Not Your Average Jane

A friend of mine told me I'm the sort of person who, when I find something I really like, whether it's a guy or a musical group or a movie or whatever, I pour an awful lot of energy into it. He then went on to say that it's not necessarily bad, but I tend to get bored with something or someone real fast because my attraction to it is so intense... I've thought about that alot and things I've done in that and its true.... I'm not obsessive but when I'm into something or someone, I go overboard and I can't figure out how to stop or slow down.... Kind of like going on a roller coaster, then bungee jumping, and sky diving one right after the other, so you get the adrenaline high of one, don't have time to recover and then get more and more adrenaline till it feels like your going to explode.... You know? Its not a necessarily bad its just not a good way to conduct relationships... :0) Like I get a new CD or movie and I can't take it out of the VCR or CD player, whatever the case may be, till I get sick of it and then I rarely listen to or watch it later. That doesn't work with men... They won't sit around till you(me) make up your(my) mind and wait for you (me) to make up your(my) mind when you(I) want them... Its not fair and its not nice, to run hot and cold like that.... But I'll figure it out eventually, I always do... In other news, I went to the playground down the street today for an assignment I had to do and stayed there for a bit longer just spending time with myself, which I haven't done in a while.... No music, no TV, no distractions of any sort.... It was nice, I got some things taken care of.... Found my center, and cleaned the slate, so to speak.... I even had a moment!!! I found out some stuff about myself, I hadn't realized... Things about my expectations, the obsession thing, and my goals.... I left the park at about 3, smiling and feeling so much more refreshed.... Anyway, thats about it for today... Laters....

posted by Ali @ 3:23 PM