Not Your Average Jane

its almost 3 am and I'm tired but not tired enough to sleep.... I got back from the firehouse about an hour ago.... The opening band didnt impress me.... I dont even remember their name.... Kyle Hunt was ok (good enough I did buy the CD)... The fact he did a lot of Ragweed/Pat covers helped... The fact that he looked like a certain ex someone who happened to call the other day when he was here in town, kinda threw me for a loop.... The fact he played like him too just freaked me out.... Sean was a no show.... Why am I not surprised? Least I was dumped for the house of pies.... lol.... But I didnt know that till after Id paid the cover... ah well... Not a lot of people... 'He' was there... Of course he's been tellin me all week he would be... I let myself be intimadated and I wimped out. It galls the hell outta me that I did nothing. Not a damn thing. Nada.
With the exception of my chickenness, the drunk guy who wouldnt quit asking me to dance and the fact Kyle looked like B2, I had a good time... Too bad I have to work 1145 - 615.... ugh.... least I'm off on Monday..... :)
I'm gonna to try to catch a few z's... laters.

9:30 am.... I didnt want to do a new post but I just had to add the fact that I found it ironic that Brian Burke's CD (actaully his demo - got it Friday and I've been listening to it ever since....) was playing in the car and the first song I heard after leaving the Firehouse... "Try".... I dont know where I could find the lyrics or I'd post em.... But the chorus goes something like, "I wont try to get you back, just as long as your kissing him... I won't try the things that I used to..." Just the whole I wont try thing really hit home for me last night.... anyway I have to pack my lunch and get ready for work... laters....

10 am... one last thing then I HAVE to get ready for work.... It was weird being at the Firehouse and NOT being front row center or on my speaker....(yes its MY speaker... I think my names even on there.... lol...) It was really weird.... Last night cuz of the resemblance to the ex I think it was prolly a good thing.... Though I did notice the closer I got to the stage, the less he looked like him, so if I had done like I normally do and stand up front he prolly wouldnt have looked a thing like him by the end of the night.... interesting..... Ok now I'm really goin to get ready.... laters.

ok its 740 PM and I think I'm goin for a record... this is my 4th entry today but had I gotten it to work b4 I went to work, it'd have been my 5th.... Yeah I have THAT much to say.... Cute... Sorry, the ADD kicked in and Extreme Makeover Home Edition's on and the muppets are on... Miss Piggy, Kermit, Fonzie, and Animal.... All animals said so far is "MAKEOVER MAKEOVER!!!" then they cut to commercial and then he popped out of box and ran after a couple of the volunteer chicks screaming "WOMAN WOMAN!!!" The Ty comes on making a comment about having a conversation with him about ADHD.... And of course Miss Piggy actaully did no work, but she flirted with Ty.... Why am I NOT surprised? hehehehe..... O, their eyes were watching god is on next... i may have to watch that... I need a haircut... My hairs gettin to long to curl... And contrary to popular belief... No my life does not revolve around guys and bars and work... It revolves around me. :)
BTW, Pizza inn pizza.... Bad... icky... nasty....gross.... Mountain Dew.... GOOD.... :)
So yeah all day at work I've been thinking about what a chicken shit I am. Normally I'm straightforward and bold as brass.... What the fuck made me act like I was freaking wall flower? I dont know. And that annoys the crap outta me.
Dora wasnt at work today... turns out she had the weekend off.... so guess who slacked.... AGAIN... ah well I'm off 2morrow... whats the worse she can do if she finds out I've been slacking? Write me up? ooooo, SCARY.... *insert eye roll* I suppose she could fire me if I do it too much, but seriously how much would I really care if I lost this job?
Not much. I hate it. I dont hate much in life but I hate, loathe and abominate this job... Except I want to leave on my terms... At the end of the month I have my 6 month evaluation and Dillards has a policy of doing one of 2 things at 6 monthes... Firing or a pay cut.... Either way I'm gone by the end of the month... No way in hell am I working there for 7.20 an hour.... 8's pushing it.... and I dont even really live on that since I live at home rent free... I have to have a job with enough $$$ to get my own place and eventaully my own pets.... Yep as in more than one.... A couple of cats maybe? Or some reptiles? A dog or 2.... Who knows? But NOOOO rodents. Maybe fish... We'll figure it out later. We? I'll figure it out later.... As when its more realistic. Prolly be a few monthes...
one more thing and then I'm done. swear for reals this time... maybe. :)
Why do people think they're the shit and that you should too cuz they brag about knowing someone famous? Maybe I'm a lil blase (is that the word I'm looking for?) about it all cuz I've dated a musician and I really dont find them to be much different than anyone else I've ever dated... And his friends were pretty much all young guys with good hearts... They make mistakes like anybody else.... Now very few people know the real identity of B2 and his friends and thats the way it'll stay and I dont go around shouting from the rooftops I know them and we did blah blah 2gether..... Jesus H Christos.... Some people just need to get bent and then get a life.
Ok thats it... for now.
Laters.

posted by Ali @ 2:47 AM