Not Your Average Jane

ok, so next year I'm having one hell of a blowout bash for my bday and inviting ALL my friends, my guys, my GW buds, my life long buds, my friends from college and my work friends too... Make your reservations now. December 6th, 2005, whereever I'm living, lots of liquor, Dr Pepper, brownies, chips and dip and perhaps the baddest band in country music could somehow be involved.... :) Keep that day open OR ELSE...... :0)
ok, so since i gave mom Scott's and Jason's addresses in Iraq so her class could send them Christmas cards (ok Xmas pics more likely since they're only kindergarteners) but mail nonetheless and Nat assures me they LOVE getting mail.... So I'm thinking I might send em a card too... Nat said it'd be a good idea... Scott's easy since he's Nat's hubby but Jason.... What exactly should I say to a guy Nat tried to set me up with and we never hit it off and I haven't seen in almost a year??? But he's only getting mail from his mom and I know what its like to have no mail when its time to check the mail so regardless of how odd it seems to me I think I will....
talked to Brian today... he's looking better but he still feels really stressed and frazzled... He's so sensitive to stress his stomachs upset (sound familar? :0) ) and he cant eat... Poor baby... He's not sure whether to believe her or not about paternity and he joked about giving her a lie detector test... also according to him she DOESNT want to be a US citizen... Food for thought... She's also ONLY a month ago... Suspicious sounding to me... Most girls I know who have thought they were preggers usually didn't even suspect till the 2nd or 3rd month of missed periods... Not sure what to think and neither is he... He told me if they had been dating longer he'd consider marriage (thus proving yet again what a stand up guy he is...) but dating/trusting/relationship wise it was way too early to make that sort of decision.... Completely understandable and very smart on his part... Marriage is NOT something to be rushed into and definately not something to be based solely on the fact 2 people have a child together.... ok enough of other peoples drama...
on with mine.... hahaha... nah, not really... Wishing for one particular guy on your birthday cake wish is NOT a wise move for future reference... I've never done it b4 and I never will again... He's got a girlfriend and thats that.... So many more fish in the sea.... :)
also i dont know if I've ever explained B2 and why I refer to him by his name sometimes and as B2 others... Its cuz there are 2 sides to him... One that everyone sees and assumes is the real him and the other side that I adored and was the reason I dated him so long.... The part of him that not many people know he has.... The side that liked to stay up all night talking about everything with such a passion... Regardless of his infidelty its that good side of him I always believed in and was the reason why I would continue to go back and forth... The reason I would STILL go back... If only he would prove to me, that loving, cuddly bear, who could talk your ear off if you let him, passionate, understanding man he used to be still existed... I'm not gonna sit around waiting for it to happen because I AM over him, its just that reminiscicing like this makes me miss the good times we had and not think too much about the bad...
ah well life goes on and so do i..... i think to bed but ya never know with me these days.... :0) laters....

posted by Ali @ 10:46 PM