Not Your Average Jane

I've had an eye opening evening... I filled out the application for U of O and I needed to get my ACT/SAT scores... Mom's like oh yeah those are prolly out in the garage in the big file cabinet under Alison testing... Ok, so i go out to the garage and I'm diggin through the files sure enough there's Alison testing... Take it out and theres a bunch of stuff on my testing for my ADD and learning disabilities (I have em and I'm not PC enough to say 'difficulties or differences'...) over my entire life, from like 3 years old on... Actaully one when I was 3, one when I was 6, another when I was 8, yet another one in 8th grade, and the last one when I was 17... Now after almost minoring in Special Ed I understood the majority of what was being said and so much of my life made since... Its like that last missing puzzle piece just suddenly slipped into place and boom, I'm whole... Its the world's weirdest yet most awesome feeling... I understand myself in a way I never did... I read all those reports and tests and results and psychological evaluations and I was like yea yea yea... thats right... damn, i didnt know that... only one thing i really found to disagree with... something about how much anger i had toward men... I was 8 and my parents were divorced (had just finished getting divorced actaully...) and one shrink said I had issues with my dad and I did cuz I felt like he abandoned us to an extent... but this shrink said because of something I said about an ink blot that i wanted to behead men... um... angry at my father yes, psychotic enough to wish beheading on all men? no... But so much other stuff I didnt understand made sense and some stuff even holds true to this day... very wow moment for me...
laters.

posted by Ali @ 9:56 PM