dig each artist (that wouldn't take all night or anything) and I couldn't really tell him why I was so enthralled with my kind of music.
Here's the Cliffnotes version of it....
I first heard Pat Green because of a friend (I still remember John Wayne and Jesus was the first song I ever heard of his - how can you not love a dude that talks about his relgious experience quite so uniquely?) which led me to listening to Roger Creager and Cross Canadian Ragweed... That led me into the whole Red Dirt portion of the genre... And its just kinda snowballed from there. And thats been almost 10 years ago and I've never looked back...
I got into it because its different (much like me) and it deals with stuff more on my level... Drinking beer on the river, eating tacos after a 3 day bender, feeling like you never grow up, wishing you could stop time, having a good time with your friends, whats not to love?
I've made a bunch of friends, had many a good time (sometimes too good a time), and in general had the time of my life because of it.
Ok back to doing other stuff now.
Laters.
But late last night I was asked whats up with my music stuff... Like who the heck were these guys I talk about so much...
I couldn't really think of a decent response... I could explain why I dig each artist (that wouldn't take all night or anything) and I couldn't really tell him why I was so enthralled with my kind of music.
Here's the Cliffnotes version of it....
I first heard Pat Green because of a friend (I still remember John Wayne and Jesus was the first song I ever heard of his - how can you not love a dude that talks about his relgious experience quite so uniquely?) which led me to listening to Roger Creager and Cross Canadian Ragweed... That led me into the whole Red Dirt portion of the genre... And its just kinda snowballed from there. And thats been almost 10 years ago and I've never looked back...
I got into it because its different (much like me) and it deals with stuff more on my level... Drinking beer on the river, eating tacos after a 3 day bender, feeling like you never grow up, wishing you could stop time, having a good time with your friends, whats not to love?
I've made a bunch of friends, had many a good time (sometimes too good a time), and in general had the time of my life because of it.
Ok back to doing other stuff now.
Laters.
Sunday, November 04, 2007
I haven't posted lyrics in a while....
And this song's striking a chord right now.... And I adore Josh Owen. :0)
Josh Owen
Album: Runnin' from the Daylight
Song: Tell Me
I'm a pretty straight-forward guy
I can tell you my point of view
Truth is I have something on my mind
I wanna let it all out to you
But I don't know where your heart is
And I can't see inside your mind
No, I don't know what you're thinking
So if you would be so kindJust tell me what you feel inside
Tell me, yea you got nothing to hide
Well I can't see how you want us to be
If you won't give me a clue
Tell me 'cause it's now or never
Tell me how I can make us better
Tell me 'cause I can't wait forever on you
Now I'm up by a long shotI finally said what I meant
My heart's open now but I can't tell
What you're gonna do with it
'Cause we can't go on just goin' in circles
It feels we're takin' so long
It's time that we find out just what we're missin'
So if there's something I'm doin' wrong
[chorus]
Never say never, can't never could
My friends all say I shouldn't risk rejection
But I think I should....
And this song's striking a chord right now.... And I adore Josh Owen. :0)
Josh Owen
Album: Runnin' from the Daylight
Song: Tell Me
I'm a pretty straight-forward guy
I can tell you my point of view
Truth is I have something on my mind
I wanna let it all out to you
But I don't know where your heart is
And I can't see inside your mind
No, I don't know what you're thinking
So if you would be so kindJust tell me what you feel inside
Tell me, yea you got nothing to hide
Well I can't see how you want us to be
If you won't give me a clue
Tell me 'cause it's now or never
Tell me how I can make us better
Tell me 'cause I can't wait forever on you
Now I'm up by a long shotI finally said what I meant
My heart's open now but I can't tell
What you're gonna do with it
'Cause we can't go on just goin' in circles
It feels we're takin' so long
It's time that we find out just what we're missin'
So if there's something I'm doin' wrong
[chorus]
Never say never, can't never could
My friends all say I shouldn't risk rejection
But I think I should....
So I've been unaccountably busy today... I went nuts cleaning house. And with the exception of vaccuming, laundry, the bathroom I'm done... Plus I'm bound and determined to clean out the closets at some point. This place will be freaking sparkling like it hasn't been in quite a while... Sure by most peoples standards it wasn't that bad but to me it was filthy. If you knew my mom and how much of a clean freak she is you might begin to understand my semi neat freakish ness.
Anyway so in the midst of the cleaning frenzy I've managed to talk to a couple of friends and catch up and stuff... And I had a few suggestions on jobs...
1. Fireman (I'm not crazy enough to run into a burning building, sorry...)
2. Groupie (Again I'm not crazy enough...)
3. Intern (but it doesn't pay...)
4. Lesbian porn star/stripper (silly boys and their fantasies)
5. Tour manager (cuz I'm good at organizing people and I'm told I'm bossy... But I'm not...)
Those are the sillier ones.... There was actually one that had some street cred....
Create my own company for Jills (and Jacks ) all trades....
I would have to look into that one before really doing anything.... If I did anything about it.
Also in the course of the day, I was talking to one of my bestest earlier and he cracked me up when after I told him about feeling free he told me it sounded like I'd been creatively constipated. I almost ended up on the floor when he dropped that bit of wisdom....
And over this weekend I realized AGAIN how wonderful my friends are... And how blessed I am to have them in my life. At a time when I could have wallowed in self pity I got pulled up by the boot straps so to speak and got on with what needed doing. And while I probably would have come to the realization that the world wasn't over on my own, it was nice to be told how wonderful I am and how much they sucked for letting me go... I even found myself defending them a couple of times. And even after being made to feel better about the whole ordeal I was still getting calls and texts all weekend checking on me to see how I was doing... That was just some of the sweetest stuff in the world. So to any of my friends that read this..... Thank you very much, you rock.
And how odd is it I'm already trying to figure out what I'm doing next weekend... I haven't checked anyone else's schedule or looked at the Firehouse or Armadillo Palace calendars yet but I'm sure I'll find something closer to the weekend I know... Someone mentioned tailgating for some football game or other... But thats about the only thought so far....
Anyway the Mags needs to be walked un mas time before bed....
Hasta la pasta...
Anyway so in the midst of the cleaning frenzy I've managed to talk to a couple of friends and catch up and stuff... And I had a few suggestions on jobs...
1. Fireman (I'm not crazy enough to run into a burning building, sorry...)
2. Groupie (Again I'm not crazy enough...)
3. Intern (but it doesn't pay...)
4. Lesbian porn star/stripper (silly boys and their fantasies)
5. Tour manager (cuz I'm good at organizing people and I'm told I'm bossy... But I'm not...)
Those are the sillier ones.... There was actually one that had some street cred....
Create my own company for Jills (and Jacks ) all trades....
I would have to look into that one before really doing anything.... If I did anything about it.
Also in the course of the day, I was talking to one of my bestest earlier and he cracked me up when after I told him about feeling free he told me it sounded like I'd been creatively constipated. I almost ended up on the floor when he dropped that bit of wisdom....
And over this weekend I realized AGAIN how wonderful my friends are... And how blessed I am to have them in my life. At a time when I could have wallowed in self pity I got pulled up by the boot straps so to speak and got on with what needed doing. And while I probably would have come to the realization that the world wasn't over on my own, it was nice to be told how wonderful I am and how much they sucked for letting me go... I even found myself defending them a couple of times. And even after being made to feel better about the whole ordeal I was still getting calls and texts all weekend checking on me to see how I was doing... That was just some of the sweetest stuff in the world. So to any of my friends that read this..... Thank you very much, you rock.
And how odd is it I'm already trying to figure out what I'm doing next weekend... I haven't checked anyone else's schedule or looked at the Firehouse or Armadillo Palace calendars yet but I'm sure I'll find something closer to the weekend I know... Someone mentioned tailgating for some football game or other... But thats about the only thought so far....
Anyway the Mags needs to be walked un mas time before bed....
Hasta la pasta...
Today I feel like anything is possible.
Like the stopper on the wine bottle's been taken out and I'm just pouring out all over the place... Like I should be shouting free at last free at least thank God almighty we are free at last...
Until this morning I had no idea how happy being unemployed could make me.
Is that odd?
Well whether it is or not is beside the point....
So while I'm unemployed and happy I'm wondering what can I do to be employed and happy.
Again we're saying the heck with transitions here...
I was watching the 3rd quarter of the TAMU v. OU game last night and the score was like 17 - 0 and I got to thinking if it stayed that way is that a shut out the way it is in baseball? Just one of those random thoughts I have.... So anywho late last night/early this morning that the game had gone into like 6 overtimes and the final score was like 106 to 80 TAMU won (which oughta make my Aggie friends happy)... I can honestly say I think thats the first time I've ever dreamed about a football game... Kinda odd.
Ah well no biggie it was only a dream.
As evidenced by the fact A and M actually won.
:0)
Another random factoid... My back hurts... And I sort of have a job for the next couple of nights... A friend of a friend wants someone to take care of his cats while he's out of town and evidently he was told about me.... I'm not complaining....
Thats the kind of a reason I refer to my work before being an admin assistant as being a 'Jane of All Trades'... I did just about everything and thats what I'm thinking I'm going to do again. Not a biggie. Petsitting, housesitting, housecleaning, personal shopping, organizing peoples lives (I'm good at that), subbing, temping, and doing personal assistant type stuff like meeting the cable guy and running errands, I pretty much did it all....
If I could make a stable living with benefits from doing just that I would. But alas theres no real Jane of All Trades kind of job... Not that I know of anyway...
anyway its lunch time and i have to figure out what I want.
Laters.
Like the stopper on the wine bottle's been taken out and I'm just pouring out all over the place... Like I should be shouting free at last free at least thank God almighty we are free at last...
Until this morning I had no idea how happy being unemployed could make me.
Is that odd?
Well whether it is or not is beside the point....
So while I'm unemployed and happy I'm wondering what can I do to be employed and happy.
Again we're saying the heck with transitions here...
I was watching the 3rd quarter of the TAMU v. OU game last night and the score was like 17 - 0 and I got to thinking if it stayed that way is that a shut out the way it is in baseball? Just one of those random thoughts I have.... So anywho late last night/early this morning that the game had gone into like 6 overtimes and the final score was like 106 to 80 TAMU won (which oughta make my Aggie friends happy)... I can honestly say I think thats the first time I've ever dreamed about a football game... Kinda odd.
Ah well no biggie it was only a dream.
As evidenced by the fact A and M actually won.
:0)
Another random factoid... My back hurts... And I sort of have a job for the next couple of nights... A friend of a friend wants someone to take care of his cats while he's out of town and evidently he was told about me.... I'm not complaining....
Thats the kind of a reason I refer to my work before being an admin assistant as being a 'Jane of All Trades'... I did just about everything and thats what I'm thinking I'm going to do again. Not a biggie. Petsitting, housesitting, housecleaning, personal shopping, organizing peoples lives (I'm good at that), subbing, temping, and doing personal assistant type stuff like meeting the cable guy and running errands, I pretty much did it all....
If I could make a stable living with benefits from doing just that I would. But alas theres no real Jane of All Trades kind of job... Not that I know of anyway...
anyway its lunch time and i have to figure out what I want.
Laters.
A friend of mine made a comment one of my many blogs that this whole job situation with just another hurdle I’ve had to get over… And he’s right. Nothing in m life has ever been easy. But its always been worth it. Perfect example. My bachelors. After umpteen years I finally earned it in December of 05. Sure it in general studies (the equivalent of a liberal arts degree) but it’s a bachelor’s nonetheless and I worked my ass off it. And I had to live in small town Arkansas while getting it. If that’s not difficult I don’t know what is. Especially considering the fact I’m a Houston girl to the bone. Born and raised here in a city of 4 million with a zillion things to do and places to go and things to eat. To a town of 6,667 people, with one movie theater (with 3 screens) a Walmart, Tyson factor, and Movie Gallery for entertainment and only a few chain restaurants and one 24 hour restaurant (the truck stop). If you really felt adventurous you could go to Russellville (20 miles away and about 36,000 people) or one of the bigger cities like Little Rock or Ft Smith to go shopping, out to eat or whatever you wanted to do.
Pretty much in Clarksville, unless you were really into nature (yeah, not so much) and hiking (yeah right) or any other sort of outdoor activity you were kind of screwed on stuff to do… Did I mention it was a dry county with only one ‘club’ that served alcohol? The nearest town to get liquor was 20 miles away and the closest place for beer and wine was 10.
Is it any wonder we had to create things to do? Co ed movie nights in the dorms, pizza parties, parties at peoples houses, going home every chance we got, nights of board games and video games, sitting on the porch talking about anything and everything. In a way it was a lot better way to get to know people and a lot easier since the campus and town were so small. But there weren’t a lot of options for entertainment.
I was going somewhere else with that but I can’t remember where I was going… Ah well.
Screw transitions I’m just going to go randomly into stuff like I always do.
I just realized tonight that most of my blogs here lately haven’t been 1. As boy crazy as usual, 2. As crazy as usual, 3. As funny as usual, and 4. As often as I used to post them. Though in the last couple of days I think I’m more than making up for that last one… And the only reason I’m not talking about number 1 is because I’m keeping this crush a lil closer to the vest… A few friends know about him and that’s how its gonna stay til I figure out whats going on. I think that’s another one of those signs I’ve grown a bit since I first got my job. Usually I’d be bursting at the seams to tell everyone every lil detail about him. But not only has that gotten me in trouble (whats that?) I don’t wanna share this one. At least not yet.
Also in the last few days I’ve been thinking a lot about my dad. He would have been 71 last month. And December 18th is coming up soon… Then it’ll be 17 years since he died. Honestly I didn’t even think of his birthday til the other day when I was telling someone how old my dad would be. And I ALWAYS remember the 18th…. Even when I try not to. It’s the one day in the whole month of December I DON’T like. I’m just hoping theres something going on on that day this year to get me out of my head and not dwell on it too much. Sure its escapism but dwelling on his death isn’t going to change anything. Kind of like my last break up. Ok, bad comparison…
But speaking of break ups… I had a friend compare the whole losing the job thing to an amicable breakup… I’m not mad at them and they’re not upset with me. And hopefully we can still remain friends.
Sounds like most of my break ups.
And while I’m thinking of being single. AGAIN. This night’s been rather nice… The only way it could be better would be if I had someone to snuggle with. Watching movies on the couch I swear theres no better way to spend an evening. Too bad I don’t have anyone to snuggle with… Ah well. Maggie’ll snuggle with me a little… A dogs not the same as a guy but as close as I’m getting for now…
Speaking of which she needs to go out one last time before bedtime. (another good time it’d be nice to have someone to snuggle with but Maggie’ll have to do.)
Some people may find that odd… The thing I miss most about being in a relationship is snuggling. Most would probably think it’d be sex or fix stuff that’s broken or drive when I don’t want to (or can’t). Nope. I just wanna snuggle. Go fig.
Next time I place a personal ad (just not on Craigslist ever again… *shudder* I saw scary crazy people…) I think I’ll use that… Must like snuggling… And kids. And dogs. And be intelligent. And like sports (and understand that one day I’ll marry Brandon Backe… hehehe…). And be able to make me laugh. And take and be able to dish out crap without having their feelings hurt. And understand I don’t do sex casually cuz I was brought up thinking that was only meant for people in a committed relationship. I’m worth waiting for dammit. And please for the love of God, be somewhat attractive, under the age of 40 but over 21, single, straight, sane and male….
Yeah that’ll get a lot of response I’m sure. And the response I get I probably won’t want.
Ah well. Off like a prom dress to walk the dog one last time.
Laters.
Pretty much in Clarksville, unless you were really into nature (yeah, not so much) and hiking (yeah right) or any other sort of outdoor activity you were kind of screwed on stuff to do… Did I mention it was a dry county with only one ‘club’ that served alcohol? The nearest town to get liquor was 20 miles away and the closest place for beer and wine was 10.
Is it any wonder we had to create things to do? Co ed movie nights in the dorms, pizza parties, parties at peoples houses, going home every chance we got, nights of board games and video games, sitting on the porch talking about anything and everything. In a way it was a lot better way to get to know people and a lot easier since the campus and town were so small. But there weren’t a lot of options for entertainment.
I was going somewhere else with that but I can’t remember where I was going… Ah well.
Screw transitions I’m just going to go randomly into stuff like I always do.
I just realized tonight that most of my blogs here lately haven’t been 1. As boy crazy as usual, 2. As crazy as usual, 3. As funny as usual, and 4. As often as I used to post them. Though in the last couple of days I think I’m more than making up for that last one… And the only reason I’m not talking about number 1 is because I’m keeping this crush a lil closer to the vest… A few friends know about him and that’s how its gonna stay til I figure out whats going on. I think that’s another one of those signs I’ve grown a bit since I first got my job. Usually I’d be bursting at the seams to tell everyone every lil detail about him. But not only has that gotten me in trouble (whats that?) I don’t wanna share this one. At least not yet.
Also in the last few days I’ve been thinking a lot about my dad. He would have been 71 last month. And December 18th is coming up soon… Then it’ll be 17 years since he died. Honestly I didn’t even think of his birthday til the other day when I was telling someone how old my dad would be. And I ALWAYS remember the 18th…. Even when I try not to. It’s the one day in the whole month of December I DON’T like. I’m just hoping theres something going on on that day this year to get me out of my head and not dwell on it too much. Sure its escapism but dwelling on his death isn’t going to change anything. Kind of like my last break up. Ok, bad comparison…
But speaking of break ups… I had a friend compare the whole losing the job thing to an amicable breakup… I’m not mad at them and they’re not upset with me. And hopefully we can still remain friends.
Sounds like most of my break ups.
And while I’m thinking of being single. AGAIN. This night’s been rather nice… The only way it could be better would be if I had someone to snuggle with. Watching movies on the couch I swear theres no better way to spend an evening. Too bad I don’t have anyone to snuggle with… Ah well. Maggie’ll snuggle with me a little… A dogs not the same as a guy but as close as I’m getting for now…
Speaking of which she needs to go out one last time before bedtime. (another good time it’d be nice to have someone to snuggle with but Maggie’ll have to do.)
Some people may find that odd… The thing I miss most about being in a relationship is snuggling. Most would probably think it’d be sex or fix stuff that’s broken or drive when I don’t want to (or can’t). Nope. I just wanna snuggle. Go fig.
Next time I place a personal ad (just not on Craigslist ever again… *shudder* I saw scary crazy people…) I think I’ll use that… Must like snuggling… And kids. And dogs. And be intelligent. And like sports (and understand that one day I’ll marry Brandon Backe… hehehe…). And be able to make me laugh. And take and be able to dish out crap without having their feelings hurt. And understand I don’t do sex casually cuz I was brought up thinking that was only meant for people in a committed relationship. I’m worth waiting for dammit. And please for the love of God, be somewhat attractive, under the age of 40 but over 21, single, straight, sane and male….
Yeah that’ll get a lot of response I’m sure. And the response I get I probably won’t want.
Ah well. Off like a prom dress to walk the dog one last time.
Laters.
Saturday, November 03, 2007
Been awhile since I posted twice in a day... Especially after such a long blog earlier....
So its Saturday night and I'm home. Though I had a friend try to convince me to go back to the Firehouse tonight for Boland and another friend whose playing at the Armadillo Palace and yet another friends band at the Hideaway but I'm just not in the mood to go out. Not cuz I'm down about the job situation but more cuz I'm tired as heck after last night... And I'm sore as a mo fo... 5 hours of standing in heels, dancing in place and being stepped on by drunks has taken its toll. I feel like I did a 3 mile walk without stretching or something.... My legs are killing me. But sitting on the couch with the dog watching Legally Blonde The Musical doesn't require much movement thank goodness. And I'm going to redo my hair tonight too... Blonde yet again. I'm really not in the mood to be a redhead right now... I don't have the right attitude to pull it off at the moment... Redheads require a lot more cleavage flashing, attention whoring, and just general out there nearness than I currently have. Though there are those that argue I always have those qualities... Esp on a Tavern Tuesday....
Though even though I'm tempted to stop going to the Tavern (heck last week I was talking about taking a hiatus from it for a few weeks) I don't think I will... 1. its free and 2. as a neighbor of mine mentioned its a good place to network for potential jobs.....
Speaking of which.... Everyone I've talked to today can't seem to believe I'm not still uberdepressed about the job situation.... But its hard to be depressed when I spent most of last night listening to these amazing musicians. http://www.stoneylarue.com/ and http://www.brandonrhyder.com/
If I didn't know what sweet guys they are I'd be in awe... Though Pat Green can make me speechless... No matter how many times I see him... :0)
Anyway I'm not down in the doldrums about the job... I was down about it at first but then I just picked myself up and dusted myself off, and here I am. Besides which it wasn't one I was in love with. And I wasn't happy with it. And it was leaving me unable to do other things... I was just always too tired... I think the HR lady was right.... This may be for the best.... But I will admit I'll miss the hours I worked and the people I worked with...
But as for the general plan for the moment.... I've updated my resume and gotten back on Monster and Careerbuilder... And Monday I call the temp agencies... For now I can just do what I was doing before I had that job... Temping, subbing, personal assistanting, personal shopping and maybe even a bit of retail work since the holidays are coming up.... Hopefully something comes up soon so I don't have to depend on an unsteady income too long... But some income in better than none and I'm set for money even if I don't work for a month.... 6 weeks probably if I'm conservative.... So I'm not really worried about that....
I'm more worried what I'll do with all my free time now...
I'll probably end up working out more, as much as I don't like to... Its a good way to occupy myself. And its healthy. Plus its a great way to meet guys. So I hear..... :0)
And I can also do some other stuff I've been putting off... Cleaning my place from top to bottom, organizing my closet, doing a lot of laundry, getting the antenna on the 4Runner fixed finally, and we'll see what else I can come up with....
Hey there's always daytime movies... I'm really behind on whats out now.... I still haven't seen Across the Universe, or Tyler Perry's new one....
Thats not to say I won't be spending most of my time on the internet searching for jobs but theres only so long I can stare at a computer before I want to go postal.
Damn this musical's good....
Sorry ADD there for a sec.....
Ok, its time to dye the hair and I'm out of stuff.
For the moment.
Laters.
So its Saturday night and I'm home. Though I had a friend try to convince me to go back to the Firehouse tonight for Boland and another friend whose playing at the Armadillo Palace and yet another friends band at the Hideaway but I'm just not in the mood to go out. Not cuz I'm down about the job situation but more cuz I'm tired as heck after last night... And I'm sore as a mo fo... 5 hours of standing in heels, dancing in place and being stepped on by drunks has taken its toll. I feel like I did a 3 mile walk without stretching or something.... My legs are killing me. But sitting on the couch with the dog watching Legally Blonde The Musical doesn't require much movement thank goodness. And I'm going to redo my hair tonight too... Blonde yet again. I'm really not in the mood to be a redhead right now... I don't have the right attitude to pull it off at the moment... Redheads require a lot more cleavage flashing, attention whoring, and just general out there nearness than I currently have. Though there are those that argue I always have those qualities... Esp on a Tavern Tuesday....
Though even though I'm tempted to stop going to the Tavern (heck last week I was talking about taking a hiatus from it for a few weeks) I don't think I will... 1. its free and 2. as a neighbor of mine mentioned its a good place to network for potential jobs.....
Speaking of which.... Everyone I've talked to today can't seem to believe I'm not still uberdepressed about the job situation.... But its hard to be depressed when I spent most of last night listening to these amazing musicians. http://www.stoneylarue.com/ and http://www.brandonrhyder.com/
If I didn't know what sweet guys they are I'd be in awe... Though Pat Green can make me speechless... No matter how many times I see him... :0)
Anyway I'm not down in the doldrums about the job... I was down about it at first but then I just picked myself up and dusted myself off, and here I am. Besides which it wasn't one I was in love with. And I wasn't happy with it. And it was leaving me unable to do other things... I was just always too tired... I think the HR lady was right.... This may be for the best.... But I will admit I'll miss the hours I worked and the people I worked with...
But as for the general plan for the moment.... I've updated my resume and gotten back on Monster and Careerbuilder... And Monday I call the temp agencies... For now I can just do what I was doing before I had that job... Temping, subbing, personal assistanting, personal shopping and maybe even a bit of retail work since the holidays are coming up.... Hopefully something comes up soon so I don't have to depend on an unsteady income too long... But some income in better than none and I'm set for money even if I don't work for a month.... 6 weeks probably if I'm conservative.... So I'm not really worried about that....
I'm more worried what I'll do with all my free time now...
I'll probably end up working out more, as much as I don't like to... Its a good way to occupy myself. And its healthy. Plus its a great way to meet guys. So I hear..... :0)
And I can also do some other stuff I've been putting off... Cleaning my place from top to bottom, organizing my closet, doing a lot of laundry, getting the antenna on the 4Runner fixed finally, and we'll see what else I can come up with....
Hey there's always daytime movies... I'm really behind on whats out now.... I still haven't seen Across the Universe, or Tyler Perry's new one....
Thats not to say I won't be spending most of my time on the internet searching for jobs but theres only so long I can stare at a computer before I want to go postal.
Damn this musical's good....
Sorry ADD there for a sec.....
Ok, its time to dye the hair and I'm out of stuff.
For the moment.
Laters.
Have you ever felt like you just want to get in your car and drive and drive til you can’t drive anymore?
Welcome to my world.
But no matter if you drive and drive til you can’t drive anymore… Wherever you are you’d still be there.
You can’t escape whatever’s bothering you. You can’t run from your problems. No matter how much you’d like to. Take it from one whose learned that the hard way. You can’t escape your issues by running away, with drugs or alcohol or by escaping into books or movies. Its all a fantasy life. Not your life. Just the life you wish you had. Escapism is nice to a point sure but to let something become your whole world in order to get away from something in your life, es no bueno (its not good – for all the non Spanish speakers).
But all that has little if anything to do with this post. That just struck me as very interesting and worthy of sharing with whoever happens to read this.
So what the heck is this all about anyway?
My day at work yesterday.
So things are cruising along just fine and dandy and its an okay day at work. Lunch comes and goes and I’m scarred for life by watching Rob and Big with a coworker. The episode where Big goes to LaBare Hollywood and dances for one night… Wow. My sides hurt from laughing so hard. So after lunch I go back to work and theres not a lot left to do and I’m wondering if leaving early would be possible but around 330 I got called into the HR lady’s office. Only to find one of my coworkers and my supervisor and the HR lady sitting in chairs with one empty chair, meant for me. I knew this couldn’t be good if they were going to use unintentional intimidation (not realizing I’m almost impossible to intimidate – you’d have to meet my family to understand why).
So I sit down and they start out telling me how awesome I am. How much they love me. What a great presence I am. How I’m honest, bright, upbeat, and dependable and how those are all important qualities to any company. I’m just waiting for the other shoe to drop. Why call this meeting and then butter me up like that without having another agenda in mind (God I’m so jaded sometimes). And sure enough they hit me with a one two combo. We don’t think your gifts are a good fit for this job. We really need someone whose perfect, and a bit more proactive, and if you could read minds that would help (they actually said that). But that they were more sorry than they could say that there wasn’t another opening at the church (the director of the department had asked). I kept trying not to cry but wasn’t very successful, tears kept leaking out and I couldn’t stop sniffling… And I HATE crying in general and I DESPISE doing it in front of people. My head was kinda buzzing and I think I tuned out for a bit just trying to get over the shock…. I know they were talking because I saw their lips move but what they said after that really couldn’t have been more important than what they had already said.
So anyway my ex co workers left (after praying with me/for me – it is a church after all)and the HR lady and I are left in there talking about what I had (pay day was yesterday and I have 2 weeks severance pay plus they paid out my 2 days of vacation and I have health insurance through the end of the month so that’s all good.) and she made sure to tell me when one door closes another somewhere else opens. Besides she tells me I know this wasn’t the end all be all job for you (shes part of a group I lunched with and knew about my plans to teach elementary school one day). And how she thought I’d grown since I started working there (and I think I have as well.) and how everyone loved my sunny disposition and that I knew everyone and was so uber friendly. (uber would be my addition there.)
Then she asks if I think I can go back to work for the rest of the day(there were only about 20 minutes left in the day) and I swear my jaw dropped. I just told her that it probably wasn’t not possible in my current frame of mind. So she followed me upstairs to get my keys and help me clean out my desk. I felt a bit like a criminal, like she was there to make sure I didn’t steal anything. So I finished up there and got my stuff out of the kitchen and left in a daze…
I got home and I’m on the phone for almost 2 hours after that… Telling various friends about what had happened. Getting advice, and made to feel better. And in one memorable instance offered a quickie and given some help with an email. I began making plans about what to do. So far I’m updating my resume this weekend and getting back on CareerBuilder and Monster, and back in touch with the tmep agencies I was using before I found this job.
Then I still went out last night. Because as a couple of people pointed out, what was the use in staying home and overanalyzing the whole thing and being depressed when I could be out having a good time, doing something I’d been planning to do for a while. I have some really good friends. They get me out of my own head when I could drive myself nuts thinking things through. And its true I would have done nothing but think about the whole thing all night, drowning in my own self pity. And that ain’t right.
So anyway I finally get to the Firehouse about 9 ish, and run into J’s girlfriend and end up hanging out with her and a friend of hers all night. But until I walked into the FH last night I didn’t realize how many people I know. Not just the FH bartenders, door guy and one or 2 of the security guys, but the cook and a couple of the busboys too. And people kept saying hello to me (and greeting me by name so I know I knew them somehow) all over the place… On the way to the bar… Run into a bunch of people I know… Getting a drink… More of the same. Going to the front of the stage, yet more people I know. And later going to the bathroom and even right before I left MORE people I know and hadn’t seen in awhile. Then there were a couple of people I know that I didn’t get to talk to that were there too… It was insane.
Anywho, Brandon went on right at 9 ish and was simply amazing, as usual. That man could sing me the phone book and I would listen happily. He didn’t sing Baby Boy but otherwise the show was perfect. And no one cried… :0) Then Stoney came on about 11 ish. And some folks almost died because they tried to get in front of. (Pointer to everyone – don’t ever try to get in front of an uber fan whose been in the same front row spot all night long – they won’t like you and may purposely on accident jab you with an elbow or a butt or step on your toes… ) I was pleasantly surprised to see Jeremy Watkins back with the band. I hadn’t seen him in a couple of years and the last time was at the River Road Icehouse… Back when it was just him and Stoney. When I first heard of Stoney and learned what going to church was all about… He looked really good. Still the same tall, skinny talented dude… If I really had a list of my fave fiddlers he, Brady Black (whose amazing and plays with Randy Rogers), and Noah (with Jason Boland) would top it. Though I think Brady could come in first because he’s just amazing. He really gets into it. But that’s all beside the point. So Stoney does one my fave songs (One Chord Song) first and then he just plays and plays I’m in heaven… And he even did Oklahoma Breakdown and Steel Heart… If I’d have heard Texas Cookin’ before I left around 1 the night would have been perfect. I heard after I left he closed with a long ass version of Devil Went Down to Georgia… If he’d have done The Weight, he’d have needed Bleu Edmondson to make it perfect… That’s the only time I think I love hearing the Weight covered…. But then again, Stoney’s another one who could sing me the phone book and I wouldn’t care. So yeah I got home sometime after one… And after a bowl of cereal and walking the dog I crashed. And then she woke me up again about 9 this morning… At least she let me sleep in. Usually she wants to go out at 7… And she seems to have quit with the staring and breathing heavy on me first thing in the morning. Whoo hoo!
So yeah I’ve joined the ranks of the unemployed again. Hopefully not for long. And my friends are awesome. And they were right. Going out last night really helped me feel better about everything. Though I haven’t been very productive today… Went to McD’s for lunch, walked the dog, and gone to Mom’s… I have to go to PetsMart to get some food for the dog at some point and I think I’ll dye my hair back to blond again later too… But I still don’t know if I want to go out tonight or not… We’ll see how that works out.
Yeah that’s all I got right now. As if all that wasn’t enough right?
Laters.
Thursday, November 01, 2007
Wow I can't believe I've gone almost 2 monthes without posting... I guess with having my myspace blog I've been really lax in keeping up both this and that too... Though i've gotten to posting only once or twice a week there. Not because theres nothing going on, its just I'm so busy and when I'm not busy I'm tired.
Excuses, excuses I know... But there it is.
Lets see a summary of all that missing time...
I've become a rockstar... Been into the same guy for over a month and have yet to make a move on him... Worked, slept, gone to the Park a few concerts, had a bad date, been on a roadtrip, considered moving to Austin, and declared myself on hiatus from some stuff that wasn't healthy.
Thats the Cliffnotes version.
and just because you can never post this enough...
Do's and Don'ts of Dating/Hitting on Me..
Don't – treat me like a last resort
Do – be affectionate
Don't – ask if I'm a man or woman
Don't – ask if I'm gay
Do – be polite
Don't – be afraid to ask for my number, I'm not stingy with it
Do – Have a good sense of humor
Don't – tell me I'm a loser for having plans in advance
Do – flirt with me
Don't – stare at my chest too much
Do – use cheesy pick up lines, if nothing else they'll make me giggle
Don't – have a girlfriend giving me the evil eye from across the room
Do – Be original
Don't – be a complainer
Do – look as though you care for yourself (good hygiene/ healthy looking)
Don't – be drunk and slobbering all over me
Do – make eye contact
Don't – offer to buy me a drink then whine when I order something non
alcoholic or God forbid a 'girly' drink
Do – be a gentleman
Don't – try to flirt with my girlfriends at the same time
Do – tell me about yourself
Don't – forget to ask about me
Do – be intelligent
Don't – kick puppies
Do – be a good kisser
Don't – make racist/homophobic/chauvinistic/sexist remarks
Don't – be unemployed or live with your mom, wife, sister, girlfriend, or sugar
momma
Do – be understanding… I had a life and friends before you, and we may have made plans already for whatever day you want to hang out.
Don't – bitch about the fact I don't do casual sex
Do – like dogs, baseball and/or music
Don't – be a pessimist
Do – be open to other opinions and options
Don't – hate me because I'm beautiful
Don't – confuse me with someone else
Don't – ask if I remember you
Don't – touch my chest area til you have express written consent
Do – have your own life
Don't – be clingy
Do – compliment me
In other news after dinner with my moms last night I've started looking back into getting certified to teach. I'm not in a job I can see myself in forever, and thats what I'd like to find. As good as the perks are, a job that I love is what a really need. I've got a transcript coming in from my old college and an appointment with a local college admissions counselor to talk about some stuff and see if its a possibliity to take some classes to bring my GPA up, pass the the TASP, and get into an alternative certification program.... Thats not too much to ask or anything is it?
Excuses, excuses I know... But there it is.
Lets see a summary of all that missing time...
I've become a rockstar... Been into the same guy for over a month and have yet to make a move on him... Worked, slept, gone to the Park a few concerts, had a bad date, been on a roadtrip, considered moving to Austin, and declared myself on hiatus from some stuff that wasn't healthy.
Thats the Cliffnotes version.
and just because you can never post this enough...
Do's and Don'ts of Dating/Hitting on Me..
Don't – treat me like a last resort
Do – be affectionate
Don't – ask if I'm a man or woman
Don't – ask if I'm gay
Do – be polite
Don't – be afraid to ask for my number, I'm not stingy with it
Do – Have a good sense of humor
Don't – tell me I'm a loser for having plans in advance
Do – flirt with me
Don't – stare at my chest too much
Do – use cheesy pick up lines, if nothing else they'll make me giggle
Don't – have a girlfriend giving me the evil eye from across the room
Do – Be original
Don't – be a complainer
Do – look as though you care for yourself (good hygiene/ healthy looking)
Don't – be drunk and slobbering all over me
Do – make eye contact
Don't – offer to buy me a drink then whine when I order something non
alcoholic or God forbid a 'girly' drink
Do – be a gentleman
Don't – try to flirt with my girlfriends at the same time
Do – tell me about yourself
Don't – forget to ask about me
Do – be intelligent
Don't – kick puppies
Do – be a good kisser
Don't – make racist/homophobic/chauvinistic/sexist remarks
Don't – be unemployed or live with your mom, wife, sister, girlfriend, or sugar
momma
Do – be understanding… I had a life and friends before you, and we may have made plans already for whatever day you want to hang out.
Don't – bitch about the fact I don't do casual sex
Do – like dogs, baseball and/or music
Don't – be a pessimist
Do – be open to other opinions and options
Don't – hate me because I'm beautiful
Don't – confuse me with someone else
Don't – ask if I remember you
Don't – touch my chest area til you have express written consent
Do – have your own life
Don't – be clingy
Do – compliment me
In other news after dinner with my moms last night I've started looking back into getting certified to teach. I'm not in a job I can see myself in forever, and thats what I'd like to find. As good as the perks are, a job that I love is what a really need. I've got a transcript coming in from my old college and an appointment with a local college admissions counselor to talk about some stuff and see if its a possibliity to take some classes to bring my GPA up, pass the the TASP, and get into an alternative certification program.... Thats not too much to ask or anything is it?
Plus this from my myspace....Someone mentioned to me that we (the hottie and I) may be opposites but I don't remember who it was or else I could tell them this... I know I seem like I go out a lot and thats my lifestyle and all and he's all homebody... But the truth is, if I had someone at home (aside from the dog), my own special someone... I probably wouldn't go out as much. Why go out looking for someone when you've got someone at home?And that is probably the only time I'll ever use logic. For anything.Heck as it is I'm cutting back on my going out as of this next weekend. So far I'm going out like 2 this week... Tuesday and tomorrow. Theres something going on Saturday but I don't know how I'll feel about going on then too... But I'm not going to the next couple of Tavern Tuesdays or really any HC event. Theres just been some stuff thats made me want to take a hiatus from going to get togethers...
Thats really all thats been going on....
Laters.
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