Not Your Average Jane

Ok, I'm doing a lot better now... B came over about 3 this morning and we stayed up and talked till like 4 or 5.... And we slept together (no sex, simply for comforting) and he left about 7 or 8 this morning to go to work for a while... He's actually on his way back over here with pizza (cementing my love for him... :) ) as I type... And he gave me the same advice almost word for word that Kara and Melissa gave me.... elise also said something about since the game I was playing wasn't working maybe that would... I don't know if I can do it today, I'm still feeling a lil raw after last night... And I'm more likely to do or say something to fuck up the whole relationship in this mood... So I'm gonna give it a day or so and talk to him... Tommorrow Matt's playing at the Wet Deck and I'm goin and I think he'll be there too... So if he's not I'll call him Monday and see whats up...
I know most everyone is thinking he's a total a hole but there's some stuff I've figured out... Last night is the first time I've hung out with him he's acted that way... Sure he's been drunk before hell he was drunk the first time I met him... But last night was the first time I've seen him make an ass of himself... and me to an extent... So yeah I think we'll take a wait and see approach on him... The fact he's another wannabe musician isn't a point in his favor I know but I can honestly say he's unlike most of the musicians I've met.... With a couple of exceptions to the rule.... :) So I text him this morning to get a phone # for his hot friend... Prolly not the best idea but I need someone to make me feel pretty and his friend did... Soothing my bruised ego so to speak.... Also I'm attracted to him and my feelings about both of them right now are all mixed up... And the fact they're friends doesn't help me any... I'm attracted to hot boys friend, yes... But do I want to hook up with him now becuz of what happened last night or becuz I am attracted to him? Right now I'm tempted to say the 2nd, cuz I was attracted to him before last night.... But my judgement's been rather shoddy the last 24 hours.... But yeah B's here with the pizza and I'm starving.... He's gonna kick my ass for still being in my PJs.... hehehe.... Ah well.... Laters.

posted by Ali @ 12:32 PM