Not Your Average Jane

I don't know whats going on with myself here lately... Usually I'm this peppy upbeat out there chick... Here in the last week or so I've been... a bit of a moody angsty bitter bitch... And really quiet besides.... Its like I'm more likely to say something very caustic sounding (not sarcastic - almost mean - at least mean for me) when I do say something but most of the time I seem to be adopting a quiet, let's not say anything and maybe they won't know I'm there yet still observing kinda facade.... Its totally unlike me... And I'm not sure how to get rid of this feeling... Its like I feel... I don't even know what I feel.... Its like I'm not me... Its weird...
Lets see... Tommorrow I'm calling U of O to get some answers to some questions... Mom wants to be in on the call and I might as well let her, she'll do it anyway and if I do it alone she'll ask all kinds of questions if I dont have the right answers to she'll call and do it herself.... I love her but she drives me nuts that way.... People wonder why I have a tendency to take over and tell em what to do... She's the reason why....
Though she was really sweet to offer to drive up to Arkansas with me, cuz she knows how much I hate the drive and then fly back from Little Rock... She also volunteered to go with me to U of H if I got an appointment with a real live person and I think thats a good idea cuz I'm not real sure how to state the questions I have.... and then theres the fact if I do it on my own she'll have questions that I prolly won't have the right answers to and she'll want to talk to someone herself.... She's very hands on that way... I love her for it but it annoys me too....
Lets see... Went to see Honeybrowne last night.... Had fun (of course)... Got to see Eric Brendan with a full band... Not too shabby at all.... Ran into Cam's best friend, Kevin.... Almost hit on him before I realized who he was.... Had a huge oh shit moment.... He was skinny as a rail and his hair was really short but his face was the same, a little less tan but the same.... It was weird.... That guy from Thursday wasn't there.... Got home about 130 and went to bed... slept till almost 1... Yeah I was a lil tired.... Got up, went to the store for mom, hung out with the family, ate dinner with em and then watched Into The West.... Went to Randalls for donuts and ran into a hottie... Swear to God he was like Sean's twin... Down to like the star tattoos on each shoulder.... I had to do a double take literally... I almost called him Sean, turns out his name was Jason... Oops... Ah well, random hotties at the store are greatness.... He was a musician too, surprise, surprise..... Just my luck....
I called Sean as I left and I was talking to him in the parking lot and it turns out Jason was parked next to me.... He sorta gave me a lil wave... I think someone somewhere was tryin to tell me something...
So yesterday.... I ran some errands and spent almost an hour at Petsmart playing with the kittens... SOOO cute.... One of them was Shadow and wanted nothing more than to be cuddled... And was very insistant (sp?) about that.... So cute... I was so relaxed when I came home so I'm thinking what the psychologists say about petting animals being a relaxant (sp?)...
this weekend I may be helping Lauren move... Or goin to the firehouse since BEB is there Friday and Cooder Graw is there Saturday with Mark Miller opening... Saturday may be one time I go just to see the opener.... I've done that a handful of times... I'm not a big CG fan, but I love to hear me some Arsonist.... :) Thursday Doug Moreland's at the Armadillo Palace but its also the same night at the 3 man jam.... Decisions, decisions..... I'll prolly wind up at the 3 man jam just cuz i dig it... and I think Doug's coming back to town sometime in August too...
the astros won.... my future hubbie was pitching of course... gawd that man has a great ass.... Now they'll have 4 days off for all star week.... Oswalt, Biggio and Lidge will all be there... All good choices.... Much as I adore him, Backe hasn't made that many stellar plays this season... thats about it for now.... laters....

posted by Ali @ 11:07 PM