Not Your Average Jane

So Saturday was an interesting day… Friday night after I got off work, I came home and mom made you peel em shrimp. Then B picked me up and we went out over to Sean’s. He made steaks and baked potatoes and salad… Good God… Why do I get all this yummy food all in one night!?!? So I nibbled on a steak and we watched Jarhead… That was pretty good shizzle… I was convinced I recognized a couple of the other guys in it so I got on Sean’s computer and Yahoo ed the movie… Turns out I was right. Nice… Anyway so we started another movie and I fell asleep like half an hour into it… I woke up at like midnight and someone had thrown an afghan over me. The tv was still on but I heard the guys on the backporch so I meandered out there. We visited, they jammed and smoked. Theres a lot of laughs to be had with us. Especially when they have guitars… Oh my God, I had never heard so much insane stuff put into song as when I’m with them… Sometimes its making fun of me… Sometimes its about making fun of themselves or other people we know… There’s also a beer/pot song. “We like beer. And we like pot. Put em together and what have you got? A very happy lot.” Or something to that extent… The dorks… So yeah about 1 or so Sean went in to bed about B and I stayed up visiting til like 2 and then we crashed in Sean’s spare room. We woke up early Saturday morning and after an awkward moment, B took me home.
I ran into mom on my way to my own bed and she seemed to believe I’d gotten up for a snack. She was like I can’t believe I didn’t hear you… hehehe… Is it bad I’m 27 and still afraid of my mother? Anyway so I went back to bed for a few hours…
Woke up, lazed around, did some housework and got ready to go… Also got my tickets for Blue October on the 20th at a place called the Warehouse here in town… Whoo hoo!!!!!
I met Chelle at the Firehouse. Matt Burns was already playing when we got there. We wandered to the back and got crawfish and beer then we grabbed a table up front. So while we were peeling the crawfish, I made Chelle sick playing with em… I’m sooo evil I know… I did some heckling of course… Its Matt I had to… Then on one of my many trips to the back, I ran into Forrest and his family. That was kinda weird… But interesting… His brother’s kinda hot… Another trip to the back later in the later I ran into Nichols… Who licked my cheek and told me I should be drunk already… lol…
I ran into Matt a couple of times throughout the night and here’s sort of a pieced together version of that…. He wants to call me Alison instead of Ali…. His dad has cancer and is at MD Anderson. I also found out that he agrees with me that a certain band (who will remain nameless cuz I love em) is a great group of guys but the sound just isn’t there…. Hes only 23… but sooo adorable… He also told me any time I wanted to go to one of his shows, let him know and I could get in free…. How freaking cool is that? And we talked about a mutual friend blowing up like a balloon (I think I said something along the lines of he’d been hitting up GNC on a regular basis…). And I’m very proud of myself, I didn’t molest him the way I’d been threatening to…
I prolly should talk a lil about the music huh? Since that’s the reason everyone was there… That free beer, crawfish, the auction and to support a good cause. Matt Burns was playing when we got there. Then David Lee Kaiser came on… I wasn’t really impressed with him, but he did some good covers… And Wade RAWKED as always… I was kinda sad Matt P. didn’t go a song, but that’s becoming a rarer and rarer occurrence these days… Too bad, hes amazing… I didn’t stay for Gary P. Nunn, cuz I was decked. Before Wade came on though the auctioneer guy got up (and he should have done this BEFORE everyone started drinking and stuff, just my opinion) and he had trouble getting everyone’s attention. He kind of annoyed… And I’m hard to annoy… Then this lil old lady who had muscular dystrophy got up and talked for a bit. Everyone seemed to love her, and I think I said something about adopting her… She just reminded me of someone’s grandma ya know… Like she knew how to get your attention if she had to, but at the same time she’d make cookies for you after school or whatever too…
So yeah somehow during the course of the night I was checking the weather on my cell (that seems to be a habit now) and a guy that had been hanging out with his group of friends came over and introduced himself as TJ and his group of friends kinda migrated over and hung out with Chelle and I. There was Critter (from San Antonio via Boston). TJ the one from Kansas who had initially come over… Ryan and Joe the married ones… With awesome wives whose names I’ve forgotten.... Heath and Jason the hot ones… I think they both had girlfriends that weren’t there though…. Too damn bad they were both hotties…. They kept telling me I must be some sort of big deal cuz I seem to know who just about everyone was…. Not just in the bands but random people at the bar…. I told em the firehouse is like my 2nd home… and it is…. Ryan Turners there next Saturday…. :0) I was also telling Critter all about Harley Dean and Matt and Norm… And all the awesome places all around SA to go see live music… At one point in time I think I may have rewritten part of the red dirt music movement… Then I had an argument with TJ about the Great Divide… We were arguing over whether or not they had found a new singer after Mike McClure went to solo and stayed together or once he left, the whole band fell apart…. I’m not sure who won… (I found out later that the and did in fact continue with a new lead singer, go me…) I pimped galley a bit since the whole group seemed to be into Texas music… I hung out with that group for the most part after Richelle left… Ran into some people from Galley and I think I drunk dialed elise during Wade. And I think Jenn called me from Blue October… I know it was a Missouri number and I don’t have her new number programmed into my phone yet. But I couldn’t really hear it cuz I was listening to Wade and it was really static-y. I left about 11, before Gary P came on. I think Richelle learned something new (shocking I know) about me… I’ve said how many times now I don’t do one night stands or non committal sex in general but I think last night she finally got the point I don’t… And she called me a priss… I prefer to call it better safe than sorry and maybe a bit picky. Besides theres not a damn thing wrong with not having sex without there being some sort of feeling there…
On the way home I had a revelation… There was an M cubed at the Firehouse last night. There was Matt Burns. Matt Miller. And last but certainly not least, Matt Powell. I started laughing like a maniac… And then I started coughing… Then I called Sean to share the news… And I found out I lost my voice… I could talk but I ended up squeaking a lot… Pretty funny stuff…
So I got home, crashed and then I woke up about 10 this morning… I haven’t really done anything productive. But I did discover I was being ultra quiet for now reason when I came in last night. Mom wasn’t here and still isn’t… Ah well.
I think its time to get something to eat now… Laters.

posted by Ali @ 2:45 PM 0 Comments

So I’ve sat down to write this a couple of times and every time I try I can’t figure out how to start or what exactly I want to say… I’m pretty much just a massive ball of confusion at the moment…. I know why but I can’t figure out how to get some clarity. Its not the job, or the apartment hunt that has me in chaos… Those are handleable. The future has me a lil concerned in general cuz I want to work with kids so bad, I don’t know what I’ll do if I don’t get to for whatever reason… Mostly I’m a ball of nerves because of a man. Actually 2 men. One I’ve had a thing for ever since I met him… He’s got such a good heart and I’m comfortable with him. I’m pretty sure he doesn’t feel the same way I do about him, but I’m ok with that for the most part. He’s just so freaking amazing… An ex Marine, firefighter/musician and he’s so polite and sweet. I’m okay with him in silence and he’s not too horribly shocked at things I do… I mean he’s had his butt grabbed by me, I’ve flirted with him hard core and he’s still happy to see me every time he sees me… And he doesn’t mind when I tease or correct him on random factoids… Usually he sees me before I see him and he’ll grab me for a hug and chat… I don’t know if he does that for everyone or what but I don’t care cuz he’s an awesome hugger… We hang out at the same places and like the same things… And he’s just such a hottie to boot. That’s Guy A.
Guy B is a guy I knew in high school, that I just came across on a website I use a couple of weeks ago. We started messaging and emailing each other and about a week and a half ago we traded phone numbers and we’ve been talking/texting (and still emailing too) every day… We’ve tried to make plans to meet up to hang out or whatever but its been difficult (he doesn’t have a car at the moment) for some reason or other… So 3 times we’ve tried to get together and haven’t been able to. All last week. But we’re talked about everything under the sun and he likes that I call him on his shit and that I can make him laugh… I like the fact he’s been through a lot and is stronger and more confident for having done so… And I haven’t laughed so much or so hard (or talked on the phone) with anyone ever I don’t think… He’s told me secrets about himself I haven’t even told my best friends, whom I tell everything to. And I’ve told him things that very few people even know about me (weird since I’m pretty much an open book I know but they’re just lil isms I have that unless you know me really well, you don’t know about me…) And I’m actually thinking realistically what it’d be like if we dated or had a relationship… It makes me nervous I admit… Thinking about getting seriously involved with anyone makes me a lil apprehensive and he does come with some baggage (who doesn’t these days?). There are things about his past that make me a lil hesitant to commit to anything with him… Whats a girl to do… I don’t know… Maybe I’ll figure it out… Maybe I won’t… I just don’t know. Yeah I’m done for now… Laters.

posted by Ali @ 4:48 PM 0 Comments

So I’ve been thinking about the whole Lent thing this morning…. I still don’t whether I’m supposed to give something up or not… And I can’t think of anything to give up… Men? That would last like 2 seconds, IF that… Dr Pepper? Tried it and failed… A couple of times… Sweets? I don’t really eat enough to really care either way… Chocolate’s nice and all but I can live without it for long periods of time. And as I understand it the purpose of Lent is to give up a bad habit you’re fond of. I could give up the History Channel, but that’s kinda like cutting off your nose to spite your face. Seriously I think I may have learned more from that channel than I ever learned in any of my history classes… Prolly cuz the History Channel doesn’t test you and make you memorize dates in chronological order. For a person (me) who sucks with numbers and memorizing ANYTHING in general that was hell… Why do you think almost all the phone numbers I have are programmed into my cell or in an address book? Simple. There’s only like 5 of em I got memorized, either because those people (my 2 sisters, my mom, the townhouse, and my cell) have either a. had those numbers for a while, b. I call a lot or c. so I can check my voice mail from another phone or give it out ;0) . Seriously, when I was in school, it wasn’t hell, but it wasn’t exactly the best of times for me. Not until I got into college I had no idea how to most effectively study or take notes. I pretty much developed my own way of studying (that didn’t really take root til my last 2 or so years of college) and notetaking… Yeah I still can’t really do that, but that’s more because of the ADD… Actually, there were a few classes in high school I did really well in without even really trying… Marine science my senior year… THAT was fun… Smith to this day is still one of my more entertaining teachers that really motivated me to learn and I enjoyed the subject so it wasn’t really hard. And for some reason Geometry… I suck at math but somehow (again prolly cuz the teacher was a fun guy) I made a semi decent grade without trying… Rather shocking, at least for me…
Totally lost the point of what I was talking about, so I’ll talk about last night instead… I got to Blanco’s a lil after 9 and I was shocked at how few people were there (I felt bad leaving after an hour, since there were only like 12 people and it felt like every person counted). I also found out Mark’s doing the Thursday night thing there too and I had a passing thought I’d go there instead of the Firehouse but that was just a passing thought… I have more fun at the Firehouse and its $2 beer night and its Brett and Magee so I can’t miss that… So yeah last night… So I got a beer (for some reason the Coors Light tasted like soapy water and I decided to randomly share that via text message to half a dozen people I know) and go to watch Mark… Now be prepared for the really shocking part… I didn’t want to molest him in any way… He’s just an attractive guy that I know that plays music now… Wow, who’da thunk that’d happen? Certainly not me… (and prolly not Richelle either… Right, Chelle? Lmao…) So I left a lil after 10, got home about 10 30 and I was in bed by 11…. I haven’t seen midnight, let alone 2 am in a while… I’m almost floored by that… But I will tonight and tomorrow night for shizzle…
Another observation I made this morning… Benji reminds me a lot of Brian Burke… Such a sweetie, but he can have his wild moments…. (Catholic boy gone bad… Hehehe…) And I think he may have been telling me the truth (Benji not Burke) about not having ever done ‘the deed’. He doesn’t have the… not aura… not confidence… Though those could apply too… He just doesn’t have the same… skills as most guys I know… It could be the small town thing, or it could be the adolescent way he says he loves his girlfriend… He’s got an inflection in his voice that reminds me of a lil boy with his first girlfriend… But yeah, physically he reminds me of a lil of Burke too…. Tall, dark hair, can play guitar and he likes to give me shit… But then who doesn’t? I can take it and dish it out, no biggie…
Man, that Pei Wei was GOOD last night… I was going to eat my leftover stuff from Black Eyed Pea but mom had Pei Wei and offered it to me… And who am I to turn down Pei Wei? :0)
I can’t believe I’m listening to Matchbox 20… I haven’t busted out with this stuff in forever and a day… But I wanted something rock ish (not NIN rock more like this or Aerosmith rock) and I got it… So I won’t complain…Yeah I think I’m now officially out of stuff to say… At least for now….

posted by Ali @ 9:16 AM 0 Comments