Friday, January 07, 2005

So my secret crush? Not much of a secret anymore.... hehehe.... Thats the sort of secret I suck at keeping... I'm kinda all out there about and unless you're blind, deaf, dumb or just don't know me well, you know who it is...
Speaking of that crush.... I have something to say to someone and I don't know how to say it so I'll say it here. Dissapproving of him or the fact I like him will NOT win you points with me. I knew him well before I knew you and if you make me choose I'm afraid as much as I adore you, he'd win just based on the history.... I hate feeling pulled in 2 directions and I refuse to be. Its ok to warn me to be careful but outright scathing comments about said crush will get you nowhere and nothing... Its not that he's really attractive, sure thats about 35% of it, but he's got a good heart too... Just like you. Besides yall both have me in common, how much can you truely dislike each other with excellent taste like that? :)Thats it. Thats all... End of story.
Something everyone needs to understand is I don't really want your classic 'nice guy'... The ones who conform to what everyone wants them to be and refuse to be truely opinionated. I've got enough opinions for a small country and I dont want to feel like I can run roughshod over anyone... It'd be like being in a relationship with a child.... And I'm not doin that till I start teaching and/or become a mom.... I don't want to feel like I wear the pants in a relationship. I LIKE being a girl dammit. But I'm a strong one and I need someone equally strong... Like the song says, "Knows how to hold me back, knows when to let me go... knows just what I like when the lights go down low..." (Ok so that wasn't precisely what Bleu says but its close...) I could quote Sheryl Crow here too... Ah what the hell... "Are you strong enough to be my man?"
Ok in other news.... I was watching Judging Amy this morning and there was this guy who was trying to win custody of his daughter from her stepfather after her mother had died... But this guy was so OCD he was afraid to touch people.... Including his daughter. That got me to thinking what if I was afraid to touch people? I'd just die... I can't HELP but to touch... Its part of how I communicate for crying out loud.... Also part of my flirting... Heavily. :)
also I've had my Disney movie theme proved twice in the last week... I'll explain that when I have more time...
um what else? Oh yea I need a dog. A real one. The stuffed one's ok but I miss having a dog. The lil warm body snuggled up to you at night. The licking you awake.... Its kinda like having a man.... hehehehe..... kidding, so kidding.... But I do miss having a dog.... I really hate the fact I have to get another job, get my own apartment and get settled in before I can even think about doin that.... Thats it for now.... laters.

posted by Ali @ 1:44 PM

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