Not Your Average Jane

Well I'm not fine or out of the woods yet... But I'm working on ok.... :)
The whole school situation has been on my mind all day long.... I still don't know what to do about it but I know there's nothing I can realistically do about it till Friday when I have the time to devote to phone calls and emails all day long... with the exception of my haircut at 240... That I've almost waited too long for... School's imporant but my hair is ridiculous.... I may push my appt back a few hours if I get caught up and unable to finish what i need to do but it will get done... So yeah I'm goin to call and talk to Wilma and Dr Taddie about doing those 2 classes long distance and Dr Neice if need be... Hopefully that works out... If worse comes to worse I think I may be going back to AR in the fall... As much as I don't want to, I gotta do what I gotta do to it all done and outta the way so I can go on with life... Almost word for word what sean said and he's right....
So tonight I get home from work after a particularly hard day (dora was on my case and I wasnt in a great mood to begin with...) and John's here waiting for mom... She gets home while i'm checking my email and then I'm watching American Idol and I go down to try to find something for dinner... She gets me in a conversation about work and stuff.... Ok, lalalala.... Then she strikes a sore spot.... my love life and lack thereof...
She suggested I try eharmony.com and started to compare my life to Laurens and then suggested I date Mike (Mr Browns son that works at Dillards up in housewares)... Um.... He's in his early 40s, has a his own house, short, kinda squaty, but perfectly nice guy... No I think not. Then she goes into the school drama in front of John... If it was something just in passing I could have let it go and left them alone... But for her to accuse me of not caring was like ripping out my heart and stomping on it... I finally just told her I didnt wish to discuss my personal business in front of John, who is technically a guest... then I walked up stairs, without eating anything and closed the door and cried like I haven't since B2 and I broke up.... And all I could think the whole time was I hope she doesnt hear me and come up and accuse me of faking it.... Thats how much I think my mother thinks of me... and its disheartening... Its like that whole she wont trust me thing we had back in September... different situation, different circumstances but still discouraging as all hell.... To realize your own mother doesn't know you well enough to know when you're being real and when you play your cards close to the vest in order not to get hurt... THATS what I couldn't tell her when she asked why she shouldnt think that I dont give a shit... but I couldnt cuz I was too close to tears and I had to get away from her and her lack of faith as I could....
I called Natey... He helped me calm down... Then he told me to call Seany... Did and he came over (while I was waiting for him I called melly and got out a lot of stuff...) and we went to the House of Pies... I didn't cry again, thank goodness... I hate crying I hate it even worse in public...
Kinda like puking... So yeah we talked and he took me home... We sat out in the car smoking and talking some more... That guy is one of the best friends a girl could have... So yeah I gotta do what I gotta do concerning school...
ok fun stuff now... Lets see I didn't do crap Friday or Saturday night... Mom was surprised I didnt go to the Firehouse... No one I wanted to see was playing so I didnt go... No biggie... Worked Saturday... Sunday was easter.... It was nice... got woken up at 10 only to be told I had half an hour to get ready (and somehow I was ready - make up, clothes, shower, hair done, everything in half an hour... its a new record...). But we weren't ready to leave til almost 11... we have mimosas and go to Baba Yaga's and are told its a 20 minute wait.... end up waiting almost an hour... More mimosas in the mean time... Get seated, order (i did the buffet - not bad but not the greatest I've ever had... the raquet club kinda spoiled me on anyone else's easter brunch.... Cant beat fruit plates with lots of strawberries and pineapple, all the shrimp (boiled and peeled) you can eat and killa desserts.... *sigh* Easter wasn't the same with only a table or 2 with kids... I sorta relish the chaos they bring... Glad they're not mine but making me smile with the silly things they do...
So we finish brunch and come home... I organized my music files (exciting I know...) and watched Harry Potter 3... and timeline and ella enchanted.... I didnt even notice when la la and linz left... ah well...
I also found out last night that Jenny had Sophie.... It was a 'difficult' delivery but everyone is fine now.... How awesome is that? Jenny and aaron wanted a baby for so long and now they finally have her... Very cool... :)
on that note I'm goin to bed... I know its ungodly early but I'm decked...
laters.

posted by Ali @ 10:28 PM