Tuesday, November 07, 2006

So I just found out about yet another wedding of a friend of mines... And another friend whose having a baby.... So that makes the count, what now? 4 weddings in a year? And at least 2 babies.... No, no, 3 if you include this most recent pregnancy.... And 5 weddings since they're planning on getting married now....

I'm sort of hearing my biological clock tick tocking a bit but I've been able to quit thinking about it, until I hear something like the news I got tonight....

And its one of the guys, I NEVER thought would commit, let alone have kids.... Its just mind boggling....

Its not that I hoped one day he'd turn around and be totally in love with me... No, while hes a good guy, I never saw him THAT way before since he's always had a girlfriend (not the same one - hence my tendency to think him a bit of a commitment-phobe) and the one time he was single... I was with the ex and going through all that drama.... So its always been purely platonic between us....

But that doesn't mean I can't be floored by his announcement.... Of course I'm happy for him, and her, even though I don't know her.... And their kid is gonna have one heck of a family thats gonna love him/her and spoil them to death.... I guess I'm just a wee bit jealous is all....

And maybe a lil meloncholy about the whole thing....

I mean I'm turning 28 next month and I've been single 3 years... I don't even know if I remember how being in a relationship feels like anymore.... And how does one keep up a good relationship? Can I commit to someone for more than a few dates?

I mean I know I can commit... I've done it before...

Its just been so long and so much has happened since then its a lil fuzzy....

And I just almost shared too much info... Thank God for the delete key....

Heck, even dating feels like taking a foreign language!!!!!

I just want to write a note that says do you like me with a lil check box, one box with yes, one with no... And the words check one under that.... yes I know its a George Strait song... But the man has the right idea.... Things should be a lot simpler....

We as adults tend to make them more complex....

Darn us....

In other news I've finally finished watching season 6 of Buffy.....

Lates.

posted by Ali @ 12:28 AM

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