I love men and I love Dr Pepper... And I love traveling and having a lot of both.... :) This weekend was soooo freaking awesome... Lets start from the beginning...
Saturday morning, Nicole comes and picks me up at about 9 am... we get to New Braunfels and I outsmart myself by noon... I forgot where the HEB was and got us misplaced... hehehe... So we got some snacks and drinks and went out to the camp site... Alot of people had just left to go float... So we hung out with at camp... I was told I was doable by like 2 different guys... Neither was one I'd do but I really appreciated the thought... Everyone got back from floating about 7 or so... Nicole and I left for the Honeybrowne/Creager show about 730... Got there a lil before 8... the opening band was on... Still don't know who he was... Talked to Chad for a bit... Went up to the stage and hung out there most of the show... HB was wondermous... I have no idea when they got the new hot drummer but DAMN.... If it wasnt for the one guy screaming College Days over and over it would have been damn near perfect... I damn near beat him down... As it was I shushed him and told him a bunch of times to be quiet as politely as i could... He even started screaming College Days during Texas Angel and that just ain't right... Its like the world's sweetest song (and of course its all about me... soft, green eyes... cmon.... :) )... Actually I think Fred said something about if you couldnt get laid after that song something just wasnt right or something... So yeah Creager goes on and I start tearing up... He does late night case of the blues and I'm bawling like a baby... All I wanted to do was go find one of my guys and get the world's greatest hug... But they were in Houston so I couldnt... Ah well... You can't always get what you want. Anyway so we left before Creager was done and it was raining... It poured the whole way back to the campground and we stopped briefly at a gas station to fill up and use the bathroom... Couldnt get into the gas station so we improvised... Yeah I won't mention the car wash... Or will I??? ;) Anyway it was still pouring when we got to the campsite so we wound up spending the night in Nicoles Jeep. Chad came out there about 130 or so and I was almost asleep and on the rag so I kinda blew him off... Bout 630 we woke up and moved to the tent for a couple of hours of sleep... We were woken up by a certain elise shaking our tent and rick comin in the door goin I hope no ones naked... I think he was disappointed we were fully clothed... So we got up and hung out at the campsite... People slowly started waking up and most everyone was up by 10... Bout noon or so some of the boys were out in the river (since we were camped right on it) with water guns.... That lasted till like 5 or so... Beers were tossed to them and beers were lost to the river... Least the ones Kevin didn't jump in and grab.... :) I dont think I've ever seen anything as funny as people tryin to save their beers and cigerettes from getting wet... and the poor girls... the hotter they were the more they got it... My feet and shins and my arms got a lil red cuz I was there (on the bank) most of the time... Took a shower in the worst bathroom ever... in only cold water.... sucked but at least i was cleaner.... Least I'm not as red as some of the people that floated the day before... Damn, I've never seen more people that bright a shade of red in a while... Rick had boobie lines, poor Brie had her arms and legs burned, Wade... yeah he was all kinds of red... Looking at him pained me... Well not so much I didn't continue to look... I broke out the Solarcaine Aloe just for him and it got passed around to everyone else... I got to take care of people the way i like to... Elise fell in the river and had a bunch of scrapes and stuff... Jay's 'friend' brought her son out to the camp and I took care of him for a bit while the boys jammed.... It was so cute he made his own lil 'instrument' out of a couple of sticks, a tab from a can and humming... Too cute for words... Wade handed me his guitar and laid on the bench and i attempted to remember the 6 monthes of guitar lessons from when i was like 12.... Didn't work so well... but Hunter (Jay's friends son) climbed in my lap and tried to play it and sing... Also too cute for words... lets see... dinner was made at some point... much drinking was done... Kyla called to see where we were... only Lucky had a ticket for that night (morrow at the icehouse) and he wasnt able to go anywhere cuz his feet were so damn swollen... at some point some random chick passed out in Joe's tent... she woke up found out her name was Tiffany and I left her alone the rest of the trip... thats just trouble waiting to happen... couple of the guys were real solicitous of her, some out of true concern and one or 2 of em cuz I think they thought they could get some.... yeah, no.... Lets see... It started raining again HARD and fast about 8 or so... Luckily Nicole and I had packed up all our stuff in the jeep just in case... It even hailed for a bit... Luckily this time it only lasted for like an hour or 2... Then it tapered off and we got back out and hung out bewteen cars... Everything in camp got soaked. except our stuff... the campground looked almost destroyed... a bunch of tents were half down and stuff... So I wound up hanging out with Matt, the drunk chick, Nicole, Sheena, Wade, Rick and avery and brie were in the tahoe... Yeah I had a good time then... I was sly and got a hot boy's phone #... And then I got said hot boy in a full body press... that was nice... And he acted like he didnt want to move... then later he did the whole old school ok I'll put my arm around your shoulders and you won't notice thing... So cute.... Then when I had to move he pulled me back to him so I leaned against him... theres a bunch of coulda shoulda wouldas in here but I wont go there... it was lovely... till the rain started back up lightly about 1 and i went to bed in the jeep till i woke up at 5 having to pee and hearing them still talking... So I woke up, peed and came back and hung out with them... we all sort of got our stuff together and left by like 9 or so... the drunk girl went with rick and them. and nicole and i came back to houston... I got home, talked to lauren briefly and fell asleep till almost 5... took a shower, checked my email and i think I'm goin to see bleu at the sidecar after while... all in all an awesome weekend... :) laters.
Not Your Average Jane
Monday, May 30, 2005
Friday, May 27, 2005
So I'm almost completely packed... a few more lil things I need to put in after i get ready in the morning but otherwise done... So if you need me bewteen Saturday morning and Monday afternoon.... I will be in New Braunfels, Texas... Chilling out river side... Having a ball with friends. If you really need me, my cell will be on, maybe not on me but it will be on, so call me if you need me... Leave a voice mail and I'll call you back. Promise. Everyone have a safe holiday weekend and I'll see ya when i get back... laters....
Thursday, May 26, 2005
Death sucks... Once again that fact was reinterated to me... But at the same time I realized (again) how tight a family the Texas music scene is... Theres a tragedy and they band together... (unintentional play on words there.) Someone has an accident and people get together to have a benefit so they're bills can get paid... But they celebrate like its going out of style for the happy times too... A baby's birth, a wedding, and holidays even... (3 words: Randy, Wade and Halloween too too funny that was... Big N Rich... I've never laughed so hard when they walked on stage together for the first time... :) ) So a Creager's road manager, Kirby died... I didn't ever know him but I've literally heard so much about him and how great he was I almost feel as though I did... Which may explain why all I want to do is burst into tears when I think about him and his passing... And how it could easily have been anyone I DO know and care about... Took everything in me not to call all my friends and make sure everyone was ok... I did make a couple of calls just to some people I know that knew him to make sure they were doing ok... though there was one i wanted to make and never did... i should have.... They are, but they're understandable down about a good friend dying young like that, I think it made a lot of em realize how short life can be and it kinda scared em to face their own mortality that way... I can't count the times I heard the phrase "it could have been me..." and all I can say as selfish as it may sound is that I'm glad it wasn't.... Not that I'm glad anyone died... cuz lord knows I'm not... I'm sad for his family and friends and band mates, death is harsh and its a shame that the good die young...
ok on to other not so deep stuff.... I don't want to go to work my last 2 days.... Its like I've handed in my resignation, signed the paperwork, and have a new job lined up to start Tuesday... So whats my motivation to go my last 2 days? Not the money thats for damn sure... and after tonight that'll be my last paycheck till they mail me my last check whenever they get around to doing that and my new job I dont get a pay check for like another 2 weeks... So it looks like Ali will have to budget well for the next 2 weeks... ugh... and with 2 trips coming up too... thats gonna suck.
Went to the movies with Sean... saw the new star wars... laughed most of the 1st hour... texted people like crazy the 2nd and kept asking if it was over yet in the last half hour.... and somewhere in there I started singing I did it all for the wookie... irritated the crap out of sean.... it was greatness... I'm either gonna go see lords of dogtown with him or danny.... or he and laurie and danny and i could double... ooo I dont think I've ever double dated before, esp not with an ex and a potential.... should be interesting to say the least.... hehehehe.....
I'm gettin really excited about the camping trip... Nicoles comin over about 9 or so Saturday morning and we're gonna head out to NB... shes gonna float... I'm not. and then I come back Monday in time for a shower and Bleu Edmondson at the sidecar... I hope I can talk a certain somebody into goin with me and camping with us this weekend... shouldnt be a problem... i dont think... thats bout it... laters.
ok on to other not so deep stuff.... I don't want to go to work my last 2 days.... Its like I've handed in my resignation, signed the paperwork, and have a new job lined up to start Tuesday... So whats my motivation to go my last 2 days? Not the money thats for damn sure... and after tonight that'll be my last paycheck till they mail me my last check whenever they get around to doing that and my new job I dont get a pay check for like another 2 weeks... So it looks like Ali will have to budget well for the next 2 weeks... ugh... and with 2 trips coming up too... thats gonna suck.
Went to the movies with Sean... saw the new star wars... laughed most of the 1st hour... texted people like crazy the 2nd and kept asking if it was over yet in the last half hour.... and somewhere in there I started singing I did it all for the wookie... irritated the crap out of sean.... it was greatness... I'm either gonna go see lords of dogtown with him or danny.... or he and laurie and danny and i could double... ooo I dont think I've ever double dated before, esp not with an ex and a potential.... should be interesting to say the least.... hehehehe.....
I'm gettin really excited about the camping trip... Nicoles comin over about 9 or so Saturday morning and we're gonna head out to NB... shes gonna float... I'm not. and then I come back Monday in time for a shower and Bleu Edmondson at the sidecar... I hope I can talk a certain somebody into goin with me and camping with us this weekend... shouldnt be a problem... i dont think... thats bout it... laters.
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
So i went shopping today... Since I'm goin to the river to camp for the first time in like 2 years, this being only my 2nd time to really camp... girl scout camping doesn't really count most of the time we had cabins and/or were in buildings (ie the Wax (or is it the train museum with wax figures?? whichever) Museum in Galveston).... but my thought for a second ago... since I've only been camping once I'm not really sure what to get... so I'm getting stuff together like I'm goin out of town overnight.... a backpack with clothes and toiletries, my 2 pillows, camp chair, and my Texas flag afgan and towels... I think I should be good to go for the weekend... take an extra pair of flip flops, sun block, bug spray, a 1st aid kit and my meds (my nexium for my stomach, I dont have weird psychological problems... Well I'm not a mind reader, that could be a problem... hehehe...).... need to get some TP still... and I'm still debating on the box of condoms... but then I dont know the right size to get (yes I do have someone in mind as quite a few people know...) and I seriously doubt with my morals it'll happen this weekend... If it does at all...
I'll prolly grab my swiss army knife out of the car and i got a new flashlight (if you have to go in the middle of the night... you have to go....). So Nicole's coming over about 830, 9 oclock Saturday morning and we'll leave from here and hopefully get there by 11 ish... I'm not floating but Nicole is... The river still scares me after what happened a few years ago... Actually I dont think I've been tubing since then at all... I could raft, but theres not enough ability to control situations in a tube as there is in a raft... Though I've never been in a raft so its all guessing on my part....
Aight... Work. I didnt go today. I'm off tommorrow... and I really don't feel like goin the rest of the week... Its not like I'll get paid anytime soon for this week.... I'll be getting this pay check about the first time I get my paycheck for Loehmanns... about 2, 2 and half weeks from now... thats gonna hurt the old bank account... 2 trips in those 2 weeks too... Should be interesting to see how I budget.... Hopefully well.... :)
Had orientation at Loehmann's yesterday.... spent about 2 and half hours doing paperwork and watching videoes... just me and the manager, Jon.... I fibbed and said I had a dentist appt so i could leave at 1230.... how bad am I? turns out, their dress code is exactly like Dillards, down to the no open toe shoes policy... also they only make the schedules a week in advance... and pay is bi weekly... and they have a demerit system for tardies and absences... up to 14 before your fired.... but they roll off after 3 monthes... and theres a 90 day probationary period, after which your job is safe till the yearly review in march/april or your fired... and you get a 15 percent discount right off... and your (my) mom and sisters can all use it.... that rocks hard core... they also say (haven't seen it put to the test yet) that you get 3 days leave for the death of an immediate family member... even longer if they lived far away (like West Texas or Alabama).... I may put it to the test for the 4th of july in NB... We'll see how flexible they are....
um lets see... talked to seany... made a date to go see Lords of Dogtown when it comes out (i think next week), I still need to see the new Star wars and longest yard when it comes out.... I called danny today and we may go out friday.... nothing for sure yet.... thats bout it for now.... laters....
I'll prolly grab my swiss army knife out of the car and i got a new flashlight (if you have to go in the middle of the night... you have to go....). So Nicole's coming over about 830, 9 oclock Saturday morning and we'll leave from here and hopefully get there by 11 ish... I'm not floating but Nicole is... The river still scares me after what happened a few years ago... Actually I dont think I've been tubing since then at all... I could raft, but theres not enough ability to control situations in a tube as there is in a raft... Though I've never been in a raft so its all guessing on my part....
Aight... Work. I didnt go today. I'm off tommorrow... and I really don't feel like goin the rest of the week... Its not like I'll get paid anytime soon for this week.... I'll be getting this pay check about the first time I get my paycheck for Loehmanns... about 2, 2 and half weeks from now... thats gonna hurt the old bank account... 2 trips in those 2 weeks too... Should be interesting to see how I budget.... Hopefully well.... :)
Had orientation at Loehmann's yesterday.... spent about 2 and half hours doing paperwork and watching videoes... just me and the manager, Jon.... I fibbed and said I had a dentist appt so i could leave at 1230.... how bad am I? turns out, their dress code is exactly like Dillards, down to the no open toe shoes policy... also they only make the schedules a week in advance... and pay is bi weekly... and they have a demerit system for tardies and absences... up to 14 before your fired.... but they roll off after 3 monthes... and theres a 90 day probationary period, after which your job is safe till the yearly review in march/april or your fired... and you get a 15 percent discount right off... and your (my) mom and sisters can all use it.... that rocks hard core... they also say (haven't seen it put to the test yet) that you get 3 days leave for the death of an immediate family member... even longer if they lived far away (like West Texas or Alabama).... I may put it to the test for the 4th of july in NB... We'll see how flexible they are....
um lets see... talked to seany... made a date to go see Lords of Dogtown when it comes out (i think next week), I still need to see the new Star wars and longest yard when it comes out.... I called danny today and we may go out friday.... nothing for sure yet.... thats bout it for now.... laters....
Sunday, May 22, 2005
Story time children, gather round... If you dont want to hear it, tough.
So I was at Sam's Boat (pub/bar whatever...) and I got there really early... like reallly really early... like 530 and it didnt start till like 7.... Cooder Graw went 1st and ashley (linz's friend) was like he sounds like Robert Earl Keen... and I was like holy shit you're right... then about 9 or so honeybrowne came on.... They did Texas angel, which is like my most favorite HB song EVER.... Fred made a crack about if this song won't get ya laid nothing will.... and at the beginning of the song he was like look to your left and then your right, and make your monday plans tonight.... umm ok... one side was linz and the other was Ash and Carson (her boyfriend) and I'm like ok, so what am I doin Monday??? and start laughing....
Ran into Lindsay and Ken-doll who were there with some of their friends... Wound up hanging with them the rest of the night... Here comes the funny story part of all this... Ken-doll (or dear as I started calling him 2night) turns out he was nervous about hanging with me, thought I'd judge him or something... Yeah I'm the most least judgmental person EVER.... Anyway so we're hanging out and one of em mentions chad... Ken's like doesnt he play drums? (asking me, like he's not friends with the guy himself...) I really wanted to say he's like HB's version of Monty but I dont think they would have understood textile engineer for a band he's never heard of... And Linz (here comes the really fun part) is like, he's a nice guy you should date him... I tried not to laugh (not like funny ha ha, like cute, lets not talk about this now, please) as my first instinct was... I merely murmured something about she was right and tried to change the subject... I think she may be beginning to despair of me ever dating again... ah well, I will in my own good time...
oh and Linz and Ken got me into a conversation about how i turned him down... (i've explained it a millon times - I didn't exactly say no to him, I said no to a one night stand... theres a big difference...) Besides everyone I've told (like everyone I know) has had a similar reaction... ( IE eww... though after explaining my reasoning most people understood and agreed with me.... )
yeah so anyway i spent a good bit of time texting people... :)
when you're bored and feel like a 5th wheel theres no better way to kill time... I text chad too but I think he's still sulking about being turned down... ah well...
anyway... so yeah I cut out of work early to go... and i'm off tommorrow but I have that orientation thing starting at 10 in the morning....
Saturday night was Gloria's baby shower... it started like an hour late and only about 7 people showed up.... i was the token white person... hehehee.... It was all good, I'm used to being in the minority, being the only girl in a group of guys mainly but the whole race thing isn't much different.... one guy did show up.... joel and i were talking about if baby showers were co ed or not, we didn't really know... anyway I got home about midnight and crashed...
hmm... not much else happening round here.... laters...
So I was at Sam's Boat (pub/bar whatever...) and I got there really early... like reallly really early... like 530 and it didnt start till like 7.... Cooder Graw went 1st and ashley (linz's friend) was like he sounds like Robert Earl Keen... and I was like holy shit you're right... then about 9 or so honeybrowne came on.... They did Texas angel, which is like my most favorite HB song EVER.... Fred made a crack about if this song won't get ya laid nothing will.... and at the beginning of the song he was like look to your left and then your right, and make your monday plans tonight.... umm ok... one side was linz and the other was Ash and Carson (her boyfriend) and I'm like ok, so what am I doin Monday??? and start laughing....
Ran into Lindsay and Ken-doll who were there with some of their friends... Wound up hanging with them the rest of the night... Here comes the funny story part of all this... Ken-doll (or dear as I started calling him 2night) turns out he was nervous about hanging with me, thought I'd judge him or something... Yeah I'm the most least judgmental person EVER.... Anyway so we're hanging out and one of em mentions chad... Ken's like doesnt he play drums? (asking me, like he's not friends with the guy himself...) I really wanted to say he's like HB's version of Monty but I dont think they would have understood textile engineer for a band he's never heard of... And Linz (here comes the really fun part) is like, he's a nice guy you should date him... I tried not to laugh (not like funny ha ha, like cute, lets not talk about this now, please) as my first instinct was... I merely murmured something about she was right and tried to change the subject... I think she may be beginning to despair of me ever dating again... ah well, I will in my own good time...
oh and Linz and Ken got me into a conversation about how i turned him down... (i've explained it a millon times - I didn't exactly say no to him, I said no to a one night stand... theres a big difference...) Besides everyone I've told (like everyone I know) has had a similar reaction... ( IE eww... though after explaining my reasoning most people understood and agreed with me.... )
yeah so anyway i spent a good bit of time texting people... :)
when you're bored and feel like a 5th wheel theres no better way to kill time... I text chad too but I think he's still sulking about being turned down... ah well...
anyway... so yeah I cut out of work early to go... and i'm off tommorrow but I have that orientation thing starting at 10 in the morning....
Saturday night was Gloria's baby shower... it started like an hour late and only about 7 people showed up.... i was the token white person... hehehee.... It was all good, I'm used to being in the minority, being the only girl in a group of guys mainly but the whole race thing isn't much different.... one guy did show up.... joel and i were talking about if baby showers were co ed or not, we didn't really know... anyway I got home about midnight and crashed...
hmm... not much else happening round here.... laters...
Saturday, May 21, 2005
I love being friends with Sean... Actaully its not just being friends with him I love... Its his voicemail... He changes it once every week or so, always something funny and distinctly him... Last time I got his VM it was, "Its Sean and you missed me.... Too damn bad for you..." "Leave a message, fuck you very much..." His mama loved that one... This time it was " I'm sleeping or surfing... Leaving a message doesn't mean I'll call back..." He's such a dork sometimes... I dont think he's ever used that prerecorded insert name VM... But yeah so I called him cuz there was a skate demo at the mall 2day and I thought he'd like to go... I went over there for a few and all the boys were like young enough to be my much younger brothers... a couple I think to be my kids... All of em skinny as heck... made me feel rather old and dowdy... and then I saw a familar face... This guy Danny whose an old friend of Sean and Nate's from pre Vans park days... Still a hottie. I got a nice sweaty hug and his phone #... :) So today at work I finally handed in my notice and Friday's my official last day...
I took 2 tardies today and I'm taking another 2morrow to go to Sam's Boat for Honeybrowne.... Yesterday I ran a bunch of errands... almost ran over some mormons... (hey kev, you think they'd kick us out of the Church for that??? lmao.....) Got Gloria's shower gift and my nexium refilled... Went to shoe shopping and at one place they were jamming to Wave on Wave... that on top of the this time around the day before at another shoe store made my week texas music wise... I did buy 2 pairs of shoes at DSW.... and on Monday I'm goin in for some orientation at 10 am at Loehmanns... so today at work pretty much all i did was slack so not much occured... Glo's baby shower doesn't start till 9 so i have an hour to get ready before i need to leave... I only need like not even half of that... I called bec on the way to work and tried to convince her to go to the surf club tonight to get her opinion on something... dont think she's goin cuz she doesnt feel well.... and I really did want her opinion on this... darnit... ooo and linz told me she saw Chad (actually she said "my friend, Chad..." )the other night and she thought (or was it Ken doll, I can't remember...) he was on steriods... I swear I haven't laughed that hard in a while... I was like are we talking about the same guy here??? Then I was tempted to ask if she'd ever seen a guy on roids... Somehow i dont think so or else she'd realize how completely opposite of that Chad is... In a good way... No anger issues or muscle bound jerkness like some of the guys I've known who did... She said ken said that he used to be scrawny like ken is.. (ken's not really scrawny, just has very lil muscle mass and hes a lil taller than me...) I called elise after that and left her a VM... she called me back later and shes like all I got was chad, steriods and sister... Turns out i was laughing too hard to be understood... Its been known to happen...
speaking of drugs I was talking to someone today up in the break room about Thompson (he called me this morning at like 4 am, I didnt get it cuz I didnt hear it ring)... and hes like yeah last time I saw him, he looked bad off... like he's doing something bad... (this said with an obvious swipe/sniff of the nose/wink thing) This guy (works in shoes) said he'd seen him a few weeks ago and his eyes are sunken back in his head and his cheeks are really hollow looking... when i talked to him a few weeks ago he sounded messed up (not just drunk at 4 pm...) so yeah, we were both thinking he's into some heavy shit... which is really too bad cuz he's one of the nicest guys I've met... A flirt yes and a wanna be player sure, but a nice guy nonetheless...
dyed my hair blond yesterday... looks kinda orange carroty blond... Arnecia said I look younger with blond hair... now i'm tryin to decide whether or not to just make it blonder like I like it or go back to red.... i'll prolly redo it either way Wednesday.... I'm not really liking the color...
Monday I have orientation at Loehmanns at 10 am.... ugh. so much for having it off... ah well I'll live....
lalala... lets see what else... not too much else really occuring... so yeah laters.....
I took 2 tardies today and I'm taking another 2morrow to go to Sam's Boat for Honeybrowne.... Yesterday I ran a bunch of errands... almost ran over some mormons... (hey kev, you think they'd kick us out of the Church for that??? lmao.....) Got Gloria's shower gift and my nexium refilled... Went to shoe shopping and at one place they were jamming to Wave on Wave... that on top of the this time around the day before at another shoe store made my week texas music wise... I did buy 2 pairs of shoes at DSW.... and on Monday I'm goin in for some orientation at 10 am at Loehmanns... so today at work pretty much all i did was slack so not much occured... Glo's baby shower doesn't start till 9 so i have an hour to get ready before i need to leave... I only need like not even half of that... I called bec on the way to work and tried to convince her to go to the surf club tonight to get her opinion on something... dont think she's goin cuz she doesnt feel well.... and I really did want her opinion on this... darnit... ooo and linz told me she saw Chad (actually she said "my friend, Chad..." )the other night and she thought (or was it Ken doll, I can't remember...) he was on steriods... I swear I haven't laughed that hard in a while... I was like are we talking about the same guy here??? Then I was tempted to ask if she'd ever seen a guy on roids... Somehow i dont think so or else she'd realize how completely opposite of that Chad is... In a good way... No anger issues or muscle bound jerkness like some of the guys I've known who did... She said ken said that he used to be scrawny like ken is.. (ken's not really scrawny, just has very lil muscle mass and hes a lil taller than me...) I called elise after that and left her a VM... she called me back later and shes like all I got was chad, steriods and sister... Turns out i was laughing too hard to be understood... Its been known to happen...
speaking of drugs I was talking to someone today up in the break room about Thompson (he called me this morning at like 4 am, I didnt get it cuz I didnt hear it ring)... and hes like yeah last time I saw him, he looked bad off... like he's doing something bad... (this said with an obvious swipe/sniff of the nose/wink thing) This guy (works in shoes) said he'd seen him a few weeks ago and his eyes are sunken back in his head and his cheeks are really hollow looking... when i talked to him a few weeks ago he sounded messed up (not just drunk at 4 pm...) so yeah, we were both thinking he's into some heavy shit... which is really too bad cuz he's one of the nicest guys I've met... A flirt yes and a wanna be player sure, but a nice guy nonetheless...
dyed my hair blond yesterday... looks kinda orange carroty blond... Arnecia said I look younger with blond hair... now i'm tryin to decide whether or not to just make it blonder like I like it or go back to red.... i'll prolly redo it either way Wednesday.... I'm not really liking the color...
Monday I have orientation at Loehmanns at 10 am.... ugh. so much for having it off... ah well I'll live....
lalala... lets see what else... not too much else really occuring... so yeah laters.....
Thursday, May 19, 2005
ok, so i don't like being anxious about anything... and i don't like having acid reflux... And I hate that my emotions are connected to my stomach... least thats how its always seemed to me... whenever i get nervous about anything, my reflux goes bananas... and i dont like change (whether its for the better or not)... I woke up this morning my stomach was goin nuts... and I was gonna sleep late and be late for work.... finally just decided to play hooky today... I'm bad I know but I can't seem to make myself go today... prolly cuz I know have this other job starting after memorial day... :) but back to acid reflux sucking... it does hard core... i woke up worrying about turning in my resignation (why I dont know), my boy problems (actually one guy one problem), what I'm goin to do this weekend, drivin to NB by myself (I've done it a million times why am I worrying now?), goin to Corpus (also done it a million times...), and worry about this new job... and worry about finding another one thats better... closer to home... more $$$... weekends off... worried about 4th of July.... worried about the ex(last time I saw him, he looked like he'd gotten into some heavy shit).... my loan, my car insurance... my cell phone bill.... huge worries about school and getting my degree.... For a girl who never used to worry about much thats a lot... ugh....
I'm gonna go play on GW and maybe go to Galleria or something...
laters....
I'm gonna go play on GW and maybe go to Galleria or something...
laters....
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
This is for the few people I didn't call screaming on the phone... Its just cuz I don't have your #... I had another interview at Loehmann's (its like an upscale Marshalls or TJ Max) today at 1... After almost an hour (thats right an hour) of talking, the manager tells me he should know by Friday, Monday at the latest if I had the job... But not half an hour later at Marshalls (of all places) he calls me and offers me the job... Its not my dream job but its at my old pay ($8's an hour), full time, I start after Memorial Day (so I can go to NB for 2 or 3 days ) and I have that next weekend off to go see the Trailers in Corpus!!!!!!! And the best part is... It gets me the hell out of Dillards!!!! I won't be able to give a full 2 weeks notice there, but I can't pass up this job... Can life get much better than this????????? So to everyone whose been thinking and praying and telling me things will get better thank you so so sooooo much!!!!
geez copying and pasting that is soo much easier than just writing it again.... :)
anyway I'm celebrating tonight...I'm not sure how... I'm not sure with whom... But dammit I deserve it!!! :)
It also means if the firing rumors are true I don't have to worry anymore... How sweet is that??? And they'll have me working in the Back Room section with all the formals, so I can be all around pretty girly stuff for once... I never thought I'd say I missed it but I have.... Weird...
So I actually do know the 1st step to celebrating... I treated myself to La Madeleine and I'm goin to attempt to make my own 7 and 7.... We'll see how that turns out... I really want to find some place that makes killa Long Islands though... Maybe the Firehouse?? eh, I need someplace new to go... but yeah I'm outta Dillards... How freaking awesome.... :)
thats it for now...
laters.
geez copying and pasting that is soo much easier than just writing it again.... :)
anyway I'm celebrating tonight...I'm not sure how... I'm not sure with whom... But dammit I deserve it!!! :)
It also means if the firing rumors are true I don't have to worry anymore... How sweet is that??? And they'll have me working in the Back Room section with all the formals, so I can be all around pretty girly stuff for once... I never thought I'd say I missed it but I have.... Weird...
So I actually do know the 1st step to celebrating... I treated myself to La Madeleine and I'm goin to attempt to make my own 7 and 7.... We'll see how that turns out... I really want to find some place that makes killa Long Islands though... Maybe the Firehouse?? eh, I need someplace new to go... but yeah I'm outta Dillards... How freaking awesome.... :)
thats it for now...
laters.
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
So I was thinking this morning about that whole Paula Abdul/Corey Clark thing… Prolly cuz Ryan Seacrest was on Leno right before Dierks last night… And honestly, I think the boy is lying through his teeth to promote himself… Nice to know Ryan Seacrest agrees with me… But I got to thinking even if it is true, it doesn’t really matter… Their age difference is a lil larger than most but he was 18 at the time all this supposedly happened. So as long as he was legal it’s no one’s business but their own. Unfortunately there are some people who like to capitalize on scandal, real or imagined, and he’s one of those…
If it was true my respect for Paula’s gone down a lot…. Sure its unprofessional but my main complaint is this…. HES NOT EVEN ATTRACTIVE!!!!! She can do (and has done) much better in the past…
But I was thinking about all this and I related it all back to myself… Almost every guy I’ve had interest in in the last year or so has been younger than me… Its not a big deal to me, cuz most guys are just lil boys dressed up as men anyway (and so nicely too) but some of the maturity levels are reallllly different. And that’s my main argument when people poke fun at me… Hell I’ll poke fun of me and start singing, Mrs. Robinson… :0)
Let’s see what else… Oh yes, my new favorite store opened down the street over by Charlies (the best burger in town, no lie… well either there or Becks….) and TJ Maxx… Massage Envy… 1 hour massage at the intro rate of $30’s… Not too shabby… One day if my own personal masseuse fails me in some way I may try it… That’s another thing I’ve used my body for to get and give massages… :0)
But yeah I was talking to Chad when I passed it and I think I may have promised to give him one a while back… I don’t remember for sure or not, but am I gonna complain? Hell no… Am I gonna turn down touching a cute boy? That’s like asking if the sun’s gonna rise in the morning… I think this was also the conversation where we talked about having one night stands and he told me I should go make some random guys day and offer him a night of sex, no strings attached… Yeah like that’s gonna happen… I may think about propositioning random guys but actually following through with that… Yeah, soooo not happening…
Let’s see work situation… Dora’s still on vaca… Rick’s still our ASM… And Brophy is still irritating the hell out of me on the floor all the damn time. Glo’s been having contractions… and she’s only 7 monthes along… that can’t be good… But then what do I know, I’ve never been preggers… Saw a guy I went to high school with today… He hadn’t changed any… There are still rumors about firings that are going to occur…. I have that meeting with Jon at Loehmann’s tomorrow at 1… The way that T made it sound on the phone I had it in the bag… But you never know… So I’m keeping my fingers crossed…. If things go the way I hope… I can give my 2 weeks at the end of the week, while Dora’s not there and then have my weekend in NB for Memorial Day and my weekend in Corpus for the Trailers… then on Monday the 6th, start the new job… Old pay, same hours, and it seems as though the managers are a lot better than Dillards…
Then when I’m done at Loehmanns I’m goin to the movie/music place across the parking lot to see if theres a Croce CD with Box # 10 and a Skynyrd CD with both Curtis Lowe and T for Texas… I don’t know if that exists even but we’ll see… Also I’ve been told I have to get some Zepplin, Phish and Floyd… Prolly won’t get the Floyd I’m kinda sick of it… Its like all I hear when I’m with the boys… So we’ll go and see what they have…. And then its off to do more bathing suit shopping and hopefully finding one… But again we’ll see… And then 2morrow night I’m either goin out to celebrate the new job or drowning my sorrows… So if I do get the job I’ll prolly call everyone in my address book screaming or something… :0)
That’s all for now… laters….
If it was true my respect for Paula’s gone down a lot…. Sure its unprofessional but my main complaint is this…. HES NOT EVEN ATTRACTIVE!!!!! She can do (and has done) much better in the past…
But I was thinking about all this and I related it all back to myself… Almost every guy I’ve had interest in in the last year or so has been younger than me… Its not a big deal to me, cuz most guys are just lil boys dressed up as men anyway (and so nicely too) but some of the maturity levels are reallllly different. And that’s my main argument when people poke fun at me… Hell I’ll poke fun of me and start singing, Mrs. Robinson… :0)
Let’s see what else… Oh yes, my new favorite store opened down the street over by Charlies (the best burger in town, no lie… well either there or Becks….) and TJ Maxx… Massage Envy… 1 hour massage at the intro rate of $30’s… Not too shabby… One day if my own personal masseuse fails me in some way I may try it… That’s another thing I’ve used my body for to get and give massages… :0)
But yeah I was talking to Chad when I passed it and I think I may have promised to give him one a while back… I don’t remember for sure or not, but am I gonna complain? Hell no… Am I gonna turn down touching a cute boy? That’s like asking if the sun’s gonna rise in the morning… I think this was also the conversation where we talked about having one night stands and he told me I should go make some random guys day and offer him a night of sex, no strings attached… Yeah like that’s gonna happen… I may think about propositioning random guys but actually following through with that… Yeah, soooo not happening…
Let’s see work situation… Dora’s still on vaca… Rick’s still our ASM… And Brophy is still irritating the hell out of me on the floor all the damn time. Glo’s been having contractions… and she’s only 7 monthes along… that can’t be good… But then what do I know, I’ve never been preggers… Saw a guy I went to high school with today… He hadn’t changed any… There are still rumors about firings that are going to occur…. I have that meeting with Jon at Loehmann’s tomorrow at 1… The way that T made it sound on the phone I had it in the bag… But you never know… So I’m keeping my fingers crossed…. If things go the way I hope… I can give my 2 weeks at the end of the week, while Dora’s not there and then have my weekend in NB for Memorial Day and my weekend in Corpus for the Trailers… then on Monday the 6th, start the new job… Old pay, same hours, and it seems as though the managers are a lot better than Dillards…
Then when I’m done at Loehmanns I’m goin to the movie/music place across the parking lot to see if theres a Croce CD with Box # 10 and a Skynyrd CD with both Curtis Lowe and T for Texas… I don’t know if that exists even but we’ll see… Also I’ve been told I have to get some Zepplin, Phish and Floyd… Prolly won’t get the Floyd I’m kinda sick of it… Its like all I hear when I’m with the boys… So we’ll go and see what they have…. And then its off to do more bathing suit shopping and hopefully finding one… But again we’ll see… And then 2morrow night I’m either goin out to celebrate the new job or drowning my sorrows… So if I do get the job I’ll prolly call everyone in my address book screaming or something… :0)
That’s all for now… laters….
Monday, May 16, 2005
Have you ever just been thinking about someone and then they call you? Happened to me yesterday, while I was out shopping... Very odd... And I don't know why I was even thinking about this person... Hell yes I do.... I'm not about to start lying to myself, let alone on my blog... I have a particular affection for this person.... And yes that is a another way to say I dig him... :)
for once in my life, I'm not being an outrageous flirt and so easily attainable... Its kinda a cool feeling but at the same time I find myself waffling about his interest... But I'm goin with what Kev said (thanks Dear Abby... :) ) that its just too early to tell...
And I think I'm going to agree with him there... Someone take a picture this doesn't happen often... :)
So away from the guy thoughts for the moment... Someone told me I was boring this weekend... it so happens it was a guy but thats beside the point... He obviously doesn't know me well... He also told me I should make some random guys day and proposition him.. Too bad I'm picky... Though, I would proposition some not so random guys given the chance... Back to the fact I'm not boring... :P I'm not going to defend myself I'll just say this particular person may learn very different in the future.... As most people do... Appearances can be deceiving... Don't judge a book by its cover... cliches I know... But they apply here... So there... :P
back to the guy I dig... Seany told me I say his name a particular way... His words: You say that like you really really like him...
My answer? I do.... :)
so my life otherwise... okay... I worked today... did a shit load of mark downs.... trained a new person... Melanie.
Longest Yard comes out at the end of the month? SWEET!!! :)
so yeah work... got off at 6... came home.... had dinner.... checked GW and my email... I need to go return that movie to Cactus too... Damn I guess if you just read that I do look boring.. Ah well, he'll soon learn thats not true... ;)
thats about it for now...laters....
for once in my life, I'm not being an outrageous flirt and so easily attainable... Its kinda a cool feeling but at the same time I find myself waffling about his interest... But I'm goin with what Kev said (thanks Dear Abby... :) ) that its just too early to tell...
And I think I'm going to agree with him there... Someone take a picture this doesn't happen often... :)
So away from the guy thoughts for the moment... Someone told me I was boring this weekend... it so happens it was a guy but thats beside the point... He obviously doesn't know me well... He also told me I should make some random guys day and proposition him.. Too bad I'm picky... Though, I would proposition some not so random guys given the chance... Back to the fact I'm not boring... :P I'm not going to defend myself I'll just say this particular person may learn very different in the future.... As most people do... Appearances can be deceiving... Don't judge a book by its cover... cliches I know... But they apply here... So there... :P
back to the guy I dig... Seany told me I say his name a particular way... His words: You say that like you really really like him...
My answer? I do.... :)
so my life otherwise... okay... I worked today... did a shit load of mark downs.... trained a new person... Melanie.
Longest Yard comes out at the end of the month? SWEET!!! :)
so yeah work... got off at 6... came home.... had dinner.... checked GW and my email... I need to go return that movie to Cactus too... Damn I guess if you just read that I do look boring.. Ah well, he'll soon learn thats not true... ;)
thats about it for now...laters....
Sunday, May 15, 2005
ok I wrote this last night and its really long, so if you reallly want to read it, just beware it took up 2 pages on Word...
also I updated my poetry page and my calendar if you want to go take a look see under my links...
Lil rant here… Stemming from some stuff I’ve seen in the last week or so… I used to scream and yell and stay up close to the stage at shows… But I was never rude. And I NEVER used my body to get what I wanted (ok so I have a lil just for free drinks, so sue me…) and I have never wanted to sleep with someone famous because they were famous and/or had money… Maybe cuz I unlike a lot of people grew up with money (my dad was in the oil biz in the 80s) and so its not as important to me? And the men I spent my childhood around, had money and power and fame… If I sat here and named all the people I met because my daddy was well off and connected to the Democratic Party, you’d either never believe me or you’d wonder what the hell happened to me.
How can you grow up around money and not look like some rich bitch? Easy. I didn’t know we had money… I just assumed everyone lived like we did. I had a sheltered childhood and until junior high I was in the majority… White upper middle class… My jr high was an eye opener… And it was my 6th grade year that daddy died. The year before I had started horse back riding lessons (even had my own horse named Black Beauty – how horse crazy was I?), and quit Girl Scouts… It was in the beginning of 5th grade I got over my fear of dogs… Yeah I know I love em now but when I was a kid I was scared shitless of em… Big or small…. I took lessons even though daddy owned a ranch and I had my own horse there. I continued to take lessons after daddy died until 8th grade and then I quit that too… I grew up in a house in the Memorial area… A house that was two stories and had a pool, backyard, and hot tub. Did I mention the 3 car garage yet? Yeah we had one of those too…. Plus the ranch in Laredo, daddy always swore George Strait’s was right across the freeway… He was so full of shit…. The Strait ranch is closer to San Antonio… And the condo and house on Keel Ave in Corpus… People wonder why CC is like my 2nd home and its cuz I’ve spent so much damn time there… Rarely do I have to ask Becca directions… though usually she does know some back roads I don’t…. So I guess I’ll keep her around…
When I was 5, he moved out of the house but they didn’t get divorced till I was in 3rd or 4th grade… My sisters don’t remember the arguing before he moved out but I do… And I loved the man but he was full of shit, only about half of what he said was the truth and he was an alcoholic. So even though I am German Irish and can handle my liquor, that’s one of the reasons I don’t drink often…
The year after daddy died we moved to Ripple Creek, a nice lil one story with a back yard and a car port… A year or so after daddy died we gave away 2 of our 3 dogs… Taffy and Cookie… Apricot toy poodle sisters born a year apart… We kept Tiffy, Taffy’s littermate till she died the year before we moved to the townhouse… Some of the absolute sweetest dogs I have ever met. Wouldn’t guard worth a damn. They’d rather lick you to death than attack… If they bit you it was by accident. And good God they wouldn’t fetch… They’d just sit there and look at whatever you threw like they expected you to go get it…. My 7th grade year right around Christmas, Mom sent Taffy and Cookie to ‘obedience school’… Turns out she sent them to Corpus with my aunt Pam and given them away…. And she told us what she’d done on La’s birthday… That was a smart move…. But I don’t think I’ll ever get lucky enough to find another dog like em anywhere… I’ve found a few that remind me of em but there will never be another Tiff… Or Taffy or Cookie for that matter…
We buried her behind the car port at the Ripple Creek house and Pecos (or el gato loco as I like to call him… ) was moved ‘temporarily’ to Becca’s house in Corpus… We’ve always had a menagerie of some sort… Cats for the most part till I was in 5th grade because of my phobia of dogs… Birds… fish…. Hamsters…. We never tried reptiles but we did have frogs and turtles… 4th and 5th grade I got over my fear for the most part (bigger dogs made me nervous till a high school) daddy and uncle David had a mutt named Rattler I fell in love at the ranch and a black lab named Blackie… I went to high school at Memorial, well known for its snotty, bitchy, well dressed people and the amount of money the parents put into the school…. I was the anti Memorial when I was there… Most of the people in my class back in 97 I had known since elementary school, and yes some of them were snotty stuck up asses but for the most part you wouldn’t meet nicer people anywhere. Goes to show how off some stereo types are…
We moved to the townhouse that’s almost downtown almost 2 years ago (this July) and I’m still not sure I like it or not… On one hand it is closer to downtown and the Med center and Memorial Park (all of which I hardly go to)… On the other there’s no greenery, no backyard, no hammock strung out between 2 trees to nap in on a warm afternoon…
Ok enough with the autobiography back to the rant… As I was saying, I don’t really understand why some girls feel they have to try to get with anyone that has even a small measure of fame (though in a lot of musicians cases, not a lot of money….)… Most of the people that I call my friends, who happen to fall into the ‘slightly famous’ depending on who you ask, I met them through my ex, so I got to know them as people before I knew what they did or how well they did it or how much money they made doing it… I’m grateful to my ex for introducing me to such awesome people but would I ever want to try to sleep with one of the guys that I’ve met through him? Not so much no… Dolls they are for the most part, they’re no angels, though I know no one is… Me included. I just don’t want to put up with all the shit I went through with my ex, just because he made his living a certain way. So what, he played guitar and sang? That was sexy sure. (I wanted to drag him off stage and strip him naked and take advantage of him sometimes, it was so sexy…) But to want to sleep with him just because that’s what he does for a living? Lord don’t make me laugh… Ha. Ha. ha. No it was never that… That was part of who he was and I just accepted it and knew it’d be tougher to have a relationship of any kind with him… But I thought it was worth it… Least till I found out about the lying and cheating part… Yeah, that was no fun. I was with that man because I thought he was the best thing since sliced bread… He was attractive, talented, ambitious, smart, and he could make me laugh… All my major requirements in a man… And he was such a romantic… I wasn’t with him cuz he had a CD out it was because I thought he was an amazing human being. I don’t know if anyone else ever thought that of him except me… He called me his conscience because I always wanted the best for him…Still do for that matter. And I know no matter how big an asswipe he acts, its mostly bravado and he wishes the same for me… Who do you think encouraged me to go back to school even though we’d only been dating a few months even though it’d be harder for us to see each other? Him.
Ok, enough with the ex back to the rant…. My question is, are some girls so desperate to be known for something that sleeping with someone even semi famous makes em think they’re the shit? Or are they so lacking in love in their lives they seek it from people who will just use and discard them? Or are some of them looking for a strong male influence in their lives and that’s the only way to get it? Look at me and my bad ass Psych 101…
Ok, this is far far too much info about me but it all lends credence to my original rant about groupies… I am a band aid. I love the music. I love the guys putting it out. But I don’t want to sleep with them all just cuz they play music. If that were true I’d have slept with practically every guy I’ve ever known since most of em play some sort of instrument… I’ve been in choir most of my life, so I’ve come across some really talented people. Do I want to sleep with them because of that? Hell no.
For reals this is the end. If you now hate me for writing so much… You’ll have to wait in line behind Sean who now wants to kick my ass (again) for keeping him waiting for the an hour while I typed this. And he came over to help me with a song… Oops…
Yeah and after I wrote this I barely managed to stay awake till like 12 30... Then he gave me a back rub and it was over... I don't even remember him leaving last night... then i woke up at noon... I'm sooo glad I'm off today... I haven't had a lazy Sunday in longer than I care to think about.... laters....
also I updated my poetry page and my calendar if you want to go take a look see under my links...
Lil rant here… Stemming from some stuff I’ve seen in the last week or so… I used to scream and yell and stay up close to the stage at shows… But I was never rude. And I NEVER used my body to get what I wanted (ok so I have a lil just for free drinks, so sue me…) and I have never wanted to sleep with someone famous because they were famous and/or had money… Maybe cuz I unlike a lot of people grew up with money (my dad was in the oil biz in the 80s) and so its not as important to me? And the men I spent my childhood around, had money and power and fame… If I sat here and named all the people I met because my daddy was well off and connected to the Democratic Party, you’d either never believe me or you’d wonder what the hell happened to me.
How can you grow up around money and not look like some rich bitch? Easy. I didn’t know we had money… I just assumed everyone lived like we did. I had a sheltered childhood and until junior high I was in the majority… White upper middle class… My jr high was an eye opener… And it was my 6th grade year that daddy died. The year before I had started horse back riding lessons (even had my own horse named Black Beauty – how horse crazy was I?), and quit Girl Scouts… It was in the beginning of 5th grade I got over my fear of dogs… Yeah I know I love em now but when I was a kid I was scared shitless of em… Big or small…. I took lessons even though daddy owned a ranch and I had my own horse there. I continued to take lessons after daddy died until 8th grade and then I quit that too… I grew up in a house in the Memorial area… A house that was two stories and had a pool, backyard, and hot tub. Did I mention the 3 car garage yet? Yeah we had one of those too…. Plus the ranch in Laredo, daddy always swore George Strait’s was right across the freeway… He was so full of shit…. The Strait ranch is closer to San Antonio… And the condo and house on Keel Ave in Corpus… People wonder why CC is like my 2nd home and its cuz I’ve spent so much damn time there… Rarely do I have to ask Becca directions… though usually she does know some back roads I don’t…. So I guess I’ll keep her around…
When I was 5, he moved out of the house but they didn’t get divorced till I was in 3rd or 4th grade… My sisters don’t remember the arguing before he moved out but I do… And I loved the man but he was full of shit, only about half of what he said was the truth and he was an alcoholic. So even though I am German Irish and can handle my liquor, that’s one of the reasons I don’t drink often…
The year after daddy died we moved to Ripple Creek, a nice lil one story with a back yard and a car port… A year or so after daddy died we gave away 2 of our 3 dogs… Taffy and Cookie… Apricot toy poodle sisters born a year apart… We kept Tiffy, Taffy’s littermate till she died the year before we moved to the townhouse… Some of the absolute sweetest dogs I have ever met. Wouldn’t guard worth a damn. They’d rather lick you to death than attack… If they bit you it was by accident. And good God they wouldn’t fetch… They’d just sit there and look at whatever you threw like they expected you to go get it…. My 7th grade year right around Christmas, Mom sent Taffy and Cookie to ‘obedience school’… Turns out she sent them to Corpus with my aunt Pam and given them away…. And she told us what she’d done on La’s birthday… That was a smart move…. But I don’t think I’ll ever get lucky enough to find another dog like em anywhere… I’ve found a few that remind me of em but there will never be another Tiff… Or Taffy or Cookie for that matter…
We buried her behind the car port at the Ripple Creek house and Pecos (or el gato loco as I like to call him… ) was moved ‘temporarily’ to Becca’s house in Corpus… We’ve always had a menagerie of some sort… Cats for the most part till I was in 5th grade because of my phobia of dogs… Birds… fish…. Hamsters…. We never tried reptiles but we did have frogs and turtles… 4th and 5th grade I got over my fear for the most part (bigger dogs made me nervous till a high school) daddy and uncle David had a mutt named Rattler I fell in love at the ranch and a black lab named Blackie… I went to high school at Memorial, well known for its snotty, bitchy, well dressed people and the amount of money the parents put into the school…. I was the anti Memorial when I was there… Most of the people in my class back in 97 I had known since elementary school, and yes some of them were snotty stuck up asses but for the most part you wouldn’t meet nicer people anywhere. Goes to show how off some stereo types are…
We moved to the townhouse that’s almost downtown almost 2 years ago (this July) and I’m still not sure I like it or not… On one hand it is closer to downtown and the Med center and Memorial Park (all of which I hardly go to)… On the other there’s no greenery, no backyard, no hammock strung out between 2 trees to nap in on a warm afternoon…
Ok enough with the autobiography back to the rant… As I was saying, I don’t really understand why some girls feel they have to try to get with anyone that has even a small measure of fame (though in a lot of musicians cases, not a lot of money….)… Most of the people that I call my friends, who happen to fall into the ‘slightly famous’ depending on who you ask, I met them through my ex, so I got to know them as people before I knew what they did or how well they did it or how much money they made doing it… I’m grateful to my ex for introducing me to such awesome people but would I ever want to try to sleep with one of the guys that I’ve met through him? Not so much no… Dolls they are for the most part, they’re no angels, though I know no one is… Me included. I just don’t want to put up with all the shit I went through with my ex, just because he made his living a certain way. So what, he played guitar and sang? That was sexy sure. (I wanted to drag him off stage and strip him naked and take advantage of him sometimes, it was so sexy…) But to want to sleep with him just because that’s what he does for a living? Lord don’t make me laugh… Ha. Ha. ha. No it was never that… That was part of who he was and I just accepted it and knew it’d be tougher to have a relationship of any kind with him… But I thought it was worth it… Least till I found out about the lying and cheating part… Yeah, that was no fun. I was with that man because I thought he was the best thing since sliced bread… He was attractive, talented, ambitious, smart, and he could make me laugh… All my major requirements in a man… And he was such a romantic… I wasn’t with him cuz he had a CD out it was because I thought he was an amazing human being. I don’t know if anyone else ever thought that of him except me… He called me his conscience because I always wanted the best for him…Still do for that matter. And I know no matter how big an asswipe he acts, its mostly bravado and he wishes the same for me… Who do you think encouraged me to go back to school even though we’d only been dating a few months even though it’d be harder for us to see each other? Him.
Ok, enough with the ex back to the rant…. My question is, are some girls so desperate to be known for something that sleeping with someone even semi famous makes em think they’re the shit? Or are they so lacking in love in their lives they seek it from people who will just use and discard them? Or are some of them looking for a strong male influence in their lives and that’s the only way to get it? Look at me and my bad ass Psych 101…
Ok, this is far far too much info about me but it all lends credence to my original rant about groupies… I am a band aid. I love the music. I love the guys putting it out. But I don’t want to sleep with them all just cuz they play music. If that were true I’d have slept with practically every guy I’ve ever known since most of em play some sort of instrument… I’ve been in choir most of my life, so I’ve come across some really talented people. Do I want to sleep with them because of that? Hell no.
For reals this is the end. If you now hate me for writing so much… You’ll have to wait in line behind Sean who now wants to kick my ass (again) for keeping him waiting for the an hour while I typed this. And he came over to help me with a song… Oops…
Yeah and after I wrote this I barely managed to stay awake till like 12 30... Then he gave me a back rub and it was over... I don't even remember him leaving last night... then i woke up at noon... I'm sooo glad I'm off today... I haven't had a lazy Sunday in longer than I care to think about.... laters....
Saturday, May 14, 2005
Best firefighter movie ever.... Backdraft.... Currently on Bravo...Sweet.... I hear Ladder 49's pretty good but this shizzle is CLASSIC!!!! How can you beat a Baldwin, Robert De Niro, Kurt Russell and Scott Glenn???? There's no way... well not unless it has Tom Cruise or Brad Pitt in it... theres a movie I'd like to see.... Tom, Brad, Kurt, Orlando Bloom, Johnny Depp, and De Niro... damn that'd be nice.... Eye candy AND talent... :)
Theres also a shit load of stuff I forgot to put in this morning....But first and foremost I have another interview with Loehmanns.... For the 8$ an hour job.... Wednesday at 1.... We'll see how that goes and hopefully I can get the hell out of Dillards by my dead day (June 6th - 2 days after my next trailers show...).... and if they do fire me in the next week or so not only could I do my Memorial Day trip to NB with the GW crew but my Corpus trip for the Trailers no problema.... As it stands I put in for the 4th and 5th off and I might play hooky on the 29th and go to NB on the 28th.... But we'll see....
Soooo I met Lindsay's boyfriend... He was actually pretty much what I expected... She likes dark haired guys that dress well.... Ken doll (as my mom calls him... If you met my sister you'd realize she bears a eery resemblence to Barbie... blond, blue eyed, tan and slender... Gorgeous girl... And my opinion's not at all biased... :)) is all of the above... Plus unlike most of her exes he has real goals and ambitions... We never did ask him what his intentions toward her were though.... We were all (me, mom, John and Lauren was there for a lil bit...) very polite.... Drank wine and visited.... very casual...
me in my t shirt and jeans and socks, drinking Dr Pepper... I'm soooo the rebel.... :)
So Dora's on vacation for a week... Brophy and Rick are down in mens constantly.... its really damn irritating...
From last night.... Deryl Dodd... Ok looking and he has a great ass.... Just no Clay Walker is all.... But who can beat that with a wet noodle? :)
I need to redo my hair... Only problem is what color? I could go blond... Could do it red again... Or I could do something COMPLETELY different... Like black.... that'd prolly wash out my complexion though....
also last night I learned more than I ever knew about the Corps of Cadets and TAMU.... (thanks, Kris) I had no idea Reveille switched around to a sophmore once a year... Sorry I just couldn't give up my dog after a year... Go find another one, this one's mine... I'd turn into an elf on horseback (hopefully one hot like Liv Tyler...) yelling across the river, You want him? Come and take him!!! I can almost see it now.... hehehe... I'm such a dork I know.... And anyone that couldn't figure that out it was a Lord of The Rings moment.... :)
ok guys I dig portion of the show... I was wrong about one of em being chubby... I think I just standing on a ledge by the bar so he looked shorter and therefore chubbier... Maybe??? But yeah he's not... He also has that hair I adore and I just want to play with.... Also he reminds me a bit of Chris.... before he got fired.... and I haven't seen or heard from him since.... ah well.... and it dawns on me I should prolly edit out direct references even without names cuz I know for a fact he reads this shit... dammit man. Yeah I'm trying to filter out the cussing in my language, can ya tell how well that's working?
back to the ex for a sec.... Why is it every time I see him I'm inspired to write a bunch of poems and songs? I wrote a bunch at work today (at least I was productive, right? :) )... and I even tried to write a song but I have to wait for Sean to really get anything else done on it...
and I think I mentioned I'm not goin to the sidecar tonight.... its too far... its supposed to rain.... i dont even know if one of the aggies I like will be there or not... plus all my cute goin out clothes are dirty and/or smell like smoke... And I really don't want to reek of smoke when i get home AGAIN... Plus I'm too damn tired....
I've been out the last 2 nights I can't do it again... I'm getting old dammit... I can almost here a few of my friends groaning excuses, excuses... Yeah they are but they're all valid... So bite me... :P
So anyway things are soo much different now at 26 than they were when I was like 16... Not just at shows but like life in general... Dating is different.... Every day things are too... My personality has gone through so many changes to this even most of the time, I only get loud and crazy on rare occasions anymore self... I've become more of an observer than anything... I like to watch people and situations develop... Ironic since I don't like to wait for things to happen for me... I'm like a kid like that... I want what I want when I want it... and I like cartoons still but thats another story entirely.... :) I went from punk rock princess to country queen to dare devil to crazy horny chick... I'm still horny crazy chick but I've toned down a lot... Least I feel like I have.... I used to literally almost attack hot guys, now I just chill for the most part... Only the occasional hottie gets molested these days.... those I run across quite I few I WOULD like to hump their legs, I have developed a sense of self control... Most of the time... ok i think thats really it for now... no idea what I'm doin tonight but I guess I'll figure it out when I'm doing it...
tommorrow I'm off and I may go to Blancos for a benefit thing at 2.... or I may hang with me familia... who knows??? I'll prolly find out when I'm doing it... :) laters....
Theres also a shit load of stuff I forgot to put in this morning....But first and foremost I have another interview with Loehmanns.... For the 8$ an hour job.... Wednesday at 1.... We'll see how that goes and hopefully I can get the hell out of Dillards by my dead day (June 6th - 2 days after my next trailers show...).... and if they do fire me in the next week or so not only could I do my Memorial Day trip to NB with the GW crew but my Corpus trip for the Trailers no problema.... As it stands I put in for the 4th and 5th off and I might play hooky on the 29th and go to NB on the 28th.... But we'll see....
Soooo I met Lindsay's boyfriend... He was actually pretty much what I expected... She likes dark haired guys that dress well.... Ken doll (as my mom calls him... If you met my sister you'd realize she bears a eery resemblence to Barbie... blond, blue eyed, tan and slender... Gorgeous girl... And my opinion's not at all biased... :)) is all of the above... Plus unlike most of her exes he has real goals and ambitions... We never did ask him what his intentions toward her were though.... We were all (me, mom, John and Lauren was there for a lil bit...) very polite.... Drank wine and visited.... very casual...
me in my t shirt and jeans and socks, drinking Dr Pepper... I'm soooo the rebel.... :)
So Dora's on vacation for a week... Brophy and Rick are down in mens constantly.... its really damn irritating...
From last night.... Deryl Dodd... Ok looking and he has a great ass.... Just no Clay Walker is all.... But who can beat that with a wet noodle? :)
I need to redo my hair... Only problem is what color? I could go blond... Could do it red again... Or I could do something COMPLETELY different... Like black.... that'd prolly wash out my complexion though....
also last night I learned more than I ever knew about the Corps of Cadets and TAMU.... (thanks, Kris) I had no idea Reveille switched around to a sophmore once a year... Sorry I just couldn't give up my dog after a year... Go find another one, this one's mine... I'd turn into an elf on horseback (hopefully one hot like Liv Tyler...) yelling across the river, You want him? Come and take him!!! I can almost see it now.... hehehe... I'm such a dork I know.... And anyone that couldn't figure that out it was a Lord of The Rings moment.... :)
ok guys I dig portion of the show... I was wrong about one of em being chubby... I think I just standing on a ledge by the bar so he looked shorter and therefore chubbier... Maybe??? But yeah he's not... He also has that hair I adore and I just want to play with.... Also he reminds me a bit of Chris.... before he got fired.... and I haven't seen or heard from him since.... ah well.... and it dawns on me I should prolly edit out direct references even without names cuz I know for a fact he reads this shit... dammit man. Yeah I'm trying to filter out the cussing in my language, can ya tell how well that's working?
back to the ex for a sec.... Why is it every time I see him I'm inspired to write a bunch of poems and songs? I wrote a bunch at work today (at least I was productive, right? :) )... and I even tried to write a song but I have to wait for Sean to really get anything else done on it...
and I think I mentioned I'm not goin to the sidecar tonight.... its too far... its supposed to rain.... i dont even know if one of the aggies I like will be there or not... plus all my cute goin out clothes are dirty and/or smell like smoke... And I really don't want to reek of smoke when i get home AGAIN... Plus I'm too damn tired....
I've been out the last 2 nights I can't do it again... I'm getting old dammit... I can almost here a few of my friends groaning excuses, excuses... Yeah they are but they're all valid... So bite me... :P
So anyway things are soo much different now at 26 than they were when I was like 16... Not just at shows but like life in general... Dating is different.... Every day things are too... My personality has gone through so many changes to this even most of the time, I only get loud and crazy on rare occasions anymore self... I've become more of an observer than anything... I like to watch people and situations develop... Ironic since I don't like to wait for things to happen for me... I'm like a kid like that... I want what I want when I want it... and I like cartoons still but thats another story entirely.... :) I went from punk rock princess to country queen to dare devil to crazy horny chick... I'm still horny crazy chick but I've toned down a lot... Least I feel like I have.... I used to literally almost attack hot guys, now I just chill for the most part... Only the occasional hottie gets molested these days.... those I run across quite I few I WOULD like to hump their legs, I have developed a sense of self control... Most of the time... ok i think thats really it for now... no idea what I'm doin tonight but I guess I'll figure it out when I'm doing it...
tommorrow I'm off and I may go to Blancos for a benefit thing at 2.... or I may hang with me familia... who knows??? I'll prolly find out when I'm doing it... :) laters....
edited at 10 pm....
you know its bad when you're at a show, to see your ex... Especially when he's supposed to be in another city all together.... whats worse than that is to have him standing next to a hot guy you want to hit on.... even worse still, having said ex ignore you and pretend you don't even exist.... ANNNNNNNNNDDDDDD even worse yet, Deryl Dodd played Bitter End soon after all this and it just reminded me so much of our relationship I almost cried.... I haven't cried over that stupid idiot in almost a year.... If I'd been drinking I would have I bet... as it was I teared up... dammit.... I don't like getting emotional, I like it even less doing it in public.... One good thing though.... He wasn't with some other chick.... least not when I saw him... And there's one thing I can say about the sorry bastard, he taught me what to look for the next go round.... ok well two.... Karma's a bitch.... And I hope he learns that not cuz I'm vengeful (ok just a smidge - but in a good I love a good gory flick, but I'm not like a psycho killa or anything way...)) but because he can't go through life using people and discarding them the way he does... It'll come back to bit him on the ass one day....
In happy thought land there were at least 2 guys there I know and I'm kinda sorta into... though I doubt anything will happen with either one...
One is younger than me (shocking i know) short skinny guy who still has issues over his ex.... the other.... why did I think he was chubby the other night? I can't remember... but then I'm decked so I can't recall much at the moment other than he seems like a genuinely nice guy and he's nice to look at.... though I've been fooled about the nice guy thing before.... we'll just wait and see I suppose.... I swear that's kev's favorite advice to give.... wait and see what happens.... Which is why he's my Dear Abby.... :) Reminds me I need to see what he'd say about this one... Prolly just say becare Stinky... Those boys are trouble... Lord love a duck I can almost hear him say that.... hahaha....
ok, other junk that's not so.... boy related... hehehe... actually this isn't good news I don't think... there are rumors goin around the store that the end of the quarter is coming and there are some firings for low sales coming up... Rumor mill says, 7 people in men's are getting the ax and 2 of them in my area... Last I heard Frank and I had the lowest sales in our area but that could have changed..... maybe... anyway so this should be all figured out in the next week or 2 according to gossip.... but D and I were wondering wouldn't they wait till after inventory (june 25-26) to fire people? They don't want to have to start all over RIGHT before the biggest 2 days of the year.... (work wise not sales wise...) So hopefully all that gets worked out and I get to keep my job.... I may not like it, but I want to leave on my terms and not theirs....
Tommorrow is Dora's first day of vacation WHOOO HOOOOOOO!!!!!! and then I'm off Sunday and work on Monday... Glo handed out the invites to her baby shower on the 21st from 9 pm to midnight out on 290... I think I'll go just cuz I love that girl.... she's sooo crazy.... shes registered at Babies R Us or Baby Depot (one of those baby stores), the name's on the invite so I'll just pick up something on one of my off days...
I don't know if I'm goin to go out to the sidecar Saturday night for Brandon Jones or not... Depends on how I feel after work... and if its raining... I hate driving at night and in the rain and if I can avoid it I will... Even if it means a Blockbuster night.... No big....
LITTLE MINI RANT!!!!!
Why are people so fucking impressed with people that have a degree of fame? Its not like they aren't human and want to have a beer just like you and me dude.... Well I may not be drinking beer but thats beside the point... where was I goin with this??? I don't know... something about people being idiots.... but whats new there right? ah well... I think I'm goin to bed.... laters.....
you know its bad when you're at a show, to see your ex... Especially when he's supposed to be in another city all together.... whats worse than that is to have him standing next to a hot guy you want to hit on.... even worse still, having said ex ignore you and pretend you don't even exist.... ANNNNNNNNNDDDDDD even worse yet, Deryl Dodd played Bitter End soon after all this and it just reminded me so much of our relationship I almost cried.... I haven't cried over that stupid idiot in almost a year.... If I'd been drinking I would have I bet... as it was I teared up... dammit.... I don't like getting emotional, I like it even less doing it in public.... One good thing though.... He wasn't with some other chick.... least not when I saw him... And there's one thing I can say about the sorry bastard, he taught me what to look for the next go round.... ok well two.... Karma's a bitch.... And I hope he learns that not cuz I'm vengeful (ok just a smidge - but in a good I love a good gory flick, but I'm not like a psycho killa or anything way...)) but because he can't go through life using people and discarding them the way he does... It'll come back to bit him on the ass one day....
In happy thought land there were at least 2 guys there I know and I'm kinda sorta into... though I doubt anything will happen with either one...
One is younger than me (shocking i know) short skinny guy who still has issues over his ex.... the other.... why did I think he was chubby the other night? I can't remember... but then I'm decked so I can't recall much at the moment other than he seems like a genuinely nice guy and he's nice to look at.... though I've been fooled about the nice guy thing before.... we'll just wait and see I suppose.... I swear that's kev's favorite advice to give.... wait and see what happens.... Which is why he's my Dear Abby.... :) Reminds me I need to see what he'd say about this one... Prolly just say becare Stinky... Those boys are trouble... Lord love a duck I can almost hear him say that.... hahaha....
ok, other junk that's not so.... boy related... hehehe... actually this isn't good news I don't think... there are rumors goin around the store that the end of the quarter is coming and there are some firings for low sales coming up... Rumor mill says, 7 people in men's are getting the ax and 2 of them in my area... Last I heard Frank and I had the lowest sales in our area but that could have changed..... maybe... anyway so this should be all figured out in the next week or 2 according to gossip.... but D and I were wondering wouldn't they wait till after inventory (june 25-26) to fire people? They don't want to have to start all over RIGHT before the biggest 2 days of the year.... (work wise not sales wise...) So hopefully all that gets worked out and I get to keep my job.... I may not like it, but I want to leave on my terms and not theirs....
Tommorrow is Dora's first day of vacation WHOOO HOOOOOOO!!!!!! and then I'm off Sunday and work on Monday... Glo handed out the invites to her baby shower on the 21st from 9 pm to midnight out on 290... I think I'll go just cuz I love that girl.... she's sooo crazy.... shes registered at Babies R Us or Baby Depot (one of those baby stores), the name's on the invite so I'll just pick up something on one of my off days...
I don't know if I'm goin to go out to the sidecar Saturday night for Brandon Jones or not... Depends on how I feel after work... and if its raining... I hate driving at night and in the rain and if I can avoid it I will... Even if it means a Blockbuster night.... No big....
LITTLE MINI RANT!!!!!
Why are people so fucking impressed with people that have a degree of fame? Its not like they aren't human and want to have a beer just like you and me dude.... Well I may not be drinking beer but thats beside the point... where was I goin with this??? I don't know... something about people being idiots.... but whats new there right? ah well... I think I'm goin to bed.... laters.....
Friday, May 13, 2005
so I'm in love.... again.... how many times tonight did THAT happen? Too damn many to name... That boy I kept turning around and feeling up... Keith Gattis (hottie patatie in a very trailer park way.... also a hell of a writer and I loved what he sang....).... Fred (duh...) other random guys at the bar... one or 2 I knew... can't say here that I dig cuz now i know they read this shit... whodathunk it?
Yeah by the way if you hadn't guessed I got back from the Pat show at the Firehouse about half an hour ago and my ears are still ringing.... its greatness.... :) I hadn't seen pat since FF of last year... He fucking rocks... anyway I'm goin to bed.... have to work at 945... only till 5 though... I think I'm gonna skip REK and just go to Deryl Dodd... have to remember to tell him that Chad loves him more than life.... yeah, that sounds more likely to happen.... and I'm debating on the Brandon Jones/Matt Burns thing Saturday night... I work till 6 and its supposed to rain, so I guess we'll just wait and see.... laters.....
Yeah by the way if you hadn't guessed I got back from the Pat show at the Firehouse about half an hour ago and my ears are still ringing.... its greatness.... :) I hadn't seen pat since FF of last year... He fucking rocks... anyway I'm goin to bed.... have to work at 945... only till 5 though... I think I'm gonna skip REK and just go to Deryl Dodd... have to remember to tell him that Chad loves him more than life.... yeah, that sounds more likely to happen.... and I'm debating on the Brandon Jones/Matt Burns thing Saturday night... I work till 6 and its supposed to rain, so I guess we'll just wait and see.... laters.....
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
Quickie post.... Still have a thing for Aggies.... work still sucks but at least I was off today... I'm also into Dierks Bentley again... Dora goes on vacation Saturday for a week.... I couldn't be happier... I think I'm gonna play hooky one day so I can go to NB for Memorial day weekend... My sister's a dork... She locked herself out of her car, after running 6 miles... she ran the other 2 home to call triple a.... I go out there with her and it takes over an hour to get back into it and go home... and I had to pee soooo bad the whole time I was there... sean and melly both gave me hell for that one....
So if you need me the next few days here's the schedule....
Thursday - Work 9 :45 - 6 and then home and then to Pat Green at the Firehouse, prolly about 7 or 7:30...
Friday - Work 9: 45 - 5 and then I'm either goin to REK at Cactus or home and to Deryl Dodd at the Firehouse...
Saturday - working 9:45 - 6 and then out to the Sidecar for Matt Burns and Brandon Jones...
Sunday I'm working and Monday I'm off and will prolly drop dead....
If you need me and you won't be at any of these functions.... call the cell, cuz I don't know how often I'll be online....
ooo also I heard from Thompson for the first time in almost 2 monthes today.... turns out hes been between Austin and Houston, living on friends couchs... he didn't tell me why but he sounded fubar... :(
K, thats it for now.... laters....
So if you need me the next few days here's the schedule....
Thursday - Work 9 :45 - 6 and then home and then to Pat Green at the Firehouse, prolly about 7 or 7:30...
Friday - Work 9: 45 - 5 and then I'm either goin to REK at Cactus or home and to Deryl Dodd at the Firehouse...
Saturday - working 9:45 - 6 and then out to the Sidecar for Matt Burns and Brandon Jones...
Sunday I'm working and Monday I'm off and will prolly drop dead....
If you need me and you won't be at any of these functions.... call the cell, cuz I don't know how often I'll be online....
ooo also I heard from Thompson for the first time in almost 2 monthes today.... turns out hes been between Austin and Houston, living on friends couchs... he didn't tell me why but he sounded fubar... :(
K, thats it for now.... laters....
Sunday, May 08, 2005
So much to talk about so little space... So we'll start with Cinco De Mayo, Thursday... Went to Pappasitos out on 290 after work for Peter Dawson... Met up with Mei Lee and John and Lavinia showed up later... Had a fun time with them and PDB... Went out to dinner with Lav, Mei, John and his friend Shane at TGI Fridays afterwards... Got home about midnight... Turns out Mei Lee knows Brian... Interesting... Friday I was off and I went out to the Sidecar Pub for Stoney and Brian Burke... My review of that is on GW... http://www.galleywinter.com/main/index.php?name=Forums&file=viewtopic&t=49404 If you reallllllly feel the need to read it... :) A few things I didnt put there... I almost commited a few homicides, there were some damn annoying drunks there that just wouldn't stop yelling... I also wound up talking to Burkes roomie for a minute or so and heard that he had some girl troubles... I didn't do it... :) Also when I was tellin him bye (he was drunk as heck...) he was like Ali, did you see Stoney call me up there? I laughed and said yes... He was like I was like oooo... (then proceeded to show me his O face.... :) I can't remember the last time I saw an o face, is that sad or what?)
I got home at about 2 or so... I went to work on Saturday at noon to close... So I had to miss the O town throw down... I got a bunch of calls and texts from people there... Got caught in the stockroom at one point with my cell by Dora... That was unpleasant.... Saturday night, I finished my laundry, got some more DDs from O Town... Mainly Rick, Shannon and elise... And then phones got passed around so I talked to lots of other people too... That was fun... Today I went to work at 1145 and got off at 615.... Nothing earth shattering occured.... Except for Paula freaking out... Helping to cement my opinion of her as totally psycho.... Talked to elise on her way back from Orange... The damn rain never stopped all day... It started drizzling on the way and pouring once I got there... Sucked... I listened to my Sidecar CD and when Box # 10 came on, I started tearing up.... thats weird... I've heard the song a million times.. shouted out the words when Stoney's right in front of me so why would I cry by myself in my car when it comes on? No clue.... Before I went to work, though I gave mom her present and her card... She loved them both... I rock... After I got home I had leftovers from the lunch Lauren made... and I am currently watching the Elvis movie... The guy who plays Elvis, Jonathon Rhys Meyers, played the couch in Bend It Like Beckham.... He's such a hottie.... :)
Weird dream time... I had a dream about the ex... It was weird... I was watching some music television station, no idea which one.... Anyway they showed a clip of him singing Blame Canada (ala South Park) and they (the music station people) were making fun of him and picking on him... And all I wanted to do was defend him... Weird... I dont care about him, I haven't for the longest time but to dream about him sorta freaked me out....
Speaking of weird things... Not one but 2 people have called a certain guy 'my man'... I kinda like the sound of it... Kinda? Hell I love it.... I was talking to Andrea about him and she's like everyone needs a tenderoni.... hehehe... Sam chimed in saying her hubbie is 5 years younger than her and they met when he was 18 and she was 23.... I was shocked.... First I didnt know she was married and 2nd I didn't know she wasn't even 30.... She looks so much older... Prolly the hairstyle and clothes... She looks a lil frumpy.. anyway, we'll just wait and see what happens with this guy... I've been into him ever since I met him and its prolly not the wisest of choices... But when I have been known for wisdom? And I'd love to rave about what a great guy he is (cuz he is) but I won't... :) But I will say this.... What is it with me and Aggies here lately?
A few lyrics since i've been thinking about the ex.... And I just thought of something... He hasn't called in like a month... Wow.. Maybe he's getting the idea?
Rob Thomas "Lonely No More"
"now its hard for me
when my heart still on the mend....
...what if you were good to me
what if I could hold you until I feel you move inside of me
what if it was paradise
what if we were a symphony
what if I gave all my life to find some way to stand beside you..."
I'm over him but sometimes it just feels like if things had been different.... But we can't play the what if game....
3 Doors Down " Let Me Go"
"One more kiss could be the best thing
But one more lie could be the worst.....
.....I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Let me go.....
....I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm goin through...."
Papa Roach "Scars" - the most appropriate song for any failed relationship and any hope for a new start....
"I tear my heart open,
I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel...
.... Your making me insane ....
...I tried to help you once
A kiss will only vise
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That your drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last dance ....
....You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life..."
k, thats about it for now...
laters.
I got home at about 2 or so... I went to work on Saturday at noon to close... So I had to miss the O town throw down... I got a bunch of calls and texts from people there... Got caught in the stockroom at one point with my cell by Dora... That was unpleasant.... Saturday night, I finished my laundry, got some more DDs from O Town... Mainly Rick, Shannon and elise... And then phones got passed around so I talked to lots of other people too... That was fun... Today I went to work at 1145 and got off at 615.... Nothing earth shattering occured.... Except for Paula freaking out... Helping to cement my opinion of her as totally psycho.... Talked to elise on her way back from Orange... The damn rain never stopped all day... It started drizzling on the way and pouring once I got there... Sucked... I listened to my Sidecar CD and when Box # 10 came on, I started tearing up.... thats weird... I've heard the song a million times.. shouted out the words when Stoney's right in front of me so why would I cry by myself in my car when it comes on? No clue.... Before I went to work, though I gave mom her present and her card... She loved them both... I rock... After I got home I had leftovers from the lunch Lauren made... and I am currently watching the Elvis movie... The guy who plays Elvis, Jonathon Rhys Meyers, played the couch in Bend It Like Beckham.... He's such a hottie.... :)
Weird dream time... I had a dream about the ex... It was weird... I was watching some music television station, no idea which one.... Anyway they showed a clip of him singing Blame Canada (ala South Park) and they (the music station people) were making fun of him and picking on him... And all I wanted to do was defend him... Weird... I dont care about him, I haven't for the longest time but to dream about him sorta freaked me out....
Speaking of weird things... Not one but 2 people have called a certain guy 'my man'... I kinda like the sound of it... Kinda? Hell I love it.... I was talking to Andrea about him and she's like everyone needs a tenderoni.... hehehe... Sam chimed in saying her hubbie is 5 years younger than her and they met when he was 18 and she was 23.... I was shocked.... First I didnt know she was married and 2nd I didn't know she wasn't even 30.... She looks so much older... Prolly the hairstyle and clothes... She looks a lil frumpy.. anyway, we'll just wait and see what happens with this guy... I've been into him ever since I met him and its prolly not the wisest of choices... But when I have been known for wisdom? And I'd love to rave about what a great guy he is (cuz he is) but I won't... :) But I will say this.... What is it with me and Aggies here lately?
A few lyrics since i've been thinking about the ex.... And I just thought of something... He hasn't called in like a month... Wow.. Maybe he's getting the idea?
Rob Thomas "Lonely No More"
"now its hard for me
when my heart still on the mend....
...what if you were good to me
what if I could hold you until I feel you move inside of me
what if it was paradise
what if we were a symphony
what if I gave all my life to find some way to stand beside you..."
I'm over him but sometimes it just feels like if things had been different.... But we can't play the what if game....
3 Doors Down " Let Me Go"
"One more kiss could be the best thing
But one more lie could be the worst.....
.....I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Let me go.....
....I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm goin through...."
Papa Roach "Scars" - the most appropriate song for any failed relationship and any hope for a new start....
"I tear my heart open,
I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel...
.... Your making me insane ....
...I tried to help you once
A kiss will only vise
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That your drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last dance ....
....You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life..."
k, thats about it for now...
laters.
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
I was thinking last night... Dangerous thing for me to do I know right? Anyway I was thinking about how you can tell whose known me the longest by what name they refer to me as... Mostly people I've met in the last year or so call me Ali... My coworkers call me Alison... My mom varies between those 2 and Alison Lynn... Nat calls me Alison or Fritter... Shes known me like 20 years... The guys call me squirt or shorty and a whole host of other fun nick names but when they say my name (BITCH! - hehehe...) Its Ali most of the time... And i met them when I was 13... or about that... Sean and Brody when I was 13 and Nathan when I was 16 and Tom at 15... U of O people mostly call me Bob... Its all Chuck's fault... But its all good I answer to it... and a shit load of nicknames made from that... So yeah that put me to sleep last night at the insanely early hour of 11 30 with no real conclusions reached... Ah well...
Today at work was... interesting... Dora was being Dora and freaking out about everything, repeating directions and questions 2 or 3 times, calling every hour or so to make sure everything was getting done.... Yeah it was irratating... Found out I have 4 tardies... and only 1 absence... rock on... Also learned the boys in my area think that Chase is a slacker too... and for THEM to think that is pretty wild... Considering the way they usually don't do shit...
So I fell in love at least 4 or 5 times today... First time at the post office when I went to get stamps before work...
and then when I got to work a few more times... Including this guy named Todd who was a cancer survivor... Like they didnt expect him to live more than 6 monthes even with treatment... He's through with treatment and surgery and fine now... He wasn't classically hot the way I usually like... He was about 6 ', nice face, goin a lil bald on top, divorced and about 36 or so... Then I fell in love again a time or 2 at Walgreens tonight.... where I got this awesome lavendar/purple nail polish.... :) I was also told by some random guy I had a charming smile... aight, hon, you're girl's right there, do you really feel the need to tell me that? I smiled politely and thanked him and walked away... the cutie pie that I dig James wasn't working tonight but oh well...
I was jamming to the Trailers most of the day and its a month exactly till I see em again!!!!! :)
ooo also work related... I found out like 5 people got fired today for fake dr's notes... I could have sworn someone told me it was illegal to call and check but I could be wrong... Also found out we have inventory coming up AGAIN in June.... And Dillards has hired a shit load of new people... Whoo hoo another wave of fresh meat... God I hope at least one or 2 are hot, young, single and straight men.... I need more of those in my life, since most of the guys I work with are gay, married or too young....
Still don't know if I'm goin to Pappasitos 2morrow for Cinco De Mayo and PDB but we'll see how I feel after work.... Friday is Stoney and Brian and I can't wait!!!!!
there was something else but I can't remember what it was... ah well...
laters.
Today at work was... interesting... Dora was being Dora and freaking out about everything, repeating directions and questions 2 or 3 times, calling every hour or so to make sure everything was getting done.... Yeah it was irratating... Found out I have 4 tardies... and only 1 absence... rock on... Also learned the boys in my area think that Chase is a slacker too... and for THEM to think that is pretty wild... Considering the way they usually don't do shit...
So I fell in love at least 4 or 5 times today... First time at the post office when I went to get stamps before work...
and then when I got to work a few more times... Including this guy named Todd who was a cancer survivor... Like they didnt expect him to live more than 6 monthes even with treatment... He's through with treatment and surgery and fine now... He wasn't classically hot the way I usually like... He was about 6 ', nice face, goin a lil bald on top, divorced and about 36 or so... Then I fell in love again a time or 2 at Walgreens tonight.... where I got this awesome lavendar/purple nail polish.... :) I was also told by some random guy I had a charming smile... aight, hon, you're girl's right there, do you really feel the need to tell me that? I smiled politely and thanked him and walked away... the cutie pie that I dig James wasn't working tonight but oh well...
I was jamming to the Trailers most of the day and its a month exactly till I see em again!!!!! :)
ooo also work related... I found out like 5 people got fired today for fake dr's notes... I could have sworn someone told me it was illegal to call and check but I could be wrong... Also found out we have inventory coming up AGAIN in June.... And Dillards has hired a shit load of new people... Whoo hoo another wave of fresh meat... God I hope at least one or 2 are hot, young, single and straight men.... I need more of those in my life, since most of the guys I work with are gay, married or too young....
Still don't know if I'm goin to Pappasitos 2morrow for Cinco De Mayo and PDB but we'll see how I feel after work.... Friday is Stoney and Brian and I can't wait!!!!!
there was something else but I can't remember what it was... ah well...
laters.
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
Mean people suck.... Nice people swallow...
So I'm driving home from work and I've got the windows down and sun roof open... I'm just jamming as usual... (ie singing along with a lil dancing thrown in... Least as much dancing as you can do while driving...) So Adam Hood is blasting and I'm doing my thing... A car pulls up beside me goin through Memorial Park and the guy in the passenger seat looks back and is taken aback... Minute or 2 pass, I'm still goin and they've slown down a bit and are pointing and laughing... I shrug it off, I'm used to that... I get some great reactions on Westheimer on a weekend night... Just fyi... SO ANYWAY... We're both stopped at a light and they're still pointing by now its annoying.... So their windows down and mine's down and I'm still goin... To hell with them... Then they're like hey you, I turn and glance at them and they yell FREAK!!!! Now from friends I dont mind I know I'm lil nuts and a bit of an odd ball... But for these random guys to say that and then zoom off like immature assholes, just hurt like a bitch... Seriously, I dont know if its just that I'm hormonal right now but I almost burst into tears... And most people who know me... Know that I dont cry easily...
It takes something big like someone dying.... So because of that I'd like to send a lil Horse by the Trailers out to the guys in the black Jeep Cherokee goin down Memorial about 615... SO FUCK YOU AND THE HORSE YOU RODE IN ON!!!!!
I feel better now....
Soooo story time with Ali.... Dora... Aye, Dora... What am I gonna do with her? That woman could try the patience of a saint sometimes... So I played hooky yesterday and the first person I see when I get to work today but her... The Devil Incarnate herself... El Jefe Diablo... lmao... there ya go the Devil Boss her new name.... :)
So anyway she tells me since I wasnt there yesterday I have to work 2morrow... WTF!?!?! So she actually put it in the computer before I could say word one so if I dont show, it counts against me... That fucking sucks... And I dont have off the only 2 days I requested (this sunday and the last Saturday of May)... But she did say she said she what she could do since I didnt have a Sunday off all month...
So we'll wait and see if she does anything... Id love to get a Sunday off so I could go to Conroe to see the Josh Ward Band... Hell I'd love every Sunday off.... They suck to work...
Lets see what else is happening? I have crushes... tryin to get one of em to go to the Sidecar... he's not being very forthcoming with an answer... I should go kick his ass... It also dawned on me... Kev wouldn't care if he's an Ag or not... Back when I dug Burke he didnt make fun of that, too badly... :) I'm tryin to figure out what to get mom for Mothers day... still clueless... She wants to go to this place in the Heights called the Java Java Cafe for brunch... wine and flowers are always safe presents... I know she loves both...
thats about it for nows...
laters....
So I'm driving home from work and I've got the windows down and sun roof open... I'm just jamming as usual... (ie singing along with a lil dancing thrown in... Least as much dancing as you can do while driving...) So Adam Hood is blasting and I'm doing my thing... A car pulls up beside me goin through Memorial Park and the guy in the passenger seat looks back and is taken aback... Minute or 2 pass, I'm still goin and they've slown down a bit and are pointing and laughing... I shrug it off, I'm used to that... I get some great reactions on Westheimer on a weekend night... Just fyi... SO ANYWAY... We're both stopped at a light and they're still pointing by now its annoying.... So their windows down and mine's down and I'm still goin... To hell with them... Then they're like hey you, I turn and glance at them and they yell FREAK!!!! Now from friends I dont mind I know I'm lil nuts and a bit of an odd ball... But for these random guys to say that and then zoom off like immature assholes, just hurt like a bitch... Seriously, I dont know if its just that I'm hormonal right now but I almost burst into tears... And most people who know me... Know that I dont cry easily...
It takes something big like someone dying.... So because of that I'd like to send a lil Horse by the Trailers out to the guys in the black Jeep Cherokee goin down Memorial about 615... SO FUCK YOU AND THE HORSE YOU RODE IN ON!!!!!
I feel better now....
Soooo story time with Ali.... Dora... Aye, Dora... What am I gonna do with her? That woman could try the patience of a saint sometimes... So I played hooky yesterday and the first person I see when I get to work today but her... The Devil Incarnate herself... El Jefe Diablo... lmao... there ya go the Devil Boss her new name.... :)
So anyway she tells me since I wasnt there yesterday I have to work 2morrow... WTF!?!?! So she actually put it in the computer before I could say word one so if I dont show, it counts against me... That fucking sucks... And I dont have off the only 2 days I requested (this sunday and the last Saturday of May)... But she did say she said she what she could do since I didnt have a Sunday off all month...
So we'll wait and see if she does anything... Id love to get a Sunday off so I could go to Conroe to see the Josh Ward Band... Hell I'd love every Sunday off.... They suck to work...
Lets see what else is happening? I have crushes... tryin to get one of em to go to the Sidecar... he's not being very forthcoming with an answer... I should go kick his ass... It also dawned on me... Kev wouldn't care if he's an Ag or not... Back when I dug Burke he didnt make fun of that, too badly... :) I'm tryin to figure out what to get mom for Mothers day... still clueless... She wants to go to this place in the Heights called the Java Java Cafe for brunch... wine and flowers are always safe presents... I know she loves both...
thats about it for nows...
laters....
Sunday, May 01, 2005
What would Kevin do? WWKD? hehehe.... What would kev do if he knew one of the guys I'm digging is gasp egads an AGGIE!
Prolly make a comment about the guys lack of intelligence and wish me luck... thats just the kind of friend he is...
Worked today... Dora wasn't there so no exciting Dora the Explorer stories to tell.... Sorry yall... We all slacked and just stood around talking most of the day... Spent most of my free time, texting people in my address book and on the phone.... :) Came home... thought about driving out to see the Joshes again but the whole lack of decent night vision thing kills me and I have to be at work at 945 in the morning...
this morning on the way to work I saw something really cute... an old ass station wagon with all the windows rolled down and 3 (not one not 2 but 3) border collies all at various windows, tongues out, ears blown back by the breeze... and the plates on the car? WAGGIN... too cute...
I guess collies are like Lays? You can't just get one? hahaha...
I think I may be that way about goldens when I get my own place.... yes I still love the breed.... Hell I love all dogs its just after Molly and Brandy, I have a special place in my heart for em.... same for Tiffy, Taffy and Cookie and poodles... though if I'll ever get a poodle again I dont know... and Labs... I heart labs... and cuz of Holly and her pups I adore borders... lassie = collies...
the way I talk, I'll prolly just get a pound puppy or maybe a rescue... Sometimes in fact I think I'd prefer that...
not much else to really say today.... no big events... no big dreams... no huge news... its been a very eh/blah day... laters....
Prolly make a comment about the guys lack of intelligence and wish me luck... thats just the kind of friend he is...
Worked today... Dora wasn't there so no exciting Dora the Explorer stories to tell.... Sorry yall... We all slacked and just stood around talking most of the day... Spent most of my free time, texting people in my address book and on the phone.... :) Came home... thought about driving out to see the Joshes again but the whole lack of decent night vision thing kills me and I have to be at work at 945 in the morning...
this morning on the way to work I saw something really cute... an old ass station wagon with all the windows rolled down and 3 (not one not 2 but 3) border collies all at various windows, tongues out, ears blown back by the breeze... and the plates on the car? WAGGIN... too cute...
I guess collies are like Lays? You can't just get one? hahaha...
I think I may be that way about goldens when I get my own place.... yes I still love the breed.... Hell I love all dogs its just after Molly and Brandy, I have a special place in my heart for em.... same for Tiffy, Taffy and Cookie and poodles... though if I'll ever get a poodle again I dont know... and Labs... I heart labs... and cuz of Holly and her pups I adore borders... lassie = collies...
the way I talk, I'll prolly just get a pound puppy or maybe a rescue... Sometimes in fact I think I'd prefer that...
not much else to really say today.... no big events... no big dreams... no huge news... its been a very eh/blah day... laters....
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