Not Your Average Jane

this was gonna be a nice fun post about how much I love men and the weekend and easter.... I'll talk about that later.... THIS IS A RANT THIS IS ONLY A RANT!!!
Only hell.... Its one helluva one....
So those 2 classes I'm lacking to graduate? EC2 and behavior management? Mom went behind my back like I was a freaking child and called u of o, while I appreciate it cuz she got answers I hadn't managed to yet, the fact she did it without consulting me pisses me off. I knew when I left the house and she said she wanted to use the computer to do some work and got all bitchy with me before I left for work something was up... I just didn't know how big a something...
But thats not really the point of this post...
What mom found out was that... one of the classes is being offered this fall and the other in the spring but I could petition to take the spring class independant study in the fall and take the other class AT U OF O.... Move 500 miles(522 door to door) for 6 hours (classes) and spend lord knows how much money for 5 monthes of class... But then I would also have to petition NOT to have to pay to use the JLC AND to do one class IS.... Why can't I just do both of them IS? Theres such thing as *gasp* technology... Those lil computer thingys? You can send stuff through em... Pretty neat o if you ask me.... fuck. I am just soo frustrated with all this.... By the time I get this degree I'll be old and gray... And whats it gonna say on the diploma? General Studies. GENERAL FUCKING STUDIES..... argh..... Mom was tellin me all this and I didn't know whether to laughor cry or scream at the unfairness of it all.... and at her for being her usual nosy ass self... I tried to explain myself to her but I couldnt find the words.... Me, who has words for everything.... Go fig....
Seriously I don't know if its some sort of conspiracy to keep me giving them money or just some joke the universe is playing on me.... Either way this is soo not cool...
Anyway mom said in the end its up to me... whether I wanted to finish at all and/or move back to AR for a semester... I want to finish I really do its just so ridiculously hard... to get everything figured out and lined up and taken care of.... I was supposed to be someplace else at this point inmy life.... And I'm not there... I'm still living at home for Christ sakes... not dating anyone... sucky job that has no job security whatsoever.... the pay sucks... the hours are better than they used to be though.... Nancie has yet to come through with anything for me temp wise... I really put most of my eggs in the same basket there... I heard how easy it was to find temp work... So far NADA. And I interviewed with her almost a month ago, and have called in twice a week... nothing. So much for that being easy.... *eye roll*
I really have no idea what to do.... Its scary... Not a good kind Scary Movie way.... Anyone with any advice at all email me.... PM... IM... Whatever.... I need help and I'm not afraid to ask for it.... BTW, thanks yet again, Chuck, I really think I'm goin to call him Friday... thats it for today... maybe 2morrow or the next day I'll talk about my weekend...
laters.

posted by Ali @ 11:27 PM