Diary of a Mad Black Woman.... Excellent excellent movie... Made me laugh and cry... And Shemar Moore? Hotter than hot hottie... That body and that smile..... Lord love a duck... So yeah my new celebrity crush? Him.... The cast of Diary was on Oprah today and I realized I still hadn't seen it so off I went to Blockbuster to get it.... Rented that and got Motorcycle Diaries for La la who didn't feel well poor thing... Came home and watched Diary of a Mad Black Woman... I laughed I cried... I was impressed with the whole thing... Its not often you see a movie geared toward African Americans that has no cursing, killing and very little violence (the domestic kind once or twice and one gunshot scene)...
Lets see... Nothing new with the family... I have another interview tommorrow at 3 off Hollister and 290... Maybe something will come of it, we'll see.... I got the $$$ for NB Saturday so I am for sure there... There was a moment of doubt but thats over.... I still don't know if I'm staying Sunday or not yet... I may just come back to town and chill for the 4th... I just don't think I want to be on the road if I can help it on the 4th and I don't know if I want to stay in NB till the 5th.... 3 days of camping is quite a bit for one who rarely camps... Besides I think Mom's coming back on the 5th so I should be here....
Lets see... Last night I went to Kay's Lounge and neither the hot boy or the hot boy's friend was there.... Bit of a let down after all that anxiety... Darn them... I got complimented by a cute boy.... I just thought it was sweet the way he put it... "Its not often you run across pretty redheads here..." So a line, but sweet... Ran into a friend of Chads.... I didn't really notice when i first met him that he's got that whole Sean Astin cute thing going on... Yeah he looks a little like Sean Astin.... Hope I don't call him Samwise Gamgie (sp?) by accident.... lmao.... I am so a nerd I know....
The boys were supposed to come over for dinner tonight but we postponed that till Friday since something came up with Seany and Laurie... No idea what, he didn't say when he called and I didn't ask...
B wants to go to House of Pies but I don't feel like going out tonight... though house of pies isn't really going out per say...
I decided against RK tonight (too damn expensive) and I prolly won't go to RRB friday.... I don't want to pay the 13 bucks (3 for parking, 10 for VIP seating) or whatever and get pushed around by the crazies.... Sorry. Tommorrow night is the 3 man jam at the Firehouse.... I won't expect anything.... Or at least I'll try not to, but hope it springs eternal.... And eternity does spring hope....
nothing much else to say really.... laters.
Not Your Average Jane
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Monday, June 27, 2005
I hate job hunting.... Its no fun.... Its stressful.... and it just sucks.... I need a want add that says "Wanted: Alison Fritz, to do whatever she wants for however much money she wants... Set own hours, work whenever, whereever... Please Call ______ " Yeah, that's gonna happen... In the meantime the hunt continues....
Randy Rogers and Reckless Kelly are both in town this week and I'm finding myself not really enthused about going to either.... On one hand its good and I'll save money if I don't go... But on the other I know I'll look back next week or next month (actually in this case both are the same) and say I wish I'd gone... ugh.... RK's like 15 dollars down the street at the Duck on Wednesday... and friday Randy's out at the track and you just have to pay general admission ($3 dollars)... not too bad...
BUT I'm already going out 2morrow and Thursday night and goin to NB Saturday so do I really want to do 5 nights in a row of goin out? At the moment I'm thinking no....
So today I went to the eye doctor after like 2 years... turns out my eyes haven't changed that much... the left one now needs something a lil stronger, no biggie... I found this adorable pair of Bongo (yes the same people that make the jeans...)frames but they didn't come with clip ons (the clip ons they could have made cost as much as the frames - about $150) so I got another cute pair that are square ish like I wanted, silver and they're like half framed glasses so they blend into your face better... AND they come with magnetic clip ons... All in all 225... versus the cute bongos that would have to have the clip ons made for 300.... And they'll be ready in 7-10 business days... :) I did find some Kate Spade and Coach I adored... But they had no clip ons and cost almost 300 $'s.... plus the 150 to have the clip ons made.... I was also told they could make Oakleys WITH the perscription for about 300 $'s too... Yeah I think I got a pretty good deal... And I was very good, I could have begged for the brands I know (i.e. brand loyal to the point of obsession... If you've seen my purses/accesories you'd realize how much... ive got a kate spade planner and 2 kate spade purses.... a couple of coach purses... and Nine West out the ass... purses, shoes, wallet... i also have a fake burberry and fake BCBG bags I got from my sisters and a fake Fendi I got on Harwin... So I like name brands so what? ) but I didn't.... Go me. :)
Lets see boy stuff.... I'm anxious about tommorrow... and yet I'm prepared to be dissappointed.... Thats completely unlike me... I want hot boy's friend to show up, and I think he'll show up, but if he doesn't show up, I'm ready.... I'm also anxious to see what happens if hot boy shows up... we haven't really spoken much since the Boland show.... So I guess we'll wait and see.... also after watching Animal Planet I want to go to the Houston Zoo (thats my baby was on tonight and they were there... there was a hot zookeeper.... I want to go stalk him now.... hehehe.... that and I haven't been in almost a year.....).
lets see the fam is doing well... Mom's still in Michigan... Linz is still in summer school.... though she did just find out she doesn't have to take her last test in one of her classes (shes taking 9 hours)... la's getting ready to move to Baton Rouge and this is her last week of work.... she was over here the other day making detailed lists of stuff to do and get before the move (like the 17th of July), she printed em off and then forgot em... Linz and I went over them and couldn't help laughing... She has everything on there scheduled almost to the minute.... Mom said something last week I can't get out of my head... "You can't spend your whole life hanging out with your friends listening to music..." Why the hell not I'd like to know.... It rarely interferes with anything else in my life... Right now my not having a job is affecting the going out with friends a bit... Not having the $$$ for the cover charge or alcohol can do that to ya...
Not much else really going on here.... No idea what I'm doing tommorrow... Job hunting I know... and Kay's lounge tommorrow night.... make a phone call or 2 about money stuff... other than that, I'm prolly just gonna chill out most of the day... like I have been.... and its getting old.... I want to do something.... weird... its not often I get motivated to want to do work, someone better snatch me up fast.... :) i think I'm going to go watch Hildalgo and hit the hay.... laters...
Randy Rogers and Reckless Kelly are both in town this week and I'm finding myself not really enthused about going to either.... On one hand its good and I'll save money if I don't go... But on the other I know I'll look back next week or next month (actually in this case both are the same) and say I wish I'd gone... ugh.... RK's like 15 dollars down the street at the Duck on Wednesday... and friday Randy's out at the track and you just have to pay general admission ($3 dollars)... not too bad...
BUT I'm already going out 2morrow and Thursday night and goin to NB Saturday so do I really want to do 5 nights in a row of goin out? At the moment I'm thinking no....
So today I went to the eye doctor after like 2 years... turns out my eyes haven't changed that much... the left one now needs something a lil stronger, no biggie... I found this adorable pair of Bongo (yes the same people that make the jeans...)frames but they didn't come with clip ons (the clip ons they could have made cost as much as the frames - about $150) so I got another cute pair that are square ish like I wanted, silver and they're like half framed glasses so they blend into your face better... AND they come with magnetic clip ons... All in all 225... versus the cute bongos that would have to have the clip ons made for 300.... And they'll be ready in 7-10 business days... :) I did find some Kate Spade and Coach I adored... But they had no clip ons and cost almost 300 $'s.... plus the 150 to have the clip ons made.... I was also told they could make Oakleys WITH the perscription for about 300 $'s too... Yeah I think I got a pretty good deal... And I was very good, I could have begged for the brands I know (i.e. brand loyal to the point of obsession... If you've seen my purses/accesories you'd realize how much... ive got a kate spade planner and 2 kate spade purses.... a couple of coach purses... and Nine West out the ass... purses, shoes, wallet... i also have a fake burberry and fake BCBG bags I got from my sisters and a fake Fendi I got on Harwin... So I like name brands so what? ) but I didn't.... Go me. :)
Lets see boy stuff.... I'm anxious about tommorrow... and yet I'm prepared to be dissappointed.... Thats completely unlike me... I want hot boy's friend to show up, and I think he'll show up, but if he doesn't show up, I'm ready.... I'm also anxious to see what happens if hot boy shows up... we haven't really spoken much since the Boland show.... So I guess we'll wait and see.... also after watching Animal Planet I want to go to the Houston Zoo (thats my baby was on tonight and they were there... there was a hot zookeeper.... I want to go stalk him now.... hehehe.... that and I haven't been in almost a year.....).
lets see the fam is doing well... Mom's still in Michigan... Linz is still in summer school.... though she did just find out she doesn't have to take her last test in one of her classes (shes taking 9 hours)... la's getting ready to move to Baton Rouge and this is her last week of work.... she was over here the other day making detailed lists of stuff to do and get before the move (like the 17th of July), she printed em off and then forgot em... Linz and I went over them and couldn't help laughing... She has everything on there scheduled almost to the minute.... Mom said something last week I can't get out of my head... "You can't spend your whole life hanging out with your friends listening to music..." Why the hell not I'd like to know.... It rarely interferes with anything else in my life... Right now my not having a job is affecting the going out with friends a bit... Not having the $$$ for the cover charge or alcohol can do that to ya...
Not much else really going on here.... No idea what I'm doing tommorrow... Job hunting I know... and Kay's lounge tommorrow night.... make a phone call or 2 about money stuff... other than that, I'm prolly just gonna chill out most of the day... like I have been.... and its getting old.... I want to do something.... weird... its not often I get motivated to want to do work, someone better snatch me up fast.... :) i think I'm going to go watch Hildalgo and hit the hay.... laters...
Sunday, June 26, 2005
"I need protein..." and "I need a big hunk of meat..." add those to the list of things not to say to a roomful of people.... I learned that tonight when the boys were over... Predinner time, I uttered not one but both those sentences in the space of about 5 minutes... Both times it was one of those everyone looks around and thinks the same thing at the same time things where everyone busts a gut including the person who uttered the sentence.... That person being me.... :)
So lets see... I was lazy and hung out in my PJs most of the day... Got dressed to water the back and front porches, go to Walgreens and then the boys came over...
Last night I went to Stoney at the Firehouse and got to hang out with a bunch of GW friends... Good times for shizzle.... flirted with some boys I shouldn't have, hit (didn't tap... ;) )a lot of ass and drank some beer....
Friday I found out I didn't get a job I had interviewed for earlier in the week.... Thursday went to the 3 man jam and mom left for michigan... The hot boy's hot friend wasn't there... or at Kays last Tuesday... a lil dissappointed but I'll live... there's always next time... ;)
Tommorrow I have an eye doctor's appointment... and I'm making a few calls about jobs... and school... maybe I'll figure something out...
I had some deep thoughts yesterday about men and my taste in them but I can't recall what they were at the moment... They were good I know... ah well I'll remember eventually...
I started writing again on Friday... I started working on a story on Friday and I'm 45 pages into it.... I wrote pretty much none stop from like 930 friday night til like 5 in the morning Saturday.... then from like 1-7 Saturday afternoon.... and a few hours today.... I need to make a few things more detailed but so far I'm really pleased with it....
thats it for now... laters.
So lets see... I was lazy and hung out in my PJs most of the day... Got dressed to water the back and front porches, go to Walgreens and then the boys came over...
Last night I went to Stoney at the Firehouse and got to hang out with a bunch of GW friends... Good times for shizzle.... flirted with some boys I shouldn't have, hit (didn't tap... ;) )a lot of ass and drank some beer....
Friday I found out I didn't get a job I had interviewed for earlier in the week.... Thursday went to the 3 man jam and mom left for michigan... The hot boy's hot friend wasn't there... or at Kays last Tuesday... a lil dissappointed but I'll live... there's always next time... ;)
Tommorrow I have an eye doctor's appointment... and I'm making a few calls about jobs... and school... maybe I'll figure something out...
I had some deep thoughts yesterday about men and my taste in them but I can't recall what they were at the moment... They were good I know... ah well I'll remember eventually...
I started writing again on Friday... I started working on a story on Friday and I'm 45 pages into it.... I wrote pretty much none stop from like 930 friday night til like 5 in the morning Saturday.... then from like 1-7 Saturday afternoon.... and a few hours today.... I need to make a few things more detailed but so far I'm really pleased with it....
thats it for now... laters.
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Shit hit the fan yesterday... Big time... Mom went ape shit... I can understand why to an extent but why SO ape shit I don't know... And just fyi, being told a 2nd time your own mother doesn't repsect or trust you, it doesn't hurt so much as it did the first time... It still sucks but it didn't make me want to ball up and cry this time....
Lets start at the beginning and work our way out... So yesterday morning I woke up about 10 or so... And I go downstairs for a class of Dr Pepper... Moms like we're calling u of o today... ok.... So we call and come to find out they have no record of my reapplication (that I sent in in the beginning of May) so we try to get that sorted out and mom goes nuts... I don't believe you sent it, blah blah blah.... We tear my room apart looking for my copy and the return receipt (still havent found either but my room's rather clean). So finally I just filled out another application, printed off another copy of the letter and wrote a new letter to go with it. And sent that off about 2 pm... Went and got my paycheck from Dillards, who hadn't sent in the mail like they were supposed to.... Deposited that and my check from Loehmanns... Not much $$$ but enough for the moment....
I'm goin to Kay's tonight for the Songwriters thing... I hope hot boy's friend will be there... But since hot boy will be there, I can only assume he will be too....
Last night we went out to dinner for Lindsay's birthday (not till friday, but mom won't be here so we did the family thing last night). John and the girls came over about 7 and we went to Benjys... Modern American cuisine ( http://www.benjys.com ), the calamari is kick ass.... The margerita pizza wasn't bad... They used pesto instead of marinara which was unusual but in a good way.... Came home and had strawberry shortcake (made by yours truly - no fat whipped cream, fat free angel food cake, and strawberries- can you get much healthier?) which linz requested.... She opened her present (some perfume she likes from Neimans) and her card from Aunt Pam, which had 3 copies of a pic of her and uncle david (her hubbie whose been dead about 11 years but taught us all how to fish and throw a baseball.... :) ), one for each of us... Then we sat around visiting till about 10 and the girls left, John not far behind, mom went to bed and i checked my email and went to bed about midnight.... other than the job hunt nothing new is occuring here....
laters.
Lets start at the beginning and work our way out... So yesterday morning I woke up about 10 or so... And I go downstairs for a class of Dr Pepper... Moms like we're calling u of o today... ok.... So we call and come to find out they have no record of my reapplication (that I sent in in the beginning of May) so we try to get that sorted out and mom goes nuts... I don't believe you sent it, blah blah blah.... We tear my room apart looking for my copy and the return receipt (still havent found either but my room's rather clean). So finally I just filled out another application, printed off another copy of the letter and wrote a new letter to go with it. And sent that off about 2 pm... Went and got my paycheck from Dillards, who hadn't sent in the mail like they were supposed to.... Deposited that and my check from Loehmanns... Not much $$$ but enough for the moment....
I'm goin to Kay's tonight for the Songwriters thing... I hope hot boy's friend will be there... But since hot boy will be there, I can only assume he will be too....
Last night we went out to dinner for Lindsay's birthday (not till friday, but mom won't be here so we did the family thing last night). John and the girls came over about 7 and we went to Benjys... Modern American cuisine ( http://www.benjys.com ), the calamari is kick ass.... The margerita pizza wasn't bad... They used pesto instead of marinara which was unusual but in a good way.... Came home and had strawberry shortcake (made by yours truly - no fat whipped cream, fat free angel food cake, and strawberries- can you get much healthier?) which linz requested.... She opened her present (some perfume she likes from Neimans) and her card from Aunt Pam, which had 3 copies of a pic of her and uncle david (her hubbie whose been dead about 11 years but taught us all how to fish and throw a baseball.... :) ), one for each of us... Then we sat around visiting till about 10 and the girls left, John not far behind, mom went to bed and i checked my email and went to bed about midnight.... other than the job hunt nothing new is occuring here....
laters.
Sunday, June 19, 2005
So I went to see Honeybrowne last night at Fitz's... The review I wrote isn't that good but if you really want to read it... http://www.galleywinter.com/main/index.php?name=Forums&file=viewtopic&p=1038417#1038417
I hadn't been to fitz's in like 7 years and not much as really changed, except I don't remember the music being that loud... A sure sign of old age....
Other than that I'm just jobhunting.... Its freaking fun I tell ya... Mom and I still haven't had that 'talk' she wanted to have... She left yesterday at 3 and I left about 7, so if she was home at all I missed her... I came in at like 2 trying to be all quiet and stuff and I woke up at 11 feeling guilty for sleeping late and the dork wasnt even here... I think she stayed over at Johns but did she leave me a note like I did for her ? Nope...
So yeah last night I got to thinking... (and no it didn't hurt... :P ) I really think my judgement when it comes to men sucks worse than a hoover...
Why do I think that you may be asking yourself... Well, lets start about 2 years ago... I dumped a perfectly wonderful guy (things were just too intense for me to handle at that time) for another guy, who I found later to be a total jackass (this would the infamous 'ex' I refer to a lot... B2... ) as well as a cheat and liar and an ass. But our relationship worked for me because it was long distance and I could maintain my independance, which I've come to value highly. And when I went away to school it was much easier to say, I can't date you cuz I have a man back home... and just focus on school... Not that that seemed to help much since I'm still 2 freaking classes short, but that happened after we'd been broken up a while, so I can't blame anyone but myself for that.... So yeah I finally broke it off with him and spent a lil while down and distrustful... He didn't help any tryin to make booty calls... Every time I thought I was over him, he made another reappearance in my life.... I finally started casually dating back in September, didn't really date much around Christmas cuz Dillards was crazy hectic and I had no time... January I went on a couple of dates... And I saw the ex again... And the first thing that came to my mind was What was I thinking? I found him attractive, how? and that signified to me I was really over him... February I celebrated my best V-Day EVER... By myself, even though I had to work... March, I went out a couple of times but nothing ever really clicked... But by May, I'd found someone I thought could possibly be special... Nothing we did could ever mesh though and so I sorta got over that... Come to find out a lot of people think he's a jack ass too... Interesting... So then there was the most recent hot boy... I thought he was great and I easily could have gotten into a relationship with him. And then he treated me like an ass. Is anyone else sensing a pattern here? And now I'm diggin his friend... I know he has 3 strikes against him going in.... Could that make him any different than that others? I mean knowing he's not the best prospect, could that make him the best prospect? Does that make any sense? Like I know going in (if I do that is) to be a lil suspicious.... Let him earn my trust instead of giving it so freely like I tend to do? And I'm not so naive as to think he could be perfect cuz I know from the get go he's not.... (I know no one really is...)
I did call the hot boy though... I think I woke him up and I got kinda flustered and I just blurted out my question without asking for his friends #.... I guess I'll just have to wait till I see him Tuesday and/or Thursday and get it myself...
and just to end on an interesting note....
ok thats enough with the blithering on and on... I'm gonna go find something productive to do... or at least pretend to be productive.... laters.
I hadn't been to fitz's in like 7 years and not much as really changed, except I don't remember the music being that loud... A sure sign of old age....
Other than that I'm just jobhunting.... Its freaking fun I tell ya... Mom and I still haven't had that 'talk' she wanted to have... She left yesterday at 3 and I left about 7, so if she was home at all I missed her... I came in at like 2 trying to be all quiet and stuff and I woke up at 11 feeling guilty for sleeping late and the dork wasnt even here... I think she stayed over at Johns but did she leave me a note like I did for her ? Nope...
So yeah last night I got to thinking... (and no it didn't hurt... :P ) I really think my judgement when it comes to men sucks worse than a hoover...
Why do I think that you may be asking yourself... Well, lets start about 2 years ago... I dumped a perfectly wonderful guy (things were just too intense for me to handle at that time) for another guy, who I found later to be a total jackass (this would the infamous 'ex' I refer to a lot... B2... ) as well as a cheat and liar and an ass. But our relationship worked for me because it was long distance and I could maintain my independance, which I've come to value highly. And when I went away to school it was much easier to say, I can't date you cuz I have a man back home... and just focus on school... Not that that seemed to help much since I'm still 2 freaking classes short, but that happened after we'd been broken up a while, so I can't blame anyone but myself for that.... So yeah I finally broke it off with him and spent a lil while down and distrustful... He didn't help any tryin to make booty calls... Every time I thought I was over him, he made another reappearance in my life.... I finally started casually dating back in September, didn't really date much around Christmas cuz Dillards was crazy hectic and I had no time... January I went on a couple of dates... And I saw the ex again... And the first thing that came to my mind was What was I thinking? I found him attractive, how? and that signified to me I was really over him... February I celebrated my best V-Day EVER... By myself, even though I had to work... March, I went out a couple of times but nothing ever really clicked... But by May, I'd found someone I thought could possibly be special... Nothing we did could ever mesh though and so I sorta got over that... Come to find out a lot of people think he's a jack ass too... Interesting... So then there was the most recent hot boy... I thought he was great and I easily could have gotten into a relationship with him. And then he treated me like an ass. Is anyone else sensing a pattern here? And now I'm diggin his friend... I know he has 3 strikes against him going in.... Could that make him any different than that others? I mean knowing he's not the best prospect, could that make him the best prospect? Does that make any sense? Like I know going in (if I do that is) to be a lil suspicious.... Let him earn my trust instead of giving it so freely like I tend to do? And I'm not so naive as to think he could be perfect cuz I know from the get go he's not.... (I know no one really is...)
I did call the hot boy though... I think I woke him up and I got kinda flustered and I just blurted out my question without asking for his friends #.... I guess I'll just have to wait till I see him Tuesday and/or Thursday and get it myself...
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ok thats enough with the blithering on and on... I'm gonna go find something productive to do... or at least pretend to be productive.... laters.
Friday, June 17, 2005
Jesus H. Christos... I always forget how bad my mom can be about stuff... I told her about being jobless... She seemed ok with it... She just said something about painting myself into a corner. About 2 seconds later she freaked about me spending money... I think she found a receipt for a CD I got the other day, thought I can't be sure. We haven't really talked much other than that today, since I've had a killa headache since last night... I spent most of the day in bed with a cold cloth over my eyes... Right now its a dull ache but its not nearly as bad as it was... Then she left to run errands and I was on the phone when she got home... She bursts in my room and says something about I shouldn't be on my phone using up minutes I'll have to pay for that I don't have money for right now... WTF!?!?! Its her bidness about MY cell phone how? I know my plan far better than her and it seems to me she's just freaking over nothing.... I have 250 minutes, I hardly ever use during the day and after 9 I have free nights and I have weekends free too, which is when I do most of my talking. And then I have 100 texts for 3 $'s... Thats what I'm in danger of going over with... NOT my talking... geez.... Beside which I can go for a month without paying (actually I can go up to 3 before they'll cut me off - yes I have tried it before...) so even if I didn't have the money NOW they'll still charge me and I can just pay it late... No biggie... They don't charge late fees so it really isn't. I'm just wondering what she'll say when she finds out I'm goin out to dinner and a show tommorrow night with some friends... I so look forward to that.... *insert eye roll*
But I'm goin to Half Price Books tommorrow with a bunch of books and movies, so I'll just tell her I have enough from that (and hopefully I will). Hopefully she won't overreact too badly.... Especially since we're meeting over here. That'll be interesting... Gawd I hope she goes out with John tommorrow night... at like 5 so I don't have to deal with her...
Lets see hot boy situation... I called hot boy today to get his friends #... I think I woke him up and I got a lil flustered so I just blurted out my question, completely forgetting to get his friends # from him... And by the time I got over the awkardness we'd already hung up... So all I got was the answer to my question (that I already knew...) and feeling a lil guilty for waking him up... Dammit. So now I have to wait till Tuesday or Thursday to see him again. This sucks. Now I'm gonna go watch Havana Nights again and decide whether or not I want to sell it at 1/2 price tommorrow or not.... laters.
But I'm goin to Half Price Books tommorrow with a bunch of books and movies, so I'll just tell her I have enough from that (and hopefully I will). Hopefully she won't overreact too badly.... Especially since we're meeting over here. That'll be interesting... Gawd I hope she goes out with John tommorrow night... at like 5 so I don't have to deal with her...
Lets see hot boy situation... I called hot boy today to get his friends #... I think I woke him up and I got a lil flustered so I just blurted out my question, completely forgetting to get his friends # from him... And by the time I got over the awkardness we'd already hung up... So all I got was the answer to my question (that I already knew...) and feeling a lil guilty for waking him up... Dammit. So now I have to wait till Tuesday or Thursday to see him again. This sucks. Now I'm gonna go watch Havana Nights again and decide whether or not I want to sell it at 1/2 price tommorrow or not.... laters.
Thursday, June 16, 2005
So it looks as though I'll have to do something I don't want to... again. Call the hot boy in order to get his friends #... ugh... I still really don't want to talk to him after last weekend but I guess if its on my terms its ok... I just got back from the Firehouse and neither of them were there, so I guess I've gotta do what I've gotta do...
Speaking of the Firehouse.... I went for the 3 man jam opening bit and stayed for a bit to check out the chick I'd never heard of play... Since I had nothing else planned and I'd already paid the cover I figured what the heck... I tell ya, I felt like Simon Cowell on American Idol.... Only much nicer, much younger, female and better looking.... :) She wasn't bad but she was bleached (like white blond and you could see her roots), fake and baked and she was wearing chaps.... Ok, so she wants to make a statement I guess.... Too bad her voice could back up that statement... Here's where I feel like Simon.... She was pitchy (she was sharp in some places and really breathy) and sometimes seemed like she didn't know the words... Almost every song she did was a cover, and not even a good cover... She did Silver Wings (I'm a lil biased the only cover of that I've liked has been Aaron Watson) and she 'honky tonked" Cheap Trick.... She even did my old Pam Tillis (Mi Vida Loca) song.... The whole hour or so I was there she did a grand total of 2 originals. The first she tried to showboat a bit and over did (I thought).... I don't even remember the second... But I do remember thinking that her band was purchased with Daddy's money (bad of me I know...) and her lead guitarist seemed like the leader of the band and she sort of followed him... Most bands I've seen, the lead singer plays an intrument of some sort (she didn't), and lead the band (count off into songs, hand out set lists, etc....). Her 2nd lead guitarist (yes she had 2...) was kinda cute.. Young though.... Ah well. Tonight wasn't a total wash, I did get told I was beautiful again... It was prolly just an insincere effect to get into my pants but it was still a compliment... When did I become so jaded? Its something I've been noticing more and more lately.... I was told a few weeks ago that I 'outguyed' one of my guy friends... Um, I'm thinking since I'm a girl that's prolly not a good thing....
So tommorrow night... I'm not doing anything so far... Creagers at the Firehouse but I dont have the $$$ to do that AND HB/dinner Saturday night.... I may call the boys and see what they're up to... Who knows...
Mom came back from Florida today... We haven't gotten to visit much other than generalities... Mostly about how Florida was.... And phone calls she's missed... And she's now dubbed me the plant killer... A lot of em are half dead and one is dead.... I never claimed to have a green thumb and if you don't write shit down to remind me I won't remember to do jack.... When she was in France last summer, she wrote down what days to do all that stuff... She should do that when she leaves for Michigan next week.... Make my life easier... I have an idea of how to tell her I'm temporarily out of work, I just hope she doesn't catch me when I'm not ready and I blurt out the truth.... Lord only knows how she'd react to that shit... Damn I want some french fries... sorry randomness... i really do though and I'm not supposed to eat after 10... damn acid reflux... ah well... I think I'll finish hitch and go to bed... laters.
Speaking of the Firehouse.... I went for the 3 man jam opening bit and stayed for a bit to check out the chick I'd never heard of play... Since I had nothing else planned and I'd already paid the cover I figured what the heck... I tell ya, I felt like Simon Cowell on American Idol.... Only much nicer, much younger, female and better looking.... :) She wasn't bad but she was bleached (like white blond and you could see her roots), fake and baked and she was wearing chaps.... Ok, so she wants to make a statement I guess.... Too bad her voice could back up that statement... Here's where I feel like Simon.... She was pitchy (she was sharp in some places and really breathy) and sometimes seemed like she didn't know the words... Almost every song she did was a cover, and not even a good cover... She did Silver Wings (I'm a lil biased the only cover of that I've liked has been Aaron Watson) and she 'honky tonked" Cheap Trick.... She even did my old Pam Tillis (Mi Vida Loca) song.... The whole hour or so I was there she did a grand total of 2 originals. The first she tried to showboat a bit and over did (I thought).... I don't even remember the second... But I do remember thinking that her band was purchased with Daddy's money (bad of me I know...) and her lead guitarist seemed like the leader of the band and she sort of followed him... Most bands I've seen, the lead singer plays an intrument of some sort (she didn't), and lead the band (count off into songs, hand out set lists, etc....). Her 2nd lead guitarist (yes she had 2...) was kinda cute.. Young though.... Ah well. Tonight wasn't a total wash, I did get told I was beautiful again... It was prolly just an insincere effect to get into my pants but it was still a compliment... When did I become so jaded? Its something I've been noticing more and more lately.... I was told a few weeks ago that I 'outguyed' one of my guy friends... Um, I'm thinking since I'm a girl that's prolly not a good thing....
So tommorrow night... I'm not doing anything so far... Creagers at the Firehouse but I dont have the $$$ to do that AND HB/dinner Saturday night.... I may call the boys and see what they're up to... Who knows...
Mom came back from Florida today... We haven't gotten to visit much other than generalities... Mostly about how Florida was.... And phone calls she's missed... And she's now dubbed me the plant killer... A lot of em are half dead and one is dead.... I never claimed to have a green thumb and if you don't write shit down to remind me I won't remember to do jack.... When she was in France last summer, she wrote down what days to do all that stuff... She should do that when she leaves for Michigan next week.... Make my life easier... I have an idea of how to tell her I'm temporarily out of work, I just hope she doesn't catch me when I'm not ready and I blurt out the truth.... Lord only knows how she'd react to that shit... Damn I want some french fries... sorry randomness... i really do though and I'm not supposed to eat after 10... damn acid reflux... ah well... I think I'll finish hitch and go to bed... laters.
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
I talked to mom tonight, she's outside Pensacola (should have told her to stop and pick me up a Blue Angels pilot... lol...) and they're gonna finish driving home tommorrow... She said they should be home by about 7 or so... I'm going to the 3 man jam thing at 8 or 830 so we won't get to visit much... Which is prolly a good thing... She doesn't know I'm jobless.... When she left I was working at Loehmanns and the few times we've talked I've avoided the subject as much as possible... And I've fibbed to her about the hours I'm working... La and Linz don't know either I don't think but I think they suspect somethings up... I have no idea how I'm gonna tell her.... Or what her reaction will be... Actaully I think she'll be pissed.... No idea what shes gonna say or do otherwise.... Makes me a lil nervous... I'm pretty sure she won't kick me out or anything huge like that but my mother's disappointment can be killa...
Other junk... I think the 'suicide watch' the boys had goin is over.... Haven't talked to any of them today and Sean left here about 7 last night or so.... and then B called at like 10 ish to make sure I was doing all right... I should call em and invite em over for one last blast before she gets home... But I cleaned the house already and I don't want to do it again.... lets see.... what else did I do? Did some laundry, gave myself a pedicure and manicure... Thought about goin to Ryan Adams tonight but I can't afford it... almost 30 dollars... I think not.... Much as I'd like to have I couldn't.... I prolly won't go to Creager Friday so I can go to dinner and HB Saturday....
Boy news.... I think the hot boy is either ignoring me or cockblocking me, either way its no bueno... I don't want to talk to him (either my touretees will kick in or I'll say something he won't remember cuz he was trashed... Like talk me up to your hot friend cuz you owe me after the shoddy way you treated me last weekend type shit...) so I text him to have his hot friend call me cuz I know he has my # ( I put it in his phone myself and I'm pretty sure I gave him the right one...) cuz I had a question... And I haven't gotten a reply back from the hot boy yet and I sent that yesterday about noon.... Usually he'll call me after he gets a text but so far nothing... So I don't know what I'm going to do... Since I'm goin to the 3 man thing and I'm pretty sure the hot friend will be there so maybe we'll get some answers.... And if I get another invite back to his place this time I'll take it... Last week I couldn't cuz I was still into hot boy... But now that hot boy turned into an ass, we'll see if his hot friend is any better... I already know to be cautious cuz of the 3 strikes against him but I think regardless I'll still give him a test drive... ;)
lets see.... what else?? Not much.... i think I'll go watch taxi now.... laters.
Other junk... I think the 'suicide watch' the boys had goin is over.... Haven't talked to any of them today and Sean left here about 7 last night or so.... and then B called at like 10 ish to make sure I was doing all right... I should call em and invite em over for one last blast before she gets home... But I cleaned the house already and I don't want to do it again.... lets see.... what else did I do? Did some laundry, gave myself a pedicure and manicure... Thought about goin to Ryan Adams tonight but I can't afford it... almost 30 dollars... I think not.... Much as I'd like to have I couldn't.... I prolly won't go to Creager Friday so I can go to dinner and HB Saturday....
Boy news.... I think the hot boy is either ignoring me or cockblocking me, either way its no bueno... I don't want to talk to him (either my touretees will kick in or I'll say something he won't remember cuz he was trashed... Like talk me up to your hot friend cuz you owe me after the shoddy way you treated me last weekend type shit...) so I text him to have his hot friend call me cuz I know he has my # ( I put it in his phone myself and I'm pretty sure I gave him the right one...) cuz I had a question... And I haven't gotten a reply back from the hot boy yet and I sent that yesterday about noon.... Usually he'll call me after he gets a text but so far nothing... So I don't know what I'm going to do... Since I'm goin to the 3 man thing and I'm pretty sure the hot friend will be there so maybe we'll get some answers.... And if I get another invite back to his place this time I'll take it... Last week I couldn't cuz I was still into hot boy... But now that hot boy turned into an ass, we'll see if his hot friend is any better... I already know to be cautious cuz of the 3 strikes against him but I think regardless I'll still give him a test drive... ;)
lets see.... what else?? Not much.... i think I'll go watch taxi now.... laters.
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
I'm skipping over the icky my ex is a crackhead (for real) and doing this thing I found on Heather's blog....
Three screen names you have had:
Ali
Alibob78
sunnychic78
Three things you like about yourself:
My sense of humor
My ability to listen
My openmindedness
Three things you dont like about yourself:
My impatience (read road rage) behind the wheel
the fact I'm scared of the dark
my weight (but thats a life long battle...)
Three things that scare you:
death
the dark
intimacy
Three things you are wearing right now:
my PG tshirt
grey pants
Victoria's secret
Three of your favorite songs:
Tie My Boat - Stoney or Mike McClure's version
Any thing by the Trailers
Carry On - Pat Green
Three new things you would like to try in the next 12 months:
a romantic relationship that lasts longer than 6 months
living in my own place
getting a pet
Three things you want in a relationship:
humor
compassion
honesty
Three things you cant do without:
Music
the Internet
Dr Pepper
Three places you would like to go on vacation:
Hawaii
Australia
Africa
Three kids names:
Caleb
Wyatt
Abigail
Three things you just cant do:
Speak French
go into a music store and NOT buy something
find the perfect suit jacket
Three things you want to do before you die:
Go to Australia
Get married
have kids
Three celebrity crushes:
Christian Slater
Matthew McConeghey (sp?)
Angelina Jolie (my girl crush.... )
Three people you nominate to complete this exercise:
Becca
Kara
I'm clueless.....
Three screen names you have had:
Ali
Alibob78
sunnychic78
Three things you like about yourself:
My sense of humor
My ability to listen
My openmindedness
Three things you dont like about yourself:
My impatience (read road rage) behind the wheel
the fact I'm scared of the dark
my weight (but thats a life long battle...)
Three things that scare you:
death
the dark
intimacy
Three things you are wearing right now:
my PG tshirt
grey pants
Victoria's secret
Three of your favorite songs:
Tie My Boat - Stoney or Mike McClure's version
Any thing by the Trailers
Carry On - Pat Green
Three new things you would like to try in the next 12 months:
a romantic relationship that lasts longer than 6 months
living in my own place
getting a pet
Three things you want in a relationship:
humor
compassion
honesty
Three things you cant do without:
Music
the Internet
Dr Pepper
Three places you would like to go on vacation:
Hawaii
Australia
Africa
Three kids names:
Caleb
Wyatt
Abigail
Three things you just cant do:
Speak French
go into a music store and NOT buy something
find the perfect suit jacket
Three things you want to do before you die:
Go to Australia
Get married
have kids
Three celebrity crushes:
Christian Slater
Matthew McConeghey (sp?)
Angelina Jolie (my girl crush.... )
Three people you nominate to complete this exercise:
Becca
Kara
I'm clueless.....
Monday, June 13, 2005
I had jury duty today... whoo hoo.... Can ya feel my enthusiasm? :) 2 funny things did happen though... One the judge is actually the same one from that Animal Planet show Animal Cops Houston.... He explained about how things worked with that... Just killing time he said till everyone came back from a break... I thought that was kinda kewl though... Lil brush with fame and stuff.... Also there was a chick there who saw my BEB shirt and told me she liked them too... I got to tell her about GW too, cuz I'm a pimp like that.... So after 2 and half hours, the case is settled and they don't need us.... So I finally get home and shower and eat.... And I feel soooo much better now... I'm not dirty and smelling like dog as bad as I was.... :)
Yes I smelled like dog... For a very good reason... I got to play with a couple of em yesterday and this morning... :) I went up to Conroe and stayed with Danny and Jesse and went to Livingston to see JWB.... That was frankly a bit of a let down... A handful of people, none of whom were the boy I was going to confront... And the drive was killer.... an hour to Conroe and another hour and a half to Livingston.... One way... So I drove like..... 4 hours yesterday and 2 today.... (drove back from Conroe to the house and then to the courthouse, half an hour away and home again.) So yeah I got to get a bunch of new music from Danny's computer... 3 CDs worth... Though it turns out one of the CDs doesn't work, darnit.... So now I have need to get the Bleu/Stoney thing from him again... Rape his get file... AGAIN.... Bad bad me.... :) So yeah I crashed at their place last night, played with their dogs and their John (Jesse's son)... Came back this morning about 8 ish.... And now all I want to do is nap.... The boys are coming over later to watch Ladder 49 and eat dinner... That'll be fun... But yeah, I wasn't able to do what lisey said and 'reclaim' my weekend... Ah well... There's always next weekend... 3 man jam thursday, maybe creager friday and HB on Saturday.... Now I'm tryin to think of a reasonable sounding excuse to call hot boy and get his friends number.... Thats not too wrong of me.... :) Cuz after this weekend, even if he came down here and kissed my feet, begging for forgiveness, I don't know if I'd date him... But he'll prolly be a good friend.... His hot friend on the other hand... I'm seriously in lust with his body.... He's seriously droolworthy and after a long dry spell, I'm in the mood for a lil droolworthiness.... :)
k, I think I'm gonna go take a nap cuz I'm running on like 4 hours of sleep and that's prolly not healthy.... laters....
Yes I smelled like dog... For a very good reason... I got to play with a couple of em yesterday and this morning... :) I went up to Conroe and stayed with Danny and Jesse and went to Livingston to see JWB.... That was frankly a bit of a let down... A handful of people, none of whom were the boy I was going to confront... And the drive was killer.... an hour to Conroe and another hour and a half to Livingston.... One way... So I drove like..... 4 hours yesterday and 2 today.... (drove back from Conroe to the house and then to the courthouse, half an hour away and home again.) So yeah I got to get a bunch of new music from Danny's computer... 3 CDs worth... Though it turns out one of the CDs doesn't work, darnit.... So now I have need to get the Bleu/Stoney thing from him again... Rape his get file... AGAIN.... Bad bad me.... :) So yeah I crashed at their place last night, played with their dogs and their John (Jesse's son)... Came back this morning about 8 ish.... And now all I want to do is nap.... The boys are coming over later to watch Ladder 49 and eat dinner... That'll be fun... But yeah, I wasn't able to do what lisey said and 'reclaim' my weekend... Ah well... There's always next weekend... 3 man jam thursday, maybe creager friday and HB on Saturday.... Now I'm tryin to think of a reasonable sounding excuse to call hot boy and get his friends number.... Thats not too wrong of me.... :) Cuz after this weekend, even if he came down here and kissed my feet, begging for forgiveness, I don't know if I'd date him... But he'll prolly be a good friend.... His hot friend on the other hand... I'm seriously in lust with his body.... He's seriously droolworthy and after a long dry spell, I'm in the mood for a lil droolworthiness.... :)
k, I think I'm gonna go take a nap cuz I'm running on like 4 hours of sleep and that's prolly not healthy.... laters....
Sunday, June 12, 2005
I almost made my first booty call tonight... What stops me? My whole non noncommital sex thing.... If I could do a booty call, I wouldn't have nearly as many problems with my sex life... Or lack thereof...
And also the guy I wanted to call was hoy boy's hot friend.... I figured if I called hot boy and asked him for his friend's # and if he made booty calls... Yeah bad idea that would have been... First off I don't know if he remembers last night and secondly I might say something I'd regret... So yeah until after I talk to him about last night I think I may have to hold off on the hot friend... Though like I was telling someone earlier... I don't know if it was cuz he was drunk or not but when he kissed me it was like kissing my brother (if I had one...).... A theory I need to prove or disprove.... But I have a feeling that after all this drama, I'm moving on to his hot friend... Cuz I'm not sure if he's worth it after this weekend.... He acts like an ass again and thats my deciding factor.... I have standards, some may say they're high, but they're mine and I aim to stick to em.... or at least try my best to.... But also the hot friend... He told me straight up he'd like to have a girlfriend, that he was tired of being single... And I have to say I agree with him sometimes... And dating a guy who lives less than half an hour away could be SOOOO much easier than dating a guy an hour, 3 hours, or 10 hours away like the majority of my past relationships have been.... Even hot boy lives an hour away... So for me dating a guy closer to where I live would be outside my comfort zone and I have to say I think it may be nice... Now if he'll just call I can start enacting some of those...er... never mind... Melly's already told me tonight I share too much.... Ah well.... We'll just say I had some very nice thoughts about him, I'd like to make a reality... ;)
So yeah anyway... today... after b left about 2 or so he told me I'd better be showered and dressed by the time Sean got here or else... Sean got here about 3 and my hair was still wet but I was showered and dressed.... So yeah I do occasionally do as I'm told... :) Sean was here a couple of hours.... then he went back to his place.... but not before we decided i'd go to blockbuster and get some movies and come over... So I went and got some movies and Hartz.... A girls gotta eat.... and if she gets sweet tea all the better.... :) I get halfway there and he calls to say we're meeting at my house... Ok... Hours later they finally show... Liquor and more pizza in hand... We watch this really crappy movie called Filthy Dirty Love... yeah not one of my better choices... I expected racy funny shit and I get a very slowly developing plot line, barely any sound track, and no comedy whatsoever.... So then we channel surf a while and then i remember rick trevino's at the firehouse... the boys didn't want to go so they headed home... we never did drink any of that alcohol.... weird... so i went on my own... first show in a while I didn't know anyone... had a beer and only stayed an hour... it was sorta blah... but I figured I owed myself a night out after last night.... that worked well... icky ugly guy hit on me.... that was lovely and hasn't happened in a while... mainly cuz I'm usually with friends and they stay away (thank god)... So I left about 1230 ish.... and came home.... A very low key Saturday night...
Tommorrow I'm leaving about 230 or so to go to Danny's and go to the Wet Deck.... Matt's not playing now cuz he has some police thing goin on... And according to elise JWB's playing but according to Matt its some guy I've never heard of... So we'll see.... lalalala.... thats about it for nows.... laters....
And also the guy I wanted to call was hoy boy's hot friend.... I figured if I called hot boy and asked him for his friend's # and if he made booty calls... Yeah bad idea that would have been... First off I don't know if he remembers last night and secondly I might say something I'd regret... So yeah until after I talk to him about last night I think I may have to hold off on the hot friend... Though like I was telling someone earlier... I don't know if it was cuz he was drunk or not but when he kissed me it was like kissing my brother (if I had one...).... A theory I need to prove or disprove.... But I have a feeling that after all this drama, I'm moving on to his hot friend... Cuz I'm not sure if he's worth it after this weekend.... He acts like an ass again and thats my deciding factor.... I have standards, some may say they're high, but they're mine and I aim to stick to em.... or at least try my best to.... But also the hot friend... He told me straight up he'd like to have a girlfriend, that he was tired of being single... And I have to say I agree with him sometimes... And dating a guy who lives less than half an hour away could be SOOOO much easier than dating a guy an hour, 3 hours, or 10 hours away like the majority of my past relationships have been.... Even hot boy lives an hour away... So for me dating a guy closer to where I live would be outside my comfort zone and I have to say I think it may be nice... Now if he'll just call I can start enacting some of those...er... never mind... Melly's already told me tonight I share too much.... Ah well.... We'll just say I had some very nice thoughts about him, I'd like to make a reality... ;)
So yeah anyway... today... after b left about 2 or so he told me I'd better be showered and dressed by the time Sean got here or else... Sean got here about 3 and my hair was still wet but I was showered and dressed.... So yeah I do occasionally do as I'm told... :) Sean was here a couple of hours.... then he went back to his place.... but not before we decided i'd go to blockbuster and get some movies and come over... So I went and got some movies and Hartz.... A girls gotta eat.... and if she gets sweet tea all the better.... :) I get halfway there and he calls to say we're meeting at my house... Ok... Hours later they finally show... Liquor and more pizza in hand... We watch this really crappy movie called Filthy Dirty Love... yeah not one of my better choices... I expected racy funny shit and I get a very slowly developing plot line, barely any sound track, and no comedy whatsoever.... So then we channel surf a while and then i remember rick trevino's at the firehouse... the boys didn't want to go so they headed home... we never did drink any of that alcohol.... weird... so i went on my own... first show in a while I didn't know anyone... had a beer and only stayed an hour... it was sorta blah... but I figured I owed myself a night out after last night.... that worked well... icky ugly guy hit on me.... that was lovely and hasn't happened in a while... mainly cuz I'm usually with friends and they stay away (thank god)... So I left about 1230 ish.... and came home.... A very low key Saturday night...
Tommorrow I'm leaving about 230 or so to go to Danny's and go to the Wet Deck.... Matt's not playing now cuz he has some police thing goin on... And according to elise JWB's playing but according to Matt its some guy I've never heard of... So we'll see.... lalalala.... thats about it for nows.... laters....
Saturday, June 11, 2005
Ok, I'm doing a lot better now... B came over about 3 this morning and we stayed up and talked till like 4 or 5.... And we slept together (no sex, simply for comforting) and he left about 7 or 8 this morning to go to work for a while... He's actually on his way back over here with pizza (cementing my love for him... :) ) as I type... And he gave me the same advice almost word for word that Kara and Melissa gave me.... elise also said something about since the game I was playing wasn't working maybe that would... I don't know if I can do it today, I'm still feeling a lil raw after last night... And I'm more likely to do or say something to fuck up the whole relationship in this mood... So I'm gonna give it a day or so and talk to him... Tommorrow Matt's playing at the Wet Deck and I'm goin and I think he'll be there too... So if he's not I'll call him Monday and see whats up...
I know most everyone is thinking he's a total a hole but there's some stuff I've figured out... Last night is the first time I've hung out with him he's acted that way... Sure he's been drunk before hell he was drunk the first time I met him... But last night was the first time I've seen him make an ass of himself... and me to an extent... So yeah I think we'll take a wait and see approach on him... The fact he's another wannabe musician isn't a point in his favor I know but I can honestly say he's unlike most of the musicians I've met.... With a couple of exceptions to the rule.... :) So I text him this morning to get a phone # for his hot friend... Prolly not the best idea but I need someone to make me feel pretty and his friend did... Soothing my bruised ego so to speak.... Also I'm attracted to him and my feelings about both of them right now are all mixed up... And the fact they're friends doesn't help me any... I'm attracted to hot boys friend, yes... But do I want to hook up with him now becuz of what happened last night or becuz I am attracted to him? Right now I'm tempted to say the 2nd, cuz I was attracted to him before last night.... But my judgement's been rather shoddy the last 24 hours.... But yeah B's here with the pizza and I'm starving.... He's gonna kick my ass for still being in my PJs.... hehehe.... Ah well.... Laters.
I know most everyone is thinking he's a total a hole but there's some stuff I've figured out... Last night is the first time I've hung out with him he's acted that way... Sure he's been drunk before hell he was drunk the first time I met him... But last night was the first time I've seen him make an ass of himself... and me to an extent... So yeah I think we'll take a wait and see approach on him... The fact he's another wannabe musician isn't a point in his favor I know but I can honestly say he's unlike most of the musicians I've met.... With a couple of exceptions to the rule.... :) So I text him this morning to get a phone # for his hot friend... Prolly not the best idea but I need someone to make me feel pretty and his friend did... Soothing my bruised ego so to speak.... Also I'm attracted to him and my feelings about both of them right now are all mixed up... And the fact they're friends doesn't help me any... I'm attracted to hot boys friend, yes... But do I want to hook up with him now becuz of what happened last night or becuz I am attracted to him? Right now I'm tempted to say the 2nd, cuz I was attracted to him before last night.... But my judgement's been rather shoddy the last 24 hours.... But yeah B's here with the pizza and I'm starving.... He's gonna kick my ass for still being in my PJs.... hehehe.... Ah well.... Laters.
And tonight started out so promising... I wonder if its possible to go back and just erase the whole last 6 or so hours from my life.... But alas thats not gonna happen... I can't believe I was so fooled, again... I guess the only good thing I can say is that at least it wasn't the same guy... But this one made me cry and my heart actually physically hurt the way I haven't cried or hurt since B2 and I broke up last year... And yet I tried to defend his ass to my friends... What am I thinking? No clue....
Anyway... So I thought I'd have to choose bewteen 3 guys and juggle them all... By the time I got to the Firehouse I had it narrowed down to 2.... One didn't show, so I was like ok, whatever... But one of them was there and acting into me still... Whoo hoo... I even enlisted him to help me avoid someone... That part didn't work so well... Anyway so we're being kinda touchy feely... and then we dance a couple of times and he's all grabby hands, which I don't mind at all... Someone told me he was dirty dancing and groping a couple of girls... Ok, so he's drunk, no biggie.... So after we dance one time I go to say something to someone and turn back around and he's dancing with someone else... No biggie.... I glance back again a few minutes later and he's kissing her... WTF!?!?! I walk away and go get something to drink and cool down... I go back and talk to Nicole for a few and he comes up behind me acting all touchy feely again... my brain said no, but the rest of me said yes... the rest of me won.... so he wonders off and i go outside and call Melly and tell her whats goin on.... I would have called Seany but hes drunk in Galveston and can't do jack, and if I'd called B, he'd have gone apeshit.... and nathan was out in Santa Cruz somewhere with his boyfriend... So we decide I'm goin home... I go back in, rinse my face a lil and go to say good bye to everyone... Nicole could tell I'd been crying and just hugged me... (thanks, hon, I needed that....) So I go to say good bye to him and he refuses to let me leave... Making me hopeful again... Damn him... We kissed and danced and stuff... and I'm feeling pretty good again... And then somehow he winds up dancing with the same girl from earlier... ok.... and I was talking to a friend of his and i turn around and they're making out.... All I wanted to do was burst into tears.... I'm sure everyone wonders why I left so quickly and so early but I just couldn't deal with that anymore... So I left and pumped up Papa Roach (the hardest rock, angriest music I had in the car) and came home... Teared up on the way a lil... Got home, let a few people know I was home, and changed clothes... Now I want to burn the clothes I was wearing and just forget tonight ever happened.... I cried over a man for the first time in like a year... and I swore I'd never do that again... damn him... I know we never had a relationship but that smacks of the whole B2 break up... One man I thought was almost without fault, only to have all my illusions completely destroyed... Happened again tonight... I don't like this feeling at all.... Now I just want to go to bed and forget him and everything I ever felt for him... But that's gonna be a toughie... I don't feel vengeful... Too much... But I do think I need to talk to him about this shit... Cuz in all the times we've hung out and stuff and he's drunk this kinda thing hasn't happened... at least not as far as I know.... yeah so the show tonight? I only remember Mike Mancy playing a Black Crowes song and talking about Coby and Kelly, and I remember Boland singing my baby loves me when I'm stoned.... I remember Dub Miller gettin called up on stage but other than that, the whole nights a blank.... Yet another thing I can thank him for I suppose... Damn him. so yeah its bed time... maybe everything will look better in the morning..... laters.
Anyway... So I thought I'd have to choose bewteen 3 guys and juggle them all... By the time I got to the Firehouse I had it narrowed down to 2.... One didn't show, so I was like ok, whatever... But one of them was there and acting into me still... Whoo hoo... I even enlisted him to help me avoid someone... That part didn't work so well... Anyway so we're being kinda touchy feely... and then we dance a couple of times and he's all grabby hands, which I don't mind at all... Someone told me he was dirty dancing and groping a couple of girls... Ok, so he's drunk, no biggie.... So after we dance one time I go to say something to someone and turn back around and he's dancing with someone else... No biggie.... I glance back again a few minutes later and he's kissing her... WTF!?!?! I walk away and go get something to drink and cool down... I go back and talk to Nicole for a few and he comes up behind me acting all touchy feely again... my brain said no, but the rest of me said yes... the rest of me won.... so he wonders off and i go outside and call Melly and tell her whats goin on.... I would have called Seany but hes drunk in Galveston and can't do jack, and if I'd called B, he'd have gone apeshit.... and nathan was out in Santa Cruz somewhere with his boyfriend... So we decide I'm goin home... I go back in, rinse my face a lil and go to say good bye to everyone... Nicole could tell I'd been crying and just hugged me... (thanks, hon, I needed that....) So I go to say good bye to him and he refuses to let me leave... Making me hopeful again... Damn him... We kissed and danced and stuff... and I'm feeling pretty good again... And then somehow he winds up dancing with the same girl from earlier... ok.... and I was talking to a friend of his and i turn around and they're making out.... All I wanted to do was burst into tears.... I'm sure everyone wonders why I left so quickly and so early but I just couldn't deal with that anymore... So I left and pumped up Papa Roach (the hardest rock, angriest music I had in the car) and came home... Teared up on the way a lil... Got home, let a few people know I was home, and changed clothes... Now I want to burn the clothes I was wearing and just forget tonight ever happened.... I cried over a man for the first time in like a year... and I swore I'd never do that again... damn him... I know we never had a relationship but that smacks of the whole B2 break up... One man I thought was almost without fault, only to have all my illusions completely destroyed... Happened again tonight... I don't like this feeling at all.... Now I just want to go to bed and forget him and everything I ever felt for him... But that's gonna be a toughie... I don't feel vengeful... Too much... But I do think I need to talk to him about this shit... Cuz in all the times we've hung out and stuff and he's drunk this kinda thing hasn't happened... at least not as far as I know.... yeah so the show tonight? I only remember Mike Mancy playing a Black Crowes song and talking about Coby and Kelly, and I remember Boland singing my baby loves me when I'm stoned.... I remember Dub Miller gettin called up on stage but other than that, the whole nights a blank.... Yet another thing I can thank him for I suppose... Damn him. so yeah its bed time... maybe everything will look better in the morning..... laters.
Friday, June 10, 2005
I am soooo fucked..... Not screwed not shit out of luck but straight up and up FUCKED.... First off I made sure my hot boy (found out I have nothing to be jealous of at the bar tonight...) was goin to be at boland later today... turns out he's bringing his hot cousin... Ok, so I think I can deal... Tonight I outdo myself, flirting with this friend of the hot boys... Lord love a duck.... He's a hot friend too... Met him for the first time last week.... So yeah I invited him to Boland and Chachos later today and he said he'd see so there's a 50/50 shot I'll have 3 of the hottest guys (2 of whom have my phone #) I've met here lately in the same bar for hours on end.... Holy shit.... I wanted my confidence back and once I lost all that weight I got it back.... And now I get a lot of compliments on how nice I look... Tonight the hot friend of hot boy said I was one hot number.... (i also got an invite to his place.... but his friend was goin too and we were just goin to drink beer and play guitar.... )Its nice to know boys still appreciate me... :) My guys do but its not really based on looks... So yeah... I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to do if they're all 3 there 2morrow night.... Hot boy, I'm into for all the right reasons, looks and personality.... Hot cousin.... purely looks.... He's got this body that just makes ya wanna UMPH...... K muffled screaming is not working so well there.... But yeah hes that good... The hot friend is hot, of course, but he has 3 strikes against him, his name, his previous occupation, and his current occupation.... So I should forget him right? Yeah, as if that's gonna happen.... He did that whole I care about you as a person "you ok to get home" thing that just almost melted me.... So I'm clueless as to what to do if they're all there.... dammit.... yeah thats it for now.... anyone have any answers let me know cuz I'm at a loss for shizzle... laters....
Thursday, June 09, 2005
I hate feeling jealous.... Its totally unlike me.... And even if I'm told its part of human nature, it still sucks.... I heard this guy I'm into was hanging out with a friend of mine, whom I adore and the lil green monster reared its ugly head.... I don't know if there's anything goin on between them or not... I know I hope there's not and its just sucking that I don't know... got some good advice from another friend 'Be foward or lose what you want...' And I do want him.... badly... Most people think I'm really fickle cuz i have a new hot guy I'm into every week but there's something unlike any other guy I've ever known about him... Its like I can be a girl around him.... that sounds weird i know... but most of the guys I hang with are used to me being 'one of the guys' and I was concerned thats how he saw me but his body language points to his potential interest in me... Every time we hang out, he either seeks me out or makes the first move in some small way... Its nice not to have to do that... I may pull a lil tricky tricky and straight forward with him (is that an oxymoron??? lol....) next time I see him... Play up his white knight thing a lil by claiming to need protection from a potential threat and flirt hard core, like I've never flirted before... You thought I was determined before? You ain't seen jack yet.... another good piece of advice I got from the same person... "Its just because you really like him and you arent sure where you stand...and maybe you wanted to just hang with him and see where things went...but all of a sudden someone else is there who might take that chance from you...so the plan of maybe just letting things happen is interrupted now and you have to come up with a new plan..." that explains a lot..... and made me feel so much better.... (thanks, Jenn!)
So yeah other news.... Going to the Firehouse tonight, even though I didnt plan to.... Its June's bday and I have never seen all 3 guys.... and after last week.... yeah I may start goin regularly.... tommorow is boland and saturday i may go see the jwb and stay with danny an extra night or see lords of dogtown with seany (we still havent seen it after tryin all week...)... thats still up in the air but I'm goin to see Matt at the Wet Deck sunday and crashing at Dannys... then jury duty (o joy) on monday....
lets see what else... mom's stilll in Florida... la's goin down for the weekend..... linz made an a on her test the other day.... not much of a surprise considering she studied for like 24 hours before hand.... still no new job, though i did apply at a vet clinic yesterday and have done a bunch of online stuff.... Nathan told me I have the tastes of a 5 year old today cuz all I wanted to eat for lunch was a corn dog.... Whose he to talk, he and sean ate hot dogs.... :P i did a bunch of paper work that needed doing and some housework i needed to do.... still have a bit left yet but at least its a start.... still haven't figured out school yet.... dammit... will it never end? other than that... not much else occuring in my lil world.... laters.
So yeah other news.... Going to the Firehouse tonight, even though I didnt plan to.... Its June's bday and I have never seen all 3 guys.... and after last week.... yeah I may start goin regularly.... tommorow is boland and saturday i may go see the jwb and stay with danny an extra night or see lords of dogtown with seany (we still havent seen it after tryin all week...)... thats still up in the air but I'm goin to see Matt at the Wet Deck sunday and crashing at Dannys... then jury duty (o joy) on monday....
lets see what else... mom's stilll in Florida... la's goin down for the weekend..... linz made an a on her test the other day.... not much of a surprise considering she studied for like 24 hours before hand.... still no new job, though i did apply at a vet clinic yesterday and have done a bunch of online stuff.... Nathan told me I have the tastes of a 5 year old today cuz all I wanted to eat for lunch was a corn dog.... Whose he to talk, he and sean ate hot dogs.... :P i did a bunch of paper work that needed doing and some housework i needed to do.... still have a bit left yet but at least its a start.... still haven't figured out school yet.... dammit... will it never end? other than that... not much else occuring in my lil world.... laters.
Monday, June 06, 2005
So its my half birthday… I didn’t get myself anything… at all… I’m freaking amazed… all the talk about getting something special for naught… I couldn’t have gotten myself what I wanted today anyway… One’s an hour north of here, the other’s in Georgia or DC, whereever he lives these days… There’s another but I know theres not anything that’s gonna happen with him… A few weeks ago I may have ranted and raved about that but hey what can ya do, ya know? So yeah happy 26 and a half, Ali….
Just as much idea today as yesterday where my life is going in general… No word from school, work, men…. Wait I recant that statement… Did hear from the people I had an interview with last week… Didn’t get the job… Dammit. I do have promising lead on something a lot closer to home though, so we’ll see how that works out… I need to sit down and do some housework and paperwork…. Housework, mostly what I need to do is vacuum and water plants… Paperwork… Need to balance the checkbook and pay bills… It’ll all get done eventually… I wrote a bunch of stuff today… Stuff that sounds like songs but still looks like poetry… Sean attempted to help me put it to music but it just never sounded right… So we wound up just jamming out… He had a presentation tomorrow so I didn’t stay too long… We’re planning on seeing Lords of Dogtown after he gets off work, maybe… Depends on how he feels and we’re gonna see if B wants/can go too… Finally got my music match thingy to work again…
Lets see…. I’ve got a restless feeling I just can’t shake… and I have no idea why… I just got home from CC yesterday… So its not a traveling jones… Could be the fact I’ve been thinking a lot lately about long term relationships and marriages and kids… I guess the ol’ biological clock is ticking a lil… I’m not going to do anything about it… for now… But one of the guys I’m interested in, I can admit I can see myself with him, I don’t know about married or any of that but dating him would be fun… I’ve even considered what it’d be like if he met my family… and knowing how screwed up we are, that’s pretty amazing…. For shizzle…
The guy in DC or Georgia… I just want to screw his brains out… Nothing wrong with that… Seriously he’s one of the few guys here lately I’ve seen that I want to just throw down on the floor, regardless of whose around and just go at it like rabbits…. With out the same reproductive effect… Though I think our kids would be gorgeous… But then what kids with me as a mom wouldn’t be, right? I’ve been thinking about having kids (not now, heck no… But one day) and wondering what kind of parent I’d be… I’ve been getting deep into this stuff… 8 hours of driving, helps a lot…. I swear if our world leaders would just get in a car and roadtrip together all the world’s problems could be solved…. Its how I solve mine… Though some trips are more productive than others…
Ok now I’m tired and I want to go to bed… But I won’t cuz I won’t be able to sleep… Dammit… Ah well, maybe I’ll pop in a movie or something…. Laters.
Just as much idea today as yesterday where my life is going in general… No word from school, work, men…. Wait I recant that statement… Did hear from the people I had an interview with last week… Didn’t get the job… Dammit. I do have promising lead on something a lot closer to home though, so we’ll see how that works out… I need to sit down and do some housework and paperwork…. Housework, mostly what I need to do is vacuum and water plants… Paperwork… Need to balance the checkbook and pay bills… It’ll all get done eventually… I wrote a bunch of stuff today… Stuff that sounds like songs but still looks like poetry… Sean attempted to help me put it to music but it just never sounded right… So we wound up just jamming out… He had a presentation tomorrow so I didn’t stay too long… We’re planning on seeing Lords of Dogtown after he gets off work, maybe… Depends on how he feels and we’re gonna see if B wants/can go too… Finally got my music match thingy to work again…
Lets see…. I’ve got a restless feeling I just can’t shake… and I have no idea why… I just got home from CC yesterday… So its not a traveling jones… Could be the fact I’ve been thinking a lot lately about long term relationships and marriages and kids… I guess the ol’ biological clock is ticking a lil… I’m not going to do anything about it… for now… But one of the guys I’m interested in, I can admit I can see myself with him, I don’t know about married or any of that but dating him would be fun… I’ve even considered what it’d be like if he met my family… and knowing how screwed up we are, that’s pretty amazing…. For shizzle…
The guy in DC or Georgia… I just want to screw his brains out… Nothing wrong with that… Seriously he’s one of the few guys here lately I’ve seen that I want to just throw down on the floor, regardless of whose around and just go at it like rabbits…. With out the same reproductive effect… Though I think our kids would be gorgeous… But then what kids with me as a mom wouldn’t be, right? I’ve been thinking about having kids (not now, heck no… But one day) and wondering what kind of parent I’d be… I’ve been getting deep into this stuff… 8 hours of driving, helps a lot…. I swear if our world leaders would just get in a car and roadtrip together all the world’s problems could be solved…. Its how I solve mine… Though some trips are more productive than others…
Ok now I’m tired and I want to go to bed… But I won’t cuz I won’t be able to sleep… Dammit… Ah well, maybe I’ll pop in a movie or something…. Laters.
Sunday, June 05, 2005
first let me apoligize for any bad grammar/spelling in this post... I am dog tired and my brain isn't quite up to par just yet....
Friday I went to Aaron Watson... It was ok... Should have gone to NB for a double dose of the trailers instead but at least i can say I've seen him now... a bunch of aggies and raiders were there... i had an aggie that smelled like brent but wasnt as pretty ask me to dance... turned him down flat... standing near him was bad enough... i dont think i could have danced with him without gettin a migraine or something.... so i came home early... early being 1 ish.... :) spent most of the night texting people... wade called me at during silver wings.... and we talked for a few... note to self: thank wade for saving me from the good smelling, not really attractive Aggie.... yeah so got home, talked to elise and went to bed...
Saturday went to Corpus.... got there about 230 or so.... after a stop at Prazeks of course.... got to beccas and got a call from mom that i had to go over to garys house cuz the whiny bitch had called her and complained... wtf?!?!? so i went over there... saw the kids and lacey and gary too... now becca, gary and soon my mom may even freaking know who I'm into... becca came up with a new name for him... its cute thats all I'll say.... and it fits.... even though he's temporarily almost maroon.... finally got my ass out of there by like 5.... went back to Bec's got ready and left for the surf club.... got there in time for sound check.... ate dinner there and sat around talking till the opening band came on at 830 ish... Buster Jiggs was ok.... barely understood a word they said but I liked their attitudes.... The Trailers finally came on at about 1030... After a long (almost exactly 6 month) Trailer show drought, they were back and badder than ever before.... No idea what the whole set list was but I was sooo happy to see them again.... With the exception of being surrounded by groupie hoochies it was a perfect come back... I made my goal getting a good pic of Potter.... got 2 not so good ones and then finally during a break i was just like potter smile.... and he did.... and i got my pic.... Gawd I rawk.... :) So after the show, Drew goes of with the hoochies, Manny and Ryder go do merch and Stokes and Potter are loading out.... I was only surprised at Manny not being a manwhore.... lisey was telling me he was really good the night before too... shocking.... So I go say hey to stokes and stuff.... hes such a doll and he appreciates everyone so much, its awesome.... Then went over to Jeff and thanked him for the pic.... He was like no prob.... Got a sweaty hug and a lil flirt on.... Bec told me she thought she'd have to demand the car keys or catch a cab in order to get home, she was that scared I'd throw him down and have my way with him.... hehehe.... barely restrained myself there... lord that hair and that body should be illegal when paired together... i was talkin to either elise or becca about this earlier and I was like I'm not like those girls (ie groupies ) i make fun of cuz most of the guys I want to sleep with are just hot guys who happen to make music... Potter's the drummer for the Trailers sure... But he's hot.... and he gives good hugs.... always a good thing... Anyway we got back to Becs at like 1 ish... skipped looky looky cuz a storm was coming in... i fell asleep at like 2 this morning... and woke up at like noon.... had some interesting dreams.... a couple of 'that' nature ;) and then one about Josh Ward's band... nothing bad... I just dreamed i found the demo at a used CD shop on record (as in the big ass old school records).... cool but odd.... hung out at bec's for a while... linz called me asking if I had Kellys phone # cuz she hadnt heard from La since 3 am that morning... she'd been drunk and looking for a ride... linz said no but then called her back 3 times and was told no, la didnt need a ride from her... I wasn't as concerned as I should have been prolly.... We Fritz girls are pretty good taking care of ourselves for the most part.... We can get very creative solutions to very basic problems.... :) La came in when Linz was on the phone with me so no worries.... got dressed and eventually made my way home... spent most of the trip home on the phone... i got through most of my phone book by the time i got to town... but the only people i talked to were guys.... not one single girlfriend of mine who I called picked up.... talked to sean, nate and B... that occupied a good deal of my time... talked to W and Randalls.... talked to a very hungover (at 5 pm no less) Tommy.... poor thing i think i woke his ass up.... ah well... he shouldnt be asleep at 5 anyway.... :) so got home and so far all i've done is just chill.... need to unpack and stuff but I dont feel like it.... i wanna go back and redo last night.... and maybe redo a few things.... like letting becca take a cab.... ;) I'm not sorry, that man is the hottest thing I've seen lately that I could do anything about... Unless a certain someone comes to Boland on Friday.... hehehe... I'm evil....
anyway i have so much stuff i need to do and I dont know if i still even have a job or what... dont know when im gettin my next paycheck.... dont know where my life is going in general.... dont know if the guy i'm into is into me... even though i hear he knows... damn i feel jr high ish....
Mom asked if i was working next weekend cuz La is goin down there.... I'm like I dont know my schedule yet... i really didnt say I'd rather see boland Friday and Matt Sunday like I've been planning to do instead....
I'd like to go to the beach and all but I dont want to deal with a 3rd weekend in a row of traveling.... sure sunday I'm goin to livingston for matt, but thats only like an hour away... not too bad at all... and even though i think I'm crashing at danny's that night its not really like goin out of town out of town.... k I think I'm goin to bed before i babble anymore... laters....
Friday I went to Aaron Watson... It was ok... Should have gone to NB for a double dose of the trailers instead but at least i can say I've seen him now... a bunch of aggies and raiders were there... i had an aggie that smelled like brent but wasnt as pretty ask me to dance... turned him down flat... standing near him was bad enough... i dont think i could have danced with him without gettin a migraine or something.... so i came home early... early being 1 ish.... :) spent most of the night texting people... wade called me at during silver wings.... and we talked for a few... note to self: thank wade for saving me from the good smelling, not really attractive Aggie.... yeah so got home, talked to elise and went to bed...
Saturday went to Corpus.... got there about 230 or so.... after a stop at Prazeks of course.... got to beccas and got a call from mom that i had to go over to garys house cuz the whiny bitch had called her and complained... wtf?!?!? so i went over there... saw the kids and lacey and gary too... now becca, gary and soon my mom may even freaking know who I'm into... becca came up with a new name for him... its cute thats all I'll say.... and it fits.... even though he's temporarily almost maroon.... finally got my ass out of there by like 5.... went back to Bec's got ready and left for the surf club.... got there in time for sound check.... ate dinner there and sat around talking till the opening band came on at 830 ish... Buster Jiggs was ok.... barely understood a word they said but I liked their attitudes.... The Trailers finally came on at about 1030... After a long (almost exactly 6 month) Trailer show drought, they were back and badder than ever before.... No idea what the whole set list was but I was sooo happy to see them again.... With the exception of being surrounded by groupie hoochies it was a perfect come back... I made my goal getting a good pic of Potter.... got 2 not so good ones and then finally during a break i was just like potter smile.... and he did.... and i got my pic.... Gawd I rawk.... :) So after the show, Drew goes of with the hoochies, Manny and Ryder go do merch and Stokes and Potter are loading out.... I was only surprised at Manny not being a manwhore.... lisey was telling me he was really good the night before too... shocking.... So I go say hey to stokes and stuff.... hes such a doll and he appreciates everyone so much, its awesome.... Then went over to Jeff and thanked him for the pic.... He was like no prob.... Got a sweaty hug and a lil flirt on.... Bec told me she thought she'd have to demand the car keys or catch a cab in order to get home, she was that scared I'd throw him down and have my way with him.... hehehe.... barely restrained myself there... lord that hair and that body should be illegal when paired together... i was talkin to either elise or becca about this earlier and I was like I'm not like those girls (ie groupies ) i make fun of cuz most of the guys I want to sleep with are just hot guys who happen to make music... Potter's the drummer for the Trailers sure... But he's hot.... and he gives good hugs.... always a good thing... Anyway we got back to Becs at like 1 ish... skipped looky looky cuz a storm was coming in... i fell asleep at like 2 this morning... and woke up at like noon.... had some interesting dreams.... a couple of 'that' nature ;) and then one about Josh Ward's band... nothing bad... I just dreamed i found the demo at a used CD shop on record (as in the big ass old school records).... cool but odd.... hung out at bec's for a while... linz called me asking if I had Kellys phone # cuz she hadnt heard from La since 3 am that morning... she'd been drunk and looking for a ride... linz said no but then called her back 3 times and was told no, la didnt need a ride from her... I wasn't as concerned as I should have been prolly.... We Fritz girls are pretty good taking care of ourselves for the most part.... We can get very creative solutions to very basic problems.... :) La came in when Linz was on the phone with me so no worries.... got dressed and eventually made my way home... spent most of the trip home on the phone... i got through most of my phone book by the time i got to town... but the only people i talked to were guys.... not one single girlfriend of mine who I called picked up.... talked to sean, nate and B... that occupied a good deal of my time... talked to W and Randalls.... talked to a very hungover (at 5 pm no less) Tommy.... poor thing i think i woke his ass up.... ah well... he shouldnt be asleep at 5 anyway.... :) so got home and so far all i've done is just chill.... need to unpack and stuff but I dont feel like it.... i wanna go back and redo last night.... and maybe redo a few things.... like letting becca take a cab.... ;) I'm not sorry, that man is the hottest thing I've seen lately that I could do anything about... Unless a certain someone comes to Boland on Friday.... hehehe... I'm evil....
anyway i have so much stuff i need to do and I dont know if i still even have a job or what... dont know when im gettin my next paycheck.... dont know where my life is going in general.... dont know if the guy i'm into is into me... even though i hear he knows... damn i feel jr high ish....
Mom asked if i was working next weekend cuz La is goin down there.... I'm like I dont know my schedule yet... i really didnt say I'd rather see boland Friday and Matt Sunday like I've been planning to do instead....
I'd like to go to the beach and all but I dont want to deal with a 3rd weekend in a row of traveling.... sure sunday I'm goin to livingston for matt, but thats only like an hour away... not too bad at all... and even though i think I'm crashing at danny's that night its not really like goin out of town out of town.... k I think I'm goin to bed before i babble anymore... laters....
Friday, June 03, 2005
I was bad yesterday and I played hooky on my 2nd day of work.... It was too pretty and I just couldn't make myself go in.... It was like Dillards... Only minus Dora.... So anyway I had an interview yesterday at a place off 290 and Gessner for a receptionist/admin assistant job... So I got there late, after getting lost in the boonies and hitting a mailbox, which did nothing to my car, thank goodness and I think I bombed the interview.... I think I came off as a snob, cuz I was flustered about the whole getting there fiasco and the guy was hard to read, body language wise so I'm not real sure what he was thinking.... But I should know for sure either way early next week.... Hopefully I got it regardless cuz its the 1st non retail interview I've had and I really do want out of retail....
Anyway so last night I went to the Firehouse for the Thursday night deal, and the Joshes did an hour long thing which was lovely.... I was kinda down at first cuz a certain someone wasnt there... then he showed up... and life was good again... So anyway, he got up with the joshes and did a song or 2... including my one of my faves, at least that he'll do.... Sitting a Bar.... Made me happy.... So anywho... We all hung out and stuff afterwards... He introduced me to his hot friend whose trying to break into the music biz and is an ex marine.... Not sure if that ex is a good or bad thing... I would have used to have said bad but then theres guys like Scott and his friends, that are crazy, yes but fun crazy.... More funny ha ha than funny queer type thing.... Anyway I got to explain about Galley to him so he may sign up.... SOOO, things on stage wound down about 12, 1230 ish and a bunch of people just gathered in the middle of the tables and just started to jam... Guitars, hot boys, and music, I was in heaven.... And most of the time I got to sit next to him, so I was on cloud 7.... (nine would be....yeah something else entirely.... ;) ) They started closing down the bar at like 2 and he had to leave in a hurry after getting an urgent sounding phone call.... Everyone sort of closed up shop around 230.... So after talking to him a bit last night I've determined a few things, though the biggies are up in the air still... 1. He really is an awesome guy and human being... 2. there really are white knights left in this world and hes one... 3. he's got an amazing smile... 4. My Nightengale instinct kicked in and all i wanted to do was take care of him (and not just in that way but others... ;) ) and 5. I'm not really sure anything will ever happen between us... He was treating me more like a buddy than a pretty girl.... So damn vexing....
So anyway I got home at like 245 or so got on Galley briefly and went to bed.... woke up late today and here i am.... ta da.... tonights Aaron Watson and 2morrow I leave for Corpus.... laters.
Anyway so last night I went to the Firehouse for the Thursday night deal, and the Joshes did an hour long thing which was lovely.... I was kinda down at first cuz a certain someone wasnt there... then he showed up... and life was good again... So anyway, he got up with the joshes and did a song or 2... including my one of my faves, at least that he'll do.... Sitting a Bar.... Made me happy.... So anywho... We all hung out and stuff afterwards... He introduced me to his hot friend whose trying to break into the music biz and is an ex marine.... Not sure if that ex is a good or bad thing... I would have used to have said bad but then theres guys like Scott and his friends, that are crazy, yes but fun crazy.... More funny ha ha than funny queer type thing.... Anyway I got to explain about Galley to him so he may sign up.... SOOO, things on stage wound down about 12, 1230 ish and a bunch of people just gathered in the middle of the tables and just started to jam... Guitars, hot boys, and music, I was in heaven.... And most of the time I got to sit next to him, so I was on cloud 7.... (nine would be....yeah something else entirely.... ;) ) They started closing down the bar at like 2 and he had to leave in a hurry after getting an urgent sounding phone call.... Everyone sort of closed up shop around 230.... So after talking to him a bit last night I've determined a few things, though the biggies are up in the air still... 1. He really is an awesome guy and human being... 2. there really are white knights left in this world and hes one... 3. he's got an amazing smile... 4. My Nightengale instinct kicked in and all i wanted to do was take care of him (and not just in that way but others... ;) ) and 5. I'm not really sure anything will ever happen between us... He was treating me more like a buddy than a pretty girl.... So damn vexing....
So anyway I got home at like 245 or so got on Galley briefly and went to bed.... woke up late today and here i am.... ta da.... tonights Aaron Watson and 2morrow I leave for Corpus.... laters.
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
Happy first day of hurricane season!!!! I'm prolly the only one happy about that.... But a tropical system only gets near here before veering off somewhere else... We havent really had much tropical activity full on.... we always get the tail end... Now I'm spitting in the wind I guess.... :)
ah well...
Today was my first day of work... a little overwhelming learning a while new system.... Left early cuz I felt queasy... go back again 2morrow at 10... tommorow night is the joshes at the Firehouse... Friday is Aaron Watson... Saturday and Sunday I'm in Corpus for the Trailers.... :)
also i got a phone call for an interview with some place called Rothman Counters... dont remember applying for it but we'll see how that goes...
I called Wade tonight... But not before psyching myself out for half an hour and Matt calling him and just gettin his VM... I laughed so hard when i heard it... instead of its wade leave a message and ill call you back... its this is wade you'll call me back (or something like that).... subliminal message or honest mistake? I dont know... :) But yeah I left him a message finally.... and havent heard back from him yet... but then its only been like 2 hours so i'll give him till 2morrow at least to call me back.... then.... I'll just wait some more... hehehe....
funny story... just went downstairs to make my lunch for work... was taking a dp out of the pantry and another rolled down and hit the washer and the hit the floor and exploded.... not all over the place but it got me pretty good... my hands and arms and glasses got the brunt of it... though theres some in my hair too... I like dp but this is ridiculous.... :)
aight i'm off to bed now... laters.....
ah well...
Today was my first day of work... a little overwhelming learning a while new system.... Left early cuz I felt queasy... go back again 2morrow at 10... tommorow night is the joshes at the Firehouse... Friday is Aaron Watson... Saturday and Sunday I'm in Corpus for the Trailers.... :)
also i got a phone call for an interview with some place called Rothman Counters... dont remember applying for it but we'll see how that goes...
I called Wade tonight... But not before psyching myself out for half an hour and Matt calling him and just gettin his VM... I laughed so hard when i heard it... instead of its wade leave a message and ill call you back... its this is wade you'll call me back (or something like that).... subliminal message or honest mistake? I dont know... :) But yeah I left him a message finally.... and havent heard back from him yet... but then its only been like 2 hours so i'll give him till 2morrow at least to call me back.... then.... I'll just wait some more... hehehe....
funny story... just went downstairs to make my lunch for work... was taking a dp out of the pantry and another rolled down and hit the washer and the hit the floor and exploded.... not all over the place but it got me pretty good... my hands and arms and glasses got the brunt of it... though theres some in my hair too... I like dp but this is ridiculous.... :)
aight i'm off to bed now... laters.....
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