Ok, so I may have commited job suicide today and I'm still playing with my IPOD.... :)
I've used like 6 GB outta of 20.... How the hell am I gonna fill up the rest?!?!? Oh, yeah my 200 and something CDs... hehehe... :)
So yeah WORK.... The other day I noticed the bitch was back with a vengence (one of those Elton John song occasions... :) ).... Dora being the bitch... Last week I had just begun to see her as human and Monday my first day back after Christmas, she's back to being herself... Guess the Christmas spirit really affected her well... I played hooky yesterday... first and hopefully only time I'll ever forge a Dr.'s note... (I did save 30 $'s though...) Today I get back and she's goin off... Full on Dora mode... Russian Boot Camp here come, right back where we started from... hehehe... So she's trying to get me to do other peoples work again... and I make a half ass effort to do something she askes... Then she comes up to me in the midst of my work, catching me completely unawares... Shes like I'm making the schedule and I need to know whether to put you on the schedule.... I really need to learn how to lie.... I told her the truth that I'd probably be giving notice next week... then she asked what a temp agency was and played dumb when I told her they paid better and had better hours... then she tries to convince me to stay through inventory (a month away).... I told her no. Later in the day she approached me again and asked if I'd consider staying at least part time through inventory... She bugged me so much I told her I'd think about it just to get her to go away... argh....
Hence my job suicide today....
In other news Mom's in Florida and has been all week and will be till Monday... whoo hoo... I have no idea what I'm doin for new years... I have to work Saturday so whatever it is needs to be an early night.... Least I get time and a half working Saturday.... 7 hours or so at 12$'s an hour works for me... :)
God if I never have eggplant parmisan again it will be too soon... We had it Christmas day... Both meals... then I had it again at lunch Sunday and FINALLY it was finished Monday night... Thats just too much of the same thing for me personally... I am gonna make something else I already know I'll get sick of... SPAGETTI!!! :) I need to cook the turkey and noodles but otherwise its ready to eat....hehehe....
I havent seen Brian lately but Cruz talked to him the other day.... he seems to be spending all his spare time at Sullivans... I've got a new crush I feel guilty about.... Not oftern I feel guilty but I do now.... Circumstances being what they are, nothing will probably ever happen but its nice to think about.... and crushes are soo much fun... I also almost chased more guys around the store in the last few days... lots of Aggie/UT/Ragweed/Pat merch being worn around Dillards...
and none of it by me.... wowza...
thats it for now.... laters....
Not Your Average Jane
Thursday, December 30, 2004
Sunday, December 26, 2004
Ok, stole this idea from Lainey.... :)
Ali's List of Awesome People for 2004
Natalie– You’ve been there for me through all my shit, all the guys, the grades, and you’ve always been truly the best of friends. I appreciate that more than you know and I love you.
Nathan- Honey, what is there to say? You know me the best and you call me on my shit… There aren’t enough words in the English language to describe how I feel about you… I love you more than anything and I miss you twice as much….
Sean- You, my dear, are the brother of my heart, annoying me and amusing me... I love you and you will always have a place to crash…
Brody- I don’t know if I can put into words everything you mean to me and have meant to me… You’ve shown me who I really am and to be proud of that. I can never thank you enough for that.
Sarah- The sister (even though I have 2) I always wanted… You’re as boy crazy as I once was (and still am occasionally…) and I adore you. You’re the coolest... J
Gage- You made me realize I wasn’t the only one in the world with problems that I considered insurmountable. I heart you mucho.
Becca- Who else would go with me to the beach at midnight and scream LOOKIE LOOKIE? Hehehehe… Need I say more?
W- You made me pick myself up by the bootstraps after ‘the’ break up… You held me and let me cry and then told me I was too good for him… You’ll never know how much I appreciate that, especially considering he’s your best bud…. I can’t even imagine how divided we made you feel… I’m sorry for that and I love you mostest…
B- Thank you for so much more than I can ever begin to say… You’ll always be my strongest weakness, but I’m better now than ever before…. I didn’t know my own strength before you. I learned from you what a real, committed relationship should be…
Kevin- We’ve been through drama and our friendship is certainly one of my more unique ones… I don’t know anyone quite like you… I heart you and stuff…
Lavinia- Again, we’ve weathered drama… Yours, mine, ours… J I love ya and I wish for the all the best for you…
Stu- My Trailer trash buddy… J I heart you mucho and I think Dawns one lucky chica…. You’ll always have a place to crash if you need it (again).
JD- If it wasn’t for you pestering me, I may never have heard of my favorite band… I’m sorry you’ve been through the ringer this year, and I hope ’05 holds nothing for the best for you. You're a great guy, no matter how much you attempt to deny it.
To anyone not mentioned, I love yall but there’s not enough time or space in the world for me to tell yall how much I love and adore yall and I am so thankful and blessed to have people like you in my life….
Ali's List of Awesome People for 2004
Natalie– You’ve been there for me through all my shit, all the guys, the grades, and you’ve always been truly the best of friends. I appreciate that more than you know and I love you.
Nathan- Honey, what is there to say? You know me the best and you call me on my shit… There aren’t enough words in the English language to describe how I feel about you… I love you more than anything and I miss you twice as much….
Sean- You, my dear, are the brother of my heart, annoying me and amusing me... I love you and you will always have a place to crash…
Brody- I don’t know if I can put into words everything you mean to me and have meant to me… You’ve shown me who I really am and to be proud of that. I can never thank you enough for that.
Sarah- The sister (even though I have 2) I always wanted… You’re as boy crazy as I once was (and still am occasionally…) and I adore you. You’re the coolest... J
Gage- You made me realize I wasn’t the only one in the world with problems that I considered insurmountable. I heart you mucho.
Becca- Who else would go with me to the beach at midnight and scream LOOKIE LOOKIE? Hehehehe… Need I say more?
W- You made me pick myself up by the bootstraps after ‘the’ break up… You held me and let me cry and then told me I was too good for him… You’ll never know how much I appreciate that, especially considering he’s your best bud…. I can’t even imagine how divided we made you feel… I’m sorry for that and I love you mostest…
B- Thank you for so much more than I can ever begin to say… You’ll always be my strongest weakness, but I’m better now than ever before…. I didn’t know my own strength before you. I learned from you what a real, committed relationship should be…
Kevin- We’ve been through drama and our friendship is certainly one of my more unique ones… I don’t know anyone quite like you… I heart you and stuff…
Lavinia- Again, we’ve weathered drama… Yours, mine, ours… J I love ya and I wish for the all the best for you…
Stu- My Trailer trash buddy… J I heart you mucho and I think Dawns one lucky chica…. You’ll always have a place to crash if you need it (again).
JD- If it wasn’t for you pestering me, I may never have heard of my favorite band… I’m sorry you’ve been through the ringer this year, and I hope ’05 holds nothing for the best for you. You're a great guy, no matter how much you attempt to deny it.
To anyone not mentioned, I love yall but there’s not enough time or space in the world for me to tell yall how much I love and adore yall and I am so thankful and blessed to have people like you in my life….
"Somewhere beyond happiness and sadness....I need to calculate What creates my own madness.... And I'm addicted to your punishment...And you're the master And I am craving this disaster..." Papa Roach "Getting Away with Murder"
Damn, am I feeling this song at the moment... "I feel irrational, so confrontational... " no I dont feel like i'm getting away with Jack squat... "I think my thoughts when I dont need to..." true... My brain is filled with shit... not literally but I can't stop thinking about my shit... job shit, love life stuff... mostly love life stuff... I'm in the perfect mood to write some killa stuff but Im so damn tired I dont think I can... or how much sense it would make.... wonder if they guys are still up? It is only midnight in Cali.... This is a damn good song, kinda early in the morning for it though.... Not too late at night though.... :)
I was thinking earlier... yet again I know.... k, time for some Blue... maybe itll chill me out... Though Justins still a cutie (darn him) and CB's still hot, so naughty thoughts could run through my head... hell yall know they will... :)
So yeah while I was thinking earlier... Mainly about my singleton ness (too much sex in the city for Ali... :) ) and I realized something... In all the relationships I've had I've never once dated a guy who was at all romantic... The only time a guys given me anything was flowers... Once my senior year of high school as a polite gesture from my escort to a formal and the other a single rose on a blind date... WTF!?!? I need romance and yet I put up with none.... Well yeah there are different kinds I know... a back rub after a hard day or just snuggling on the couch can be romantic but I mean your classic romantic things like flowers and candy (though I really shouldnt since I'm still trying to lose weight - only 6 pounds left!!!), holding the door open, a candlelight dinner, that kinda romance.... I want to be treated like a lady dammit.... I'm not saying my exes have all been disrespectful assholes... (i wouldnt be friends with most of them now if they were) they just didnt have a clue about how to woo a girl... and I never had the patience to try to teach them, so maybe its a bit my fault but I'm very old school... Guys paying for dates (though after the first few I'm likely to split or at least pretend to want to...), opening doors, bringing flowers, not expecting sex on the first date like I'm some cheap ass ho on the corner... (Its not gonna happen fyi...) Maybe after a few dates I'll think about it, but its unlikely since I dont do sex without some sort of feeling (other than horniness ) behind it... Its the way I was raised... So who am I to buck my upbringing? :)
Also I was thinking about meeting Brian and cruz tonight at Sullivans
but we went to see the Aviator (its ok...) and got home at like 930 and i didnt feel like goin out again... its too damn cold... maybe some other night... k, thats about it... bed time for me and then shopping in the afternoon! :) laters....
Damn, am I feeling this song at the moment... "I feel irrational, so confrontational... " no I dont feel like i'm getting away with Jack squat... "I think my thoughts when I dont need to..." true... My brain is filled with shit... not literally but I can't stop thinking about my shit... job shit, love life stuff... mostly love life stuff... I'm in the perfect mood to write some killa stuff but Im so damn tired I dont think I can... or how much sense it would make.... wonder if they guys are still up? It is only midnight in Cali.... This is a damn good song, kinda early in the morning for it though.... Not too late at night though.... :)
I was thinking earlier... yet again I know.... k, time for some Blue... maybe itll chill me out... Though Justins still a cutie (darn him) and CB's still hot, so naughty thoughts could run through my head... hell yall know they will... :)
So yeah while I was thinking earlier... Mainly about my singleton ness (too much sex in the city for Ali... :) ) and I realized something... In all the relationships I've had I've never once dated a guy who was at all romantic... The only time a guys given me anything was flowers... Once my senior year of high school as a polite gesture from my escort to a formal and the other a single rose on a blind date... WTF!?!? I need romance and yet I put up with none.... Well yeah there are different kinds I know... a back rub after a hard day or just snuggling on the couch can be romantic but I mean your classic romantic things like flowers and candy (though I really shouldnt since I'm still trying to lose weight - only 6 pounds left!!!), holding the door open, a candlelight dinner, that kinda romance.... I want to be treated like a lady dammit.... I'm not saying my exes have all been disrespectful assholes... (i wouldnt be friends with most of them now if they were) they just didnt have a clue about how to woo a girl... and I never had the patience to try to teach them, so maybe its a bit my fault but I'm very old school... Guys paying for dates (though after the first few I'm likely to split or at least pretend to want to...), opening doors, bringing flowers, not expecting sex on the first date like I'm some cheap ass ho on the corner... (Its not gonna happen fyi...) Maybe after a few dates I'll think about it, but its unlikely since I dont do sex without some sort of feeling (other than horniness ) behind it... Its the way I was raised... So who am I to buck my upbringing? :)
Also I was thinking about meeting Brian and cruz tonight at Sullivans
but we went to see the Aviator (its ok...) and got home at like 930 and i didnt feel like goin out again... its too damn cold... maybe some other night... k, thats about it... bed time for me and then shopping in the afternoon! :) laters....
Saturday, December 25, 2004
So, yeah, Lauren informed us all that it was ironic the word oral was in moral... We all cracked up and went on with unwrapping presents...
Oh, yeah did I mention we're almost done with Christmas? hehehe... I woke up (and yes Sarah after some very lovely dreams... ;) )to the phone being pressed to my ear, barely coherent, to my aunts already drunk and who knows what else talking about my cousin Matthews middle child... (whose name is Stormy Jo Yvonne - thats a lot of names for a lil baby...) who for some reason reminded her of me when I was lil... Ok, so did I also mention this baby has a malformed foot, so that she has to wear a prosthetic? And that reminds you of me how? hmm ok....
Lets see Christmas... I got my IPOD and CDs I wanted... Got my new DVDs too, all sappy romantic movies, which Ill get to in a sec... Cashmere gloves and scarf, a gift certifcate to Dermacare for a mani/pedi - both of which I need, socks from old navy and a bath ball fizzy thing from the gap (does Lauren know how much I love the Gap Inc stores or what? :) ), and money....
all right its lunch time ill finish this later....
2 hours later.... :)
Never thought I'd say it but an entirely vegatarian meal is really filling... Eggplant parmisan, green beans, and spaghetti squash... Wonder why I'm starting to get the munchies? Oh, yeah its my only meal today... Mom and the girls went on a walk and I'm playing with my IPOD...
We all watched Shrek 2 in PJs after opening presents and that got me to thinking.... All the movies I got were romantic-ey, lovey dovey type ones... Which got me to thinking like I said... I envy couples... I jokingly call them the bane of my existance but I'm really jealous... Being single is nice some times but here lately its sucked... I see all these couples, some married with kids, older couples, young kids in love, people just starting a relationship, the honeymooners, all of em... I envy the fact they've found that all elusive special someone that makes them happy...
I wish I had that.... Someone to fall asleep with, to wake up to, plan a life with, have kids with, grow old and gray with,ya know?
Not to sound flippant, but I think I see why so many people commit suicide at Christmas... They see all this happiness and dont have it and dont know how to get it...
ok enough of that... I'm gonna go play with my IPOD some more... :)
laters...
Oh, yeah did I mention we're almost done with Christmas? hehehe... I woke up (and yes Sarah after some very lovely dreams... ;) )to the phone being pressed to my ear, barely coherent, to my aunts already drunk and who knows what else talking about my cousin Matthews middle child... (whose name is Stormy Jo Yvonne - thats a lot of names for a lil baby...) who for some reason reminded her of me when I was lil... Ok, so did I also mention this baby has a malformed foot, so that she has to wear a prosthetic? And that reminds you of me how? hmm ok....
Lets see Christmas... I got my IPOD and CDs I wanted... Got my new DVDs too, all sappy romantic movies, which Ill get to in a sec... Cashmere gloves and scarf, a gift certifcate to Dermacare for a mani/pedi - both of which I need, socks from old navy and a bath ball fizzy thing from the gap (does Lauren know how much I love the Gap Inc stores or what? :) ), and money....
all right its lunch time ill finish this later....
2 hours later.... :)
Never thought I'd say it but an entirely vegatarian meal is really filling... Eggplant parmisan, green beans, and spaghetti squash... Wonder why I'm starting to get the munchies? Oh, yeah its my only meal today... Mom and the girls went on a walk and I'm playing with my IPOD...
We all watched Shrek 2 in PJs after opening presents and that got me to thinking.... All the movies I got were romantic-ey, lovey dovey type ones... Which got me to thinking like I said... I envy couples... I jokingly call them the bane of my existance but I'm really jealous... Being single is nice some times but here lately its sucked... I see all these couples, some married with kids, older couples, young kids in love, people just starting a relationship, the honeymooners, all of em... I envy the fact they've found that all elusive special someone that makes them happy...
I wish I had that.... Someone to fall asleep with, to wake up to, plan a life with, have kids with, grow old and gray with,ya know?
Not to sound flippant, but I think I see why so many people commit suicide at Christmas... They see all this happiness and dont have it and dont know how to get it...
ok enough of that... I'm gonna go play with my IPOD some more... :)
laters...
Friday, December 24, 2004
So there are officially 47 crazy people in Houston that DONT work at Dillards... I was driving to work today at about 730 or so this morning and I was mucho surprised to see exactly 47 people at the park walking or jogging.... And the temp had to be 34 or so plus the wind chill factor... THATS some dedication to physical fitness.... That or insanity... :)
So yeah I was at work at 742 this morning I was scheduled for 745.... And I got off at 620 this evening to snow flurries of all things.... Snow in Houston... Wowza....
Brian and I went to lunch together today.... Well not so much to lunch as went ON lunch and to the break room at the same time... lol.... He took a longer lunch and hung out all of my lunch hour... I'd say he's interested but I know hes dating that chick and he doesnt feel that way about me.. ah , well, next guy...
There were a few more guys I was tempted to chase through the store today... One who had his hair dyed like Ponder and the rest of the soccer boys a few years ago... But his face wasn't that great looking... but he turned around and his shoulders arms and butt were simply divine.... thats the most memorable one...
O, I also made a resolution for the new year.... call the temp agency and see how soon I can give my 2 weeks notice... Ellen did it today so it won't be half as entertaining when shes gone... Also my expectations have all been shot to hell.... Almost all the guys are gay in my dept, the customers come with wives, girlfriends, etc, the wives shop for the husbands, and lesbians (not the cute ones, but the full on hard core dyke a delic lesbians.... ) the pay sucks, and the hours are yucky too....
Also today I learned that one of the fragance girls, Kristine likes Blue October.... I was talking about what CD I would put on and I listed a bunch and Blue was one and shes like yeah they're pretty good...
Turns out shes been a fan for years b4 her marriage and kids... I was like wowza.... Gage would be proud.... :)
Speaking of Blue, I got invited to a 5591 show in Austin Monday night... Dont know if I'll make it yet but I'm thinking I'm gonna try... Mom leaves for Florida that day and I need to learn how forge a doctors note... hehehe.... evil ali in full effect... :)
Also merry christmas, even though I feel a lil scroogy...
Oh, yea and the store manager, Steve? what he did yesterday and the day b4? He did it TWICE today!!!!!!!!! What the fuck? And yes he is still alive... He's hanging by a thread though...
thats about it.... laters....
So yeah I was at work at 742 this morning I was scheduled for 745.... And I got off at 620 this evening to snow flurries of all things.... Snow in Houston... Wowza....
Brian and I went to lunch together today.... Well not so much to lunch as went ON lunch and to the break room at the same time... lol.... He took a longer lunch and hung out all of my lunch hour... I'd say he's interested but I know hes dating that chick and he doesnt feel that way about me.. ah , well, next guy...
There were a few more guys I was tempted to chase through the store today... One who had his hair dyed like Ponder and the rest of the soccer boys a few years ago... But his face wasn't that great looking... but he turned around and his shoulders arms and butt were simply divine.... thats the most memorable one...
O, I also made a resolution for the new year.... call the temp agency and see how soon I can give my 2 weeks notice... Ellen did it today so it won't be half as entertaining when shes gone... Also my expectations have all been shot to hell.... Almost all the guys are gay in my dept, the customers come with wives, girlfriends, etc, the wives shop for the husbands, and lesbians (not the cute ones, but the full on hard core dyke a delic lesbians.... ) the pay sucks, and the hours are yucky too....
Also today I learned that one of the fragance girls, Kristine likes Blue October.... I was talking about what CD I would put on and I listed a bunch and Blue was one and shes like yeah they're pretty good...
Turns out shes been a fan for years b4 her marriage and kids... I was like wowza.... Gage would be proud.... :)
Speaking of Blue, I got invited to a 5591 show in Austin Monday night... Dont know if I'll make it yet but I'm thinking I'm gonna try... Mom leaves for Florida that day and I need to learn how forge a doctors note... hehehe.... evil ali in full effect... :)
Also merry christmas, even though I feel a lil scroogy...
Oh, yea and the store manager, Steve? what he did yesterday and the day b4? He did it TWICE today!!!!!!!!! What the fuck? And yes he is still alive... He's hanging by a thread though...
thats about it.... laters....
b4 i go to bed.... a song thats been stuck in my head all week...
Kasey Chambers "we're all gonna die someday"
We're all gonna die someday lord
We're all gonna die someday
Mama's on pills daddy's over the hill
But we're all gonna die someday
Well it hurts down here on Earth lord
It hurts down here on Earth
It hurts down here cause we're running out of beer
But we're all gonna die someday
We're all gonna die someday lord
We're all gonna die someday
Mama's on pills daddy's over the hill
But we're all gonna die someday
Well all of my friends are stoned lord
All of my friends are stonned
Janie got stoned cause she couldn't get boned
But we're all gonna die someday
We're all gonna die someday lord
We're all gonna die someday
Mama's on pills daddy's over the hill
But we're all gonna die someday
Well they can all kiss my ass lord
They can all kiss my ass
If they want to kiss my ass well they better make it fast
'Cos we're all gonna die someday
We're all gonna die someday lord
We're all gonna die someday
Mama's on pills daddy's over the hill
But we're all gonna die someday I say
We're all gonna die someday lord
We're all gonna die someday
Mama's on pills daddy's over the hill
But we're all gonna die someday...
bedtime now... laters...
Kasey Chambers "we're all gonna die someday"
We're all gonna die someday lord
We're all gonna die someday
Mama's on pills daddy's over the hill
But we're all gonna die someday
Well it hurts down here on Earth lord
It hurts down here on Earth
It hurts down here cause we're running out of beer
But we're all gonna die someday
We're all gonna die someday lord
We're all gonna die someday
Mama's on pills daddy's over the hill
But we're all gonna die someday
Well all of my friends are stoned lord
All of my friends are stonned
Janie got stoned cause she couldn't get boned
But we're all gonna die someday
We're all gonna die someday lord
We're all gonna die someday
Mama's on pills daddy's over the hill
But we're all gonna die someday
Well they can all kiss my ass lord
They can all kiss my ass
If they want to kiss my ass well they better make it fast
'Cos we're all gonna die someday
We're all gonna die someday lord
We're all gonna die someday
Mama's on pills daddy's over the hill
But we're all gonna die someday I say
We're all gonna die someday lord
We're all gonna die someday
Mama's on pills daddy's over the hill
But we're all gonna die someday...
bedtime now... laters...
Thursday, December 23, 2004
So I got a dog today.... Not a real one, unfortunately, but a big floppy stuffed one... It was an early Christmas present to myself...
Here she is.... http://www.bvtoys.com/shop/product.aspx?asin=B00005JCO6 They call her Darby, I'm not sure what her name is yet... Not as good as the real thing but she makes an awesome snuggle buddy... And yes this is a girl dog.... :P
Lets see, I'm feeling a bit Scroogy today, cuz I'm still so tired and its cold... I got a sweet email from Kev, a couple of Christmas cards and Lav DDed me from the Songwriters Showcase and I got to hear Pennies... Thanks, Lav, by the way... That made might night...
I want to kick my store manager's ass.... Anyone want to help me?
Why? Well aside from the fact he's a nosy bastard, he's also an asshole... Dillards has a special Christmas CD that they've been selling and the profits go to Ronald McDonald House, which I can wholly support them doing... But they play the damn thing over and over and none of the sogs are that great to begin with... Except for the George Strait song... Well in the gifts section right across the way from my section (denim), theres a CD player/radio thingy that looks like an old school record player.... Steve the ass munch for the last 2 days has come by and turned the son of a bitch on the Christmas CD with the first song on REPEAT.... He's such a fucking moron... Both days I've had to go over and turn repeat off and turn it down.... It was literally so loud you couldn't talk to the customers... And I could be mistaken but I think thats part of what retail is... :) In other news Dora gave us all Christmas cards with a 10 $ certificate to Randalls... (Tom Thumb, Safeway stores...) and she's been really mild this week... Its been rather nice.... She also made cookies for us... You could have knocked me over with a feather... I'm beginning to think that if I wasn't working for her, she's probably a really nice lady...
OO, I think Kareem (the young one) thinks I have a crush on him because of a comment I made without thinking... He's cute enough I suppose but he's bit of a wanna be player.... And he's charming enough to be able to almost pull it off...
Lets see what else.... O, I'm gonna sound Trailers obsessed for a sec... I saw a guy in the mall who could have been Manny at like 15... And I think Drew has a twin in Houston.... Scary....
Also I'm wondering if there's a policy at Dillards for if you chase after a particularly hot guy customer.... I've been tempted to a few times in the last week or so... :)
thats about it for now.... laters....
Here she is.... http://www.bvtoys.com/shop/product.aspx?asin=B00005JCO6 They call her Darby, I'm not sure what her name is yet... Not as good as the real thing but she makes an awesome snuggle buddy... And yes this is a girl dog.... :P
Lets see, I'm feeling a bit Scroogy today, cuz I'm still so tired and its cold... I got a sweet email from Kev, a couple of Christmas cards and Lav DDed me from the Songwriters Showcase and I got to hear Pennies... Thanks, Lav, by the way... That made might night...
I want to kick my store manager's ass.... Anyone want to help me?
Why? Well aside from the fact he's a nosy bastard, he's also an asshole... Dillards has a special Christmas CD that they've been selling and the profits go to Ronald McDonald House, which I can wholly support them doing... But they play the damn thing over and over and none of the sogs are that great to begin with... Except for the George Strait song... Well in the gifts section right across the way from my section (denim), theres a CD player/radio thingy that looks like an old school record player.... Steve the ass munch for the last 2 days has come by and turned the son of a bitch on the Christmas CD with the first song on REPEAT.... He's such a fucking moron... Both days I've had to go over and turn repeat off and turn it down.... It was literally so loud you couldn't talk to the customers... And I could be mistaken but I think thats part of what retail is... :) In other news Dora gave us all Christmas cards with a 10 $ certificate to Randalls... (Tom Thumb, Safeway stores...) and she's been really mild this week... Its been rather nice.... She also made cookies for us... You could have knocked me over with a feather... I'm beginning to think that if I wasn't working for her, she's probably a really nice lady...
OO, I think Kareem (the young one) thinks I have a crush on him because of a comment I made without thinking... He's cute enough I suppose but he's bit of a wanna be player.... And he's charming enough to be able to almost pull it off...
Lets see what else.... O, I'm gonna sound Trailers obsessed for a sec... I saw a guy in the mall who could have been Manny at like 15... And I think Drew has a twin in Houston.... Scary....
Also I'm wondering if there's a policy at Dillards for if you chase after a particularly hot guy customer.... I've been tempted to a few times in the last week or so... :)
thats about it for now.... laters....
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
"I tear my heart open,
I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel" - Papa Roach "Scars"
2 posts in one day is rare I know, but I heard this song and I kinda feel like I have to do this one.... I think all that got left out is all the jerk offs I dated..... Not all of them were but the majority were.... (I call em jerk offs and I'm still friends with most, I'm far too nice...)
I had this conversation with a friend of mine the other night... Actaully a group of friends.... It seems as though a lot of people don't know me well enough to realize yes I'm sweet but I'm as far from naive as you can get.... Though I think last night I got my point across a lil better... And over the last few monthes a few people have heard bits and pieces of my past... So I thought for once I'd put out the almost full nearly unvarnished as best as I remember it version of my life... Or at least the teenage years to the present...
Ok so when I was 13, I met Brody... Who introduced me to Sean, Nathan, and Tom... All of whom were older than me (though Sean was 14 at the time) ... They're the world's greatest guys and I'm proud to call them my friends... Now as time went on, I started seeing stuff they didn't want me privy to... Pot smoking and some borderline illegal things... They tried to shelter me but it didn't always work... When I was 17 I went through a period of intense depression and I believe they saved me.... I can't recall the number of times I contemplated suicide that year.... The summer I was 19, I started hangin out with my lil sis and her group of friends... That summer I witnessed more drugs done (and even tried one or 2 myself... I'm not proud of it but there it is. ) Not only pot was done at get togethers, some x was dropped, I saw coke being done for the first time.... I also discovered the House of Pies that summer.... So time goes on and after that summer I never do any drugs again. Every summer after I hung out with my 'boys' as I affectionately call em... And my sis and her group of friends occasionally... They quit doin most hard drugs and stuck with pot.... With the exception of Dustin... Ahh, Dusty.... One of those guys whose got more problems than the US Mail.... Bipolar, addicted to chrystal meth and thought of himself as a drug dealer... I learned more about the various types of pot from him than anyone.... He asks me out at one point... I turned him down... A few monthes later he goes to jail for breaking and entering and assault....
That next summer I discover my favorite cousin is addicted to speed.... He's gettin like 2 hours of sleep a night, hanging out with a biker gang... Here's the reason I know big guys are for the most part teddy bears.... Also why I feel free to mouth off, I know they have my back as well as my boys do.... Besides what kind of idiot would hit me? I'd hit em back... :) Outlandish and crazy as that may sound, its my first reaction... So time goes on and I take for granted the rights and privledges granted to me as his cuz, the lil sister, the buddy, etc. I still do to some extent but I know if I need em they're all gonna be there for me, as fast as they can walk, drive, hitch, fly there.... Its a damn good feeling. Thats pretty much it in a nutshell.... So if you still think I don't know shit about the world, come on over to my place and we'll chat.... :) laters.
"That's squirrel's gonna freeze his nuts off...." - me on the way home from work....
So you'd think after umpteen years of being boy crazy it'd get easier right? Oh, so wrong... Yeah so I have a crush (when dont I?) on a friend of mine we'll call A that another friend we'll call B doesn't like... I'm not really sure I understand why B doesn't like A, but I think it has something to do with B being the skinny, creative type and A..... Oh, my... Ok, so he's not skinny.... ;) So last night I'm flirting hard core on A, just cuz thats how I am in full crush mode and B keeps pointing out to me what an ass hole A is.... Sorry, darling I've known him longer than you, been through more shit with him than with you and he'd do to ride the river with.... (especially with a river wimp like me... :) ) He's like you're defending him? and then he swore never to talk to me again.... I'm not sure if he was serious or not but I never got to point out one thing to him... I defended B when people were talking shit about him, same as I defended A to B.... I'm loyal to my friends and dont you EVER try to pull that kinda shit on me again... Cuz I refuse to decide who or what is better or worse for me... Not you.
In happier news... Sarah and I decided she's my long lost twin sister, we're just seperated by 12 years... :) She's just as boy crazy as I was at 14 and we're gonna open up our own man ranch.... :)
work still sucks but I'm dealing....
umm.... Its supposed to freeze tonight and then sleet and or snow Friday... Lucky me I get to work 2morrow and the next day.... ugh...
I'm so damn tired... Could it be the 4 hours of sleep last night? hehehe...
Its been one of those days where nothing anyone says to me can be right... Well, except Brian... Who made me get into a better mood.... B4 that I was bout to go off on everyone and everything.... So yea I'm goin to bed early tonight..... with that its dinner time... laters...
So you'd think after umpteen years of being boy crazy it'd get easier right? Oh, so wrong... Yeah so I have a crush (when dont I?) on a friend of mine we'll call A that another friend we'll call B doesn't like... I'm not really sure I understand why B doesn't like A, but I think it has something to do with B being the skinny, creative type and A..... Oh, my... Ok, so he's not skinny.... ;) So last night I'm flirting hard core on A, just cuz thats how I am in full crush mode and B keeps pointing out to me what an ass hole A is.... Sorry, darling I've known him longer than you, been through more shit with him than with you and he'd do to ride the river with.... (especially with a river wimp like me... :) ) He's like you're defending him? and then he swore never to talk to me again.... I'm not sure if he was serious or not but I never got to point out one thing to him... I defended B when people were talking shit about him, same as I defended A to B.... I'm loyal to my friends and dont you EVER try to pull that kinda shit on me again... Cuz I refuse to decide who or what is better or worse for me... Not you.
In happier news... Sarah and I decided she's my long lost twin sister, we're just seperated by 12 years... :) She's just as boy crazy as I was at 14 and we're gonna open up our own man ranch.... :)
work still sucks but I'm dealing....
umm.... Its supposed to freeze tonight and then sleet and or snow Friday... Lucky me I get to work 2morrow and the next day.... ugh...
I'm so damn tired... Could it be the 4 hours of sleep last night? hehehe...
Its been one of those days where nothing anyone says to me can be right... Well, except Brian... Who made me get into a better mood.... B4 that I was bout to go off on everyone and everything.... So yea I'm goin to bed early tonight..... with that its dinner time... laters...
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
Ok, so here is my year in review.... (Thanks for the idea, JD! :) ) Warning its kinda long..... :)
January -
New Years Eve was spent at the Firehouse.... Bleu and Randy and Wade, Champagne at midnight, the whole nine... Went back to school in Arkansas, where the first doubts about my graduation occured....
Lots of reminising (sp?) about my dad and dog and contemplating the unlived life... My first real obscene phone call, began my addiction to Sharon Osbourne Show... Wrote Wade on Wade... Was on a panel for the first time talking about ADD... had some post break up drama and discovered Galleywinter.... That might have just saved me from going insane so far from home...
February -
School, school and school... Another single Valentine's Day... Or as I like to call it Single's Awareness Day....Got the nickname Backrub Whore... Got the dog from hell at the pound... dyed my hair red... first started talking about goin to Lauren's graduation instead of my own... found out I was off academic probation...
March -
Soul Gravy coming out was the highlight of my month... Sad, I know...
I had MORE post break up drama, and then car drama that forced me to spend most of Spring Break in Texarkana... Midterms... got rid of the dog from hell, got a kitten... cell phone drama... another drug addict friend finds God and tries to convince me to do the same (even though I am not into drugs and I'm cool with God, I think...)...
April -
don't remember much of April... school.... I missed Greenfest.... more car drama... room mate drama.... got rid of the cat... birthday party in Little Rock for Amanda Y. The Alamo came out and I had a huge crush on Dennis Quaid.... More graduating doubt....
May -
more car drama, found out someone wasn't who she said she was and hurt a bunch of people who had come to care about her... finals, went to La's graduation from TCU instead of mine.... moved home, began thinking about dating again... Mamamaw died... Hal came back from France... Phone drama, more b2 drama.... began jobhunting.... MONKEYS DOING IT!!!!!! :)
June -
Linz's birthday... a girls weekend in Dallas... Goin to LaBare's for the first time... skeezy... yet more car drama... Mom left for France... jobhunting.... taking the TASP/THEA.... B2 drama... started a diet, found out being friends with your ex's friends is really weird... THE MONTH OF THE RAINS!!!!
July -
went to Corpus for the Trailers, finally got my grades and found out I hadn't graduated... I got back into old movies (classics from the 50s and 60s/musicals...), dog sat for Natalie, the 4th with the guys... got into Blue October... Heather's wedding... jobhunting some more... Mom's back from France... Found out I didn't pass the TASP/THEA... Sean's in town and I started writing again.... more car drama.... went on my first blind date....
August -
yet more job hunting... mom went back to school.... started talking to other friends of the ex and they became my friends too.... kinda funny... NEVER DATE A MUSICIAN.... job fairs.... found out my first love is getting married.... La moved back home... My mom DDed me for the first time...
September -
Finally got a job at Dillards and made immediate promises to let people use my discount... told I had high blood pressure.... (dont think I do anymore... :) ) and a close friend called me out on my dating behavior... he told me I'd never really find love till I learned to open up... (I'm working on that....)
October-
took the TASP/THEA AGAIN.... Fall Fandango ( I still have the flip flop tan fyi... :) ).... where I met alot of GW peeps and had a kick ass time... boy drama with one of the ex's friends.... cell phone drama when linz lost it.... My manager went on vacation....work... Halloween at the Firehouse with Wade and Randy... started jobhunting...
November-
issues getting the time off for the San Marcos Trailers show... still job hunting, Thanksgiving made by me and my sisters... still working at Dillards.... Yao Ming's parents shopped there... my big work crush and I become really good friends, almost sibling like....
December -
My birthday in San Marcos with the Trailers.... still single, looked into singles groups.... dyed the hair red again... sent Christmas cards to Scott and Jason in Iraq and got mom's class to make some too.... more phone drama.... Brian's pregnancy scare.... Getting an IPOD for Christmas and I have to figure out what to get everyone and what to do for New Years...
Thank God this year is almost over.... I don't think with the exception of GW, I'd want to do it ever again..... laters....
January -
New Years Eve was spent at the Firehouse.... Bleu and Randy and Wade, Champagne at midnight, the whole nine... Went back to school in Arkansas, where the first doubts about my graduation occured....
Lots of reminising (sp?) about my dad and dog and contemplating the unlived life... My first real obscene phone call, began my addiction to Sharon Osbourne Show... Wrote Wade on Wade... Was on a panel for the first time talking about ADD... had some post break up drama and discovered Galleywinter.... That might have just saved me from going insane so far from home...
February -
School, school and school... Another single Valentine's Day... Or as I like to call it Single's Awareness Day....Got the nickname Backrub Whore... Got the dog from hell at the pound... dyed my hair red... first started talking about goin to Lauren's graduation instead of my own... found out I was off academic probation...
March -
Soul Gravy coming out was the highlight of my month... Sad, I know...
I had MORE post break up drama, and then car drama that forced me to spend most of Spring Break in Texarkana... Midterms... got rid of the dog from hell, got a kitten... cell phone drama... another drug addict friend finds God and tries to convince me to do the same (even though I am not into drugs and I'm cool with God, I think...)...
April -
don't remember much of April... school.... I missed Greenfest.... more car drama... room mate drama.... got rid of the cat... birthday party in Little Rock for Amanda Y. The Alamo came out and I had a huge crush on Dennis Quaid.... More graduating doubt....
May -
more car drama, found out someone wasn't who she said she was and hurt a bunch of people who had come to care about her... finals, went to La's graduation from TCU instead of mine.... moved home, began thinking about dating again... Mamamaw died... Hal came back from France... Phone drama, more b2 drama.... began jobhunting.... MONKEYS DOING IT!!!!!! :)
June -
Linz's birthday... a girls weekend in Dallas... Goin to LaBare's for the first time... skeezy... yet more car drama... Mom left for France... jobhunting.... taking the TASP/THEA.... B2 drama... started a diet, found out being friends with your ex's friends is really weird... THE MONTH OF THE RAINS!!!!
July -
went to Corpus for the Trailers, finally got my grades and found out I hadn't graduated... I got back into old movies (classics from the 50s and 60s/musicals...), dog sat for Natalie, the 4th with the guys... got into Blue October... Heather's wedding... jobhunting some more... Mom's back from France... Found out I didn't pass the TASP/THEA... Sean's in town and I started writing again.... more car drama.... went on my first blind date....
August -
yet more job hunting... mom went back to school.... started talking to other friends of the ex and they became my friends too.... kinda funny... NEVER DATE A MUSICIAN.... job fairs.... found out my first love is getting married.... La moved back home... My mom DDed me for the first time...
September -
Finally got a job at Dillards and made immediate promises to let people use my discount... told I had high blood pressure.... (dont think I do anymore... :) ) and a close friend called me out on my dating behavior... he told me I'd never really find love till I learned to open up... (I'm working on that....)
October-
took the TASP/THEA AGAIN.... Fall Fandango ( I still have the flip flop tan fyi... :) ).... where I met alot of GW peeps and had a kick ass time... boy drama with one of the ex's friends.... cell phone drama when linz lost it.... My manager went on vacation....work... Halloween at the Firehouse with Wade and Randy... started jobhunting...
November-
issues getting the time off for the San Marcos Trailers show... still job hunting, Thanksgiving made by me and my sisters... still working at Dillards.... Yao Ming's parents shopped there... my big work crush and I become really good friends, almost sibling like....
December -
My birthday in San Marcos with the Trailers.... still single, looked into singles groups.... dyed the hair red again... sent Christmas cards to Scott and Jason in Iraq and got mom's class to make some too.... more phone drama.... Brian's pregnancy scare.... Getting an IPOD for Christmas and I have to figure out what to get everyone and what to do for New Years...
Thank God this year is almost over.... I don't think with the exception of GW, I'd want to do it ever again..... laters....
Sunday, December 19, 2004
So I got laid at the Sidecar Pub last night... By Coby Weir of all people... He just walks up to me and puts the orange Jager lei around my neck... I made it a bracelet the rest of the night and then added it to my collection of rearview mirror leis.... Sean's already declared it the Deer God, from henceforth to be called Guardian Angel of The Misdirected (me).... hehehe.... Such a silly boy he is... and yes he used the word henceforth.... so yeah the first thing that came to my mind last night (b2 NOT Sean...) was "has he always been so chubby and I never noticed or has he gained a bit of weight since I last saw him?" So yeah, does that give anyone an inkling of how I feel about him now? Not really? ok, here it is... I left early... Which I NEVER do... I didn't even talk to him... I got an irate call early this morning, first thing I hear? "Why didn't you even say hi?"
My reply, "huh, Hi?" Very intelligent but again it was early this morning... We talked for a few minutes and then I went back to bed...
I think if we have any kind of relationship at all ever again it'll merely be as friends.... Friends who flirt, but friends nonetheless...
So lets see... The show was good... The opener was hot... No clue what his name was.... There was a bunch of guys next to me that were rowdy and kept shoving each other around, which shoved ME around as well as the girl next to me... They kept apoligizing but it continued to happen... I sooo could have used a guy to kick their asses for me last night... ahh well, I survived..... I was sooo tired when I got home at 2 this morning... I fell into bed pretty much... got up, went to work, came home, went to the grocery store, need to do some laundry - not gonna happen tonight, and here I am.... :) I was reading a friend of mine's blog and I decided he has a really good idea that I'm gonna steal in the next week or so, after I have time to compose my thoughts and things... One blog entry for an entire years worth of happenings.... Pretty sweet deal... Note to self: thank JD for the phenomenally wonderful idea.... :0) hehehe....
thats it for the time being... laters....
My reply, "huh, Hi?" Very intelligent but again it was early this morning... We talked for a few minutes and then I went back to bed...
I think if we have any kind of relationship at all ever again it'll merely be as friends.... Friends who flirt, but friends nonetheless...
So lets see... The show was good... The opener was hot... No clue what his name was.... There was a bunch of guys next to me that were rowdy and kept shoving each other around, which shoved ME around as well as the girl next to me... They kept apoligizing but it continued to happen... I sooo could have used a guy to kick their asses for me last night... ahh well, I survived..... I was sooo tired when I got home at 2 this morning... I fell into bed pretty much... got up, went to work, came home, went to the grocery store, need to do some laundry - not gonna happen tonight, and here I am.... :) I was reading a friend of mine's blog and I decided he has a really good idea that I'm gonna steal in the next week or so, after I have time to compose my thoughts and things... One blog entry for an entire years worth of happenings.... Pretty sweet deal... Note to self: thank JD for the phenomenally wonderful idea.... :0) hehehe....
thats it for the time being... laters....
Saturday, December 18, 2004
so a metrosexual is... "Boiled down to its essence, the term refers to a single man who loves to indulge and pamper himself -- going against the stereotype of men as boorish slobs with questionable grooming habits."
Yeah realllll appitizing.... not....
also another thing I've thought of since my last post... I'm also into guys who have problems... alcohol, drugs, old girlfriends.... I've got some stellar judgement let me tell you....
Also I need all names, addresses, email addresses, phone #'s, Xanga/Blog/LiveJournal addresses sent to me at : sunnychic78@yahoo.com so I can update my address books.... Gracias in advance.... :0)
laters.
Yeah realllll appitizing.... not....
also another thing I've thought of since my last post... I'm also into guys who have problems... alcohol, drugs, old girlfriends.... I've got some stellar judgement let me tell you....
Also I need all names, addresses, email addresses, phone #'s, Xanga/Blog/LiveJournal addresses sent to me at : sunnychic78@yahoo.com so I can update my address books.... Gracias in advance.... :0)
laters.
Friday, December 17, 2004
ok so i have a few minutes till we leave for the movies... goin to see Spanglish with mom and la la.... Should be interesting...
Ok so todays topic.... Work? Nah, it sucks.... Men? Sure why not?
Brian.... The boy is an idiot... The pregnant girlfriend he didn't trust? Got an abortion and he's still dating her..... aye que dios mia?
Men in general.... Not much new... Though I did come to a conclusion that think I came to long ago... I like... Hell I love big guys... Not like fat, big but tall and / or built (both would be better).... I should have figured this out longggggg ago.... I mean the first guy I date in college... a teddy bear.... last guy I dated.... a teddy bear....almost all the guys in between were pretty much the same... I think its mainly cuz they make me feel safe and protected, ya know? When you're hugging a guy thats big (is there a better word?) its just like falling into a sofa.... Unless the guy is built then its.... wowza... Guys I can look in the guy or skinny guys (which I think are ok) I feel like I could squish them like bugs.... And something else about bigger guys I've noticed.... Most of em act all bad ass and stuff but they're really just big marshmellows on the inside.... Bikers for example.... Ok not all but most of the ones I've met.... (see why I'm not easily intimidated? :0) ) Besides most scrawny and or skinny guys are terminally metro... which I cant stand but I probably should be dating... ugh.... I came to this conclusion today... I should be dating metrosexuals... One I'm surrounded by em.... two, I don't know what 2 was.... But I did have a list of reasons why I should... oh yeah one reason was that they are the anti thesis of all the musicians I've dated.... So a relationship with one would technically HAVE to work.... No real logic on my part.... But then when is there ever? hehehe....
in other news.... La 's moving in with Zeez tommorrow and I'm goin to see Bleu tommorrow night.... Lets see what else? oh yeah I think I'm getting an IPOD for Christmas.... :0) I spent most of the afternoon looking and price comparing and I think I'm goin back to the Apple store in the Galleria and getting the 20 GB IPOD.... 299.... and then getting a few CDs and DVDs and thats my Christmas... whoo hooo!!! :0)
thats about it for now.... laters....
Ok so todays topic.... Work? Nah, it sucks.... Men? Sure why not?
Brian.... The boy is an idiot... The pregnant girlfriend he didn't trust? Got an abortion and he's still dating her..... aye que dios mia?
Men in general.... Not much new... Though I did come to a conclusion that think I came to long ago... I like... Hell I love big guys... Not like fat, big but tall and / or built (both would be better).... I should have figured this out longggggg ago.... I mean the first guy I date in college... a teddy bear.... last guy I dated.... a teddy bear....almost all the guys in between were pretty much the same... I think its mainly cuz they make me feel safe and protected, ya know? When you're hugging a guy thats big (is there a better word?) its just like falling into a sofa.... Unless the guy is built then its.... wowza... Guys I can look in the guy or skinny guys (which I think are ok) I feel like I could squish them like bugs.... And something else about bigger guys I've noticed.... Most of em act all bad ass and stuff but they're really just big marshmellows on the inside.... Bikers for example.... Ok not all but most of the ones I've met.... (see why I'm not easily intimidated? :0) ) Besides most scrawny and or skinny guys are terminally metro... which I cant stand but I probably should be dating... ugh.... I came to this conclusion today... I should be dating metrosexuals... One I'm surrounded by em.... two, I don't know what 2 was.... But I did have a list of reasons why I should... oh yeah one reason was that they are the anti thesis of all the musicians I've dated.... So a relationship with one would technically HAVE to work.... No real logic on my part.... But then when is there ever? hehehe....
in other news.... La 's moving in with Zeez tommorrow and I'm goin to see Bleu tommorrow night.... Lets see what else? oh yeah I think I'm getting an IPOD for Christmas.... :0) I spent most of the afternoon looking and price comparing and I think I'm goin back to the Apple store in the Galleria and getting the 20 GB IPOD.... 299.... and then getting a few CDs and DVDs and thats my Christmas... whoo hooo!!! :0)
thats about it for now.... laters....
Saturday, December 11, 2004
short and sweet 2night... I'm tired and i wanna go to bed...
saw finding neverland.... good but it made me cry... Got out and had a VM from Gage telling me to get online... Sorry, Gageypoo, I didn't get home till about 11..... I was gonna go to the grocery store or Randy Rogers but I'm too tired to attempt either.... After the movie we went to The Wine Bucket... sorta eh.... all wine all the time.... not my cup of tea...
work was work... I've been up since 6 am.... I think I have my schedule fixed so I can leave early on Saturday and go see Bleu at the Sidecar...
while at work... actaully on lunch I had a moment of weakness.... I called b2.... yeah not a good call (literally) on my part... my battery was dying and he wants to get back together.... its like the song says... he's my strongest weakness and I guess he'll always be.... I think thats the Judds that sing that.... no comment on what I plan to do....
after work i had a VM from mom that said thanks for the text (merry xmas)... I havent sent her a text in monthes.... so yeah... uh.....
got a really nice text from Amy, made me smile....
talked to W he's thinking about goin to the Sidecar Saturday too... So that means he actually might.... theres a 50 50 shot....
k I'm off to bed.... laters.....
saw finding neverland.... good but it made me cry... Got out and had a VM from Gage telling me to get online... Sorry, Gageypoo, I didn't get home till about 11..... I was gonna go to the grocery store or Randy Rogers but I'm too tired to attempt either.... After the movie we went to The Wine Bucket... sorta eh.... all wine all the time.... not my cup of tea...
work was work... I've been up since 6 am.... I think I have my schedule fixed so I can leave early on Saturday and go see Bleu at the Sidecar...
while at work... actaully on lunch I had a moment of weakness.... I called b2.... yeah not a good call (literally) on my part... my battery was dying and he wants to get back together.... its like the song says... he's my strongest weakness and I guess he'll always be.... I think thats the Judds that sing that.... no comment on what I plan to do....
after work i had a VM from mom that said thanks for the text (merry xmas)... I havent sent her a text in monthes.... so yeah... uh.....
got a really nice text from Amy, made me smile....
talked to W he's thinking about goin to the Sidecar Saturday too... So that means he actually might.... theres a 50 50 shot....
k I'm off to bed.... laters.....
Friday, December 10, 2004
ok, Scott is either gonna kick my ass OR laugh his off when he gets this Christmas card.... I couldn't quit laughing when I read it.... Its kind of like that dill pickle card for birthdays (some of ya ll know what I mean... you've given it, gotten it or just giggled at it in the store...) but funnier.... Its a Christmas card and pretty much says who else is gonna send ya a card with llamas in it? but me... :0) Jason's I wasn't so sure what to get so I settled for simple and festive looking.... So I'll write those and then send em in a day or 2.... Also got the bday cards for Baby and Aunt Pam... and some chocolate, since mine keeps dissappearing (and somehow I get none.... ).
So I got lectured at work today... Not by Attila, she was actually in a good mood today.... didnt give us a lot of mark downs or anything... But by Austin.... The British dude in men's accesories.... Something about the fact I'm 26, happily single and not planning on having kids anytime soon... He's a few years older than me, divorced, has 2 kids that live in England while he lives in the states getting his masters and then his PhD... So who the FUCK does he think he is to tell ME how to live my life!?!?! He seems to like to harp on the fact I dont plan to start having kids till I'm like 30.... Mom had Lauren at 30 and Linz at 31 and me at 27.... its a good age.... gives me lots of time to fufill my goals, find Mr Right and get married... But is that good enough for Austin? Noooooo.... I finally got annoyed enough with him that I just walked off... The fact Dora showed up, also contributed (the ONLY time I've ever been happy to see her) to me leaving quickly... So I was telling Cruz this and he's like don't even worry about him.... Ellen said the same thing... And I dont plan to... Its my life to live NOT his... Oh yea and as I walked away from him, I threw back over my shoulder... I've only been single (as in no more drama) for 6 monthes (from March to the other day..) and I intend to enjoy the hell out of it... hehehehe.... but yeah anyway I have to go pack my lunch .... maybe.... and go to bed... I have to be up at 7 since i work at 845..... argh.... at least I get off at 5.... I think I may be goin to a movie with mom and then maybe to see RRB at the Firehouse....
oooo, I didn't really like my horoscope considering all thats happened in the last few days.....
Saggitarus:
An old friend -- or lover -- is about to arrive from out of town. Are you ready to rekindle the flame, or should you make an excuse? What a decision! Consider the bridges you may be burning before you make plans.
Um, B2's gonna be in town next week, guess whose making an excuse?
Laters.....
So I got lectured at work today... Not by Attila, she was actually in a good mood today.... didnt give us a lot of mark downs or anything... But by Austin.... The British dude in men's accesories.... Something about the fact I'm 26, happily single and not planning on having kids anytime soon... He's a few years older than me, divorced, has 2 kids that live in England while he lives in the states getting his masters and then his PhD... So who the FUCK does he think he is to tell ME how to live my life!?!?! He seems to like to harp on the fact I dont plan to start having kids till I'm like 30.... Mom had Lauren at 30 and Linz at 31 and me at 27.... its a good age.... gives me lots of time to fufill my goals, find Mr Right and get married... But is that good enough for Austin? Noooooo.... I finally got annoyed enough with him that I just walked off... The fact Dora showed up, also contributed (the ONLY time I've ever been happy to see her) to me leaving quickly... So I was telling Cruz this and he's like don't even worry about him.... Ellen said the same thing... And I dont plan to... Its my life to live NOT his... Oh yea and as I walked away from him, I threw back over my shoulder... I've only been single (as in no more drama) for 6 monthes (from March to the other day..) and I intend to enjoy the hell out of it... hehehehe.... but yeah anyway I have to go pack my lunch .... maybe.... and go to bed... I have to be up at 7 since i work at 845..... argh.... at least I get off at 5.... I think I may be goin to a movie with mom and then maybe to see RRB at the Firehouse....
oooo, I didn't really like my horoscope considering all thats happened in the last few days.....
Saggitarus:
An old friend -- or lover -- is about to arrive from out of town. Are you ready to rekindle the flame, or should you make an excuse? What a decision! Consider the bridges you may be burning before you make plans.
Um, B2's gonna be in town next week, guess whose making an excuse?
Laters.....
Thursday, December 09, 2004
ok, so OBVIOUSLY I'm not nearly as good at being mysterious as I like to think.... Um, yeah... at least 5 people have called me today and a couple of emails from people I havent talked to in a while are sitting in my inbox when I get back from work tonight.... All guessing CORRECTLY who b2 was.... Um, thanks for playing yall, sorry there's no prize....
and no I'm not calling him back... (for those that read the comments section - that was him... He's the only one whose ever called me that....)
Thats right.... He called. I was at work and he left a voicemail. He heard about this.... and me missing him. And the butthead called... And NOT for a booty call... To talk.... I'd call him back but I dont want to get back into all that old drama and I want to avoid temptation... I knew I shouldn't have gotten caught up in the biz again... His friends are still involved and so is he.... and since I'm friends with his friends... yeah..... It would have been impossible to NOT get caught up... These guys are great (said it b4 musicians suck as boyfriends but rock as friends) and I feel bad for putting any of em as a buffer bewteen me and him but at the moment I can't see any other way...
ah well it'll all work itself out... he's not in Houston till next week or week after next so hopefully this too will pass....
So work today... Yeah, Dora's lost her freaking mind.... Cruz compared it to a Croatian boot camp... I agree, except I'm likely to amend that statement to a Croation Concentration camp... Yes its THAT bad....
Today shes like there will be no breaks until the work is done... no bathroom, no lunch, nothing... what what what?!?!!?!?
so i did my work (though I took breaks for lunch and goin to the bathroom) and was done in record time.... For which she gives me a cheap backhanded compliment... Gee thanks, Attila....
Also at work today, Rodney said something that I think I'm being paranoid about but I could be wrong... He said something about how arguing with this chick from cosmetics (shes like 30ish and pretty - very anti man at the moment) how it prepared him to deal with girls his own age... Now he knows we're the same age and we flirt (of course its me here... :0) ) but I could have sworn there was something hinted at there... and then yesterday I was talking about goin to Luthers with Nat and hes like we need to get together a group and go to Cornbreads (since its in the same parking lot, hence the association) after work on Friday nights and just hang out... So he's either hinting at something or I'm really freaking paranoid... Any opinions?
lets see... not much else is goin on.... work, sleep, eat, potty, work some more.... Yeah, my life is exciting as hell.... hehehe....
I do have one lil bitty confession to make... I still have a smidgen of a crush on Brian, regardless of all the drama hes got right now, he's a good looking, stand up guy with a good sense of humor.... Yeah, thats REALLY it for now... laters....
and no I'm not calling him back... (for those that read the comments section - that was him... He's the only one whose ever called me that....)
Thats right.... He called. I was at work and he left a voicemail. He heard about this.... and me missing him. And the butthead called... And NOT for a booty call... To talk.... I'd call him back but I dont want to get back into all that old drama and I want to avoid temptation... I knew I shouldn't have gotten caught up in the biz again... His friends are still involved and so is he.... and since I'm friends with his friends... yeah..... It would have been impossible to NOT get caught up... These guys are great (said it b4 musicians suck as boyfriends but rock as friends) and I feel bad for putting any of em as a buffer bewteen me and him but at the moment I can't see any other way...
ah well it'll all work itself out... he's not in Houston till next week or week after next so hopefully this too will pass....
So work today... Yeah, Dora's lost her freaking mind.... Cruz compared it to a Croatian boot camp... I agree, except I'm likely to amend that statement to a Croation Concentration camp... Yes its THAT bad....
Today shes like there will be no breaks until the work is done... no bathroom, no lunch, nothing... what what what?!?!!?!?
so i did my work (though I took breaks for lunch and goin to the bathroom) and was done in record time.... For which she gives me a cheap backhanded compliment... Gee thanks, Attila....
Also at work today, Rodney said something that I think I'm being paranoid about but I could be wrong... He said something about how arguing with this chick from cosmetics (shes like 30ish and pretty - very anti man at the moment) how it prepared him to deal with girls his own age... Now he knows we're the same age and we flirt (of course its me here... :0) ) but I could have sworn there was something hinted at there... and then yesterday I was talking about goin to Luthers with Nat and hes like we need to get together a group and go to Cornbreads (since its in the same parking lot, hence the association) after work on Friday nights and just hang out... So he's either hinting at something or I'm really freaking paranoid... Any opinions?
lets see... not much else is goin on.... work, sleep, eat, potty, work some more.... Yeah, my life is exciting as hell.... hehehe....
I do have one lil bitty confession to make... I still have a smidgen of a crush on Brian, regardless of all the drama hes got right now, he's a good looking, stand up guy with a good sense of humor.... Yeah, thats REALLY it for now... laters....
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
ok, so next year I'm having one hell of a blowout bash for my bday and inviting ALL my friends, my guys, my GW buds, my life long buds, my friends from college and my work friends too... Make your reservations now. December 6th, 2005, whereever I'm living, lots of liquor, Dr Pepper, brownies, chips and dip and perhaps the baddest band in country music could somehow be involved.... :) Keep that day open OR ELSE...... :0)
ok, so since i gave mom Scott's and Jason's addresses in Iraq so her class could send them Christmas cards (ok Xmas pics more likely since they're only kindergarteners) but mail nonetheless and Nat assures me they LOVE getting mail.... So I'm thinking I might send em a card too... Nat said it'd be a good idea... Scott's easy since he's Nat's hubby but Jason.... What exactly should I say to a guy Nat tried to set me up with and we never hit it off and I haven't seen in almost a year??? But he's only getting mail from his mom and I know what its like to have no mail when its time to check the mail so regardless of how odd it seems to me I think I will....
talked to Brian today... he's looking better but he still feels really stressed and frazzled... He's so sensitive to stress his stomachs upset (sound familar? :0) ) and he cant eat... Poor baby... He's not sure whether to believe her or not about paternity and he joked about giving her a lie detector test... also according to him she DOESNT want to be a US citizen... Food for thought... She's also ONLY a month ago... Suspicious sounding to me... Most girls I know who have thought they were preggers usually didn't even suspect till the 2nd or 3rd month of missed periods... Not sure what to think and neither is he... He told me if they had been dating longer he'd consider marriage (thus proving yet again what a stand up guy he is...) but dating/trusting/relationship wise it was way too early to make that sort of decision.... Completely understandable and very smart on his part... Marriage is NOT something to be rushed into and definately not something to be based solely on the fact 2 people have a child together.... ok enough of other peoples drama...
on with mine.... hahaha... nah, not really... Wishing for one particular guy on your birthday cake wish is NOT a wise move for future reference... I've never done it b4 and I never will again... He's got a girlfriend and thats that.... So many more fish in the sea.... :)
also i dont know if I've ever explained B2 and why I refer to him by his name sometimes and as B2 others... Its cuz there are 2 sides to him... One that everyone sees and assumes is the real him and the other side that I adored and was the reason I dated him so long.... The part of him that not many people know he has.... The side that liked to stay up all night talking about everything with such a passion... Regardless of his infidelty its that good side of him I always believed in and was the reason why I would continue to go back and forth... The reason I would STILL go back... If only he would prove to me, that loving, cuddly bear, who could talk your ear off if you let him, passionate, understanding man he used to be still existed... I'm not gonna sit around waiting for it to happen because I AM over him, its just that reminiscicing like this makes me miss the good times we had and not think too much about the bad...
ah well life goes on and so do i..... i think to bed but ya never know with me these days.... :0) laters....
ok, so since i gave mom Scott's and Jason's addresses in Iraq so her class could send them Christmas cards (ok Xmas pics more likely since they're only kindergarteners) but mail nonetheless and Nat assures me they LOVE getting mail.... So I'm thinking I might send em a card too... Nat said it'd be a good idea... Scott's easy since he's Nat's hubby but Jason.... What exactly should I say to a guy Nat tried to set me up with and we never hit it off and I haven't seen in almost a year??? But he's only getting mail from his mom and I know what its like to have no mail when its time to check the mail so regardless of how odd it seems to me I think I will....
talked to Brian today... he's looking better but he still feels really stressed and frazzled... He's so sensitive to stress his stomachs upset (sound familar? :0) ) and he cant eat... Poor baby... He's not sure whether to believe her or not about paternity and he joked about giving her a lie detector test... also according to him she DOESNT want to be a US citizen... Food for thought... She's also ONLY a month ago... Suspicious sounding to me... Most girls I know who have thought they were preggers usually didn't even suspect till the 2nd or 3rd month of missed periods... Not sure what to think and neither is he... He told me if they had been dating longer he'd consider marriage (thus proving yet again what a stand up guy he is...) but dating/trusting/relationship wise it was way too early to make that sort of decision.... Completely understandable and very smart on his part... Marriage is NOT something to be rushed into and definately not something to be based solely on the fact 2 people have a child together.... ok enough of other peoples drama...
on with mine.... hahaha... nah, not really... Wishing for one particular guy on your birthday cake wish is NOT a wise move for future reference... I've never done it b4 and I never will again... He's got a girlfriend and thats that.... So many more fish in the sea.... :)
also i dont know if I've ever explained B2 and why I refer to him by his name sometimes and as B2 others... Its cuz there are 2 sides to him... One that everyone sees and assumes is the real him and the other side that I adored and was the reason I dated him so long.... The part of him that not many people know he has.... The side that liked to stay up all night talking about everything with such a passion... Regardless of his infidelty its that good side of him I always believed in and was the reason why I would continue to go back and forth... The reason I would STILL go back... If only he would prove to me, that loving, cuddly bear, who could talk your ear off if you let him, passionate, understanding man he used to be still existed... I'm not gonna sit around waiting for it to happen because I AM over him, its just that reminiscicing like this makes me miss the good times we had and not think too much about the bad...
ah well life goes on and so do i..... i think to bed but ya never know with me these days.... :0) laters....
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
I'm back from San Marvelous (You had to be at Lucys to understand... :) )... Safely and soundly... Its exactly 165.4 miles from the La Quinta parking lot to the townhouse... took about 3 hours or so, much better than yesterday's 4 hour trek in the rain... ugh.... I hate rain... And it rained almost ALL the way yesterday... Today was nice and clear and warm to boot....
So lets see... went to NB, and Gruene, went to the hotel in San Mark, napped, got ready and went to Lucy's bout 9 or so... ran into Stu and Elise, and Gage... opening band was a guy named Jarrod Francis, looked like a skinnier Bleu.... Yeah that didnt help me any.... Then the Trailers came on and rocked... as always... they played some new stuff and I realllllly loved Chicken Fried, Ryder sang (see why I love it? :) ) and it was just a very cool song... I behaved myself much to my own amazement (and I'm sure everyone elses too...).... I was actaully on the quiet side... I was still worrying about Brian and missing B2 (i guess cuz I'd been in NB?) and just woken up like an hour b4 I got there.... There was a drama with Gruene though... I couldn't figure out how to get there since Gruene Rd was flooded... as in the river was over the damn bridge... I stopped and got directions (its been over a year since I had to go the other way so I forgot, so sue me...).... I was half afraid of running into Doug but I never did... load off my mind... I really shouldnt WANT to live in NB after the B2 drama, but I still do... Its not just him about the town I like... I love the history there.... How the wooden floor boards creak when you walk on them, Gruene Hall decorated for Christmas, the Gristmill.... Its just like, whats NOT to love... then I remember HIM... yeah.... THATS some history for ya... I dont even know why I'm thinking about him so much lately... Sure his bday was over a week ago and its the first one in almost 5 years I haven't been there for it... after all I've been through because of him, I still would take him back in a new york minute and every time he calls me for a booty call it takes all my self control (and then some....) to turn him down... I missed him enough to wear his nasty old ball cap he left in my car.... Thats just gross.... Least I made some really killa friends through him.. Way and W (who proved himself the best of friends today when I called him on 10, to talk about old drama - even though I swore I wouldn't ever again - I'd still make the same decisions and take the same actions I did at the time....)and Randall are some of the most awesome guys I know.... Next to my guys of course.... :) So here's my new personal mantra (so to speak) NO MORE MUSICIANS. They make lousy significant others (with a few exceptions) but great friends.... I'm not even allowed to make exceptions to this for B2, Way, Willie Braun, Potter, Ryder OR Randall..... I'd love to make exceptions but if I do I'm only gonna be setting myself up for disappointment and heart ache... I know its not a guarentee of never getting hurt again but its a good way to try... Doesn't mean I cant flirt.... I dont think I can NOT flirt.... :0) So I think I'm gonna start taking a more active role in my love life and not just wait for it to happen (see how well THATS worked!?!?)...
anyway my birthday kicked ass except for the whole rain thing... I did learn some things I might not have known if I hadn't have gone like I thought about doing becuz of the rain... Mom is still conviced Nat went with me... Both aunt Pam and Bonnie called me today to wish me a happy bday, thinking my bday was on the 7th... Um, no.... 26 years its been on the 6th, thats not about to change.... And Aunt bonnie was bound and determined Matthew (her only son)'s bday was the day after mine... No, its in September, like the 23rd or 24th... This has to tell you how bonkers my family has gone.... Its kinda sad really...
anyway thats about it for now I think.... laters....
So lets see... went to NB, and Gruene, went to the hotel in San Mark, napped, got ready and went to Lucy's bout 9 or so... ran into Stu and Elise, and Gage... opening band was a guy named Jarrod Francis, looked like a skinnier Bleu.... Yeah that didnt help me any.... Then the Trailers came on and rocked... as always... they played some new stuff and I realllllly loved Chicken Fried, Ryder sang (see why I love it? :) ) and it was just a very cool song... I behaved myself much to my own amazement (and I'm sure everyone elses too...).... I was actaully on the quiet side... I was still worrying about Brian and missing B2 (i guess cuz I'd been in NB?) and just woken up like an hour b4 I got there.... There was a drama with Gruene though... I couldn't figure out how to get there since Gruene Rd was flooded... as in the river was over the damn bridge... I stopped and got directions (its been over a year since I had to go the other way so I forgot, so sue me...).... I was half afraid of running into Doug but I never did... load off my mind... I really shouldnt WANT to live in NB after the B2 drama, but I still do... Its not just him about the town I like... I love the history there.... How the wooden floor boards creak when you walk on them, Gruene Hall decorated for Christmas, the Gristmill.... Its just like, whats NOT to love... then I remember HIM... yeah.... THATS some history for ya... I dont even know why I'm thinking about him so much lately... Sure his bday was over a week ago and its the first one in almost 5 years I haven't been there for it... after all I've been through because of him, I still would take him back in a new york minute and every time he calls me for a booty call it takes all my self control (and then some....) to turn him down... I missed him enough to wear his nasty old ball cap he left in my car.... Thats just gross.... Least I made some really killa friends through him.. Way and W (who proved himself the best of friends today when I called him on 10, to talk about old drama - even though I swore I wouldn't ever again - I'd still make the same decisions and take the same actions I did at the time....)and Randall are some of the most awesome guys I know.... Next to my guys of course.... :) So here's my new personal mantra (so to speak) NO MORE MUSICIANS. They make lousy significant others (with a few exceptions) but great friends.... I'm not even allowed to make exceptions to this for B2, Way, Willie Braun, Potter, Ryder OR Randall..... I'd love to make exceptions but if I do I'm only gonna be setting myself up for disappointment and heart ache... I know its not a guarentee of never getting hurt again but its a good way to try... Doesn't mean I cant flirt.... I dont think I can NOT flirt.... :0) So I think I'm gonna start taking a more active role in my love life and not just wait for it to happen (see how well THATS worked!?!?)...
anyway my birthday kicked ass except for the whole rain thing... I did learn some things I might not have known if I hadn't have gone like I thought about doing becuz of the rain... Mom is still conviced Nat went with me... Both aunt Pam and Bonnie called me today to wish me a happy bday, thinking my bday was on the 7th... Um, no.... 26 years its been on the 6th, thats not about to change.... And Aunt bonnie was bound and determined Matthew (her only son)'s bday was the day after mine... No, its in September, like the 23rd or 24th... This has to tell you how bonkers my family has gone.... Its kinda sad really...
anyway thats about it for now I think.... laters....
Sunday, December 05, 2004
ok, so I'm worried about Brian... I saw him today and he looks like hell... No shit... He looks like he got hit by a Mack Truck... This whole chick being preggers thing PLUS work PLUS finals are really getting him and it shows.... Poor thing...
Saw Mr Talley tonight... Schola did a thing at Dillards and he's still the choir director at MHS so of course he was there.... That was kinda cool... He looks exactly the same...
umm lets see.... got yelled at by Dora some more today... got accused of 'stealing her Dillards time' by putting make up on at work.... I had a heck of a time NOT laughing in her face....
I got so involved in the Brian thing last night I didnt talk about my bday celebration with the fam.... We went to Smith and Wollonsky's in Highland Village... expensive but good (not great but good).... The dessert sucked but it was free so I cant complain too much... Never made it to the movies but we may next weekend....
Speaking of my bday... If anyone needs to get ahold of me for the next couple of days (least till Tuesday night) call my cell.... If I dont answer, leave a VM or a text and I'll get back to you.... I leave for San Mark in the morning I'm aiming for about 10 am or so... Hit NB first for an hour or so then San Mark and outlets, check into the hotel, dinner, chill.... get ready and go to Lucy's.... I should be back in Houston by about 430 or 5 Tuesday... If I leave San Mark by 2 that is... If not it may be earlier or it may be later.... I'm not sure yet....
Oh, I was afraid of running into Randall or B2 at ANY point in my lil tripski but I found out they're both out of town.... B2's in Oklahoma or Kansas and Randall's in some Texas town I've never heard of....
Also birthday news ish, La made me a cake and I got cards and money (always good) and some of the people at work are taking me out to lunch Wednesday... Isn't that sweet? Anyway I've got some more packing to do.... laters.....
Saw Mr Talley tonight... Schola did a thing at Dillards and he's still the choir director at MHS so of course he was there.... That was kinda cool... He looks exactly the same...
umm lets see.... got yelled at by Dora some more today... got accused of 'stealing her Dillards time' by putting make up on at work.... I had a heck of a time NOT laughing in her face....
I got so involved in the Brian thing last night I didnt talk about my bday celebration with the fam.... We went to Smith and Wollonsky's in Highland Village... expensive but good (not great but good).... The dessert sucked but it was free so I cant complain too much... Never made it to the movies but we may next weekend....
Speaking of my bday... If anyone needs to get ahold of me for the next couple of days (least till Tuesday night) call my cell.... If I dont answer, leave a VM or a text and I'll get back to you.... I leave for San Mark in the morning I'm aiming for about 10 am or so... Hit NB first for an hour or so then San Mark and outlets, check into the hotel, dinner, chill.... get ready and go to Lucy's.... I should be back in Houston by about 430 or 5 Tuesday... If I leave San Mark by 2 that is... If not it may be earlier or it may be later.... I'm not sure yet....
Oh, I was afraid of running into Randall or B2 at ANY point in my lil tripski but I found out they're both out of town.... B2's in Oklahoma or Kansas and Randall's in some Texas town I've never heard of....
Also birthday news ish, La made me a cake and I got cards and money (always good) and some of the people at work are taking me out to lunch Wednesday... Isn't that sweet? Anyway I've got some more packing to do.... laters.....
Saturday, December 04, 2004
WOMEN SUCK!!!!
Ok I feel a lil better... Not much but a lil bit... So as a straight person of the feminine variety, women do suck.... In this case more than most...
Ok let me back up the boat a bit here....
Brian's gotten caught in the oldest trap known to womankind... The woman he's been dating for like the last 2 monthes (like a month and half really) has told him she's pregnant.... Tests confirmed it... Almost 3 monthes along.... (is 2 and 2 NOT making four for anyone else!?!?!!?)
Brian is convinced he's the father since the chick told him he's the only one she's been with in the last year (I'm suspicious)... So he's waiting till the baby's born to get DNA testing done... Personally I think she's lying and more importantly so does Brian... So dos Cruz (we spent most of the evening at work talking about it....)... Ok so WHY am I so suspicous of this chick? Not jealousy no.... He's still attractive but he's now after this one of my 'boys'..... (some of yall know what that means - B, Nate, Sean, Tommy, Ra Ra, etc...) Anyway why I'm so suspcious of her (other than the math not adding up) she's not an American citizen and would like to be... Her child would be and therefore make it easier for her to be as well, especially if Brian married her (dont think they've discussed that)... She's also hit on other guys IN HIS PRESENCE!!!!!! WTF!?!?!? And shes not even very attractive, drunkness doesn't improve that...
Anyway the old cliche crisis reveals character REALLY applys here... Brian's 25, still in school, works at Dillards but also has a monthly income from stocks and things like that through his dad (who is reasonably well off ie upper middle class... - another reason I'm suspcious of her...). But in the face of all this.... He's standing by her... He's all for the baby now that he knows there's going to be one... Its just awe inspiring... There really are some good guys left in the world... (I knew b4 but he helped reinforce that.
He's also told me how possisive she is... She wants to know his EVERY move and gets jealous EXTREMELY easily... wowza.... I couldn't deal with anyone that wanted to do that to me... I even get tired of my own mother doing it....
So yeah when I first heard I was pissed.... I offered to go kick her ass... Preggers or not... Girl or whatever... I was about to throw down and go after her guns blazing... Then I wanted to cry cuz I felt so bad for Brian... I was so upset at one point I went on break and left a difficult customer who was going to purchase a whole new wardrobe (10 pairs of jeans and like 8 shirts) to Cruz.... I called Melly and told her about it...
I even told her how Cruz thought she (the girl whose pregnant not Melly) may have messed with the condom... If she did I think she's lower than a snake... Thats just not right.... condoms are 97 % effective (thanks for the info Melly!) but to mess with that to trap a man?!?! Esp. one thats a dollface like Brian, is just plain WRONG.... Besides she would have been gambling to the extreme doing that... Whose to say if Brian had gone the other way (I'm just entertaining the thought - not saying he would) and left her in the dirt to deal with the pregnancy on her own... She just got so damn lucky I like and respect HIM enough NOT to go after her.... I'd beat the living crap out of her and then get the truth... I could do it too... But I wont because thats not how Brian wants it handled and I'm going by whatever it is he wants... Besides I haven't kicked anyone's ass in a while I may be a bit rusty.... hehehe.... (Lav - you wanna come help me? :0) )
Anyway enough with the ranting and raving I'm tired and I wanna go to bed... laters....
Ok I feel a lil better... Not much but a lil bit... So as a straight person of the feminine variety, women do suck.... In this case more than most...
Ok let me back up the boat a bit here....
Brian's gotten caught in the oldest trap known to womankind... The woman he's been dating for like the last 2 monthes (like a month and half really) has told him she's pregnant.... Tests confirmed it... Almost 3 monthes along.... (is 2 and 2 NOT making four for anyone else!?!?!!?)
Brian is convinced he's the father since the chick told him he's the only one she's been with in the last year (I'm suspicious)... So he's waiting till the baby's born to get DNA testing done... Personally I think she's lying and more importantly so does Brian... So dos Cruz (we spent most of the evening at work talking about it....)... Ok so WHY am I so suspicous of this chick? Not jealousy no.... He's still attractive but he's now after this one of my 'boys'..... (some of yall know what that means - B, Nate, Sean, Tommy, Ra Ra, etc...) Anyway why I'm so suspcious of her (other than the math not adding up) she's not an American citizen and would like to be... Her child would be and therefore make it easier for her to be as well, especially if Brian married her (dont think they've discussed that)... She's also hit on other guys IN HIS PRESENCE!!!!!! WTF!?!?!? And shes not even very attractive, drunkness doesn't improve that...
Anyway the old cliche crisis reveals character REALLY applys here... Brian's 25, still in school, works at Dillards but also has a monthly income from stocks and things like that through his dad (who is reasonably well off ie upper middle class... - another reason I'm suspcious of her...). But in the face of all this.... He's standing by her... He's all for the baby now that he knows there's going to be one... Its just awe inspiring... There really are some good guys left in the world... (I knew b4 but he helped reinforce that.
He's also told me how possisive she is... She wants to know his EVERY move and gets jealous EXTREMELY easily... wowza.... I couldn't deal with anyone that wanted to do that to me... I even get tired of my own mother doing it....
So yeah when I first heard I was pissed.... I offered to go kick her ass... Preggers or not... Girl or whatever... I was about to throw down and go after her guns blazing... Then I wanted to cry cuz I felt so bad for Brian... I was so upset at one point I went on break and left a difficult customer who was going to purchase a whole new wardrobe (10 pairs of jeans and like 8 shirts) to Cruz.... I called Melly and told her about it...
I even told her how Cruz thought she (the girl whose pregnant not Melly) may have messed with the condom... If she did I think she's lower than a snake... Thats just not right.... condoms are 97 % effective (thanks for the info Melly!) but to mess with that to trap a man?!?! Esp. one thats a dollface like Brian, is just plain WRONG.... Besides she would have been gambling to the extreme doing that... Whose to say if Brian had gone the other way (I'm just entertaining the thought - not saying he would) and left her in the dirt to deal with the pregnancy on her own... She just got so damn lucky I like and respect HIM enough NOT to go after her.... I'd beat the living crap out of her and then get the truth... I could do it too... But I wont because thats not how Brian wants it handled and I'm going by whatever it is he wants... Besides I haven't kicked anyone's ass in a while I may be a bit rusty.... hehehe.... (Lav - you wanna come help me? :0) )
Anyway enough with the ranting and raving I'm tired and I wanna go to bed... laters....
Thursday, December 02, 2004
ok so there were a few things I forgot.....
My sibling ish relationship with Brian continues.... The kind where you ask to borrow money and DONT flirt to get your way... Shocking I know...
My crush on Rodney... Still kinda goin on... though I think I'm beginning to come down from the 'New Guy" high... I still doubt anything will occur there but ya never know....
I still need to call the chick in charge of the singles stuff at Chapelwood to discuss what I can do with that....
my damn cell doesnt work and I dont know why so I need to call Cingular 2morrow too...
plus I'm getting my haircut and eyebrows down tommorrow and mailing in my application to the Parish School... Finally.... I know... Then I need to get the car checked and get $$$$ to go to San Marcos Monday since I'm working all weekend.... Missing Honeybrowne and Cooder Graw... ahh well I'll live....
Tommorrow night we're doin the family birthday celebration for me... Steak dinner (may or may not be Outback) and a movie (maybe).....
oh yea I need to call Nat too and see if she wants to come with... Tried to earlier, thats when I found out my phone doesnt work... dammit....
as for today? I've done jack... Went to bed early (seems to be becoming a habit in the last week) and woke up at almost noon... jacked around... read, showered.... Went to Krogers.... Came home, watched Sense and Sensibility and now here I be...... :0)
Gawd can Monday NOT get here any slower?!?!?!?
I still don't have any bday cards but that should change in the next day or 2.... Just in time for the trip Monday.... hehehehehe..... :0)
umm thats about it for now... laters....
My sibling ish relationship with Brian continues.... The kind where you ask to borrow money and DONT flirt to get your way... Shocking I know...
My crush on Rodney... Still kinda goin on... though I think I'm beginning to come down from the 'New Guy" high... I still doubt anything will occur there but ya never know....
I still need to call the chick in charge of the singles stuff at Chapelwood to discuss what I can do with that....
my damn cell doesnt work and I dont know why so I need to call Cingular 2morrow too...
plus I'm getting my haircut and eyebrows down tommorrow and mailing in my application to the Parish School... Finally.... I know... Then I need to get the car checked and get $$$$ to go to San Marcos Monday since I'm working all weekend.... Missing Honeybrowne and Cooder Graw... ahh well I'll live....
Tommorrow night we're doin the family birthday celebration for me... Steak dinner (may or may not be Outback) and a movie (maybe).....
oh yea I need to call Nat too and see if she wants to come with... Tried to earlier, thats when I found out my phone doesnt work... dammit....
as for today? I've done jack... Went to bed early (seems to be becoming a habit in the last week) and woke up at almost noon... jacked around... read, showered.... Went to Krogers.... Came home, watched Sense and Sensibility and now here I be...... :0)
Gawd can Monday NOT get here any slower?!?!?!?
I still don't have any bday cards but that should change in the next day or 2.... Just in time for the trip Monday.... hehehehehe..... :0)
umm thats about it for now... laters....
Wednesday, December 01, 2004
wow a week since I've written here.... fock.... Lets see not much has gone on.... I've been working almost every day except for last Thursday, since it was Thanksgiving.... I'm off tommorrow and the next day so I can get some stuff done... I officially got Monday and Tuesday off so I'm definately goin to San Marcos... Only bad thing is I have to work 8 straight days after that... *groan* Mom and I agreed we'd do my birthday celebration Friday night... I think we're goin to Outback and maybe a movie or something... pretty low key..... umm.... I died my hair red again... whoopee.... hehehhe.... oh yeah, thanksgiving.... Linz, Lauren and I made it all.... Turned out ok... Baby came over and ate with us... then Lauren and I went over to the Tilleys.... Then we all met Linz at the movies..... saw National Treasure, not too bad but kinda cheezy..... um.... thats really about it for now....
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