Not Your Average Jane

God, what a way to start the new year.... Completely fuck up a perfectly decent friendship... ugh....
So I invited over a friend of mine whose girlfriend had just dumped him and I had no other plans... We've been friends a while now, and we can call each other whenever and why ever... So he comes over and we start watching Two Brothers... get a lil while into it and realize its almost 1130...so we flip it off and go to Dick Clark's new years thingy.... then the one on fox for the big ball drop.... So its midnight, do the whole lil bitty kiss thing... and before I know it we're making out... How the hell that happened I dont know... I'm not attracted to him, in fact I have a crush on someone else entirely his opposite.... I could blame alcohol but I didn't drink that much.... He's on the rebound and nothing will ever come of this night but muy complications and potentially bad implications on our friendship.... thank goodness I sent him home before I did something REALLY stoopid like have sex with him... that would be a worse disaster...
and all this after NOT goin to the Firehouse as some form of penence....
Yeah thats right I punished myself by not goin to the Firehouse... grounded myself if you will... Simply because a friend of mine's ex (also a friend of mine) current crush and I feel guilty... Just for liking him... ugh... This has been one hell of a new years.... and I still have to work 2morrow... argh... laters....

posted by Ali @ 1:10 AM