Not Your Average Jane

Why me? Why today of all days? I always say I'm not gonna get involved in any more boy drama... But they always drag me into it kicking and screaming.... Why? Am I irresitable or something? I don't think so, but hey I could have a fucked up version of myself based on years or low self esteem... Now I don't of course, it was just most of high school, pretty much once I hit puberty till I was about 19 or 20.... Every now and then I get down on myself but its not the constant every day haranguing I used to subject myself to... Wait, my self esteem isn't the issue today... Its BOYS!!! Stoopid, idiotic, tall, dumb... Is that redundant? lol... But no, one particular boy is being immensely stoopid... Since I saw him Saturday, we've talked almost every day... Couple of times a day once or twice... So he calls me on the way to a gig (thats right, he's a musician... I know, I know MUSICIANS BAD.... ) and we're talking most of the afternoon... An afternoon I really should be doing nothing more than studying... But I'm not... Or is that not evident? lol... Anyway so we're talking, keeping him occupied while he drives and just pretty much shooting the shit, the way we used to when I was dating B2... Which is how I met him, in fact... They played together a couple of times... And they're friends... So anyway we're talking and stuff and off the cuff I'm like if you don't mention Randall's crush on me I swear I'll stay on the phone... And then he comes back with what about if I wanna talk about my crush on you? WHA WHA WHAT!?!?! What do you say to that? He's told me he's still dating psychobitch (my name for her not his) and then he drops this bomb on me??!?!! I'm not gonna be one of those girls, not for this guy not for anyone... You know the kind I mean... The ones who break up couples, married or not... What are they called? Homewreckers? Yeah I think thats the technical name for it... So anywho I just laughed it off and he didn't mention it again (thank God)...
I knew I never should have picked up the phone on Monday when he called.... (the house not my cell - since that was still out of commision till yesterday.) I saw the number on caller ID and I recognized it and I still picked up.... Gawd I must be some sort of sadist... So all this drama has completed distracted me from studying and getting stuff I need to do, done.... Dammit... Que Dios mia? I'm clueless....
On the other hand I was having some yummy Trailer dreams this morning.... I didn't wanna get out of bed, they were that good.....
ok something completely unboy related.... I'm goin to dye my hair in the next week or so... I bought the normal thing of blond at Walgreens a few days ago and last night at Kroger's I found the shade of red.... Now I just have to decide which color to use.... hehehe.... After that I have to decide who to vote for.... November 4 th i think is the elections.... Its like choosing the lesser of 2 evils to my way of thinking... I really am tempted to write in Willie Nelson... I trust him more than George.... I dont know enough about Kerry to trust or distrust him... I just think he looks shady... Sure he's a politician and they all look shady.... lol.... Anyway I have to go to the bank and back to studying and then get ready for my date 2night.... Mom and I are doing dinner and movie... We haven't hung out in a long ass time, so it oughta be fun.... I still need to scan my pics from Fall Fandango and put em up on my photobucket... Wonder if I could talk to John or Matt in the photo dept at Walgreens and just get a disk with em on there.... hmm.... Good excuse to swing by Walgreens... hehehe... I'm so bad... anyway I'm off... laters...

posted by Ali @ 2:53 PM