Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Do you ever just wish you could skip over all the awkward first stages of dating? You know the ‘I’m into him is he into me? Will he call?’ Then after he calls that usually awkward first date and at the end, your trying to figure out do I kiss him (and if you’ve already kissed, you’re wondering is he expecting more?)? Do I ask him in for coffee, will he expect more? And after you say good night you wonder will there be a second date… Then the whole are we dating exclusively thing… ugh… I don’t like that part of dating… I’m not good at the whole small talk, playing it cool thing… I like to just dive right in (much to my own detriment at times) and just immerse myself in good lovey dovey relationship vibes… Its not really the sex I’m talking about here… Its being comfortable enough with another person that when you get up in the middle of a movie, you bring him back a beer if you go to the kitchen or a blanket from the bedroom, whatever… Just lil things to let you know that you care for one another… The constant belonging to someone…. The intimacy of being in a relationship is what I miss… Though I realize that whole nerve wracking first stages contributes to the intimacy in a relationship… I miss sleeping (just sleeping, get your minds out of the gutter) with someone, and knowing them almost as well as I know myself… I miss laying in someone’s lap while watching a movie… I miss kisses that wake you up in the morning and put you to bed at night… I miss full body hugs that can turn to something more… I miss nuzzling… And cuddling in general… I like being single, don’t get me wrong, but there are things that I miss about being in a relationship… I don’t miss the bad stuff, the moodiness, the fighting, that sort of thing… But who really does? So yeah I guess since I’ve seen all the Valentine’s Day stuff at Walgreens the other day I’ve been thinking more about being single… There’s a good reason they call Valentines ‘Singles Awareness Day’… Though its funny cuz last year I was single and it was my best Valentines EVER… I got flowers from Sean and Mom and a sweet card and some chocolate from B and bubble bath from Nate… I watched Troy, had a bubble bath and treated myself to dinner… Not too shabby for a low key celebration if you ask me… :0)
So it was Richelle’s birthday today… I met up with her and Jeremy, her dad and Faith at some Mexican restaurant out on Dairy Ashford and Memorial… Not the worst Mexican food but not the best either… The service… Eh… Took me 3 tries to get a to go box… And the waiters barely spoke passable English… I’d have preferred to go to Ninfa’s (had I known it was down the street) but it was Richelle’s call since it was her b-day…
Lets see… I’m calling Nancy (the temp lady) tomorrow and I should have my Netflix movies in… Not going out 2morrow night… I’m going to try to get my laundry done and refill my Nexium… And Thursday night I have a choice of 3 things to do… Brett Mouton at the Firehouse, no cover and 2 $ longnecks, Shy Blakeman at Blanco’s OR Josh Grider at the Palace also no cover… I’m thinking if the music at the Palace starts as early on Thursdays as it does Tuesdays, then maybe I can do a lil bit of all 3… 7-8:30 see Josh, 9-10 (ish) see Shy and then go to the Firehouse till midnight (when they usually end)… But then that may be too ambitious… We’ll see… Friday I still haven’t decided between Wade Bowen and Josh Owen or Micky and the Motorcars… I dig the Motorcars and the hotness of the Braun brothers, but I also dig Josh and Wade…. Ugh, decisions… I don’t like them… I think I’m going to do something weird that I rarely ever do… Go to bed before midnight… Shocking, I know… Laters…

posted by Ali @ 11:31 PM

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