nothing huge to share today.... well hold on maybe there is....
I was woken up at 710 this morning by mom before she left for school and she apoligized for last night... Not for comparing me to la or for the love life inquisition but for the stuff about school.... But its a start.
things I forgot the other day.... I had to change my password at work yet again and since I've run out of passwords that are meaningful to me and I sure as hell don't want to try to remember a bunch of #'s... I don't do it with phone #'s (with the exception of a the handful I know by heart cuz I call a lot....). So I did something I swore I'd never do. I used the name of a guy I'm diggin as a password... Not a big deal to most people but I swore I'd never do anything that.... childish I guess is a good word....
So yeah I have that guys name as password... figure out who he is and what my SS # is and you can check my messages at work (never gotten or sent any...), check my schedule and how much I get paid each week... Exciting huh? :)
oh yeah and you can check on my 401 k and play on shopping Dell products (i've done that many a time...)...
I invited Brian T to Pappasitos 2morrow... I think he thought I was asking him out.... no I think not, hon... But he can't go cuz he'll be in class... ah well... I'll be there as soon as I get off work cuz I can't miss the PDB experience... :)
hmm I don't think much else is really goin on... no progress on the school situation... still single... still have a job.... that sucks... still living at home... that about sums my life up right there... laters.
Not Your Average Jane
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
Well I'm not fine or out of the woods yet... But I'm working on ok.... :)
The whole school situation has been on my mind all day long.... I still don't know what to do about it but I know there's nothing I can realistically do about it till Friday when I have the time to devote to phone calls and emails all day long... with the exception of my haircut at 240... That I've almost waited too long for... School's imporant but my hair is ridiculous.... I may push my appt back a few hours if I get caught up and unable to finish what i need to do but it will get done... So yeah I'm goin to call and talk to Wilma and Dr Taddie about doing those 2 classes long distance and Dr Neice if need be... Hopefully that works out... If worse comes to worse I think I may be going back to AR in the fall... As much as I don't want to, I gotta do what I gotta do to it all done and outta the way so I can go on with life... Almost word for word what sean said and he's right....
So tonight I get home from work after a particularly hard day (dora was on my case and I wasnt in a great mood to begin with...) and John's here waiting for mom... She gets home while i'm checking my email and then I'm watching American Idol and I go down to try to find something for dinner... She gets me in a conversation about work and stuff.... Ok, lalalala.... Then she strikes a sore spot.... my love life and lack thereof...
She suggested I try eharmony.com and started to compare my life to Laurens and then suggested I date Mike (Mr Browns son that works at Dillards up in housewares)... Um.... He's in his early 40s, has a his own house, short, kinda squaty, but perfectly nice guy... No I think not. Then she goes into the school drama in front of John... If it was something just in passing I could have let it go and left them alone... But for her to accuse me of not caring was like ripping out my heart and stomping on it... I finally just told her I didnt wish to discuss my personal business in front of John, who is technically a guest... then I walked up stairs, without eating anything and closed the door and cried like I haven't since B2 and I broke up.... And all I could think the whole time was I hope she doesnt hear me and come up and accuse me of faking it.... Thats how much I think my mother thinks of me... and its disheartening... Its like that whole she wont trust me thing we had back in September... different situation, different circumstances but still discouraging as all hell.... To realize your own mother doesn't know you well enough to know when you're being real and when you play your cards close to the vest in order not to get hurt... THATS what I couldn't tell her when she asked why she shouldnt think that I dont give a shit... but I couldnt cuz I was too close to tears and I had to get away from her and her lack of faith as I could....
I called Natey... He helped me calm down... Then he told me to call Seany... Did and he came over (while I was waiting for him I called melly and got out a lot of stuff...) and we went to the House of Pies... I didn't cry again, thank goodness... I hate crying I hate it even worse in public...
Kinda like puking... So yeah we talked and he took me home... We sat out in the car smoking and talking some more... That guy is one of the best friends a girl could have... So yeah I gotta do what I gotta do concerning school...
ok fun stuff now... Lets see I didn't do crap Friday or Saturday night... Mom was surprised I didnt go to the Firehouse... No one I wanted to see was playing so I didnt go... No biggie... Worked Saturday... Sunday was easter.... It was nice... got woken up at 10 only to be told I had half an hour to get ready (and somehow I was ready - make up, clothes, shower, hair done, everything in half an hour... its a new record...). But we weren't ready to leave til almost 11... we have mimosas and go to Baba Yaga's and are told its a 20 minute wait.... end up waiting almost an hour... More mimosas in the mean time... Get seated, order (i did the buffet - not bad but not the greatest I've ever had... the raquet club kinda spoiled me on anyone else's easter brunch.... Cant beat fruit plates with lots of strawberries and pineapple, all the shrimp (boiled and peeled) you can eat and killa desserts.... *sigh* Easter wasn't the same with only a table or 2 with kids... I sorta relish the chaos they bring... Glad they're not mine but making me smile with the silly things they do...
So we finish brunch and come home... I organized my music files (exciting I know...) and watched Harry Potter 3... and timeline and ella enchanted.... I didnt even notice when la la and linz left... ah well...
I also found out last night that Jenny had Sophie.... It was a 'difficult' delivery but everyone is fine now.... How awesome is that? Jenny and aaron wanted a baby for so long and now they finally have her... Very cool... :)
on that note I'm goin to bed... I know its ungodly early but I'm decked...
laters.
The whole school situation has been on my mind all day long.... I still don't know what to do about it but I know there's nothing I can realistically do about it till Friday when I have the time to devote to phone calls and emails all day long... with the exception of my haircut at 240... That I've almost waited too long for... School's imporant but my hair is ridiculous.... I may push my appt back a few hours if I get caught up and unable to finish what i need to do but it will get done... So yeah I'm goin to call and talk to Wilma and Dr Taddie about doing those 2 classes long distance and Dr Neice if need be... Hopefully that works out... If worse comes to worse I think I may be going back to AR in the fall... As much as I don't want to, I gotta do what I gotta do to it all done and outta the way so I can go on with life... Almost word for word what sean said and he's right....
So tonight I get home from work after a particularly hard day (dora was on my case and I wasnt in a great mood to begin with...) and John's here waiting for mom... She gets home while i'm checking my email and then I'm watching American Idol and I go down to try to find something for dinner... She gets me in a conversation about work and stuff.... Ok, lalalala.... Then she strikes a sore spot.... my love life and lack thereof...
She suggested I try eharmony.com and started to compare my life to Laurens and then suggested I date Mike (Mr Browns son that works at Dillards up in housewares)... Um.... He's in his early 40s, has a his own house, short, kinda squaty, but perfectly nice guy... No I think not. Then she goes into the school drama in front of John... If it was something just in passing I could have let it go and left them alone... But for her to accuse me of not caring was like ripping out my heart and stomping on it... I finally just told her I didnt wish to discuss my personal business in front of John, who is technically a guest... then I walked up stairs, without eating anything and closed the door and cried like I haven't since B2 and I broke up.... And all I could think the whole time was I hope she doesnt hear me and come up and accuse me of faking it.... Thats how much I think my mother thinks of me... and its disheartening... Its like that whole she wont trust me thing we had back in September... different situation, different circumstances but still discouraging as all hell.... To realize your own mother doesn't know you well enough to know when you're being real and when you play your cards close to the vest in order not to get hurt... THATS what I couldn't tell her when she asked why she shouldnt think that I dont give a shit... but I couldnt cuz I was too close to tears and I had to get away from her and her lack of faith as I could....
I called Natey... He helped me calm down... Then he told me to call Seany... Did and he came over (while I was waiting for him I called melly and got out a lot of stuff...) and we went to the House of Pies... I didn't cry again, thank goodness... I hate crying I hate it even worse in public...
Kinda like puking... So yeah we talked and he took me home... We sat out in the car smoking and talking some more... That guy is one of the best friends a girl could have... So yeah I gotta do what I gotta do concerning school...
ok fun stuff now... Lets see I didn't do crap Friday or Saturday night... Mom was surprised I didnt go to the Firehouse... No one I wanted to see was playing so I didnt go... No biggie... Worked Saturday... Sunday was easter.... It was nice... got woken up at 10 only to be told I had half an hour to get ready (and somehow I was ready - make up, clothes, shower, hair done, everything in half an hour... its a new record...). But we weren't ready to leave til almost 11... we have mimosas and go to Baba Yaga's and are told its a 20 minute wait.... end up waiting almost an hour... More mimosas in the mean time... Get seated, order (i did the buffet - not bad but not the greatest I've ever had... the raquet club kinda spoiled me on anyone else's easter brunch.... Cant beat fruit plates with lots of strawberries and pineapple, all the shrimp (boiled and peeled) you can eat and killa desserts.... *sigh* Easter wasn't the same with only a table or 2 with kids... I sorta relish the chaos they bring... Glad they're not mine but making me smile with the silly things they do...
So we finish brunch and come home... I organized my music files (exciting I know...) and watched Harry Potter 3... and timeline and ella enchanted.... I didnt even notice when la la and linz left... ah well...
I also found out last night that Jenny had Sophie.... It was a 'difficult' delivery but everyone is fine now.... How awesome is that? Jenny and aaron wanted a baby for so long and now they finally have her... Very cool... :)
on that note I'm goin to bed... I know its ungodly early but I'm decked...
laters.
Monday, March 28, 2005
this was gonna be a nice fun post about how much I love men and the weekend and easter.... I'll talk about that later.... THIS IS A RANT THIS IS ONLY A RANT!!!
Only hell.... Its one helluva one....
So those 2 classes I'm lacking to graduate? EC2 and behavior management? Mom went behind my back like I was a freaking child and called u of o, while I appreciate it cuz she got answers I hadn't managed to yet, the fact she did it without consulting me pisses me off. I knew when I left the house and she said she wanted to use the computer to do some work and got all bitchy with me before I left for work something was up... I just didn't know how big a something...
But thats not really the point of this post...
What mom found out was that... one of the classes is being offered this fall and the other in the spring but I could petition to take the spring class independant study in the fall and take the other class AT U OF O.... Move 500 miles(522 door to door) for 6 hours (classes) and spend lord knows how much money for 5 monthes of class... But then I would also have to petition NOT to have to pay to use the JLC AND to do one class IS.... Why can't I just do both of them IS? Theres such thing as *gasp* technology... Those lil computer thingys? You can send stuff through em... Pretty neat o if you ask me.... fuck. I am just soo frustrated with all this.... By the time I get this degree I'll be old and gray... And whats it gonna say on the diploma? General Studies. GENERAL FUCKING STUDIES..... argh..... Mom was tellin me all this and I didn't know whether to laughor cry or scream at the unfairness of it all.... and at her for being her usual nosy ass self... I tried to explain myself to her but I couldnt find the words.... Me, who has words for everything.... Go fig....
Seriously I don't know if its some sort of conspiracy to keep me giving them money or just some joke the universe is playing on me.... Either way this is soo not cool...
Anyway mom said in the end its up to me... whether I wanted to finish at all and/or move back to AR for a semester... I want to finish I really do its just so ridiculously hard... to get everything figured out and lined up and taken care of.... I was supposed to be someplace else at this point inmy life.... And I'm not there... I'm still living at home for Christ sakes... not dating anyone... sucky job that has no job security whatsoever.... the pay sucks... the hours are better than they used to be though.... Nancie has yet to come through with anything for me temp wise... I really put most of my eggs in the same basket there... I heard how easy it was to find temp work... So far NADA. And I interviewed with her almost a month ago, and have called in twice a week... nothing. So much for that being easy.... *eye roll*
I really have no idea what to do.... Its scary... Not a good kind Scary Movie way.... Anyone with any advice at all email me.... PM... IM... Whatever.... I need help and I'm not afraid to ask for it.... BTW, thanks yet again, Chuck, I really think I'm goin to call him Friday... thats it for today... maybe 2morrow or the next day I'll talk about my weekend...
laters.
Only hell.... Its one helluva one....
So those 2 classes I'm lacking to graduate? EC2 and behavior management? Mom went behind my back like I was a freaking child and called u of o, while I appreciate it cuz she got answers I hadn't managed to yet, the fact she did it without consulting me pisses me off. I knew when I left the house and she said she wanted to use the computer to do some work and got all bitchy with me before I left for work something was up... I just didn't know how big a something...
But thats not really the point of this post...
What mom found out was that... one of the classes is being offered this fall and the other in the spring but I could petition to take the spring class independant study in the fall and take the other class AT U OF O.... Move 500 miles(522 door to door) for 6 hours (classes) and spend lord knows how much money for 5 monthes of class... But then I would also have to petition NOT to have to pay to use the JLC AND to do one class IS.... Why can't I just do both of them IS? Theres such thing as *gasp* technology... Those lil computer thingys? You can send stuff through em... Pretty neat o if you ask me.... fuck. I am just soo frustrated with all this.... By the time I get this degree I'll be old and gray... And whats it gonna say on the diploma? General Studies. GENERAL FUCKING STUDIES..... argh..... Mom was tellin me all this and I didn't know whether to laughor cry or scream at the unfairness of it all.... and at her for being her usual nosy ass self... I tried to explain myself to her but I couldnt find the words.... Me, who has words for everything.... Go fig....
Seriously I don't know if its some sort of conspiracy to keep me giving them money or just some joke the universe is playing on me.... Either way this is soo not cool...
Anyway mom said in the end its up to me... whether I wanted to finish at all and/or move back to AR for a semester... I want to finish I really do its just so ridiculously hard... to get everything figured out and lined up and taken care of.... I was supposed to be someplace else at this point inmy life.... And I'm not there... I'm still living at home for Christ sakes... not dating anyone... sucky job that has no job security whatsoever.... the pay sucks... the hours are better than they used to be though.... Nancie has yet to come through with anything for me temp wise... I really put most of my eggs in the same basket there... I heard how easy it was to find temp work... So far NADA. And I interviewed with her almost a month ago, and have called in twice a week... nothing. So much for that being easy.... *eye roll*
I really have no idea what to do.... Its scary... Not a good kind Scary Movie way.... Anyone with any advice at all email me.... PM... IM... Whatever.... I need help and I'm not afraid to ask for it.... BTW, thanks yet again, Chuck, I really think I'm goin to call him Friday... thats it for today... maybe 2morrow or the next day I'll talk about my weekend...
laters.
Friday, March 25, 2005
there's some stuff thats (gasp egads) non guy related I didnt write about the other day... And I didn't do this one Kev's way... (sorry, I'm too tired to sweat it...) I'm only up cuz I want to post Gage's happy birthday thread.... :) Happy Birthday, Mini Justin! :) (he's so gonna kill me when he sees that.... ah well its been a good life....) Also Happy Birthday to Chuck whose bday is on the 27th, I know I'm gonna forget so here it is.... :)
So Dora wasn't at work today (thursday) so I slacked off not as bad as Tuesday but enough my coworkers wondered if i was in my section all day... and I wasn't just fyi... one guy related note... American Idol... Bo and Constantine... hmm mmm good.... :) Not quite Justin yummy but close... (Double meaning there... complimenting Gage and discussing Justin's hotness, how often can I do that? Your welcome, Gagey.... :) )
I decided today that I need to figure out where my life is goin and quit just cruising through... I need to DO something... What I'm not sure yet... But I'm tired of Dillards and tired of feeling like I'm not reaching my goals in life... I still haven't graduated college (those 2 classes), know if I passed that THEA, have my own place or a job that I can tolerate (like seems to be hoping for too much...). So what am I going to do? I don't know... I'm open for suggestions (and no Treasures or Hooters are NOT options, Sean.... :P )....
Mom also announced last night (wednesday) that she wants to move in with John within the next year... wha wha what? When did this occur? What happened to they're fine living seperately, in fact PREFERRING it to living together or marriage.... She also told me in no uncertain terms I wasn't allowed to move with her... Which sorta sparked this feeling of lossing control of my life.... Not sure what I'm goin to do there either... ugh.......
Other news type stuff.... I have no idea what I'm doin this weekend entertainment wise... I work 945 - 6 tomorrow(friday) and Saturday and I'm off Sunday (since the stores closed... I think I still get paid though.... SWEET!) and the fam is doin brunch at Baba Yaga's and mimosas at the house... But music wise I think I'm not doin anything... I don't know of any shows I want to go to.... Shocking isn't it?
Well there is ONE show I want to go to Saturday... But its in Waco... Yeah sooo not gonna happen... Too bad its Burke, PDB, and Ryan Turner.... *sigh* I hate missing hotties galore... darn holidays and work and familia obligations... anyway not much else occuring.... time to go post that thread and hit the hay... hay hay.... :)
laters.
So Dora wasn't at work today (thursday) so I slacked off not as bad as Tuesday but enough my coworkers wondered if i was in my section all day... and I wasn't just fyi... one guy related note... American Idol... Bo and Constantine... hmm mmm good.... :) Not quite Justin yummy but close... (Double meaning there... complimenting Gage and discussing Justin's hotness, how often can I do that? Your welcome, Gagey.... :) )
I decided today that I need to figure out where my life is goin and quit just cruising through... I need to DO something... What I'm not sure yet... But I'm tired of Dillards and tired of feeling like I'm not reaching my goals in life... I still haven't graduated college (those 2 classes), know if I passed that THEA, have my own place or a job that I can tolerate (like seems to be hoping for too much...). So what am I going to do? I don't know... I'm open for suggestions (and no Treasures or Hooters are NOT options, Sean.... :P )....
Mom also announced last night (wednesday) that she wants to move in with John within the next year... wha wha what? When did this occur? What happened to they're fine living seperately, in fact PREFERRING it to living together or marriage.... She also told me in no uncertain terms I wasn't allowed to move with her... Which sorta sparked this feeling of lossing control of my life.... Not sure what I'm goin to do there either... ugh.......
Other news type stuff.... I have no idea what I'm doin this weekend entertainment wise... I work 945 - 6 tomorrow(friday) and Saturday and I'm off Sunday (since the stores closed... I think I still get paid though.... SWEET!) and the fam is doin brunch at Baba Yaga's and mimosas at the house... But music wise I think I'm not doin anything... I don't know of any shows I want to go to.... Shocking isn't it?
Well there is ONE show I want to go to Saturday... But its in Waco... Yeah sooo not gonna happen... Too bad its Burke, PDB, and Ryan Turner.... *sigh* I hate missing hotties galore... darn holidays and work and familia obligations... anyway not much else occuring.... time to go post that thread and hit the hay... hay hay.... :)
laters.
Thursday, March 24, 2005
ok I've decided no man will drive me to drink... I'll drive myself... hehehe... Another shout out to kev cuz he's the bestest.... :)
and some lyrics before i declare myself gone to bed....
Empty Glass - Gary Stewart (Randy Rogers and Stoney both cover it....)
An Empty Glass,
That last cigarette,
it's closing time,
and I'm drunk again
But somehow I'll make it home, and
cry myself to sleep
That's how my day ends, every night for me.
Every Night I'm in some bar,
Pouring Whiskey on a heart that's on fire.
Forgetting you is no easy thing,
Each night for me always ends the same
With an Empty Glass,
That last cigarette, it's closing time,
and I'm drunk again
But somehow I'll make it home,
and cry myself to sleep
That's how my day ends,
every night for me.
Every Night I'm in some bar,
Pouring Whiskey on a heart that's on fire.
Forgetting you is no easy thing,
Each night for me always ends the same?
With an Empty Glass,
That last cigarette, it's closing time,
and I'm drunk again
But somehow I'll make it home,
and cry myself to sleep
That's how my day ends,
every night for me.
Yea, That's how my day ends,
every night for me.
later on....
and some lyrics before i declare myself gone to bed....
Empty Glass - Gary Stewart (Randy Rogers and Stoney both cover it....)
An Empty Glass,
That last cigarette,
it's closing time,
and I'm drunk again
But somehow I'll make it home, and
cry myself to sleep
That's how my day ends, every night for me.
Every Night I'm in some bar,
Pouring Whiskey on a heart that's on fire.
Forgetting you is no easy thing,
Each night for me always ends the same
With an Empty Glass,
That last cigarette, it's closing time,
and I'm drunk again
But somehow I'll make it home,
and cry myself to sleep
That's how my day ends,
every night for me.
Every Night I'm in some bar,
Pouring Whiskey on a heart that's on fire.
Forgetting you is no easy thing,
Each night for me always ends the same?
With an Empty Glass,
That last cigarette, it's closing time,
and I'm drunk again
But somehow I'll make it home,
and cry myself to sleep
That's how my day ends,
every night for me.
Yea, That's how my day ends,
every night for me.
later on....
this kicked by a horse twice in one week is gettin to be a bit much... am I a sadist?? I see its him and I go ahead and look anyway.... ugh.... I have to stop... It just makes me wanna cry... Or drink to excess.... Which shall I do tonight? Right now crying is about to win... fuck it... fuck him...
I think I'll just stay here and drink. screw the fact i have to be at work in the morning... I have tequila and I'm not afraid to use it. if i have your phone # I apoligize in advance for drunken 4 am phone calls... If I'm crying, don't sweat it.... my heart hurts and I need something to numb it... laters.
I think I'll just stay here and drink. screw the fact i have to be at work in the morning... I have tequila and I'm not afraid to use it. if i have your phone # I apoligize in advance for drunken 4 am phone calls... If I'm crying, don't sweat it.... my heart hurts and I need something to numb it... laters.
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
Holy shit, I’m taking Kevin’s advice… Be amazed be very amazed… Though he is my own personal dear Abby, so technically this isn’t the first time I’ve taken his advice… It is the first time I’ve taken it when it hasn’t been asked for… Or was it I don’t remember… Ah well…
The advice? Write these things on Word first and copy and paste em to my blog… Kinda marinate in my thoughts a lil before posting them… So maybe I’ll learn to censor myself a lil more and not be so obvious and blunt about some things… Mainly about the guys in my life… Who I'm digging and that sort of thing...
So I discovered yesterday that Anthony’s even younger then I first thought.., He’s like 18 and still in high school… When he dropped the story about taking a note home from the office I was like wha wha what??? I was shocked… To say the very least. Then he came by on his way out for a smoke and I could tell he wanted to stop and visit but I was surrounded (thank God) by Cruz and Paula and some customers… Even if I had been contemplating anything with him… He’s way too damn young… College is pushing is for me, HIGH SCHOOL is like NO NO NO HELL NO… Doesn’t mean I can’t be friends with him but definitely nothing more…
Quick guy update… American Idol crushes still in full effect… I adore Bo and Constantine… Long haired rockers are my weakness… Hell musicians period… I need to meet some new guys NON musician guys, where does one do that? The grocery store? Nope, hot guys are there girlfriends or boyfriends in tow… Church groups? I’d feel like a hypocrite doing that… Work? Most all of the guys there are gay… Big help. Through friends? Most of my friends are musicians so yeah…. Maybe not… So what is a good way to meet new people? I’m clueless…
In the meantime my crushes are still in full effect… Almost all of them anyone... One got shut down last night... Ah well suck is life... There are other fish in the sea....
Also yesterday I discovered something about myself… Or rather rediscovered… I’m a deep chick… Like Joel and I were discussing religion and spirituality philosophy type stuff that I used to always talk about with the guys at like 3 am at the House of Pies… And we haven’t done that in the longest time so I sorta forgot about the layer of my personality… Why? Because I guess the whole drama with the ex and the ex himself weren’t really that deep we didn’t talk about everything and anything… Not the way I do with B or them… There’s the stupidest mistake I ever made. Dumping him for B2… Hindsight’s 20/20 I guess. I guess at the time I just wasn’t ready for something so intense and so fast (even though I’ve known him since I was 13… We never ‘did’ anything till I was like in my 20s…).
Curious what he looks like? Look at Bo Bice on American Idol, almost his twin… Kinda scary… Lets see what else…
Was off work today, ran some errands, made some phone calls… ate whataburger… rented some movies, played on GW… Slept late on top of all that…. It was very nice… Very laid back… I’m working tomorrow 945 to 7 (don’t ask me why 7, that’s Dora for you…) and then the results of American Idol… I do have to stop for gas on the way to work in the morning I’m cruising on e…. Not a good thing at all…
I wonder where Ryan is… He’s DDing me at the moment but I have no idea who it is singing… Jack maybe? Ah well, I enjoy it anyway… :)
Time to go make lunch for manana…. Laters.
2 hours later... I did actaully post this with no editing or revisions there's nothing too horrible and nothing incriminating... I sound a lil boy crazy but nothing new there... I did however find out that I have another new cuz... (gary's baby a few weeks ago and now this one)Flynt had a baby... A son named Garrett... So that makes 4 biological kids plus the 3 his wife or girlfriend whatever has... DAMN thats a lot of kids... And his biological kids vary in ages 10 - 15 and now the baby... Jesus Christ, has the man never heard of birth control?!?!? Thats really it... later.
The advice? Write these things on Word first and copy and paste em to my blog… Kinda marinate in my thoughts a lil before posting them… So maybe I’ll learn to censor myself a lil more and not be so obvious and blunt about some things… Mainly about the guys in my life… Who I'm digging and that sort of thing...
So I discovered yesterday that Anthony’s even younger then I first thought.., He’s like 18 and still in high school… When he dropped the story about taking a note home from the office I was like wha wha what??? I was shocked… To say the very least. Then he came by on his way out for a smoke and I could tell he wanted to stop and visit but I was surrounded (thank God) by Cruz and Paula and some customers… Even if I had been contemplating anything with him… He’s way too damn young… College is pushing is for me, HIGH SCHOOL is like NO NO NO HELL NO… Doesn’t mean I can’t be friends with him but definitely nothing more…
Quick guy update… American Idol crushes still in full effect… I adore Bo and Constantine… Long haired rockers are my weakness… Hell musicians period… I need to meet some new guys NON musician guys, where does one do that? The grocery store? Nope, hot guys are there girlfriends or boyfriends in tow… Church groups? I’d feel like a hypocrite doing that… Work? Most all of the guys there are gay… Big help. Through friends? Most of my friends are musicians so yeah…. Maybe not… So what is a good way to meet new people? I’m clueless…
In the meantime my crushes are still in full effect… Almost all of them anyone... One got shut down last night... Ah well suck is life... There are other fish in the sea....
Also yesterday I discovered something about myself… Or rather rediscovered… I’m a deep chick… Like Joel and I were discussing religion and spirituality philosophy type stuff that I used to always talk about with the guys at like 3 am at the House of Pies… And we haven’t done that in the longest time so I sorta forgot about the layer of my personality… Why? Because I guess the whole drama with the ex and the ex himself weren’t really that deep we didn’t talk about everything and anything… Not the way I do with B or them… There’s the stupidest mistake I ever made. Dumping him for B2… Hindsight’s 20/20 I guess. I guess at the time I just wasn’t ready for something so intense and so fast (even though I’ve known him since I was 13… We never ‘did’ anything till I was like in my 20s…).
Curious what he looks like? Look at Bo Bice on American Idol, almost his twin… Kinda scary… Lets see what else…
Was off work today, ran some errands, made some phone calls… ate whataburger… rented some movies, played on GW… Slept late on top of all that…. It was very nice… Very laid back… I’m working tomorrow 945 to 7 (don’t ask me why 7, that’s Dora for you…) and then the results of American Idol… I do have to stop for gas on the way to work in the morning I’m cruising on e…. Not a good thing at all…
I wonder where Ryan is… He’s DDing me at the moment but I have no idea who it is singing… Jack maybe? Ah well, I enjoy it anyway… :)
Time to go make lunch for manana…. Laters.
2 hours later... I did actaully post this with no editing or revisions there's nothing too horrible and nothing incriminating... I sound a lil boy crazy but nothing new there... I did however find out that I have another new cuz... (gary's baby a few weeks ago and now this one)Flynt had a baby... A son named Garrett... So that makes 4 biological kids plus the 3 his wife or girlfriend whatever has... DAMN thats a lot of kids... And his biological kids vary in ages 10 - 15 and now the baby... Jesus Christ, has the man never heard of birth control?!?!? Thats really it... later.
Monday, March 21, 2005
You ever feel like you're just cruising along enjoying life and then you get gut kicked by a horse? Or an ass in this case... Literally and figuratively... I forgot about him almost completely (ok not really we still hang out with the same people) but I'm over him. Actaully into 2 or 3 other guys at the moment... Even thinking about dating again... and getting involved in a relationship.... That doesn't mean I didn't lose my breath for a minute when I saw what he wrote.... Hence the kicked by a horse comment... I'm fine now but for half a second it was that same old butterflies in the stomach feeling... Made me want to pick up the phone and call him... I didn't and don't plan to and the urge is totally passed but for just that one second.... Yeah, he'll always have a special place in my heart but he doesn't own it anymore... Its a nice feeling to know that...
But yeah I'm into some other guys... too bad they're all musicians... I really need to find a different group of guys to date.... But I'm not really attracted to any other type of guy...
so my day..... Slept til noon... had some lovely dreams, had a late lunch, played on GW, showered, made some phone calls, went to the post office, ran some errands and grabbed dinner at La Madeleine.... My once a week chicken ceasar salad indulgence... Also I made some chocolate chip cookies last night and hid them well... So well I got a phone call asking where they were.... I love my mom.... :) Came home, ate, watched the Ewok adventures and thats about it... aside from playing on GW some more... :) laters.
But yeah I'm into some other guys... too bad they're all musicians... I really need to find a different group of guys to date.... But I'm not really attracted to any other type of guy...
so my day..... Slept til noon... had some lovely dreams, had a late lunch, played on GW, showered, made some phone calls, went to the post office, ran some errands and grabbed dinner at La Madeleine.... My once a week chicken ceasar salad indulgence... Also I made some chocolate chip cookies last night and hid them well... So well I got a phone call asking where they were.... I love my mom.... :) Came home, ate, watched the Ewok adventures and thats about it... aside from playing on GW some more... :) laters.
Sunday, March 20, 2005
I didn't think my sisters and I talked enough anymore... BOY WAS I WRONG.... I get home from work 2night and everyone (mom, john, linz and lauren...) had just sat down to dinner... So we have dinner and we were talking about drug testing at work and I was telling them about Anthony's reaction to the drug dog coming in yesterday... I mentioned he was a musician... and they're like oh yeah so when are you goin to see his band? Look.... I have no defense for this... I admit I asked about his band... what kind of music he plays... and where... I didnt ask the next time they were playing though... I mentioned he's young and they're like that matters? He's a musician, you're goin after him... Thats scary that my sisters know that about me.... Sure we share boy stuff but I thought I was good enough at hiding the bad parts (ie musician part).... I guess not... ah well.... I'll live... And no I'm not goin after him... he's sweet but I'm just not that into him... Also at dinner mom told a joke she learned in Florida....
her: Did you know they have a Masters program in Florida for fishing?
us: Really?
her: Yeah, actaully its a program in baiting.... very special baiting... Anyone who has who goes through it is called a Master-baiter.... :)
Cracked us all up.....
Speaking of funny... another funny story... I saw a book at Barnes and Noble called "Be Honest, you're really not that into him either." I cracked up when I saw it... and then there was a lil part about raising your standards... I prolly DONT need to be doin that.... I'm already picky enough as it is....
So last night I went to the Firehouse for RRB and John Evans.... Ran into W almost first thing... Talked to him a few... I asked if he needed a pass to leave the library... He laughed at me... We made plans to go out one night soon... (note to everyone - MAKE PLANS WITH PEOPLE BEFORE THEY GET DRUNK... they wont remember shit otherwise.... :) ) So I make my way up to the front... run into some GW peeps... go to the front and hang with other GW peeps... John Evans comes on... he's pretty decent.... Then RRB comes on... rocks the hizzouse.... as always... I swear RRB is one of my top 5 favorite bands live... in no order they're the Trailers, RRB, Reckless, Pat and BEB... During Honky tonk women I got pulled on stage... it was greatness... R made a dedication of sorts... directed to 'assholes'... He told me later it was about B2... I told him thats what I thought and bust a gut.... Chubby was a lil unsure what to think then he saw me and I stuck my tongue out at him... it was greatness.... BTW... I can't really call him Chubby anymore... He's lost his gut and his hands don't look like sausages... He needs a new nickname.... afterwards i said bye to the GW peeps and went over to say hey to R and W... Didnt see Chubby or Braids.... W offered to walk me to my car... it was rainy and I declined and made a run for it... made it home about 230 or so.... checked GW, talked to Bec and Kev for a sec.... Bec didn't go to Bleu's show cuz of the rain and Kev got to hear about the VM's I left him.... :) Crashed and woke up and went to work...
While I was at work I got to thinking... What was W doin at at RRB's show? Random thought.... I was folding shirts and about an hour later I looked up from the table I was working on redoing and i was like holy shit... I completely forgot Braids used to be in W's band.... My bad...
Thats about it for now....laters...
her: Did you know they have a Masters program in Florida for fishing?
us: Really?
her: Yeah, actaully its a program in baiting.... very special baiting... Anyone who has who goes through it is called a Master-baiter.... :)
Cracked us all up.....
Speaking of funny... another funny story... I saw a book at Barnes and Noble called "Be Honest, you're really not that into him either." I cracked up when I saw it... and then there was a lil part about raising your standards... I prolly DONT need to be doin that.... I'm already picky enough as it is....
So last night I went to the Firehouse for RRB and John Evans.... Ran into W almost first thing... Talked to him a few... I asked if he needed a pass to leave the library... He laughed at me... We made plans to go out one night soon... (note to everyone - MAKE PLANS WITH PEOPLE BEFORE THEY GET DRUNK... they wont remember shit otherwise.... :) ) So I make my way up to the front... run into some GW peeps... go to the front and hang with other GW peeps... John Evans comes on... he's pretty decent.... Then RRB comes on... rocks the hizzouse.... as always... I swear RRB is one of my top 5 favorite bands live... in no order they're the Trailers, RRB, Reckless, Pat and BEB... During Honky tonk women I got pulled on stage... it was greatness... R made a dedication of sorts... directed to 'assholes'... He told me later it was about B2... I told him thats what I thought and bust a gut.... Chubby was a lil unsure what to think then he saw me and I stuck my tongue out at him... it was greatness.... BTW... I can't really call him Chubby anymore... He's lost his gut and his hands don't look like sausages... He needs a new nickname.... afterwards i said bye to the GW peeps and went over to say hey to R and W... Didnt see Chubby or Braids.... W offered to walk me to my car... it was rainy and I declined and made a run for it... made it home about 230 or so.... checked GW, talked to Bec and Kev for a sec.... Bec didn't go to Bleu's show cuz of the rain and Kev got to hear about the VM's I left him.... :) Crashed and woke up and went to work...
While I was at work I got to thinking... What was W doin at at RRB's show? Random thought.... I was folding shirts and about an hour later I looked up from the table I was working on redoing and i was like holy shit... I completely forgot Braids used to be in W's band.... My bad...
Thats about it for now....laters...
Saturday, March 19, 2005
Its scary how a lil common decency can make ya feel all warm and fuzzy inside.... Not just common decency but courtesy and respect... I'm not used to having almost complete strangers concerned with my well fare and safety.... Its kinda weird in a very nice way... I'm used to being cared about by my family and by my guys but almost strangers, cute ones at that, being concerned with my getting home all right its a very nice feeling. Also manners and politeness are big deals to me... I'm trying to put all my thoughts together but its not working very well... Darn it... Let me try again.
I'm not used to be treated well by strangers. Well isn't a good word for it but it'll do for now... I'm not used to people I barely know being concerned with my well being. Its a very good feeling. The fact its a cute guy is kinda the icing on the proverbial cake... And I wanted to post this last week and didnt.... So I figure what the hell why not 2night? I've been thinking about it enough...
I'm used to concern from my guys (when I take trips I have a list of people to call... My mom, and then them...), to the point of overprotectiveness.... Which I think is totally sweet but can be annoying at times... But in general I'm not used to other people caring about me... Not other people precisely, I love my friends and family and they love me too I know that... And we casually say things like drive safe or don't do anything I wouldn't do... Fun stuff but we know we all care about each other... I guess its that I'm not used to guys I barely know caring about me... In any form or fashion... I guess thats kinda another way B2 made me jaded.... I used to take for granted the care other people took of me and vice versa... I dated him and I wasn't MIStreated I just was never treated like.... an equal or a lady.... He didn't hold open doors or any of that for me... In fact he almost took for granted the fact I'd be there whenever he wanted... So in a way taking ME for granted... So for a nice guy to care about my safety is a nice change. Yeah I should have kissed him... Regardless... I've been thinking alot about the whole situation in the last day or so and I think I've come to a decision... To heck with the age thing and other circumstances... If given a chance I'll take a shot at him... Don't know if anything will happen but I refuse to potentially regret it if I dont.... To quote an old song... get ready, cuz here I come.... :)
Are my days of being happily single numbered?
Stay tuned for more on the next episode of "As Ali's Life Turns"...
Laters....
I'm not used to be treated well by strangers. Well isn't a good word for it but it'll do for now... I'm not used to people I barely know being concerned with my well being. Its a very good feeling. The fact its a cute guy is kinda the icing on the proverbial cake... And I wanted to post this last week and didnt.... So I figure what the hell why not 2night? I've been thinking about it enough...
I'm used to concern from my guys (when I take trips I have a list of people to call... My mom, and then them...), to the point of overprotectiveness.... Which I think is totally sweet but can be annoying at times... But in general I'm not used to other people caring about me... Not other people precisely, I love my friends and family and they love me too I know that... And we casually say things like drive safe or don't do anything I wouldn't do... Fun stuff but we know we all care about each other... I guess its that I'm not used to guys I barely know caring about me... In any form or fashion... I guess thats kinda another way B2 made me jaded.... I used to take for granted the care other people took of me and vice versa... I dated him and I wasn't MIStreated I just was never treated like.... an equal or a lady.... He didn't hold open doors or any of that for me... In fact he almost took for granted the fact I'd be there whenever he wanted... So in a way taking ME for granted... So for a nice guy to care about my safety is a nice change. Yeah I should have kissed him... Regardless... I've been thinking alot about the whole situation in the last day or so and I think I've come to a decision... To heck with the age thing and other circumstances... If given a chance I'll take a shot at him... Don't know if anything will happen but I refuse to potentially regret it if I dont.... To quote an old song... get ready, cuz here I come.... :)
Are my days of being happily single numbered?
Stay tuned for more on the next episode of "As Ali's Life Turns"...
Laters....
Thursday, March 17, 2005
Happy St. Patty's day to all ye lil people... hehehehe... Thats my bad Irish accent for the day... Not having have any green beer today instead having a glass of blush wine... Not really goin out and celebrating but I did go out to eat Chinese with mom... And went to get my pics from Walgreens... I don't really feel like doing anything... I wore green to work... (No shamrock bikini contrary to popular belief...) I couldn't find my kiss me I'm irish pin anywhere... I think I lost it when I moved home last year.... darnit. Dora looked funny today... She had on like 3 shades of green... Was she afraid of the pinches or had she heard something I hadn't? hahahaha.... Also I found out today that Dillards is starting to carry a line of clothes based on the Napolean Dynamite movie that everyone but me and Joel seem to love... So far all we have is a bunch of Tshirts with various lil quotes from the movie... Real exciting stuff... *insert eye roll*
Thompson should be home and drunk by now.... No word from him yet... Mom wants to go to the movies 2morrow night... I don't know how I'm gonna do that and HB at the Firehouse.... We'll see... Talked to that guy Anthony today... He's WAY younger than I thought... I think the fact he's lived all over the place (from Minnesota to NYC to Europe). We sat around and talked music and good places to see it in Houston during our breaks... The entire time i'm talkin to him I'm comparing him to one of the guys I'm digging... He's not as tall... His smile isn't as nice... Yeah I got it bad... Kev can tell ya that...
I got a VM from a missed call last night about midnight for missing a call about 7 or 8... I didn't recognize the number and I got soooo hopeful it was him and I listened to my VM and all I got was some damn chick speaking spanish.... Talk about a let down.... :(
something happy before I go... This llano estacado blush isn't half bad... :) Bec's going to see Bleu with her mom in Corpus this weekend... Should be interesting... I don't know if her mom is familar with BEB... But I told my mom (who thinks Bleu's adorable and wants to know the next time he's in town so she can go see him) and she got a good giggle outta that.... RRB on Saturday... Should be much fun. Too bad I have to work Saturday and Sunday.... Pretty sure I'm off Monday... They keep messing with the schedules again... ugh.... I'm just goin by the one I have... Let's see anything else? Oh yeah my pics are up on my photobucket.... http://photobucket.com/albums/v416/alibob78/ They aren't the greatest but they'll do... Next time I see Burke I need to get one with him... I say that now and I'll forget when I see him... Darn my blondness....
Speaking of which I'm thinking about dying my hair red again... Not sure yet.... We'll see... thats about it for now... laters....
Thompson should be home and drunk by now.... No word from him yet... Mom wants to go to the movies 2morrow night... I don't know how I'm gonna do that and HB at the Firehouse.... We'll see... Talked to that guy Anthony today... He's WAY younger than I thought... I think the fact he's lived all over the place (from Minnesota to NYC to Europe). We sat around and talked music and good places to see it in Houston during our breaks... The entire time i'm talkin to him I'm comparing him to one of the guys I'm digging... He's not as tall... His smile isn't as nice... Yeah I got it bad... Kev can tell ya that...
I got a VM from a missed call last night about midnight for missing a call about 7 or 8... I didn't recognize the number and I got soooo hopeful it was him and I listened to my VM and all I got was some damn chick speaking spanish.... Talk about a let down.... :(
something happy before I go... This llano estacado blush isn't half bad... :) Bec's going to see Bleu with her mom in Corpus this weekend... Should be interesting... I don't know if her mom is familar with BEB... But I told my mom (who thinks Bleu's adorable and wants to know the next time he's in town so she can go see him) and she got a good giggle outta that.... RRB on Saturday... Should be much fun. Too bad I have to work Saturday and Sunday.... Pretty sure I'm off Monday... They keep messing with the schedules again... ugh.... I'm just goin by the one I have... Let's see anything else? Oh yeah my pics are up on my photobucket.... http://photobucket.com/albums/v416/alibob78/ They aren't the greatest but they'll do... Next time I see Burke I need to get one with him... I say that now and I'll forget when I see him... Darn my blondness....
Speaking of which I'm thinking about dying my hair red again... Not sure yet.... We'll see... thats about it for now... laters....
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
So I'm screwed.... Totally.... Completely. Without a doubt. SCREWED.
And not even in a good way like in the back of a Volkswagon... ;) (lil Kevin Smith humor there for those that don't know... )
Why am I sooooooooooooo unbelieveably screwed you make ask yourself.... Well I dig musicians. There its out. Why is that such a bad thing? Well, lets see if I can name the ways... Now these are just generalizations not true for every musician I know.... They smoke, drink, occasionally do drugs, sleep with almost anything in a skirt (even other guys sometimes... I don't care that the story is, thats just gay...) and they suck at relationships.... Not just the romantic ones but I've seen people lose touch with family and friends because of the lifestyle they live. Not the drinking or any of that.... But the fact that they travel so much and have to give up so much in order to follow a dream that may or may not come true. I envy them for being so gung ho about what they want and goin after it... I used to want to be a singer in a band too.... Also wanted to fly the Blue Angels but I don't have the talent for either... Thats beside the point though... I'm screwed because every guy I've been interested in romantically has been or is tryin to be a musician. I've tried dating guys that had nothing to do with music and couldn't tell you a guitar from a hole in the wall... Yeah didn't work out to say the least... I guess that its just that music is such a big part of me and who I am that its hard for me to really connect with someone that doesn't love it.... So the fact that I date musicians sorta seems a natural progression of the love of music I have... Well actually I think I've only dated a handful... Some of the guys I've dated have just played guitar or were artists in some other form or fashion.... actors, writers, etc...
Speaking of which... I thought I saw one of the guys I've been diggin today... In a car right behind me at the red light at Dunlavy and West Gray.... I have him on the mind bad.....
In other stuff news.... I started reading another of Kinky Friedman's books... So far its.... interesting... And that makes 4 books I'm currently reading... One romance, this one, one of the hurricane of 1900, and the Rangers... Nice mix... Mostly Texas history stuff... I feel a lil like my brain is turning to much working at Dillards and not being in school or studying for something.... Not a good feeling.
Day after 2morrow is Honeybrowne at the Firehouse and the next night is Randy Rogers... Tommorrow is St Pats and I have no idea what I'm going to do yet.... Well besides work.... and pick up my pics from Walgreens.... I might call the guys and see what they're up to... F Co's at the Firehouse but I'm not the biggest fan of them.... I could drive up to Conroe after work and see Josh at Tuts but I dont want to drive 2 hours round trip after working all day.... (sorry, hon... One day I'll see the Fool on A Stool show... Promise.)
I got Miranda Lambert's CD today and Shooter Jennings CD and I'm diggin both of those so far... I happened upon an in store performance of Jon Wolfe.... Good stuff... Kinda western swing like Aaron Watson... Seriously good dancing music... I dug em enough to buy their CD... That says something... Not much since I like almost everyone I hear... :)
Haven't had a drunken phone call or text from Thompson unless he really did pull a Sonny Bono? :( That'd be very bad.... Very bad indeed.... Ah well I'll talk to him when he gets back...
thats about all thats happening in my wonderfully exciting life... laters...
And not even in a good way like in the back of a Volkswagon... ;) (lil Kevin Smith humor there for those that don't know... )
Why am I sooooooooooooo unbelieveably screwed you make ask yourself.... Well I dig musicians. There its out. Why is that such a bad thing? Well, lets see if I can name the ways... Now these are just generalizations not true for every musician I know.... They smoke, drink, occasionally do drugs, sleep with almost anything in a skirt (even other guys sometimes... I don't care that the story is, thats just gay...) and they suck at relationships.... Not just the romantic ones but I've seen people lose touch with family and friends because of the lifestyle they live. Not the drinking or any of that.... But the fact that they travel so much and have to give up so much in order to follow a dream that may or may not come true. I envy them for being so gung ho about what they want and goin after it... I used to want to be a singer in a band too.... Also wanted to fly the Blue Angels but I don't have the talent for either... Thats beside the point though... I'm screwed because every guy I've been interested in romantically has been or is tryin to be a musician. I've tried dating guys that had nothing to do with music and couldn't tell you a guitar from a hole in the wall... Yeah didn't work out to say the least... I guess that its just that music is such a big part of me and who I am that its hard for me to really connect with someone that doesn't love it.... So the fact that I date musicians sorta seems a natural progression of the love of music I have... Well actually I think I've only dated a handful... Some of the guys I've dated have just played guitar or were artists in some other form or fashion.... actors, writers, etc...
Speaking of which... I thought I saw one of the guys I've been diggin today... In a car right behind me at the red light at Dunlavy and West Gray.... I have him on the mind bad.....
In other stuff news.... I started reading another of Kinky Friedman's books... So far its.... interesting... And that makes 4 books I'm currently reading... One romance, this one, one of the hurricane of 1900, and the Rangers... Nice mix... Mostly Texas history stuff... I feel a lil like my brain is turning to much working at Dillards and not being in school or studying for something.... Not a good feeling.
Day after 2morrow is Honeybrowne at the Firehouse and the next night is Randy Rogers... Tommorrow is St Pats and I have no idea what I'm going to do yet.... Well besides work.... and pick up my pics from Walgreens.... I might call the guys and see what they're up to... F Co's at the Firehouse but I'm not the biggest fan of them.... I could drive up to Conroe after work and see Josh at Tuts but I dont want to drive 2 hours round trip after working all day.... (sorry, hon... One day I'll see the Fool on A Stool show... Promise.)
I got Miranda Lambert's CD today and Shooter Jennings CD and I'm diggin both of those so far... I happened upon an in store performance of Jon Wolfe.... Good stuff... Kinda western swing like Aaron Watson... Seriously good dancing music... I dug em enough to buy their CD... That says something... Not much since I like almost everyone I hear... :)
Haven't had a drunken phone call or text from Thompson unless he really did pull a Sonny Bono? :( That'd be very bad.... Very bad indeed.... Ah well I'll talk to him when he gets back...
thats about all thats happening in my wonderfully exciting life... laters...
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
I'm so tired.... And no I wasnt out drinking last night.... rofl.... Seems that story's floating around the store now... Ah well... I've survived worse things... Like the rumors that flowed about me and Brian back when I had a crush on him... Good God, people had us married and engaged and stuff... Ricidulous....
Speaking of Brian... He called me drunk last night from Denver... All I really got out of the whole conversation was that he was in Denver and he'd been drinking pretty much since he left the store last night... So from about 530 at Papasitos to the airport for an 8 oclock flight where he drank more to the text messages he sent at about 10.... To the phone call at 1230 this morning... I couldn't quit laughing at him... He comes back Thursday night so I prolly wont see him till Saturday... Since I'm off Friday and I have plans all weekend... But I do work Saturday and I know he does too... Watch him try to convince me to go to Sullivans again... Ah well... One of these days I keep telling him and Cruz...
Also work related... LaShauna gave her 2 weeks the other day to move to NYC to pursue modeling... I think she can do it, she's got a Tyra Banks thing goin.... Cruz is convinced Brian should be a model... Whatever... He's cute but he's not model material... (I only speak the truth... Models are beautiful and look gay... He's cute and completely straight... Thank God.) Theres a couple of new guys that are cute in lady's shoes... and one in kids shoes... Anthony... He's in a band.... I was talkin to him about it tonight and it turns out they've played the Engine Room a lot... I asked what kind of music and hes like we cover a lot of classic bands... Zepplin, Skynard, the Doors... I was like I love you.... we both laughed... Also Rena gave me a shit load of samples that she had gotten from Kelly in lady's fragance...
other stuff.... Mom discovered her cappicino machine missing... I slipped and admitted Linz had taken it... I need to stop cursing... Its worst when I'm driving... And I know this... And I try to stop but then I get in a car and I'm like dropping f bombs like they're goin outta style... I need to be deaf, dumb, mute and blind... Maybe then I could stop?
I think I may also consider calling all people I know with the same names by their last names... Mainly Brians since i know like 6 of em... Not a bad thing, just very confusing....
lets see what else... I also requested off the 2 weekends in April I need for both the crawfish boils... I'd take both Saturdays but no way in hell am I driving back at Lord knows what time at night from Conroe or Shepard or Livingston... I'm off work 2morrow so hopefully I'll get some stuff done... I definately have a bit I NEED to do... So we'll see.... thats about it now... laters.
Speaking of Brian... He called me drunk last night from Denver... All I really got out of the whole conversation was that he was in Denver and he'd been drinking pretty much since he left the store last night... So from about 530 at Papasitos to the airport for an 8 oclock flight where he drank more to the text messages he sent at about 10.... To the phone call at 1230 this morning... I couldn't quit laughing at him... He comes back Thursday night so I prolly wont see him till Saturday... Since I'm off Friday and I have plans all weekend... But I do work Saturday and I know he does too... Watch him try to convince me to go to Sullivans again... Ah well... One of these days I keep telling him and Cruz...
Also work related... LaShauna gave her 2 weeks the other day to move to NYC to pursue modeling... I think she can do it, she's got a Tyra Banks thing goin.... Cruz is convinced Brian should be a model... Whatever... He's cute but he's not model material... (I only speak the truth... Models are beautiful and look gay... He's cute and completely straight... Thank God.) Theres a couple of new guys that are cute in lady's shoes... and one in kids shoes... Anthony... He's in a band.... I was talkin to him about it tonight and it turns out they've played the Engine Room a lot... I asked what kind of music and hes like we cover a lot of classic bands... Zepplin, Skynard, the Doors... I was like I love you.... we both laughed... Also Rena gave me a shit load of samples that she had gotten from Kelly in lady's fragance...
other stuff.... Mom discovered her cappicino machine missing... I slipped and admitted Linz had taken it... I need to stop cursing... Its worst when I'm driving... And I know this... And I try to stop but then I get in a car and I'm like dropping f bombs like they're goin outta style... I need to be deaf, dumb, mute and blind... Maybe then I could stop?
I think I may also consider calling all people I know with the same names by their last names... Mainly Brians since i know like 6 of em... Not a bad thing, just very confusing....
lets see what else... I also requested off the 2 weekends in April I need for both the crawfish boils... I'd take both Saturdays but no way in hell am I driving back at Lord knows what time at night from Conroe or Shepard or Livingston... I'm off work 2morrow so hopefully I'll get some stuff done... I definately have a bit I NEED to do... So we'll see.... thats about it now... laters.
Monday, March 14, 2005
Dear God,
Please send me a new job so I can tell Dora to take this one and shove it...
Thank you.
Alison Fritz
Hehehe... Think God reads blogs? :) If so HALLALUJAH!!! :)
No seriously I know I complain and bitch about this job and no one really understands how bad it is... Sean's met Dora, at least he has an inkling of whats up... But today... Today took the cake. I get there and go up to take my lunch to the break room and she calls for the morning meeting...
So I go back down and its me and all the other mens associates... So shes talking and she like askes me how I am and I'm just like I'm tired... (ask me a question, I'll give you an honest answer...) And shes like were you out late drinking? I'm like WTF?!?!? I'm tired therefore I must have been drinking? How do those connect? If I'd been drinking I'd be hungover... I was just tired... Too many late nights and too many days of working... I told her I just didnt get enough sleep last night and she makes some comparison to herself... And then she goes into how maybe I shouldnt be working openings just closes... Finally I was just like Dora, I'm here on time and ready to work, thats all you should be concerned with. She shut up and laid off me. But for her to pull that shit in front of my coworkers? Sorry, bitch that shit wont fly... Someone pointed out to me later she was tryin to intimadate me... I told her I fear only 2 people in this world. My mother and God. Dora's just a pain in my ass... Temporary at that... So after the meeting she comes over to my area (denim) and I'm putting my purse up and about to open the register and shes like I dont think you take this job seriously enough... I lied through my teeth and told her of course I did... While in my head I'm like why should I? 8 bucks an hour doesn't buy my loyalty or love... Sounds a bit like a song... hehehehe....
So third time of the day, this one after lunch... I had put some stuff on hold for Derrick in ladies shoes and I put a hold tag on em before lunch and put em in the stock room... I go to get em when he comes back from lunch to get em and they're gone... Turns out Ms Dora had taken them and had them put up. A sale that could have been 100$'s or more easily reduced to 50$'s... I only found one shirt and Derrick went back and grabbed 2 more... He threatened to go stomp on her feet (they're all swollen and look like shes in pain) and I said have at it...
BUT in other news (ie fun stuff...) I was on my break and Brian comes in... He went to Denver tonight to visit his sister and go snowboarding till Friday... Lucky brat... Anyway we get to talking and hes like do you get text messaging? And I laughed at him... DO I GET IT!?!?!! I couldnt live without it and I told him as much... So we proceed to text each other the rest of the day.... Hell I just answered another one from him... He's almost to Denver...
Speaking of Brians... Today's the first day I didnt listen to Burke's demo CD since I got it.... Shocking... I just wasn't in the mood... How often can I say THAT?!?!?!
Also speaking of Brians... I did a bit of name analysis today... Most guys named Matt are trouble and I shouldn't get involved with... Brians are usually cute and sweet and I always seem to have a crush on one... Jasons are very every day guys, nice but no sizzle... Joshs are my weakness and prolly some of the greatest guys I've ever known... I've only known a few Seans and there are no real impressions (except for my Seany)... Tom, Tomas, Thomas and Tommy's.... Havent known enough of any of them to really form an impression.... Guys from Dallas are also to be avoided.... No name thing there... Just a random fact... They're hot but they're also ass holes.... For the most part... I didnt really analyze much more than that....
So I was listenin to one of the ex's CDs today and I honestly felt nothing... I was like he's got a good voice and he puts on a hell of a live show but he isn't all that and a bag of cookies the way he thinks he is... He's an asshole and people used to expect me to tame him or make him better somehow... And I think that I did. When we were together... Cuz I would mediate... Its a talent and a curse... Now that we're broken up... And have been a while... He can't stop pissing people off... Those people used to be his friends and most of em are my friends now too in part because of him. So no matter how much shit I went through becuz of him I learned things from him about life and love and gained friends I may never have had if not for him... So I feel as though I should be thanking him....
Happy thought for the night... HB Friday and RRB Saturday both at the Firehouse.... and I'm off work Wednesday and Friday!!!! :)
also my song of the moment... Down In Flames... Brandon and Stoney wrote it together but I prefer Stoney's version... :) The lyrics?
Being on the run, there’s one thing I’ve found
you don’t miss the sun, till the sun goes down
to get to heaven, I’ll go through hell
yeah I’ve learned my lessons, and I’ve learned them well
If I’m going down, I’m going down in flames
from this moment on, aint nothin gonna be the same
one thing’s for certain, everybody’s gonna know my name
if I’m going down, I’m going down in flames
To climb a mountain, you’ve got to risk the fall
to make a difference, you’ve got to risk it all
just like an eagle, spread you wings and fly
aint afraid to loose, aint afraid to die
If I’m going down, I’m going down in flames
from this moment on, aint nothin gonna be the same
one thing’s for certain, everybody’s gonna know my name
if I’m going down, I’m going down in flames
If I’m going down, yeah I’m going down in flames
from this moment on, aint nothin gonna be the same
if you’ve got the fire, I’ve got the gasoline
cause if I’m going down, I’m going down in flames
if I’m going down, I’m going down in flames....
and yes the parts that I'm feeling the most are highlighted... :) thats about it for now... laters.
Please send me a new job so I can tell Dora to take this one and shove it...
Thank you.
Alison Fritz
Hehehe... Think God reads blogs? :) If so HALLALUJAH!!! :)
No seriously I know I complain and bitch about this job and no one really understands how bad it is... Sean's met Dora, at least he has an inkling of whats up... But today... Today took the cake. I get there and go up to take my lunch to the break room and she calls for the morning meeting...
So I go back down and its me and all the other mens associates... So shes talking and she like askes me how I am and I'm just like I'm tired... (ask me a question, I'll give you an honest answer...) And shes like were you out late drinking? I'm like WTF?!?!? I'm tired therefore I must have been drinking? How do those connect? If I'd been drinking I'd be hungover... I was just tired... Too many late nights and too many days of working... I told her I just didnt get enough sleep last night and she makes some comparison to herself... And then she goes into how maybe I shouldnt be working openings just closes... Finally I was just like Dora, I'm here on time and ready to work, thats all you should be concerned with. She shut up and laid off me. But for her to pull that shit in front of my coworkers? Sorry, bitch that shit wont fly... Someone pointed out to me later she was tryin to intimadate me... I told her I fear only 2 people in this world. My mother and God. Dora's just a pain in my ass... Temporary at that... So after the meeting she comes over to my area (denim) and I'm putting my purse up and about to open the register and shes like I dont think you take this job seriously enough... I lied through my teeth and told her of course I did... While in my head I'm like why should I? 8 bucks an hour doesn't buy my loyalty or love... Sounds a bit like a song... hehehehe....
So third time of the day, this one after lunch... I had put some stuff on hold for Derrick in ladies shoes and I put a hold tag on em before lunch and put em in the stock room... I go to get em when he comes back from lunch to get em and they're gone... Turns out Ms Dora had taken them and had them put up. A sale that could have been 100$'s or more easily reduced to 50$'s... I only found one shirt and Derrick went back and grabbed 2 more... He threatened to go stomp on her feet (they're all swollen and look like shes in pain) and I said have at it...
BUT in other news (ie fun stuff...) I was on my break and Brian comes in... He went to Denver tonight to visit his sister and go snowboarding till Friday... Lucky brat... Anyway we get to talking and hes like do you get text messaging? And I laughed at him... DO I GET IT!?!?!! I couldnt live without it and I told him as much... So we proceed to text each other the rest of the day.... Hell I just answered another one from him... He's almost to Denver...
Speaking of Brians... Today's the first day I didnt listen to Burke's demo CD since I got it.... Shocking... I just wasn't in the mood... How often can I say THAT?!?!?!
Also speaking of Brians... I did a bit of name analysis today... Most guys named Matt are trouble and I shouldn't get involved with... Brians are usually cute and sweet and I always seem to have a crush on one... Jasons are very every day guys, nice but no sizzle... Joshs are my weakness and prolly some of the greatest guys I've ever known... I've only known a few Seans and there are no real impressions (except for my Seany)... Tom, Tomas, Thomas and Tommy's.... Havent known enough of any of them to really form an impression.... Guys from Dallas are also to be avoided.... No name thing there... Just a random fact... They're hot but they're also ass holes.... For the most part... I didnt really analyze much more than that....
So I was listenin to one of the ex's CDs today and I honestly felt nothing... I was like he's got a good voice and he puts on a hell of a live show but he isn't all that and a bag of cookies the way he thinks he is... He's an asshole and people used to expect me to tame him or make him better somehow... And I think that I did. When we were together... Cuz I would mediate... Its a talent and a curse... Now that we're broken up... And have been a while... He can't stop pissing people off... Those people used to be his friends and most of em are my friends now too in part because of him. So no matter how much shit I went through becuz of him I learned things from him about life and love and gained friends I may never have had if not for him... So I feel as though I should be thanking him....
Happy thought for the night... HB Friday and RRB Saturday both at the Firehouse.... and I'm off work Wednesday and Friday!!!! :)
also my song of the moment... Down In Flames... Brandon and Stoney wrote it together but I prefer Stoney's version... :) The lyrics?
Being on the run, there’s one thing I’ve found
you don’t miss the sun, till the sun goes down
to get to heaven, I’ll go through hell
yeah I’ve learned my lessons, and I’ve learned them well
If I’m going down, I’m going down in flames
from this moment on, aint nothin gonna be the same
one thing’s for certain, everybody’s gonna know my name
if I’m going down, I’m going down in flames
To climb a mountain, you’ve got to risk the fall
to make a difference, you’ve got to risk it all
just like an eagle, spread you wings and fly
aint afraid to loose, aint afraid to die
If I’m going down, I’m going down in flames
from this moment on, aint nothin gonna be the same
one thing’s for certain, everybody’s gonna know my name
if I’m going down, I’m going down in flames
If I’m going down, yeah I’m going down in flames
from this moment on, aint nothin gonna be the same
if you’ve got the fire, I’ve got the gasoline
cause if I’m going down, I’m going down in flames
if I’m going down, I’m going down in flames....
and yes the parts that I'm feeling the most are highlighted... :) thats about it for now... laters.
Sunday, March 13, 2005
I should have kissed him... I really should have... Just cuz I could... Thats been my thought since I left the Sidecar last night... Let me start at the beginning... As in the beginning of the weekend.
Friday. I worked till 6 and then I came home. Called my guys and they came over about 8 or 9 with pizza beer and everclear... We made Ever Ritas (everclear margeritas) ate pizza, watched King Arthur and Grand Theft Parsons... Lets just say the Ritas were strong enough that I dont remember watching Gram Theft Parsons... I'm such a smarty I let the guys make em after I did the first batch. So 4 glasses.... double shots (prolly a lil more)... And me. I was D- RUNK....
But we had fun... (I have the bruises on my stomach from the pillow fight to prove it.... lol...)
So Saturday morning I get up feeling nothing but pain. 4 advil, lots of water and a lil bread later I go to work.... Work till 6... Not sure how i made it... Came home feeling close to normal.... Got ready and went out to the Sidecar. Get there about 830 or 9... Meet up with some people from GW... And then the music started.... The first band. Stunk. 2nd band was just one guy with his guitar. Matt Burns... Wasnt too bad. I heard it was his first show too... Kept asking what time it was... I'm gonna keep an ear to the ground on that one... He was that good. Heard some interesting stuff about my ex and what an a hole is he.... Seems he's pissing people off left and right... And the funny thing is... I felt no need to defend him... Maybe just a small twinge but that was cuz it was someone I know who doesnt know him. But the fact everyone (including his ex best friend ) is pissed at him explains a lot about certain things in the last few weeks.... So yeah anyway... Stoney and Brandon Jenkins came on... I adore Stoney he puts on such a great show... With or without a band he rocks period. Brandon Jenkins... I'm not sure about what I thought of him yet... CJ's right he does look like Stone Cold... lol.... I still think Jeremy is the skinniest mother fucker I've ever seen... um... Took some pics... Didnt drink anything but coke.... Left about 130 or so.... As I'm walking out the door I run into the one guy I shouldnt be into.... For many reasons... But anyway we chat and all I can think is Gawd I want to kiss him... The whole damn time... He was just close enough if I'd moved just a smidge.... Yeah it was pretty bad....
So I get home at about 215... Go to bed about 3 ish... Get up this morning and go to work.... Work was boring but at least Dora left about 1.... I did something I haven't done since high school or jr high... I doodled his name on random pieces of paper... How bad am I?
anyway... way home from work I discovered... The trip between home and work is just long enough to listen to Brian Burkes demo CD... Whole thing... Started with place to be in the parking lot at Dillards and it just started again as I pulled into the parking lot of the townhouse... Pretty good timing if you ask me... :)
So tonight I'm gonna visit with mom who came home from Florida today... Tommorrow I work 945 - 6.... thats about it...
laters...
Friday. I worked till 6 and then I came home. Called my guys and they came over about 8 or 9 with pizza beer and everclear... We made Ever Ritas (everclear margeritas) ate pizza, watched King Arthur and Grand Theft Parsons... Lets just say the Ritas were strong enough that I dont remember watching Gram Theft Parsons... I'm such a smarty I let the guys make em after I did the first batch. So 4 glasses.... double shots (prolly a lil more)... And me. I was D- RUNK....
But we had fun... (I have the bruises on my stomach from the pillow fight to prove it.... lol...)
So Saturday morning I get up feeling nothing but pain. 4 advil, lots of water and a lil bread later I go to work.... Work till 6... Not sure how i made it... Came home feeling close to normal.... Got ready and went out to the Sidecar. Get there about 830 or 9... Meet up with some people from GW... And then the music started.... The first band. Stunk. 2nd band was just one guy with his guitar. Matt Burns... Wasnt too bad. I heard it was his first show too... Kept asking what time it was... I'm gonna keep an ear to the ground on that one... He was that good. Heard some interesting stuff about my ex and what an a hole is he.... Seems he's pissing people off left and right... And the funny thing is... I felt no need to defend him... Maybe just a small twinge but that was cuz it was someone I know who doesnt know him. But the fact everyone (including his ex best friend ) is pissed at him explains a lot about certain things in the last few weeks.... So yeah anyway... Stoney and Brandon Jenkins came on... I adore Stoney he puts on such a great show... With or without a band he rocks period. Brandon Jenkins... I'm not sure about what I thought of him yet... CJ's right he does look like Stone Cold... lol.... I still think Jeremy is the skinniest mother fucker I've ever seen... um... Took some pics... Didnt drink anything but coke.... Left about 130 or so.... As I'm walking out the door I run into the one guy I shouldnt be into.... For many reasons... But anyway we chat and all I can think is Gawd I want to kiss him... The whole damn time... He was just close enough if I'd moved just a smidge.... Yeah it was pretty bad....
So I get home at about 215... Go to bed about 3 ish... Get up this morning and go to work.... Work was boring but at least Dora left about 1.... I did something I haven't done since high school or jr high... I doodled his name on random pieces of paper... How bad am I?
anyway... way home from work I discovered... The trip between home and work is just long enough to listen to Brian Burkes demo CD... Whole thing... Started with place to be in the parking lot at Dillards and it just started again as I pulled into the parking lot of the townhouse... Pretty good timing if you ask me... :)
So tonight I'm gonna visit with mom who came home from Florida today... Tommorrow I work 945 - 6.... thats about it...
laters...
Friday, March 11, 2005
Shout out/Dedication.... To my guys... 2 of whom are on the way over.... :) AND THEY'RE BRINGING ME ALCOHOL and pizza!!!! Guys who will bring dinner, clean my kitchen and buy me alcohol, is it any wonder I adore them????
I'm sure yall remember the days.... Or are we getting too old for this??? ;)
The Boys Are Back In Town
Thin Lizzy
Guess who just got back today
Them wild-eyed boys that had been away
Haven't changed that much to say
But man, I still think those cats are crazy
They were askin' if you were around
How you was, where you could be found
Told 'em you were livin' downtown
Drivin' all the old men crazy
The boys are back in town(The boys are back in town)
The boys are back in town(The boys are back in town again)
You know that chick that used to dance a lot
Every night she'd be on the floor, shakin' what she got
When I say she was cool she was red hot
I mean, she was steamin'
And that time over at Johnny's place,
Well, this chick got up and she slapped Johnny's face
Man, we just fell about the place
If that chick don't wanna know, forget her
The boys are back in town(The boys are back in town)
The boys are back in town(The boys are back in town)
The boys are back in town(The boys are back in town)
The boys are back in town(The boys are back in town again)
Spread the word around
Guess who's back in town
Just spread the word around
Friday night they'll be dressed to kill
Down at Dino's Bar 'n' Grill
The drink will flow and the blood will spill
And if the boys wanna fight, you better let 'em
That jukebox in the corner blastin' out my favorite song
The nights are getting longer, it won't be long
Won't be long till the summer comes
Now that the boys are here again
The boys are back in town(The boys are back in town)
The boys are back in town(The boys are back in town)
The boys are back in town(The boys are back in town)
Spread the word around
The boys are back in town(The boys are back in town again)
The boys are back in town again
Been hangin' down at Dino's
The boys are back in town again
So yeah i dig em... And they're on the way here from Kemah.... We're gonna watch king arthur and maybe Gram Theft Parsons.... And they come baring gifts of alcohol and pizza... I can make REAL margeritas (ie with everclear NOT ta kill ya.... :) ). There was something awesome I was gonna put here but I forgot....
ah well... I work 945 to 6 tommorrow and I'm goin to Stoney at the Sidecar and then I work Sunday too.... And Mom gets back Sunday... I'm currently working on laundry.... Washed the car today... Sean came over last night and had dinner with me (I made teriyaki chicken) cuz the girls had already eaten by the time I called so I called him instead... And after we ate he cleaned the kitchen. See why I think he's the shit? Too bad he's like my brother.... and he's engaged.... hehehehe....
other than that not much is going on.... laters.
I'm sure yall remember the days.... Or are we getting too old for this??? ;)
The Boys Are Back In Town
Thin Lizzy
Guess who just got back today
Them wild-eyed boys that had been away
Haven't changed that much to say
But man, I still think those cats are crazy
They were askin' if you were around
How you was, where you could be found
Told 'em you were livin' downtown
Drivin' all the old men crazy
The boys are back in town(The boys are back in town)
The boys are back in town(The boys are back in town again)
You know that chick that used to dance a lot
Every night she'd be on the floor, shakin' what she got
When I say she was cool she was red hot
I mean, she was steamin'
And that time over at Johnny's place,
Well, this chick got up and she slapped Johnny's face
Man, we just fell about the place
If that chick don't wanna know, forget her
The boys are back in town(The boys are back in town)
The boys are back in town(The boys are back in town)
The boys are back in town(The boys are back in town)
The boys are back in town(The boys are back in town again)
Spread the word around
Guess who's back in town
Just spread the word around
Friday night they'll be dressed to kill
Down at Dino's Bar 'n' Grill
The drink will flow and the blood will spill
And if the boys wanna fight, you better let 'em
That jukebox in the corner blastin' out my favorite song
The nights are getting longer, it won't be long
Won't be long till the summer comes
Now that the boys are here again
The boys are back in town(The boys are back in town)
The boys are back in town(The boys are back in town)
The boys are back in town(The boys are back in town)
Spread the word around
The boys are back in town(The boys are back in town again)
The boys are back in town again
Been hangin' down at Dino's
The boys are back in town again
So yeah i dig em... And they're on the way here from Kemah.... We're gonna watch king arthur and maybe Gram Theft Parsons.... And they come baring gifts of alcohol and pizza... I can make REAL margeritas (ie with everclear NOT ta kill ya.... :) ). There was something awesome I was gonna put here but I forgot....
ah well... I work 945 to 6 tommorrow and I'm goin to Stoney at the Sidecar and then I work Sunday too.... And Mom gets back Sunday... I'm currently working on laundry.... Washed the car today... Sean came over last night and had dinner with me (I made teriyaki chicken) cuz the girls had already eaten by the time I called so I called him instead... And after we ate he cleaned the kitchen. See why I think he's the shit? Too bad he's like my brother.... and he's engaged.... hehehehe....
other than that not much is going on.... laters.
Thursday, March 10, 2005
I heart elise…. Mucho… :) She’s currently DDing me I believe from Randy at Sanger…. I also heart Mei Lee who told me next time she heard The Battery (PDB version) I’d get a DD… Oh my God, I just realized I’m getting Plastic girl… rofl… After that convo Linz and I had the other day how ironic… And awesome too… Wonder if they’ve ever found Wendy? Hehehe…
So now I have to listen to the RRB Steamboat bootleg… I’ve been listening to the Trailers Steamboat stuff and Wade’s Steamboat stuff a lot this week… The Trailers cuz I miss em like crazy… I haven’t caught a show since my birthday… (December 6th – if you’d care to mark it for this year. :) Man, Lucy’s… That was some good times… I think it was the first time I met elise… Reminds me I need to make hotel reservations for April… We’re gonna be roomies again for the Wards thingamig and I need to find a room for that thing in Huntsville on the 16th… Cuz Lord knows I’m not driving home at 1 am… Or whenever it happens to end… I also need to see if I can get to NB of San Mark again for a show again soon, so I have an excuse to look at the wildflowers… :) I do need to go to the outlet center… ;)
So what did Ali do today? Slept late. Played on GW. Talked on the phone. Cleaned house. Ate Girl scout cookies. Made nachos. Ate them too. Cleaned some more. Started marinating the chicken for tomorrow… Teriyaki chicken for those that are dying to know… I work from 945 – 6 tomorrow for those that care… The girls came over. I found out La’s goin to Louisiana for the next 2 weekends to look at law schools… Linz ate my brownie mix but turned down the GS cookies… Good God, what kind of madness is that? Ah well. They may come over and eat 2morrow night… What people’ll do for free food… If they don’t the boys are coming… They appreciate me. Or at least my cooking… hehehehe… They’ll also stop by the liquor store on the way over… hmm… Maybe I’ll just uninvited my sisters and invite them? :) Nah, I’ll let it work out as it may…
I’ve decided something tonight. I’m goin to take a few minutes every night to clear my mind and just relax. Maybe listening to music and having a glass of wine. Its very soothing I find. I almost fell asleep earlier… I forgot to call the TASP/THEA people and U of O today… Dammit…
One of the guys I liked last week that I said was too young? He’s still too young but he’s adorable and a sweetie… Whats a girl to do? Also I'm kinda sorta digging on a guy i meet a few weeks ago... Another one I met last weekend.... The guy I’m currently digging on the most? Clueless. Guys can be such morons sometimes. (notice I said can be and sometimes before getting your panties in a wad.) And I won’t get the shot to do anything about it for another month… Maybe. At least 2 or 3 weeks… Why did I chicken out last time? Whats the worst he could have done? Turned me down? Ooo, big scary stuff that is… Kinda like my new attitude about work. Dora threatened to write us up for standing around the other day… She walks off, I’m completely unaffected and I say whats the worst she can do fire me? Ooo, big scary thing… I reallllllly want this job…. (ali version of sarcasm there…) I really need it… Kinda… I’m not strapped for cash. Though if mom does follow through with her rent thing I may be…
Ok, on to good things again… Being negative sucks. Though this wine is not that great it is good. Boones Farm Sangria… Not too shabby at all… Best when it first comes out of the bottle… Left sitting out too long it gets to be a very strong wine, much like a merlot… Which is far too rich for my tastes… I’m a blush girl. Light, and sweet… Much like me. :)
Don't I sound like a wine coneissour? (sp?)
A VERY good thing… I woke up Wednesday morning having very lovely dreams about a certain Willy… And when I say lovely yes I do mean sex. :) I won’t give too many details but it was goooooood and he was better… ;)
Now theres the kind of note I like to end on… :) Hot boys getting nekkid… I’m convinced there’s nothing better. And its not hard to get them to do either. Not that I’ve ever…. Shit I’d be lying through my teeth. I LOVE TO GET BOYS NEKKID. My secret’s out… hehehehe…. Aight that’s about it for now… I think… Oh yeah… Miranda Lambert’s new CD comes out next week. Get it, you’ll thank me for it. :) Besides would I ever lead anyone astray? *insert angel* Shit, don’t answer that… hehehe… That’s really it.
Laters.
So now I have to listen to the RRB Steamboat bootleg… I’ve been listening to the Trailers Steamboat stuff and Wade’s Steamboat stuff a lot this week… The Trailers cuz I miss em like crazy… I haven’t caught a show since my birthday… (December 6th – if you’d care to mark it for this year. :) Man, Lucy’s… That was some good times… I think it was the first time I met elise… Reminds me I need to make hotel reservations for April… We’re gonna be roomies again for the Wards thingamig and I need to find a room for that thing in Huntsville on the 16th… Cuz Lord knows I’m not driving home at 1 am… Or whenever it happens to end… I also need to see if I can get to NB of San Mark again for a show again soon, so I have an excuse to look at the wildflowers… :) I do need to go to the outlet center… ;)
So what did Ali do today? Slept late. Played on GW. Talked on the phone. Cleaned house. Ate Girl scout cookies. Made nachos. Ate them too. Cleaned some more. Started marinating the chicken for tomorrow… Teriyaki chicken for those that are dying to know… I work from 945 – 6 tomorrow for those that care… The girls came over. I found out La’s goin to Louisiana for the next 2 weekends to look at law schools… Linz ate my brownie mix but turned down the GS cookies… Good God, what kind of madness is that? Ah well. They may come over and eat 2morrow night… What people’ll do for free food… If they don’t the boys are coming… They appreciate me. Or at least my cooking… hehehehe… They’ll also stop by the liquor store on the way over… hmm… Maybe I’ll just uninvited my sisters and invite them? :) Nah, I’ll let it work out as it may…
I’ve decided something tonight. I’m goin to take a few minutes every night to clear my mind and just relax. Maybe listening to music and having a glass of wine. Its very soothing I find. I almost fell asleep earlier… I forgot to call the TASP/THEA people and U of O today… Dammit…
One of the guys I liked last week that I said was too young? He’s still too young but he’s adorable and a sweetie… Whats a girl to do? Also I'm kinda sorta digging on a guy i meet a few weeks ago... Another one I met last weekend.... The guy I’m currently digging on the most? Clueless. Guys can be such morons sometimes. (notice I said can be and sometimes before getting your panties in a wad.) And I won’t get the shot to do anything about it for another month… Maybe. At least 2 or 3 weeks… Why did I chicken out last time? Whats the worst he could have done? Turned me down? Ooo, big scary stuff that is… Kinda like my new attitude about work. Dora threatened to write us up for standing around the other day… She walks off, I’m completely unaffected and I say whats the worst she can do fire me? Ooo, big scary thing… I reallllllly want this job…. (ali version of sarcasm there…) I really need it… Kinda… I’m not strapped for cash. Though if mom does follow through with her rent thing I may be…
Ok, on to good things again… Being negative sucks. Though this wine is not that great it is good. Boones Farm Sangria… Not too shabby at all… Best when it first comes out of the bottle… Left sitting out too long it gets to be a very strong wine, much like a merlot… Which is far too rich for my tastes… I’m a blush girl. Light, and sweet… Much like me. :)
Don't I sound like a wine coneissour? (sp?)
A VERY good thing… I woke up Wednesday morning having very lovely dreams about a certain Willy… And when I say lovely yes I do mean sex. :) I won’t give too many details but it was goooooood and he was better… ;)
Now theres the kind of note I like to end on… :) Hot boys getting nekkid… I’m convinced there’s nothing better. And its not hard to get them to do either. Not that I’ve ever…. Shit I’d be lying through my teeth. I LOVE TO GET BOYS NEKKID. My secret’s out… hehehehe…. Aight that’s about it for now… I think… Oh yeah… Miranda Lambert’s new CD comes out next week. Get it, you’ll thank me for it. :) Besides would I ever lead anyone astray? *insert angel* Shit, don’t answer that… hehehe… That’s really it.
Laters.
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
So someone asked me what it was that I liked so much about this particular guy… The answer? He reminds me so much of Dill… Dill before I got to know what a teddy bear he is. So if you don’t know Dill, let me just say before getting to know him, he intimidated the hell outta me…. I was madly in lust with him a few years ago… He was one of the few guys at U of O that reminded me of home… He’s into Texas music like I am (and later discovered most of the Texas people on the campus were aka Park…. *sigh* So pretty….. But that’s another story….) He’s ultra masculine without being conceited, in fact he’s rather self deprecating about his looks in general… He’ll be there for a friend no matter what. He’s also intelligent and patient and ambitious as heck… No I never dated him… Wanted to but never did….
But yeah this current situation I find myself in reminds me a lot of that and him… And even knowing that nothing will ever come of it since he doesn’t want a relationship and after my whole drama with the ex I don’t know if I’m really ready for one yet either… I’ve been on a few dates since the break up but for the moment I think I’m happier single… In fact I told someone the other day this past V Day was my best ever and I was single and happy…. It was nice… Its also nice not to have to worry about someone else’s emotions or plans for the weekend…
Speaking of the weekend… I think I may go to Stoney at the Sidecar instead of Cory… Less crowd, I know where it is and a guaranteed awesome time… Can’t beat that… I still am curious what the heck he said after that fight at the cabin… I may never find out and it bugs the hell outta me… I can only think of one person who was there but he was drunk and prolly wont remember… Darn him…
In work news… Ugh… I was on break today and I felt like a robot… Like my mind shut down and I just operated automatically… It was kinda scary… I’m used to always being in control and knowing what I’m doing… (except when I misplace myself driving… lol...)
My to do list for Wednesday? Call Nancie… Get an oil change on my car and check up, car wash, maybe get a hair cut and my nails done… Also I need to hit best buy and the bookstore…
Finally went to the grocery store tonight… Actaully was within budget… And now I’m not outta food… Whoo hoo… And I haven’t gorged myself too badly on Girl Scout cookies… Hehehehe…
And I just realized I’ve left enough clues about my mystery guy that some people may be able to figure out who he is… Dammit… I know some people know but they know to keep it on the DL… Or else… Hehehehe…
That’s about it for now… Laters.
But yeah this current situation I find myself in reminds me a lot of that and him… And even knowing that nothing will ever come of it since he doesn’t want a relationship and after my whole drama with the ex I don’t know if I’m really ready for one yet either… I’ve been on a few dates since the break up but for the moment I think I’m happier single… In fact I told someone the other day this past V Day was my best ever and I was single and happy…. It was nice… Its also nice not to have to worry about someone else’s emotions or plans for the weekend…
Speaking of the weekend… I think I may go to Stoney at the Sidecar instead of Cory… Less crowd, I know where it is and a guaranteed awesome time… Can’t beat that… I still am curious what the heck he said after that fight at the cabin… I may never find out and it bugs the hell outta me… I can only think of one person who was there but he was drunk and prolly wont remember… Darn him…
In work news… Ugh… I was on break today and I felt like a robot… Like my mind shut down and I just operated automatically… It was kinda scary… I’m used to always being in control and knowing what I’m doing… (except when I misplace myself driving… lol...)
My to do list for Wednesday? Call Nancie… Get an oil change on my car and check up, car wash, maybe get a hair cut and my nails done… Also I need to hit best buy and the bookstore…
Finally went to the grocery store tonight… Actaully was within budget… And now I’m not outta food… Whoo hoo… And I haven’t gorged myself too badly on Girl Scout cookies… Hehehehe…
And I just realized I’ve left enough clues about my mystery guy that some people may be able to figure out who he is… Dammit… I know some people know but they know to keep it on the DL… Or else… Hehehehe…
That’s about it for now… Laters.
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
So I got my Girl Scout cookies finally.... :) I spent most of Monday gorging myself on them and hearing people tell me they weren't real food... They're right I know but it was nice to not worry about calories or fat or exercise for a day and just veg and pig out.... I have to work 2morrow... er today... opening.... 945- 6.... Yeah I write late enough at night I confuse myself... Not hard to do... I've had at least 2 blond moments in the last day.... Thats at least one more than usual... hehehehe.....
Mom called from Florida and checked in.... La came over and checked the mail and let me know how lazy she thought I was.... eh, whatever....
I called Nancie to check in and got her machine again....
in the singleton news.... So I'm not gonna say this crush is a crush cuz the word crush sounds so jr high ish.... So instead I'll act like a grown up and just say there's this guy I'm attracted to... It'll prolly never work out cuz he's friends with the drama queen that caused me so much grief.... And I'm pretty sure he's not diggin me like I'm diggin him... Ah well, such is life....
I may call in a favor for a friend with the ex or one of his various cronies... I dont want to call the ex but perhaps W could help.... Worse comes to worse I could call Randalls.... Hope to hell if I do his woman doesnt pick up... She and I... Don't get along to say the least.... (she's an evil bitch from the depths of hell and she thinks I want her man.... Um, no... PUHLEEZ.....) I think thats about it for the moment... beddy by time.... Laters....
Mom called from Florida and checked in.... La came over and checked the mail and let me know how lazy she thought I was.... eh, whatever....
I called Nancie to check in and got her machine again....
in the singleton news.... So I'm not gonna say this crush is a crush cuz the word crush sounds so jr high ish.... So instead I'll act like a grown up and just say there's this guy I'm attracted to... It'll prolly never work out cuz he's friends with the drama queen that caused me so much grief.... And I'm pretty sure he's not diggin me like I'm diggin him... Ah well, such is life....
I may call in a favor for a friend with the ex or one of his various cronies... I dont want to call the ex but perhaps W could help.... Worse comes to worse I could call Randalls.... Hope to hell if I do his woman doesnt pick up... She and I... Don't get along to say the least.... (she's an evil bitch from the depths of hell and she thinks I want her man.... Um, no... PUHLEEZ.....) I think thats about it for the moment... beddy by time.... Laters....
Monday, March 07, 2005
1:17 am.... Why am I NOT surprised I'm still up? hahaha... This one's gonna be mainly lyrics from a Kyle Hunt song... The band I saw last night? Yeah I've been jamming to the CD 2night.... Finally managed to take Brian's CD out.... I was impressed with myself.... But this song called Memory Road just reminded me of myself.... Not all of it.... Just certain parts.... Which are the parts I'm quoting....
She coulda been what she wanted to be
She was happy go lucky
time has a habit of passing us by
But it ain't like it used to be
her friends have all moved on
Tonight she rides alone
down a memory road
She wasn't just another pretty face in the crowd
She was every school boys dream
She had a super sense of humor
full of honesty
....but she's still got a lot to learn
Tommorrow when she waking
She'll be wishing
the road shes taken
is the one of no return....
Yeah.... Part of the reason I got sad last night this song... plus this other song Devotion.... That was mainly cuz of the intro though....
I almost forgot when I got home last night I made Linz listen to Plastic Girl.... That was funny.... Shes like guys are such pervs... And I'm like yeah so? hehehehe....
Something else I forgot about last night... Before I went in I was in the car eating my dinner and I was talking to Lavinia about the current crush and she (or was it me?) that said "Ali and_ _ _ _!" And then the one that didnt say that said that sounds cute.... Hell I could prolly shout his name from the rooftops, the bastard prolly doesnt even read this.... But I won't cuz I know from experience how that whole admitting to it thing can go.... :/ Yeah that good.... ok I think I'm off to bed... the girl scout cookie ladies coming by in the morning.... :) Laters!!!!
2:18 am.... yet another thing I forgot.... I dont know how.... On the way to work I was sitting at a light on Bunker Hill waiting to turn right, and i'm tapping the steering wheel and listening to Kyle Hunt.... This truck full of guys pulls up besides me and is honking and yelling and shit... I look over a bunch of freaking high school boys.... Those Memorial boys such trouble makers... hehehe... Take it from a 97 alum Memorial girl.... :) But yeah the boys whooping at me, it was cuz of my stickers and they were like what are you doin? Wanna hang out? I'm like hon, I'm old enough to be your much older sister I think not.... It was cute and sorta made my morning.... ok thats really entruely it.... laters....
She coulda been what she wanted to be
She was happy go lucky
time has a habit of passing us by
But it ain't like it used to be
her friends have all moved on
Tonight she rides alone
down a memory road
She wasn't just another pretty face in the crowd
She was every school boys dream
She had a super sense of humor
full of honesty
....but she's still got a lot to learn
Tommorrow when she waking
She'll be wishing
the road shes taken
is the one of no return....
Yeah.... Part of the reason I got sad last night this song... plus this other song Devotion.... That was mainly cuz of the intro though....
I almost forgot when I got home last night I made Linz listen to Plastic Girl.... That was funny.... Shes like guys are such pervs... And I'm like yeah so? hehehehe....
Something else I forgot about last night... Before I went in I was in the car eating my dinner and I was talking to Lavinia about the current crush and she (or was it me?) that said "Ali and_ _ _ _!" And then the one that didnt say that said that sounds cute.... Hell I could prolly shout his name from the rooftops, the bastard prolly doesnt even read this.... But I won't cuz I know from experience how that whole admitting to it thing can go.... :/ Yeah that good.... ok I think I'm off to bed... the girl scout cookie ladies coming by in the morning.... :) Laters!!!!
2:18 am.... yet another thing I forgot.... I dont know how.... On the way to work I was sitting at a light on Bunker Hill waiting to turn right, and i'm tapping the steering wheel and listening to Kyle Hunt.... This truck full of guys pulls up besides me and is honking and yelling and shit... I look over a bunch of freaking high school boys.... Those Memorial boys such trouble makers... hehehe... Take it from a 97 alum Memorial girl.... :) But yeah the boys whooping at me, it was cuz of my stickers and they were like what are you doin? Wanna hang out? I'm like hon, I'm old enough to be your much older sister I think not.... It was cute and sorta made my morning.... ok thats really entruely it.... laters....
Sunday, March 06, 2005
its almost 3 am and I'm tired but not tired enough to sleep.... I got back from the firehouse about an hour ago.... The opening band didnt impress me.... I dont even remember their name.... Kyle Hunt was ok (good enough I did buy the CD)... The fact he did a lot of Ragweed/Pat covers helped... The fact that he looked like a certain ex someone who happened to call the other day when he was here in town, kinda threw me for a loop.... The fact he played like him too just freaked me out.... Sean was a no show.... Why am I not surprised? Least I was dumped for the house of pies.... lol.... But I didnt know that till after Id paid the cover... ah well... Not a lot of people... 'He' was there... Of course he's been tellin me all week he would be... I let myself be intimadated and I wimped out. It galls the hell outta me that I did nothing. Not a damn thing. Nada.
With the exception of my chickenness, the drunk guy who wouldnt quit asking me to dance and the fact Kyle looked like B2, I had a good time... Too bad I have to work 1145 - 615.... ugh.... least I'm off on Monday..... :)
I'm gonna to try to catch a few z's... laters.
9:30 am.... I didnt want to do a new post but I just had to add the fact that I found it ironic that Brian Burke's CD (actaully his demo - got it Friday and I've been listening to it ever since....) was playing in the car and the first song I heard after leaving the Firehouse... "Try".... I dont know where I could find the lyrics or I'd post em.... But the chorus goes something like, "I wont try to get you back, just as long as your kissing him... I won't try the things that I used to..." Just the whole I wont try thing really hit home for me last night.... anyway I have to pack my lunch and get ready for work... laters....
10 am... one last thing then I HAVE to get ready for work.... It was weird being at the Firehouse and NOT being front row center or on my speaker....(yes its MY speaker... I think my names even on there.... lol...) It was really weird.... Last night cuz of the resemblance to the ex I think it was prolly a good thing.... Though I did notice the closer I got to the stage, the less he looked like him, so if I had done like I normally do and stand up front he prolly wouldnt have looked a thing like him by the end of the night.... interesting..... Ok now I'm really goin to get ready.... laters.
ok its 740 PM and I think I'm goin for a record... this is my 4th entry today but had I gotten it to work b4 I went to work, it'd have been my 5th.... Yeah I have THAT much to say.... Cute... Sorry, the ADD kicked in and Extreme Makeover Home Edition's on and the muppets are on... Miss Piggy, Kermit, Fonzie, and Animal.... All animals said so far is "MAKEOVER MAKEOVER!!!" then they cut to commercial and then he popped out of box and ran after a couple of the volunteer chicks screaming "WOMAN WOMAN!!!" The Ty comes on making a comment about having a conversation with him about ADHD.... And of course Miss Piggy actaully did no work, but she flirted with Ty.... Why am I NOT surprised? hehehehe..... O, their eyes were watching god is on next... i may have to watch that... I need a haircut... My hairs gettin to long to curl... And contrary to popular belief... No my life does not revolve around guys and bars and work... It revolves around me. :)
BTW, Pizza inn pizza.... Bad... icky... nasty....gross.... Mountain Dew.... GOOD.... :)
So yeah all day at work I've been thinking about what a chicken shit I am. Normally I'm straightforward and bold as brass.... What the fuck made me act like I was freaking wall flower? I dont know. And that annoys the crap outta me.
Dora wasnt at work today... turns out she had the weekend off.... so guess who slacked.... AGAIN... ah well I'm off 2morrow... whats the worse she can do if she finds out I've been slacking? Write me up? ooooo, SCARY.... *insert eye roll* I suppose she could fire me if I do it too much, but seriously how much would I really care if I lost this job?
Not much. I hate it. I dont hate much in life but I hate, loathe and abominate this job... Except I want to leave on my terms... At the end of the month I have my 6 month evaluation and Dillards has a policy of doing one of 2 things at 6 monthes... Firing or a pay cut.... Either way I'm gone by the end of the month... No way in hell am I working there for 7.20 an hour.... 8's pushing it.... and I dont even really live on that since I live at home rent free... I have to have a job with enough $$$ to get my own place and eventaully my own pets.... Yep as in more than one.... A couple of cats maybe? Or some reptiles? A dog or 2.... Who knows? But NOOOO rodents. Maybe fish... We'll figure it out later. We? I'll figure it out later.... As when its more realistic. Prolly be a few monthes...
one more thing and then I'm done. swear for reals this time... maybe. :)
Why do people think they're the shit and that you should too cuz they brag about knowing someone famous? Maybe I'm a lil blase (is that the word I'm looking for?) about it all cuz I've dated a musician and I really dont find them to be much different than anyone else I've ever dated... And his friends were pretty much all young guys with good hearts... They make mistakes like anybody else.... Now very few people know the real identity of B2 and his friends and thats the way it'll stay and I dont go around shouting from the rooftops I know them and we did blah blah 2gether..... Jesus H Christos.... Some people just need to get bent and then get a life.
Ok thats it... for now.
Laters.
With the exception of my chickenness, the drunk guy who wouldnt quit asking me to dance and the fact Kyle looked like B2, I had a good time... Too bad I have to work 1145 - 615.... ugh.... least I'm off on Monday..... :)
I'm gonna to try to catch a few z's... laters.
9:30 am.... I didnt want to do a new post but I just had to add the fact that I found it ironic that Brian Burke's CD (actaully his demo - got it Friday and I've been listening to it ever since....) was playing in the car and the first song I heard after leaving the Firehouse... "Try".... I dont know where I could find the lyrics or I'd post em.... But the chorus goes something like, "I wont try to get you back, just as long as your kissing him... I won't try the things that I used to..." Just the whole I wont try thing really hit home for me last night.... anyway I have to pack my lunch and get ready for work... laters....
10 am... one last thing then I HAVE to get ready for work.... It was weird being at the Firehouse and NOT being front row center or on my speaker....(yes its MY speaker... I think my names even on there.... lol...) It was really weird.... Last night cuz of the resemblance to the ex I think it was prolly a good thing.... Though I did notice the closer I got to the stage, the less he looked like him, so if I had done like I normally do and stand up front he prolly wouldnt have looked a thing like him by the end of the night.... interesting..... Ok now I'm really goin to get ready.... laters.
ok its 740 PM and I think I'm goin for a record... this is my 4th entry today but had I gotten it to work b4 I went to work, it'd have been my 5th.... Yeah I have THAT much to say.... Cute... Sorry, the ADD kicked in and Extreme Makeover Home Edition's on and the muppets are on... Miss Piggy, Kermit, Fonzie, and Animal.... All animals said so far is "MAKEOVER MAKEOVER!!!" then they cut to commercial and then he popped out of box and ran after a couple of the volunteer chicks screaming "WOMAN WOMAN!!!" The Ty comes on making a comment about having a conversation with him about ADHD.... And of course Miss Piggy actaully did no work, but she flirted with Ty.... Why am I NOT surprised? hehehehe..... O, their eyes were watching god is on next... i may have to watch that... I need a haircut... My hairs gettin to long to curl... And contrary to popular belief... No my life does not revolve around guys and bars and work... It revolves around me. :)
BTW, Pizza inn pizza.... Bad... icky... nasty....gross.... Mountain Dew.... GOOD.... :)
So yeah all day at work I've been thinking about what a chicken shit I am. Normally I'm straightforward and bold as brass.... What the fuck made me act like I was freaking wall flower? I dont know. And that annoys the crap outta me.
Dora wasnt at work today... turns out she had the weekend off.... so guess who slacked.... AGAIN... ah well I'm off 2morrow... whats the worse she can do if she finds out I've been slacking? Write me up? ooooo, SCARY.... *insert eye roll* I suppose she could fire me if I do it too much, but seriously how much would I really care if I lost this job?
Not much. I hate it. I dont hate much in life but I hate, loathe and abominate this job... Except I want to leave on my terms... At the end of the month I have my 6 month evaluation and Dillards has a policy of doing one of 2 things at 6 monthes... Firing or a pay cut.... Either way I'm gone by the end of the month... No way in hell am I working there for 7.20 an hour.... 8's pushing it.... and I dont even really live on that since I live at home rent free... I have to have a job with enough $$$ to get my own place and eventaully my own pets.... Yep as in more than one.... A couple of cats maybe? Or some reptiles? A dog or 2.... Who knows? But NOOOO rodents. Maybe fish... We'll figure it out later. We? I'll figure it out later.... As when its more realistic. Prolly be a few monthes...
one more thing and then I'm done. swear for reals this time... maybe. :)
Why do people think they're the shit and that you should too cuz they brag about knowing someone famous? Maybe I'm a lil blase (is that the word I'm looking for?) about it all cuz I've dated a musician and I really dont find them to be much different than anyone else I've ever dated... And his friends were pretty much all young guys with good hearts... They make mistakes like anybody else.... Now very few people know the real identity of B2 and his friends and thats the way it'll stay and I dont go around shouting from the rooftops I know them and we did blah blah 2gether..... Jesus H Christos.... Some people just need to get bent and then get a life.
Ok thats it... for now.
Laters.
Saturday, March 05, 2005
Thought for the night... I kinda enjoy being infamous.... Not infamous in a Penny Lane way (those of you not knowing what I'm talking about see Almost Famous...) but in a cool you dig our band way.... Just got home from the Sidecar..... The Peter Dawson/Brian Burke thingymajig RAWKED! Those of you not there missed out soooo bad....
Thats what you get for not listening to me.... :P
The turn out at first was great but after Brian and John finished up it was like the place become almost a ghost town.... it was like me Craig, some other GW peeps and a group of college kids.... That was IT! Peter was kinda dissappointed I heard and I understand, it was his first time playing there and for that turn out its gotta suck.
So yeah right quick before I fade.... crushes.... 2 werent there.... one got nixed due to certain limitations.... new one though.... nothing will come of but a new one nonetheless.... :)
ok I'm almost out like a light... I work 3- 915 and then I'm goin to Kyle Hunt at the Firehouse... If you need me call or text me... laters.
Thats what you get for not listening to me.... :P
The turn out at first was great but after Brian and John finished up it was like the place become almost a ghost town.... it was like me Craig, some other GW peeps and a group of college kids.... That was IT! Peter was kinda dissappointed I heard and I understand, it was his first time playing there and for that turn out its gotta suck.
So yeah right quick before I fade.... crushes.... 2 werent there.... one got nixed due to certain limitations.... new one though.... nothing will come of but a new one nonetheless.... :)
ok I'm almost out like a light... I work 3- 915 and then I'm goin to Kyle Hunt at the Firehouse... If you need me call or text me... laters.
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
Happy Texas Indepence Day. In honor of the date.... I finally started reading Lone Star Nation... I've had it almost a week and hadn't gotten around to it till today... Its very straightforward with lots of background info on major players.... Like I'm on page 17 and I've read about the whole prehistoric Texas and now I'm working on Moses and Stephen F Austin's histories... I'm not digging the fact theres so much about them pre Texas but I understand its written so people can understand how their pasts affected them as far as settlement in Texas...
Other than that I've been thinking about myself alot lately.... Like not 24/7 conceited or anything.... More like how I've changed.... Physically and mentally... I saw a pic of myself and I realized how much weight I've lost since the last time I saw a pic of myself pre weight loss.... I also noticed my teeth are a little yellow ish so I'm bleaching them b4 I go to bed every night, started Sunday and itll run through next week... Hopefully by the time i finish my teeth'll be nice and bright.... :)
I also wear WAY too much jewelry... Like I saw on Queer Eye 2night DONT OVER SPARKLE... I tend to and I need to cut down on that a bit... Mentally I've gotten myself into situations (that sounds bad but its soo not) that I would have been REALLY uncomfortable in a few years ago... I feel like I've matured alot and come out of my shell, so I'm not the same ol shy wallflower I used to be.... And I have to say its kinda nice to have this confidence to be able to say or do whatever I feel like... Its sort of freeing in a way I never imagined...
In other news... I was off work today and it rained yuck... I was gonna try to see Shy Blakeman at Blancos but rain plus dirt parking lot equals mud and lots of it,as anyone at GF can attest to.... :) Tommorrow I work 945-6 and depending on how I feel I may go out to see Bleu at the Hideout... Friday I'm off again and Peter Dawson and Brian Burke at the Sidecar (if you dont have plans, GO, if you do, change em.... :) I think I have a lot of people convinced to go... Including guys I have a crush on... I'm screwed 3 guys I dig in the same building and me.... Whats a girl to do?) and Saturday I work 3- 915, I may take mom to the airport and go to the Firehouse for Kyle Hunt... Still tryin to decide on that.... I called Nancie today and left a message to check in.... Called and left a message at the Girl Scout cookie place (the sale doesnt end till March 20th - BOO YAH!) and Don McGill (a 30 k check up costs 395 PLUS tax and takes from 3-4 hours but they give you a rental car for that time... um thanks after that Hertz distaster last year I'm not too sure I'm feeling rental cars....). I cleaned house a lil, talked to some friends to check in and check up, and found out my shampoo is being discontinued so I have to find another one dammit.... But only after I'm done with the 2 bottles I bought (the last 2 they had :) )... I dont like change.... I hate being forced to change anything, let alone shampoo... um I dont think theres anything else really going on besides rodeo being in town.... I still dont know when I'm going, talk about your last minute plans.... OH!! Theres a guy at work whose exactly like me, if not a tad bit worse... He's gay and he wants to chase more guys through the store than me.... hehehehe.... also I found out that Dora really DID break a bone in her leg, shes not just blowing smoke or have a blood clot like we thought.... Its the smaller bone in the calf and her leg is swollen up like nothing us and she's supposed to have surgery... dont know when but that means up to a week (hopefully)without Dora... SWEET!!!! :) thats really it for now.... Laters....
Other than that I've been thinking about myself alot lately.... Like not 24/7 conceited or anything.... More like how I've changed.... Physically and mentally... I saw a pic of myself and I realized how much weight I've lost since the last time I saw a pic of myself pre weight loss.... I also noticed my teeth are a little yellow ish so I'm bleaching them b4 I go to bed every night, started Sunday and itll run through next week... Hopefully by the time i finish my teeth'll be nice and bright.... :)
I also wear WAY too much jewelry... Like I saw on Queer Eye 2night DONT OVER SPARKLE... I tend to and I need to cut down on that a bit... Mentally I've gotten myself into situations (that sounds bad but its soo not) that I would have been REALLY uncomfortable in a few years ago... I feel like I've matured alot and come out of my shell, so I'm not the same ol shy wallflower I used to be.... And I have to say its kinda nice to have this confidence to be able to say or do whatever I feel like... Its sort of freeing in a way I never imagined...
In other news... I was off work today and it rained yuck... I was gonna try to see Shy Blakeman at Blancos but rain plus dirt parking lot equals mud and lots of it,as anyone at GF can attest to.... :) Tommorrow I work 945-6 and depending on how I feel I may go out to see Bleu at the Hideout... Friday I'm off again and Peter Dawson and Brian Burke at the Sidecar (if you dont have plans, GO, if you do, change em.... :) I think I have a lot of people convinced to go... Including guys I have a crush on... I'm screwed 3 guys I dig in the same building and me.... Whats a girl to do?) and Saturday I work 3- 915, I may take mom to the airport and go to the Firehouse for Kyle Hunt... Still tryin to decide on that.... I called Nancie today and left a message to check in.... Called and left a message at the Girl Scout cookie place (the sale doesnt end till March 20th - BOO YAH!) and Don McGill (a 30 k check up costs 395 PLUS tax and takes from 3-4 hours but they give you a rental car for that time... um thanks after that Hertz distaster last year I'm not too sure I'm feeling rental cars....). I cleaned house a lil, talked to some friends to check in and check up, and found out my shampoo is being discontinued so I have to find another one dammit.... But only after I'm done with the 2 bottles I bought (the last 2 they had :) )... I dont like change.... I hate being forced to change anything, let alone shampoo... um I dont think theres anything else really going on besides rodeo being in town.... I still dont know when I'm going, talk about your last minute plans.... OH!! Theres a guy at work whose exactly like me, if not a tad bit worse... He's gay and he wants to chase more guys through the store than me.... hehehehe.... also I found out that Dora really DID break a bone in her leg, shes not just blowing smoke or have a blood clot like we thought.... Its the smaller bone in the calf and her leg is swollen up like nothing us and she's supposed to have surgery... dont know when but that means up to a week (hopefully)without Dora... SWEET!!!! :) thats really it for now.... Laters....
The Life, Times, and Observations Of Me!
About Me
- Name: Ali
- Location: Houston, Texas, United States
31 years old, from Houston, Texas.... 5'5'', green eyes, blond hair, just your above Average Jane. :0)
Links
- My Facebook
- My MySpace
- Galleywinter
- Houston Chronicle
- My Pics
- YouTube
- Firehouse Saloon
- Armadillo Palace
- Blanco's
Free Counter
Previous Posts
- Its been so long since I blogged I actually forgot...
- My Hurricane Ike ExperienceFriday was a sort of he...
- Holy crap.I survived.Another hurricane.Another day...
- So I dyed my hair.... It was supposed to turn out ...
- I should almost title this one… Date this chick… ...
- Ok after a comment a friend of mine made after rea...
- Every now and then you have a day when you just wa...
- Something I've come to realize lately... I suck a...
- Holy crap. I just realized something that most of...
- Its bad when I'm bored.... And broke.... I do s...
Archives
- 10/01/2003 - 11/01/2003
- 11/01/2003 - 12/01/2003
- 12/01/2003 - 01/01/2004
- 01/01/2004 - 02/01/2004
- 02/01/2004 - 03/01/2004
- 03/01/2004 - 04/01/2004
- 04/01/2004 - 05/01/2004
- 05/01/2004 - 06/01/2004
- 06/01/2004 - 07/01/2004
- 07/01/2004 - 08/01/2004
- 08/01/2004 - 09/01/2004
- 09/01/2004 - 10/01/2004
- 10/01/2004 - 11/01/2004
- 11/01/2004 - 12/01/2004
- 12/01/2004 - 01/01/2005
- 01/01/2005 - 02/01/2005
- 02/01/2005 - 03/01/2005
- 03/01/2005 - 04/01/2005
- 04/01/2005 - 05/01/2005
- 05/01/2005 - 06/01/2005
- 06/01/2005 - 07/01/2005
- 07/01/2005 - 08/01/2005
- 08/01/2005 - 09/01/2005
- 09/01/2005 - 10/01/2005
- 10/01/2005 - 11/01/2005
- 11/01/2005 - 12/01/2005
- 12/01/2005 - 01/01/2006
- 01/01/2006 - 02/01/2006
- 02/01/2006 - 03/01/2006
- 03/01/2006 - 04/01/2006
- 04/01/2006 - 05/01/2006
- 05/01/2006 - 06/01/2006
- 06/01/2006 - 07/01/2006
- 08/01/2006 - 09/01/2006
- 09/01/2006 - 10/01/2006
- 10/01/2006 - 11/01/2006
- 11/01/2006 - 12/01/2006
- 12/01/2006 - 01/01/2007
- 07/01/2007 - 08/01/2007
- 08/01/2007 - 09/01/2007
- 11/01/2007 - 12/01/2007
- 12/01/2007 - 01/01/2008
- 01/01/2008 - 02/01/2008
- 02/01/2008 - 03/01/2008
- 03/01/2008 - 04/01/2008
- 08/01/2008 - 09/01/2008
- 09/01/2008 - 10/01/2008
- 02/01/2010 - 03/01/2010
- Current Posts
Subscribe to
Posts [Atom]