Not Your Average Jane

So its my half birthday… I didn’t get myself anything… at all… I’m freaking amazed… all the talk about getting something special for naught… I couldn’t have gotten myself what I wanted today anyway… One’s an hour north of here, the other’s in Georgia or DC, whereever he lives these days… There’s another but I know theres not anything that’s gonna happen with him… A few weeks ago I may have ranted and raved about that but hey what can ya do, ya know? So yeah happy 26 and a half, Ali….
Just as much idea today as yesterday where my life is going in general… No word from school, work, men…. Wait I recant that statement… Did hear from the people I had an interview with last week… Didn’t get the job… Dammit. I do have promising lead on something a lot closer to home though, so we’ll see how that works out… I need to sit down and do some housework and paperwork…. Housework, mostly what I need to do is vacuum and water plants… Paperwork… Need to balance the checkbook and pay bills… It’ll all get done eventually… I wrote a bunch of stuff today… Stuff that sounds like songs but still looks like poetry… Sean attempted to help me put it to music but it just never sounded right… So we wound up just jamming out… He had a presentation tomorrow so I didn’t stay too long… We’re planning on seeing Lords of Dogtown after he gets off work, maybe… Depends on how he feels and we’re gonna see if B wants/can go too… Finally got my music match thingy to work again…
Lets see…. I’ve got a restless feeling I just can’t shake… and I have no idea why… I just got home from CC yesterday… So its not a traveling jones… Could be the fact I’ve been thinking a lot lately about long term relationships and marriages and kids… I guess the ol’ biological clock is ticking a lil… I’m not going to do anything about it… for now… But one of the guys I’m interested in, I can admit I can see myself with him, I don’t know about married or any of that but dating him would be fun… I’ve even considered what it’d be like if he met my family… and knowing how screwed up we are, that’s pretty amazing…. For shizzle…
The guy in DC or Georgia… I just want to screw his brains out… Nothing wrong with that… Seriously he’s one of the few guys here lately I’ve seen that I want to just throw down on the floor, regardless of whose around and just go at it like rabbits…. With out the same reproductive effect… Though I think our kids would be gorgeous… But then what kids with me as a mom wouldn’t be, right? I’ve been thinking about having kids (not now, heck no… But one day) and wondering what kind of parent I’d be… I’ve been getting deep into this stuff… 8 hours of driving, helps a lot…. I swear if our world leaders would just get in a car and roadtrip together all the world’s problems could be solved…. Its how I solve mine… Though some trips are more productive than others…
Ok now I’m tired and I want to go to bed… But I won’t cuz I won’t be able to sleep… Dammit… Ah well, maybe I’ll pop in a movie or something…. Laters.

posted by Ali @ 11:00 PM