Not Your Average Jane

"Sorry, I have a headache, not tonight, dear..."  I'm thinking that might be my excuse if I don't go to Cory...  IF I don't go...  I'm still not sure...  I do have a massive migraine brought on by all the stress I've been through today....   I've cried at least twice... Not full on sobbing but crying nonetheless...  Sean couldn't calm me down, but the more people I talked to, the better I got....  So while I still have a bad headache at least I feel more positive about everything thats going on...  Let me recap my day here.....  Talked to CJ and Gage till the wee hours of the morning and went to bed....  Woke up, mom wasn't home so I puttered around and finally finished my laundry....  Then I showered and had lunch and mom was back...  She asked to see my grades so I brought down the envelope from the Registrar, asssuming it was my grades...  It wasn't...  It was a letter from Dr Taddie, the dean of academic affairs, saying I'd been academically suspended...  Called school, found out it was a boo boo, but that I had not passed one class...   Behavior management with Dr Betty.  Which keeps me from fulfilling my gradaution requirements, meaning I haven't graduated yet....  So then Mom yells at me... Like she went off on the lecture of my life....  About my life.  Calls me lazy, unmotivated, and pretty much fat...  (though who doesn't need to lose a few pounds?)  Thats what made me cry...  She yelled about me not having a job, also made me cry...  So I spend most of the afternoon on the internet trying to figure out where I can take that one damn class...  She comes back and yells some more...   I tear up but I didn't cry that time...  Linz comes over, I run an errand and come back and get lectured some more, but at least its not yelling....  Linz and I go upstairs and we're talking and stuff and she reassures me mom'll get over it and quit being so harsh...  She leaves and I call Nate...  He calms me down no matter what...  Talked to Brody next, he offered to come over after work and talk some more...  I'm sorta talked out now so I told him no...  But we'll all 3 get 2gether b4 Sean leaves Monday.  Mom goes to see that 911 movie and I run some other errands (not to self - whole blasting Blue October is good for anger, its NOT good for a headache...), and talk to Melly and Natalie...  Nat made a good suggestion, take the class by correspondence instead of going back for one measly class or trying to transfer a class up there....  So I'm gonna get on the ball Monday and call the school and ask about that and any other options I may have...  Meanwhile I've also tentatively made plans to go to Heather's wedding in all the hoopla...  And now here I sit, talking to Gage again and debating about whether or not I really feel like going out...   So I'll eat dinner and figure it out...  GW is being a P O S so I'm outtie...  Laters!