Thursday, September 29, 2005

I got invited to go to the PC tonight but I claimed I had to work on a paper... Ladies get in free and its half a buck beer night.... I also got invited to a party that may or may not happen tommorrow night... Lots of smoking of the wacky tobacky to be occuring and immature idiots drinking and driving.... So I probably won't go to that, cuz they get busted by the cops, I get busted (even though I prolly don't know that many of them) if they're MIP.... Which just sucks, fyi... Being held accountable for others behavior when I didn't supply the liquor just isn't right.... I'd rather take the chance of getting busted for it in my room, thats just a lousy fine from the school... Hell I can't remember NOT having liquor in my room in all the years I've been here... except maybe my freshman year.... This is the first year I haven't had a blender to have any kind of frozen drinks.... That sucks....
So I won an arguement, but I don't really feel like I won... The ex called last night... Completely sober, no drugs or alcohol... I was impressed to say the least... We visited for a few minutes and I told him about my conversation with Meggy... He thinks I should move to Dallas, thinks it suits me better than Houston... And self centered idiot he is thought it had something to do with him... A fessed up and said it had a lil to do with him, but mostly it was about Meg and traffic... So I go on and off the cuff mention its nice talking to him without him being under the influence of alcohol or drugs... He's like I don't do drugs.... Liar liar pants on fire.... I was all reasonable and stuff and asked him about all the times I'd seen him do pot... He tried to cover his ass but when I said stop trying to lie your way out of your lies, it didn't work before and its not working now.... He hung up on me... What the heck? I'm not angry at him, I'm just sad he's in denial... I wish I could fix it for him but I can't and that makes me sadder... I'm disappointed its looking like we can't even be friends the way we were before we dated... He was an awesome friend... We dug the same stuff and I could call him whenever and he exposed me to so much more of life (good and bad) that I had been before... For that I'm grateful.... But next time he calls I won't answer.... Its time to cut all ties... For good this time... I hate that it has to end like this but what can ya do? This has been over a year in the making and its time its over for good.... I like to try to stay friends with exes but this may be one of the cases I cant.... Maybe one day if he can prove he's changed I can rethink my attitude towards him, but who really knows... I'm sure not a fortune teller....
All righty.... What else have I got... Ah yes moms.... So I talked to her last night... I may get to go home for Fall Break, depending on if she goes to San Fran or not... She doesn't the tick's mine... She does I'm stuck here till Turkey Day... Which would suck monkey.... er.... not.... I want nothing to do with Monkey's...er yes... "Andrea's Parts" .... hehehe.... And I've never gone so long without going home.... And for some reason I'm just really homesick.... I don't know why... I'm not like going to pine away into nothing or anything like that but I miss it... I guess the near miss it had with a hurricane may have something do with it.... But next week I can get a tick to see the Blue show in Little Rock if I decide to go.... If the mom doesn't use the tick and gets a flight out Wednesday then I can't go but if I get wrangle the flight out on Thursday then I can... But if I don't go home at all then going to Little Rock would be a nice escape from Clarksvegas.... Also she wants me to finish a 5-8 page paper on Beowolf and a 3-5 page paper on theories on play in education by Saturday.... So she can look them over and proof em for me... So a mininum of 8 pages by Saturday.... With my motivation level on the weekends? HA!!!! Neither one are due till the end of next week/beginning of the next week but she wants to go over them before they're due and she's going out of town next weekend.... Geez.... I might can get them done by Monday but thats spending every spare moment working on them.... So in other words a shitty weekend for Ali.... Thats no bueno....
So I'm now addicted to myspace.... I'm proud of myself... I haven't even been on GW today.... Not even to lurk.... I need to go to Walmart and get some more food and DP.... I rented Robots from Movie Gallery and haven't watched it yet.... But I have seen Best Lil Whorehouse in Texas like 6 times.... :0) God this tennis guy on Letterman's hot.... And he's got an accent... Lovely... Roger Federer I think his name is.... He's no Andy Roddick but he's no slouch in the looks department either....
I haven't read the chapter for Behavior Management yet... But I will before I go to bed... We're going to have a lil one question quiz first thing in the morning... After class I think I'll go get those notes that Diana has over in the sss lab.... And maybe on the way home I could run into him..... ;0)
hehehe.... I'm tricky tricky that way....
Speaking of crushes... I took a good long look at one of the guys I was so into a few weeks ago and I turned next to the chick next to me and I was like he's a nice guy and all but what was I thinking? Currently I'm trying to decide the best way to propisition this one guy... How can he resist me so stubbornly? Argh.... Seriously whats a girl got to do run around nekkid????
As for the Wade/Matt, Matt/Wade thing.... So far I think the plan is that if I go home for Fall Break I'm going to call Wade and get him to go to whatever show I may go to and be like all casual and stuff and tell him to invite matt... Right now I'm ashamed I know him and I don't want to ask favors of him... But in a few weeks I'll be over it and we'll be all pal-ey again... Thats just how it works with us.... Also as Richelle put it, if I asked right now, I'd just be asking for heartache since theres nothing I can do about it from so far away.... There's also something I've come to realize in the last few weeks... No one else is Matt... And its Matt I miss... Weird how one person can affect you like that after so short a period.... And especially when you haven't seen them in so long.... Very weird... Yet another reason I want to go home.... :0)
So I was talking to Melly earlier.... And I think we decided I'm going to be a band mascot... Cuz groupies and band aids sleep with all the musicians they can.... A lot of musicians I know through the ex call me whenever they're in town and not cuz they think I'll sleep with em, they know I won't.... Besides most of the guys I met through the ex treat me like a lil sis or one of the guys depending on the whats and whens and wheres..... So yeah if I don't sleep with em, I can't be a groupie and band aids are into the music, but they sleep with whatever guys they want to whenever however whatever and thats not for me either... So I think I'm stuck doing one of 3 things... 1. being the mascot, 2. playing the triangle, bongo, or cowbell, or 3. playing air guitar.... Out of those I think I'd be best at the first....
Anyway thats it.... Time to get that reading done.... laters....

posted by Ali @ 10:48 PM

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