Friday, January 21, 2005

So I lied.... I said I could live without the relationship crap.... I cant.... I miss late night phone calls.... Cuddling late at night.... Last minute trips to NB.... Okay so i do miss the ex a lil..... all this freaking drama has me thinking about him more and more often.... Dammit. I miss him but I know I dont love him anymore... I'm intelligent enough to realize that but at the same time I also know that he'd never change and I'd never be happy... Hell I dont even WANT him back I just miss what we had pre me finding out about the lying and cheating stuff.... Those were the straws that broke the camels back in an already rocky relationship....
I thank God every day for W and I'm so sorry to have put him in the position he's had to be in with the 2 of us.... Its because I know there are good guys like Will and my guys out there I dont give up on men in general.
My views were screwed up for a while and I was cynical as all hell but now I'm back to being me and God help the person who tries to bring me to my knees that way ever again.....
ok I'm suddenly very tired... its been a long ass day.... and I've run a gamut of emotions.... laters....

posted by Ali @ 1:50 AM

2 Comments:

At 2:38 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

Good morning, Sunshine... Smile it'll be all right. Screw the haters don't play their game... If they get ya down, I'll be around. You got the number you know how to call, now why the hell don't you get on the ball?

- Brody

 
At 11:11 AM , Blogger Ali said...

Good gravy, honey... And here people are thinking I rythme (sp?) a lot.... hehehehe.... Thank you, I love you... :)

 

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