Not Your Average Jane

I've had an interesting day to say the least... I took Lindsay to the body shop (by MHS over half an hour away from the townhouse and her apartment on I-10 no less... We got off at Wirt and took Westview, brilliant idea there... All 5 schools on that street had just let out so there was traffic there too.... Lucky us, huh?). She had to get her side mirror checked as well as some other stuff... Turns out they can't do any of that without the new mirror which doesn't come in till 2morrow... They told us to bring it back 2morrow between 2 and 3. I asked her (after stomping my foot childishly, of course....) if she could get anyone else could take her, turns out her current boyfriend is working as may her roommate, who just got back from London (England).... So I may be delaying my trip to New Braunfels till Thursday. Depends on her roomie's working situation. So after we were done there we went to the mall and went to Abercrombie & Fitch and Skankever 21... Oops I meant to say Forever 21... :p So at A & F we run into Linz's old manager Kyle, he confused me with Lauren, the best sort of confusion I think, she's really pretty, tall, blond, skinny... Book smart, but not very smart about everyday stuff.... Though she does know a lot about MTV shows and SNL.... :0) But yeah, Kyle, hottie.... *fanning self* Nice body, dirty blond with light blond streaks (probably fake), and did I mention nice body? Lindsay told me he had gotten her current man's old job as district manager and that they used (her boyfriend and Kyle) used to be friends as well as roomies, when Mike (Lindsay's boyfriend) quit A & F told Kyle to quit speaking to people who 'didn't work at A & F any longer'... That was just wrong of them, but the asswipe actually did quit speaking to Mike, how putrid is that? But anyway, we met Mom at Starbucks in the mall and as it turns out I went to high school with one of the girls that worked there... Been awhile since I've run inot anyone from high school... Probably last time I went to see John Price play at some club or another, it was a virtual high school reunion.... So after that I went over to Marshall's and Loehmann's and Ross's looking for a new gray sweatshirt jacket and black aerobic pants... Found the pants, but not the jacket... I'll go to Old Navy and see what they have 2morrow if I don't go to NB.... Also need to get my eyes checked b4 I leave town as well as go to Needless Markup (also known as Neiman Marcus) cuz I need a new 2004 planner refill for my Kate Spade planner... So many things to do, so little time....
Last night mom told me that my best friend's entire family is pretty bad off at the moment... My best friend is having surgery on Friday, her father's recuperating from cancer and cancer treatments, and her older sister just had a miscarriage after trying for years to get pregnant and being pregnant for a month... There was a heart beat at her doctor's appointment last time but she went in the other day and no heart beat to be found... They had to do a DNC, pretty much a removal of the fetus, or an abortion... But the fetus is already dead and it can be unhealthy for the mother to wait for it to abort naturally, as on occasion it won't... (God I learned alot in my Early Childhood class last semester.... :0) ) Only her mom and younger sister are completely healthy (knock on wood)... Poor girl...
Tonight I've been reading about suicide among teens and some other that just made me think... If I died tommorrow who would remember me? Would I have regrets about things I hadn't done or said? The answer to the latter is yes... Though I can't say I know many people who could answer no to that question.... Mainly I regret things I haven't said to people I care about, and I wonder would they know how much I care about them, friends, family, or just guys I'm attracted to even? Things I haven't done... Oh, boy, they aren't too numerous to name I just can't think of a good example of one... I'm not contemplating death, its just the unlived life, you know? What do you want to do that you haven't done? Or said in a particular situation that would have sidelined a fight or posssibly begun a romance.... Makes me wanna do it all, see it all, feel it all...... I want to take life and squeeze every last bit of joy, love, hate, envy, sadness.... Everything there is... Just squeeeze it till there's nothing left.... Perfect song for the moment came on, Walt Wilkins "Night Rain City" on GWE Radio... Main line is "It was one of those moments.... You can keep for the rest of your life..." How appropriate for my frame of mind... :0) NEway thats it for this evening.... Laters...

posted by Ali @ 9:29 PM