Wednesday, December 14, 2005

I am so damn tired.... I packed up most of my room yesterday and almost all of my stuff is in my car with a few noteable exceptions... The computer, tv, my hanging up stuff, phone and stuff I need for tomorrow morning... And I have to take all my trash (like 3 bags of it) out at some point... All I want to do is take a nap now... But I have that damn ceremony at I have to be at at 5:30... Ugh. Then once I get all the rest of my crap in the car, I leave tommorrow after I check out... I hope I can be on the road around 7 but it will probably be about 7:30 or so before I hit the road... But at least I've gotten gas in the car, checking out the tires and under the hood and I have cash... So I'm almost as ready as I can be... Its kinda sad... Leaving here and closing a chapter of my life and opening another... But its also like I'm ready... Its past time... I finished my last final yesterday (I just had to show up and get my final grades - both B's... :0) ) and I came back and started to pack... All I felt was like it was just a big let down... And I don't know why... I wasn't expecting any choruses of angels to show up and sponateoneously burst into song or anything... It just seems like I've gotten here... Now what? I know logically what comes next, getting a job and an apartment and I look forward to those.... I'm also a bit apprehensive... I don't like change and this is a biggie...
Ok on to other stuff.... Hopefully a bit more chipper... So a while back I blogged about Wade propisitioning me... Back in like October or September I think... So I was watching Fresh Prince on Nick At Nite before I went to bed the other night.... And I bust a gut when Will Smith said, "I'm feeling froggy... You feeling like jumping?" It was almost word for word what Wade had said to me... Except Will was talking about fighting some guy...
Other stuff... I heard the ex had gained a lot of weight... He wasn't a small guy to begin with, now it just shows more I hear.... I also heard that someone who didn't know him thought he was adorable and thought he should have a girlfriend... I laughed.... I wanted to tell her thats the last thing he needs right now.... I was also talking to a girl in my Behavior Management class and she has an ex not as bad as mine but its still made her really leery of men and relationships... I guess that I'm lucky in that he didn't make me that way... Sure I'm hesitant to get involved with a guy but thats been for a variety of reasons, not just the ex....
On to my dreams... I had one about Dillards last night... Haven't had one of those in a quite a while... I went back and I was walking around trying to see who worked there... Cruz was still there so were Hakeem, Rose and Ignacio.... Very odd.... Another one involved Matt (wade's friend)... He proposed to me... That was interesting... I eventually said yes but it was an interesting dream because there were some twists and turns getting to the yes... Including a long talk about my ex... I said something about "I wasn't really IN that relationship.... Sure we were dating but it was long distance so it was just easier to say I had an out of town boyfriend. We weren't really... We only saw each other once every week or 2..." Could that mean anything subconsiously? It very well could.... Interesting....
So yeah thats about it... Anyone need to get ahold of me through Friday morning ish... Try the cell... See yall when I get home... Laters.

posted by Ali @ 4:02 PM

0 Comments:

Post a Comment

Subscribe to Post Comments [Atom]

<< Home