Not Your Average Jane

I listen to Sublime and suddenly I wanna roadtrip to Galveston.... Man, the memories.... If i still feel like it next week and its pretty on one of my off days I think I just might go....
So I didn't do jack today... Though I DID finally get to make my chicken and dumplings.... Yummers, I tell ya.... I haven't made em in forever... Like since before Spring Break last year.... So yeah almost a year...
My mom tried to back seat cook but I'm like I've made it a million times, doof, I got it handled...
So I was talking to someone last night and I realized people get the wrong impression of me... Really wrong.... I'm an optimist... I believe in the best in people, male, female, whether I'm attracted to em or not. I also trust anyone till they betray me. I'm lucky and I don't get hurt by either of those things often... I'm also a bit aggressive which can scare people... So I'm intense at times which can be off putting... I'd like for the guy to make the first move but I don't have the patience to wait. If I see something I want I go after it to hell with the consequences... I've seen and heard things that might shock people with weak sensibilities. I believe in my opinions and I'll defend em to the death. As much as some people might think the male of the species are what my life revolve around. They'd be wrong. So wrong. I'm an animal lover and I adore kids, is it any wonder my ideal job would be working with one, the other or both? I'm determined and I know what I want and go after it. But I'm also stubborn and I can be lazy. I procrastinate almost every day in something. I don't seek trouble but somehow it finds me... Ok thats not true I do seek it sometimes...
I've been depressed, I've been a punk, I've been a pothead.... Most of my friends have always been guys so I'm like a sister to most of my guy friends which makes dating an interesting undertaking. You can't really date your brother now can ya? Thats just gross.
I don't embarrass easily, I've got ADD.... I'm curious about life so I ask a lot of why questions... If you dont ask, how are you goin to learn? People fascinate me. I love music. All kinds.
I was raised by a single mom, so if I act like women are better or smarter than men, its cuz I had such a strong role model in my mother. My father was an alcoholic we saw once every 2 weeks after the divorce till he died when I was 12.... Its one of the reasons I don't drink much and definately dont drink to get drunk anymore... I'm scared of turning out like him since my mom says I'm so much like him in other ways, what if I start drinking and I can't stop?
I'm also like to ramble on when i talk and i dream about how things could be or how I'd like them to be but know they probably never will be.... I've made myself be more practical over the years. But its hard work. Also hard work is losing weight... Its been a battle over the last 10 years or so... It goes up and it goes down and to keep it where I want it is hard...
I also like to philosophize (sp?) and I write poems cuz i'm creative like that... I'm intelligent and funny... I'm a good listener and I think I'm a good friend. I've been told I give good advice but I can't give it to myself...
okay enough deep and dark stuff.... I reveal much more and there will be no reason to read this blog anymore will there? :) Laters....

posted by Ali @ 6:53 PM