Not Your Average Jane

Today I'm saying screw the horoscope... It said to be mysterious and I'm no good at that or those dating head games.... My favorite sort of games are the board variety (and some video ones too...).
I started thinking about doing this particular post yesterday but I decided not to and just do it today instead cuz its not like I can forget what a contradiction I am. :0)
So heres the deal... I realized something this weekend... I give off a completely different vibe to people who don't know me than to people who do... Does that make any sense?
With my friends I'm wacky, off the wall, random, all over the place and just a generally laid back fun sort of girl.... But when I'm just meeting someone, until I'm around them for a while I seem like a cold fish... In other words a quiet bitch.... Ok maybe not bitch... But I've been told I seem very quiet and reserved and that people were afraid to approach me...
I'm a people person, always have been, always will be.... I enjoy talking to people but meeting people in crowds I seem to snub new people and I don't mean to at all... Thats just rude. And I abhor rudeness in others and myself.... So I've made a promise to Nate and myself.... I'm going to go out of my comfort zone and try not to be so stiff in social situations...
In other news I told La I was goin to a job fair 2morrow at Reliant and she thought I said dog show... Um, k, la, where did you get dog show out of job fair? LOL. Silly sister.... I forgot something last night... I ran into Linz and Mike at Krogers... Not important but I don't like to leave stuff out if I can help it.....
In yet other news, now half my friends know who the previous post was about and are now pressuring me to make a move... I can take pressure, but like Kristen said, I'm chicken shit... I'm afraid to make the first move.. Every time I have in the past (all 3 or 4 times) I've been rejected, rebuffed and in one case reprimanded.... Yeah, don't ask about that one... So I'm going to try to work up my nerve to do something... I don't know what yet, but we'll see....
So yeah thats about it for now... I'm off to get ready and be productive today... Laters....

posted by Ali @ 11:26 AM