Not Your Average Jane

I saw Failure to Launch Friday (funny as heck by the way), and I noticed that one of the characters rock climbing has on a helmet with Dale Jr's # 8 logo... I thought that was cool.... Dale Jr also got 4th in the race yesterday.... Tony Stewart got 1st.... I can so totally deal with both of those... I think that’s the 1st time this season Jr's placed in the top 5.... Chronicles of Narnia, Aaron Watson's new CD, and Blue Octobers new CDs all come out tomorrow.... I am so going to go broke.... (not really since I just got paid Friday.... lol....) Today is the first official day of baseball season…. Whoo hoo… There’s a festival and stuff downtown this afternoon… And since I’m working, I’m missing it… Darnit man. Speaking of sports… Yesterday was the first Houston Dynamos game… (Houston’s new professional soccer team) Anyway I caught the end of the game yesterday, which we won like 5-2. The last goal was this awesome windmill kick that the guy (I’m pretty sure it was Brian Ching) like kicked over his head backwards, landed on his back and made the goal… If stuff like that keeps up, there’s a damn good chance they’ll get lots of support and get a lot more fans than the last pro soccer team here in town did… (does anyone remember the Houston Hotshots?!?!? Lol…) I didn’t even realize I missed watching soccer till I saw the game (those that went to U of O know what a big deal soccer is there)… In other news…. I don't feel like I’m accomplishing much career wise... sure I've got a great job with benefits and the hours are almost the same as if I were teaching and I think I’m getting paid better (according to mom my paycheck is about the same as hers and she’s been back teaching for about 7 years and has a masters degree....). I just don’t feel like I'm getting things done that I could be that could help me toward my goal... sure I graduated college (and I know its one hell of a feat, I'm prouder than heck of myself that I did it) but to get certified is a bit daunting... I feel like I've come full circle with music... used to go to shows by myself and know a couple of people... then I went and I knew everyone it seemed and the people in the band too.... now I know most people and usually the band (not always)... Saturday night I knew a handful of people and only the lead singer and merch dude for one band... Then to top it off I felt like the oldest person there (at least if I’d been looking to hook up) even though I know I wasn’t... Then there were also a bunch of crazy drunk guys that I don’t think anyone knew that kept trying to join the lil group I was in… Pretty funny shizzle… I also found that I’m not as passionate about the music as I once was.... (like mark complimented me on being - speaking of which I hadn't seen him in a couple of weeks... That’s odd… I usually see him when I’m out and about at least once a week…) I think I'm going to take some time off from going to shows as hardcore as I have been doing.... after this week that is... Tuesday is Brett at the Palace, Thursday is the Blue October in store and Saturday is either the BBQ benefit for the Wards or Brandon Rhyder (or I may get ambitious and try both). We'll wait and see... I also have been feeling like I’ve neglected part of myself... the fact that before last weekend I hadn't hung out with my guys in almost a month was like a weird once in a blue moon, I don’t think that’s ever happened except when I was at school type thing... I sort of put a damper on the part of myself that always wanted to be at the beach or go to the beach (what beach we have in Texas anyway)... so I’m thinking in the next few weeks I may see if I can do an overnight in corpus or something.... see if that helps me any.... I do have one concern if I do stop going to bars and stuff... how do I meet new people? Especially new guys... Most of the guys I’ve hooked up with in the past 3 months.... ok for a couple of years now have been in some part due to music.... whether I meet them at the Firehouse or some other bar I go to for a show.... sure there’s the internet but I don’t know if that’s actually any good or not... it hasn't worked for me.... at least not in the past... I've gone the personals route and I’ve been on myspace since September... So far of the 2, myspace has far more potential.... and how aside from my small group of friends do I make friends that are into the same things, besides music.... I want to be able to go to a coffee shop and shoot the shit till it closes.... i haven't been able to do that in freaking years.... with the exception of going with my sisters or said close group of friends... but those trips are few and far between these days... I'd love to be able to try going to a poetry reading or a play with someone other than my mom (whose a cool chick and I like going out with every now and again). Yeah so I went home for lunch as usual and I noticed everything seemed a lil brighter today for some reason… And I feel like I’m changing… Not in a bad way but just readjusting inside my own skin, growing a lil more… Growing up a bit I guess you could say… I have to admit to a bit of a Peter Pan complex here, I don’t want to grow up, my inner child is still having a ball. But I know that I have to change in order to grow, while I fear change I also embrace it… Change is supposed to be good for the soul right? Well I think my soul is in need of some serious goodness right now… And I heard about a beach party in a couple of weeks camping all weekend down in Galveston… But I don’t know anyone going so I’m a lil hesitant to go alone… It really sounds like it’d be right up my current alley… Playing guitars around a campfire and smores at night, hanging out on the beach all day… That’s right I’m a bit of a hippie at heart (minus the whole not showering/shaving and going braless 24/7….). I blame B for that… He’s my resident hippie guru and knower of all things hippie like… lol… Aight time to go get the mail… And the boss isn’t here for most of the rest of the day… Go me… And I am… Right downstairs… lol… Laters.

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