Not Your Average Jane

Well there are at least 4 things I can think of I wanted to talk about losing touch with friends, Custer's last stand, Cross Canadian Ragweed, and immature attitudes towards attractive members of the opposite sex. First of all losing touch with friends... I have come to realize recently that I've lost touch for whatever reason with a lot of really good friends. A couple from high school, and some from my first year of college and relationships that developed while I was working and other friendships that I've had at U of O.... For instance, I'll hear from a friend of a friend of the sibling of a friend or one of my siblings about whats new with an old friend... And that sorta sucks. I know long distance relationships of any sort are hard to keep up, but I think this is verging on ridiculous.... But that could be just me... This has also got me thinking more about high school, and I don't know why when that part of my life is over and I've moved on and let go of whatever happened there.... I guess its just I've been watching too many talk shows that talk about reuniting people with their high school crushes and I think for just a minute or so What if I called about one of my old crushes? What could happen? (or not happen as the case may be.) But then reality slams back into me and I realize how stupid that sounds and how much I'd have to be clinging to the past in order to do that, and my life is so much different now, better (so much so) than it was in high school, so why can I not quit thinking about it here lately? Maybe my sister's graduation from TCU sort of triggered it... And the fact that 7 years after I graduated high school I'm finally graduating college... Sure I took a year off and only like a semester's worth of hours trasferred up here from LMC, but still that fact that all said and done its taken me 6 years to get through school combined with the fact my degree is going to say general studies makes me feel ashamed of myself... Like I've screwed up my college career.... When I know a lot of it was remedial classes and some of it was repeating a couple of classes, that makes me think I'm graduating dammit and that makes me proud of myself... You know? I mean only about half of my graduating class that started college wound up at HCC and about a quarter of those didn't finish at all.... That makes me feel better... Ok onward and upward and off my soap box.... Next thing on ye old agenda, Cross Canadian Ragweed... I saw a CCR decal on the back of a white blazer.... Not so unusual I know, but on the back of a white blazer with Arkansas plates in the middle of northwest Arkansas of all places... That made my afternoon... :0) Next, Custer's last stand...Was anyone else uunaware that he was considered a hero? I grew up thinking he was the bad guy, but I saw this thing on the Discovery channel this morning that was debating on whether or not he was a hero or whether he was outgunned, outmanned and outmanuevered.... The people doing the program decided on the latter and I was hooked on it for an hour....Luckily I had nothing else planned... Lastly, immature attitudes.... I ran into a guy I dig at Walmart tonight and I couldn't think of a thing to say to him, I was completely tongue-tied it was so horrid! I got the freakin' head nod, you know the one 'hey I see you, whats up?' head nod.... Worse still I was on the phone with someone and he was wondering what was going on... Yeah, that was hard to explain... Anyway thats it for now.... Laters.

posted by Ali @ 12:41 AM