Not Your Average Jane

I hate feeling jealous.... Its totally unlike me.... And even if I'm told its part of human nature, it still sucks.... I heard this guy I'm into was hanging out with a friend of mine, whom I adore and the lil green monster reared its ugly head.... I don't know if there's anything goin on between them or not... I know I hope there's not and its just sucking that I don't know... got some good advice from another friend 'Be foward or lose what you want...' And I do want him.... badly... Most people think I'm really fickle cuz i have a new hot guy I'm into every week but there's something unlike any other guy I've ever known about him... Its like I can be a girl around him.... that sounds weird i know... but most of the guys I hang with are used to me being 'one of the guys' and I was concerned thats how he saw me but his body language points to his potential interest in me... Every time we hang out, he either seeks me out or makes the first move in some small way... Its nice not to have to do that... I may pull a lil tricky tricky and straight forward with him (is that an oxymoron??? lol....) next time I see him... Play up his white knight thing a lil by claiming to need protection from a potential threat and flirt hard core, like I've never flirted before... You thought I was determined before? You ain't seen jack yet.... another good piece of advice I got from the same person... "Its just because you really like him and you arent sure where you stand...and maybe you wanted to just hang with him and see where things went...but all of a sudden someone else is there who might take that chance from you...so the plan of maybe just letting things happen is interrupted now and you have to come up with a new plan..." that explains a lot..... and made me feel so much better.... (thanks, Jenn!)
So yeah other news.... Going to the Firehouse tonight, even though I didnt plan to.... Its June's bday and I have never seen all 3 guys.... and after last week.... yeah I may start goin regularly.... tommorow is boland and saturday i may go see the jwb and stay with danny an extra night or see lords of dogtown with seany (we still havent seen it after tryin all week...)... thats still up in the air but I'm goin to see Matt at the Wet Deck sunday and crashing at Dannys... then jury duty (o joy) on monday....
lets see what else... mom's stilll in Florida... la's goin down for the weekend..... linz made an a on her test the other day.... not much of a surprise considering she studied for like 24 hours before hand.... still no new job, though i did apply at a vet clinic yesterday and have done a bunch of online stuff.... Nathan told me I have the tastes of a 5 year old today cuz all I wanted to eat for lunch was a corn dog.... Whose he to talk, he and sean ate hot dogs.... :P i did a bunch of paper work that needed doing and some housework i needed to do.... still have a bit left yet but at least its a start.... still haven't figured out school yet.... dammit... will it never end? other than that... not much else occuring in my lil world.... laters.

posted by Ali @ 5:56 PM